moon illusion

A new day starts with Yun Jaeye getting up early.

Although there was no class this morning, Yun Jae-ye woke up around seven o'clock.There is no other reason, the damn jet lag forced him to get up early, only in this way can he complete today's psychological consultation with Dr. Lin who is far away in China.

After washing up and eating breakfast, Yun Zaye turned on the computer and sat at the desk, preparing for today's consultation.

When Lin Xian turned on the camera, he asked: "You seem to be in a good mood today, is there anything happy?"

Yun Zaiye smiled, "Fortunately, I did something very enjoyable yesterday."

Seeing this, Lin Xian relaxed a lot, "That's good, let's start today's consultation..."

An hour later, Yun Zaiye ended his third consultation.

He rubbed his browbones, opened his notebook, and wrote something...

Closing his notebook, Yun Zaye prepared to go to a gym next to the campus.However, the ringtone of the mobile phone stopped him from going out in time——

"Mom? What's wrong?"

"Ah Xiaoye, it's okay, mom just misses you!" Mrs. Yun's voice sounded a little unsteady.

Yun Zaiye frowned, trying to express a relaxed tone, "Mom, you're fine but you rarely think of me?"

There was a long silence on the other end of the phone.

"Mom? What happened?" Yun Zaiye was a little flustered and asked again.

"Xiao Ye, your father...he kept saying that he was always dizzy a few days ago, until he was free yesterday, so I advised him to go to the hospital..." Mrs. Yun's voice sounded crying, as if she was trying hard. Restraining the emotions that were about to collapse, "It turns out that your father has some atherosclerosis, although it won't be immediate... But it's very dangerous, what should I do, Xiaoye..."

Yun Zaiye suddenly panicked, without a word of comfort in his mind.It took a long time before he opened his mouth slowly, "Mom, don't worry, it may be that Dad has been working hard for the company all these years and didn't pay attention to his health... Wait for me to talk to Dad, it should be possible..."

"No, no, Xiao Ye, don't ask!" Mrs. Yun's voice suddenly became urgent, "Your father won't let me tell you...for fear that it will affect your studies..."

Yun Zaiye opened his mouth, but he couldn't say anything.After saying a few words of useless comfort, he hung up the phone.

Sure enough, even if you don't fight or grab in your life, you can't expect to live a peaceful life.No one's life can be smooth sailing, even a person like myself who is regarded by countless people as "the proud son of heaven" cannot escape what is destined on the line of fate.

After sitting by the bed for nearly an hour, Yun Zaiye got up and prepared to go out to get some air.

In that one hour, Yun Zaiye made a decision that might change the trajectory of his life—when the two-year exchange time was up, he returned to China and no longer considered Princeton's master's degree.

Sitting on the bench under the east tower of the campus, Yun Zaiye began to recall his life in the past 20 years—he seemed to have been studying and working hard for his grades, but he seemed to ignore his parents, friends, classmates...these people In his life, they have always existed, but he seems to have ignored them unconsciously, caring very little for them... I am like an outsider, standing at the gate of their world, watching everything inside the gate with cold eyes .

It was also a new day, Qi Fengyao was not very happy.Because he still has to go to school today, he has to use a hypocritical face to face those people he doesn't care about, and he has to meet those classmates who he thinks are extremely naive. Avoid thinking of Yun Zaiye.

When I am sitting in the classroom, walking on the path, standing in the library... I will always think of Yun Zaiye.

He used to sit in the classroom, taking notes while listening to lectures, and occasionally asked some difficult questions for the teacher; Spring grows to Lingxue and winter; he once stood in front of the rows of bookshelves in the library, stroking the pages with his slender fingers, and met himself there...

After washing hastily, Qi Fengyao drove to school by bicycle.I came back too late last night, and got up half an hour late this morning, and I haven't had time to have breakfast.

Sitting in the classroom, Qi Fengyao stared at the PPT expressionlessly, taking notes while listening to the lecture.Suddenly, the phone in the desk box vibrated.Qi Fengyao frowned, stopped writing, and groped into the desk—it was a promise.

"Feng Yao, are you at school?"

"in class."

"Then I'll find you after class, okay?"

"Okay, I'll have no class later."

After putting down the phone, Qi Fengyao suddenly felt a short and sharp pain in his stomach.Probably because he didn't have breakfast, Qi Fengyao thought so, and continued to extract notes.

About 5 minutes before the end of get out of class, Qi Fengyao saw the promise standing outside the classroom.

The moment their eyes met, Xu Nuo smiled at him and waved.

Obviously, everyone knows Xu Nuo as a helper in her class.Seeing the interaction between Xu Nuo and Qi Fengyao, there were some whispers in the classroom, Qi Fengyao didn't pay attention to what they said, just nodded, and continued to turn his eyes back to the blackboard.

When the get out of class bell rang, everyone ran out of the classroom chattering, saying hello to the senior sister, and looking back at Qi Fengyao who was about to walk out of the classroom.

Qi Fengyao walked out of the classroom, Xu Nuo walked towards him, and naturally clasped Qi Fengyao's arms with both hands.

"Where do you want to go?" Qi Fengyao spoke first.

"I don't know, I just want to meet you." Xu Nuo lowered his head and smiled, "Why don't you go to the playground for a walk."

Qi Fengyao didn't say a word, he acquiesced in this decision.

The two walked on the playground, going round and round, without speaking.

Finally, Xu Nuo broke the awkward silence.

"Fengyao, do you know that you are my first love." Xu Nuo paused, and tucked a few locks of hair behind his ears, "Before I met you, I had never been in a relationship. It's not that no one chased me, but I don't like them. Before you appeared, I had been thinking about what my future boyfriend would look like. From height and appearance to family outlook, I had envisioned many possibilities. But when you appeared, all of my The request disappeared in an instant, and my only thought at that moment was, as long as that person is you."

Qi Fengyao has been walking side by side on Xu Nuo's left, quietly, without speaking.

"I know, you don't like me, and you may even ask me to play with you in order to get revenge on someone who abandoned you. But even so, I still cherish the opportunity to be with you. I think in this short life, To have the experience of being in love with you once, even though you may never love me."

The two of them were still walking, and they didn't know how many laps they had walked around the playground.Just when Xu Nuo thought that Qi Fengyao would not speak again, Qi Fengyao suddenly stretched out his right hand to hold himself.

"Promise, thank you for liking me, but you also understand that I'm just playing, I advise you not to lose yourself." Don't lose everything you already have for an uncertain future like me.

Xu Nuo smiled, and the two walked towards the stands beside the playground.

Probably because they talked about it, the relationship between the two became closer, as if they both knew each other's cards, so they could act recklessly.

On this day, they have been together like a pair of real lovers, walking together, eating together, watching the sunset together, shopping in the supermarket together... Probably the happy time is always short, and the sky darkens before they know it.

Qi Fengyao held Xu Nuo's hand and prepared to send her back to school.

But when passing by a bar, Xu Nuo suddenly stopped.

"I want to go in and sit down." Xu Nuo looked at Qi Fengyao and pointed to the bar by the road.

"But you..."

"Please, stay with me for a while."

After all, he still couldn't bear to see Xu Nuo's pleading eyes, so Qi Fengyao turned around and led Xu Nuo into the room.

"Fengyao, don't you want a drink?" Xu Nuo held a glass of Mojito and looked at Qi Fengyao beside him.

"I do not drink."

"Oh, just taste a little!" Xu Nuo began to act like a baby, Xiao Li shook Qi Fengyao's arm, "I'm really bored by myself, why don't you accompany me~"

……

In the end, Qi Fengyao couldn't match the promised coquettishness and pleading, and Qi Fengyao took the first glass of wine in his life.

Qi Fengyao, who had never drunk alcohol and did not often come to the bar as a guest, did not know how high the alcohol content and stamina of the glass of "God's Water" in his hand was.He looked at the blue wine in his hand that was illuminated by the light, raised his head and drank it down.

The taste was a bit harsh, but it didn't seem too difficult to accept, and he took the second glass of wine promised by Xu without realizing it, and soon he drank another glass of strong wine.Loud music and dim lights made Qi Fengyao's consciousness not so clear, and he took intermittently and didn't know how many glasses of wine he promised to hand over, and finally lost consciousness completely at around one o'clock in the morning.

Xu Nuo seemed to have expected this result a long time ago, and skillfully lifted Qi Fengyao out of the bar, then sent him to a taxi, then got into the co-pilot himself, and reported to the driver the address secretly photographed from the freshman report book.

A few minutes later, Xu Nuo helped the drunk Qi Fengyao to stand in the corridor, holding Qi Fengyao in one hand, and fumbling for the key to open the door with the other.

After finally sending Qi Fengyao home, Xu Nuo was already sweating profusely.Mi Xiu looked at the uninvited guest at home and called out in a low voice, trying to wake up the owner who was sitting on the carpet.

Xu Nuo went to the kitchen, brought a cup of warm water over, and wanted to make Qi Fengyao look less uncomfortable.

For a teetotaler, suddenly drinking a few glasses of spirits will definitely cause physical rejection and discomfort.At this time, Qi Fengyao, who was leaning against the coffee table, was flushed, short of breath, and his hair was already soaked in sweat, sticking to his forehead in a mess.