moon illusion

"Xiao Ye, what are your plans for today?" Mrs. Yun was sitting at the dining table eating breakfast, looking up at her son who had just come downstairs.

"I'm planning to go to the library, what's the matter, Mom?"

"Ah, that's it. Mom wants you to go shopping with me. Your father said that there are several meetings today, and he came back late at night. He can't accompany me today!"

"Then can we go in the afternoon? I'll go to the library after breakfast, and I'll be back after borrowing a few books. It won't be too late." Yun Zaye buttoned the last button of his shirt and walked towards the dining table.

"Okay, okay!" Mrs. Yun put down the milk in her hand, "Then I'll make a facial mask after dinner, and then choose clothes..."

Yun Zaiye looked at his mother, smiled and shook his head, "Isn't it just shopping? Why are you so motivating people?"

After breakfast, Yun Zaiye washed all the tableware and took it back to the kitchen, went upstairs and took his backpack, "Mom, I'm going out! What do you want for lunch, can I bring it?"

"No, I'll cook later, as long as you come back on time at noon."

Although it is still a holiday, the library of Nanchuan University is always open.Yun Zaiye took out his student card and walked towards the access control system.The access control system of the library is not activated during normal school hours, and everyone can come in, but during holidays, students of the school need to authenticate their student cards to enter.

There was a boy standing at the door, who seemed to be explaining something to the security guard. His back was familiar, and he probably met him somewhere.Yun Zaiye stepped forward and asked, "Uncle Li, what's wrong?"

This voice... Qi Fengyao turned around and saw Yun Zaiye standing behind him, it was him!

Obviously, Yun Zaiye also recognized him.

"This young man said he forgot to bring his student card, but the access control here..."

"It's okay, Uncle Li, I know him." Yun Zaiye smiled, took out his student card and swiped the door, "Swipe my card to get in, it won't happen next time."

Yun Zaiye is a frequent visitor to the library, and several security guards know him, so Uncle Li waved his hand, "OK, OK, let's go in. Remember to bring the young man next time you come..."

Walk into the library and sit in the leisure area on the first floor.

"Coincidentally, we met again. You also came to look for information?" Yun Zaiye took a glass of juice and put it in front of Qi Fengyao.

"Thank you." Qi Fengyao took out the water glass, "It's not looking for information, I'm bored at home during the holidays, so I just read a book."

"That's it, he's really a good student..." Yun Zaiye smiled, "It looks like he's a freshman, right? Which major are you studying?"

Qi Fengyao looked at Yun Zainye who was sitting opposite him, "I lied to you before, I'm sorry. I'm a prospective freshman student, and I haven't received the exact admission news yet."

"No wonder you didn't bring your student card, what major did you fill in?"

"Chinese Language and Literature."

"Chinese language? There are quite a few boys studying liberal arts... High school is also liberal arts?"

"Science in high school, I like liberal arts, so I filled in the Chinese language."

Yun Zaye nodded, "That's fine, let's do this first. You can go shopping first, I'm going to the fourth floor to find some information."

"Okay." Qi Fengyao also stood up.

"Oh, by the way, if you have books you want to borrow, you can come to me on the fourth floor. You need a student card to borrow books here."

"Okay, thank you...senior."

Yun Zaye nodded slightly, and walked towards the elevator.

Qi Fengyao stood beside the table, looking at that figure in a daze.

Yun Zaiye, I don't understand why there is such a feeling in the world, because the first glimpse of a little bit of love, bet a lifetime of fetters.I look down on it, but I can't hide it.

You probably don't know, I really want to have a future with you, I really want to give you all the good things, I really want to love you unscrupulously, I really want to be with you every day, I really want to be able to be with you when you are unhappy Accompany you, I really want you to remember your promise, I really want you to trust me like I trust you, I really want to see your text messages when I turn on my phone, I really want to travel with you together, I really want to get the blessings of everyone , I really want to accompany you through this life.

The number of the elevator slowly returned from the fourth floor to the first floor, Qi Feng walked in, the number changed again, and then stopped at the fourth floor.

Going out, the left side of the fourth floor is an area similar to electronic inquiry, and the right side is a self-study area with neat rows of desks.

Yun Zaiye was sitting in front of a computer, typing something on the keyboard with his fingers, and then quickly lowered his head to copy it in the notebook.

Qi Fengyao pulled out a chair and sat in front of the desk. Lu Luo in front of him made a perfect cover for him, and Yun Zaiye on the opposite side obviously didn't notice the person coming from this side.

Qi Fengyao sat there, watching the busy Yun Zaiye, his thoughts drifted back to high school...

It was the first semester of the third year of high school. One night after self-study, he didn't come home on time, because he and a group of ordinary class boys ran to the Beiduhe River, smoking, talking and laughing together.After returning home, it was my mother's questioning and my father's scolding.But he didn't regret it at all, because when he was with those boys, he felt more relaxed and comfortable than ever.He doesn't need to hear what other students say about him, he doesn't need to be afraid of strange eyes from the people around him, and he doesn't need to pretend to be a good student...

After that day, he naively thought that it was his successful resistance, that it was his freedom.But what he didn't expect was that his mother was also at the gate of the school that night, following them all the way to Beiduhe.That night, those boys were scolded by his mother, and then dragged Qi Fengyao back home.Since then, the group of boys never played with him again, even when they met at school, they passed by like strangers.

I used to think that the affection will not diminish at the beginning, but now I realize that it is only a matter of getting together and parting, and many things are destined to be good in the dark.For example, at the beginning, I also twisted a rope in my heart, thinking that reading was also an option, otherwise maybe now I would be like them, with them, drinking and smoking in a cold life, but I didn’t.My mother often said that I reined in the cliff in time, but I haven't dared to ask her if I fell, would I be disabled now...

"Did you find the book you want to borrow?" Yun Zaiye was already standing beside him.

"No, suddenly I don't want to read books, they are not as good as you."

Yun Zaiye was obviously stunned, and then shook his head amusedly, "Nowadays, children are already so good at flirting...It's a pity that I'm not a girl, otherwise maybe we still have a chance."

Qi Fengyao lowered his head and did not answer.

Yun Zaiye pulled the chair opposite him and sat down, "What's the matter? Do you have something on your mind?"

"Senior, I want to ask you a question. Does a person like you who is envied by many people have his own swamp?"

"The swamp...the swamp is not a thing, but it is inevitable that there will be some setbacks and difficulties. Yes, my life is indeed better and smoother than most people, but this does not mean that what I have gained along the way It is flat and flat and is easily available on the side of the road. I have also had sleepless nights, and there have been moments when I collapsed and wanted to give up. But then I would think, life is sorry for my romance, my sincerity, my Gentle and bright, it must not be me who should be sad, life should be ashamed." Yun Zaiye lowered his head and flipped through the paper at hand, "I never think that a person can easily have something, this person is just standing in front of you. It is glamorous and is envied by many people, but only a few people will think about what this person has paid to stand at a height that everyone can see."

"But senior, with your family background, you don't have to work so hard, you can get as much as you want... Is it worth it?"

"Did you know? People will always do amazing things when they are frustrated, write poems that shock everyone, and make decisions that are blocked by thousands of people. So if you are determined to do something, don't ask yourself Is it worthwhile to be with others. What I want to tell you is that only when you are willing can you take it for granted, and you can never turn back when you take it for granted.”

When Qi Fengyao walked out of the library, Yun Zaiye was still sitting in front of the row of computers, he didn't go over to greet him, but just left on his own.

Sure enough, he was a different person from himself.Like the bright and dark sides of the moon, he is always so cold, clean, gentle and bright, but he is like the other side of the moon that is unknown, full of pits and boundless darkness.

Yun Zaiye, I don’t know if you have heard a word: Moonquakes (moonquake).It is said that more than 1000 moonquakes occur on the distant moon every year, and the moon trembles slightly, but people on the earth don't know it.Like when you stand in front of me, my heart is crushing, it's just those Heartquakes you never know.

When Qi Fengyao came home and took out the Liangpi that he had forgotten in the refrigerator last night, Yun Zaiye had just wrapped a piece of black forest at the cake shop and was about to take it back to his mother.

"Mom, I'm back." Qi Fengyao changed his shoes and put the cake on the coffee table. After washing his hands in the bathroom, he carried the cake and walked towards the kitchen.

"Hmm, what is cooking so delicious, Mom?"

"It's delicious, I cooked super nutritious seafood porridge today."

"Okay, thank you mom. Guess what I bought for you?" Yun Zaye took out the cake from behind, "Look, your favorite Black Forest!"

"Oh, it's great. I've been losing weight for the past few days, but I'm craving chocolate..." As he spoke, he opened the cake box, "Mmm, it's delicious, thank you Xiaoye!"

After the lunch break, Mrs. Yun took her son to go shopping.

"Mom, didn't you come shopping? Why do you keep gesticulating on me, and I don't buy clothes..."

"Oh, you're going abroad soon! You don't know the place there, and it's inconvenient to buy clothes. Mom will buy you a few more sets and you can take them there!"

"Oh mom, no need." Yun Zaye hung the clothes in his mother's hands on the hanger, "I'm an old man, don't I know how to buy clothes? It's too heavy to carry here, so I won't take it anymore ..."