moon illusion

After returning home, Qi Fengyao washed the vegetables he bought, added half a pack of hot pot base ingredients to the pot, and cooked a simple small hot pot meal, which was considered a birthday for himself.

After eating, soak the pots and dishes in the sink, and Qi Fengyao took out the cigarettes he just bought from the supermarket.

Light one and go to the balcony.In fact, this is not the first time he has smoked. Although he is a three-good student and five-good youth in front of his parents, teachers, and classmates, he has actually been smoking since the first year of high school.

Counting it has been three years, he has smoked everything from cheap white sand to expensive cigars, but in the end he only smoked one brand of cigarettes - Marlboro.He remembered the first time he smoked a cigarette, it was an evening self-study in the first year of high school, which was an evening self-study to correct mistakes after a monthly exam.When all the students were busy doing papers and correcting wrong questions, only he was doing nothing, because his grades were close to full marks and few mistakes.

In the mouths of the surrounding students, apart from envying him, they were more talking about him.Tired of listening, he walked out of the classroom to the playground.When passing by a small shop, he paused and walked in.

"Uncle, do you have a cigarette?"

"No, no, how can you sell cigarettes?"

At this time, a boy came over, grabbed Qi Fengyao's shoulders naturally, and said to him, "Dude, that's not how you buy cigarettes at school." After speaking, he winked at him and walked to the counter.

"Uncle, here are two white sands." Then he walked towards Qi Fengyao with two cheap cigarettes, and sat side by side with him by the playground, smoking cigarettes and studying for the whole night.

He still doesn't know who that boy is, but they talked a lot that night, and there are many things that Qi Fengyao hasn't told anyone since then.The boy told Qi Fengyao that he was a student in an ordinary class, that is, a poor student in the teacher's mouth. He was fooling around in high school and seeing if he could go to a junior college after graduation; he told Qi Fengyao that his photo would be on the honor list He also told Qi Fengyao that everyone's life is unknown, how he wants to live, what kind of path he has to choose... and later, He never saw that boy in school again, but what he said to himself was as clear as yesterday.

From that day on, when Qi Fengyao was upset, he always went to the canteen to buy a cigarette, and then wandered around the playground for a long time.Until the second year of high school, he disappeared again during a certain evening self-study. Instead of going to the playground, he jumped over the wall and ran out of the school.Outside the wall of Duhe No. [-] Middle School was Beiduhe. He went to a roadside store and bought a pack of cigarettes, then sat by the river and smoked a full half pack.When his feet were covered with cigarette butts, he woke up as if he had just woken up from a dream. He spread his palms, and there was still half a pack of Marlboro left.That day, he learned that he had lost his physics competition to a boy two years older than himself, named Yun Zaiye.

Since then, he has only smoked this brand of cigarettes, like a loyal friend, Marlboro has witnessed all his unsatisfactory and embarrassing moments.

Later, by chance, a girl who had been pursuing him persistently for a semester told him when she gave up on him that she knew there was another person in his heart, and now she was also tired and wanted to give up.

When he learned that he was abandoned by someone, Qi Fengyao himself was secretly relieved for that person. "Why do you say that? How can you be sure that I have someone else in my heart?"

"Because I saw you smoking the same brand of cigarettes as me more than once, I knew we were the same kind of people at that moment." The girl waved her hand after she finished speaking, as if she had completed a formal farewell, and she withdrew from now on Qi Fengyao's life.

After returning home that day, Qi Fengyao entered "Marlboro" in the search engine, only to learn such a story: "MARLBORO" is actually the abbreviation of "Man Always Remember Love Because Of Romance Only", which means "men remember love only because of romance".In addition, Marlboro enthusiasts also made up a story for its meaning-a poor boy fell in love with a rich girl, but because he had no money, he could only cut off contact. On the last date, the boy asked the girl to accompany him to suck. After finishing the last cigarette, the girl agreed. After a long time, the boy always remembered the last cigarette, so he opened a cigarette factory and named it Marlboro.

Later, in the third year of high school, it was the time Qi Fengyao least wanted to recall.But during those tormenting days, no one could see his pain and panic—he never said a word during class, even if the teacher called his name to answer questions, he just stood there and remained silent; Chatting with his classmates, it was a miracle that Meng Yuan could hear him say a few words; after school, he would either be the first one to leave with his schoolbag on his back, or be the last one to leave the classroom...

Teachers and classmates all said that he was lofty, arrogant, and out of gregarious... But no one knew how long he had to give himself psychological training on the way to school before he dared to walk into the classroom from the school gate with his head down; In the eyes of his parents, he worked hard until the early hours of the morning, but just because he didn't want to go to sleep, he found enough excuses to lie in front of the desk; and no one knew that he sat by the bed all night and shed tears for no reason. Tian will continue to go to school normally and optimistically... He dare not stay alone in a crowded place, dare not talk to strangers, dare not let everyone's eyes focus on him in public... for no reason Tears and the endless nightmares when he closed his eyes... All of these constituted that period of memories that he didn't want to mention once.

A few drops of rain hit Qi Fengyao's face, pulling him out of the memory just now.The cigarette that has only been smoked has almost burned to the mouthpiece.Qi Fengyao wringed out the remaining cigarette butts on the guardrail, turned around and walked back to the living room.

It's raining……

After washing the tableware that had just soaked in the sink, Qi Fengyao walked into the study with a can of coffee.He took out his computer and skillfully opened the inquiry interface. The admission information has not been announced yet... No one would have thought that the first major that Qi Fengyao filled out was Chinese language and literature.A science student who won the first prize in the National Physics Competition chose a complete and thorough liberal arts major.

However, it is worth mentioning that Nanchuan University is a century-old school.Because it is a comprehensive university, compared with the different emphases of the two universities in Northern Qing Dynasty, the proportion of arts and sciences in Nanchuan University is comparable.The trump card majors that play their signs are civil engineering and psychology in the science and engineering category, and Chinese language and literature and political science in the literature and history category.

After turning off the computer, Qi Fengyao took out the book "Human Cihua" from the bookshelf, flipped through it and copied it.In Qi Fengyao's heart, Wang Guowei occupies a particularly important position.A generation of famous masters of Chinese studies, one of the four famous tutors of Peking University... Too many titles, too many achievements, even when he chose to bid farewell to this world, it was so unusual, leaving countless guesses for future generations...

When the hour and minute hands coincided at twelve o'clock, Qi Fengyao closed the books and notebooks, stretched his stiff neck, got up and walked to the bedroom.The light in the porch was on, the light in the bathroom was on, and the light on the bedside in the bedroom was also on. In such a brightly lit night, Qi Fengyao finally felt at ease, and fell into a deep sleep with the quilt in his arms.

Probably really too tired, when Qi Fengyao woke up the next day, it was almost noon.I got up, took a shower, put on a clean T-shirt, and prepared to go out for food.After walking two streets, Qi Fengyao walked into a fish meal shop.I ordered a signature fish meal, and after eating and drinking, I packed a cold noodle for dinner or supper.

When returning to the community, I passed a pet shop.Qi Fengyao paused at the door, then changed his pace and walked into the shop.Now that I live alone, in order to prevent psychopathy, it is better to raise a puppy to accompany me.

After picking for nearly an hour, Qi Fengyao returned home with a Labrador puppy in his arms.Not long after the puppy opened its eyes, it huddled on the sofa in a small ball, watching the strange new owner put the newly bought hut on the balcony, and then hurried into the bedroom to search for something.

After a while, Qi Fengyao took out a sheet of his own from the bedroom, folded it in half a few times, and put it into the nest.Then he got up and carried the puppy to the nest, and got up and left without saying a word.A few minutes later, Qi Fengyao came over with a sticker, and then neatly pasted it right above the kennel:

Name: Misha

Birthday: May 7

Qi Fengyao knelt down, patted the puppy's head and said, "Hi Mi Xiu, I'm Qi Fengyao. This is my new home, and it will be your new home from today on. I hope you have a good time here."

The little dog said "uuuuuuuuuuuuu" twice, as if he understood what Qi Fengyao said, and stretched out his little tongue to lick his master's finger.

Qi Fengyao smiled, turned on the TV and sat on the sofa, watching ridiculous and brainless dog blood movies, and took a puff of the cigarette in his hand from time to time, wondering what he was thinking...

"Xiaoye, Xiaoye~" Mrs. Yun called her son as she went downstairs.

Yun Zaiye, who was playing chess with his father in the living room, responded, "What's the matter, Mom? Don't worry, we'll talk when we get down."

"Hey, hey, I just wanted to ask when are you leaving?"

"What's the matter? After a few days, you start to think I'm annoying and you want to drive me away?" Yun Zaiye joked with his mother.

"You annoying child!" Mrs. Yun pointed at Yun Zaiye, "Mom, I don't want to part with you, and I'm going to send you to school!"

Yun Zaiye obviously choked, "Mom, are you really reluctant to part with me, or do you just want to travel?"

"Oh, you child, mother is mainly going to see you off, and go on a trip by the way..."

Yun Zaiye continued to look at his mother suspiciously.

"Oh man, look at your son..." Seeing that something was wrong, Madam Yun immediately took out her tried and tested trump card and acted coquettishly on Mr. Yun.

"Okay, oh, Xiaoye, let your mother see you off, after all, you won't see us for a long time after you leave."

"Yes, I knew you were protecting my mother, so I'll buy a ticket for my mother later, your..."

"I don't need it." Mr. Yun waved his hand, "I went out some time ago, and the company was tired of a lot of things, so I have to go back and deal with it."

"What?! Husband, won't you go with me?" Madam Yun leaned closer, "I won't go then, son, you don't have to buy a ticket for me..."

The chess in Yun Zaiye's hands paused in the air, and finally fell back into the chess box, "Dad, Mom, you go on, I won't bother you." Then he turned around and walked upstairs sadly, his back looked very bleak...