moon illusion

It wasn't until the slightly cool water spouted from the shower, which wet Yun Zaiye's hair and body, that Yun Zaiye completely broke free from the bad picture that had been circling in his mind today.

It's time to wake up.

"Dong dong dong", Qi Fengyao knocked on the bathroom door, and asked, "Are you finished in the field? Shall I bring your clothes in for you?"

"it is good."

Standing in front of the sink, Yun Zaye looked at his blurred face in the mirror, and wiped off the water stains on his body bit by bit with a towel.

"feel better now?"

Qi Fengyao opened the door and walked in, put the nightgown on Yun Zaiye's body, wrapped his hands around Yun Zaiye's waist, and tied the belt of the nightgown.

Yun Zaye nodded, "It's much better, let's go out."

After returning to the living room, Yun Zaiye turned on his phone and took a look. Countless messages and missed calls rushed into Yun Zaiye's sight. The vibration for a long time made Yun Zaiye's fingers feel a little numb.

After replying to several important messages one by one, Yun Zaiye turned on the silent of the phone and threw it on the sofa beside him.In an instant, the living room became quiet again.

Qi Fengyao slowly walked over with a cup of warm honey water, and put it in front of Yun Zaiye, "Drink some water, and tell me what's going on today?"

Yun Zaiye took the cup in his hand and turned it around three times, but he didn't take a sip after all.After a long time, Yun Zaiye raised his head slightly and looked at Qi Fengyao.

"Fengyao, I have failed too much... Jiajia committed suicide..."

Hearing this, Qi Fengyao froze in place, his limbs seemed to be stiff, and his brain couldn't think.

After a while, Qi Fengyao said softly, "...suicide? Why?"

"I don't know." Yun Zaiye shook his head, "When I received the news, Jiajia had already been sent to the funeral home. The situation was so chaotic at that time, I seem to only remember Jiajia's mother saying... about Jiajia's stepfather It seems that Jiajia is going to be sent to an orphanage..."

"Is this... proposed temporarily, or has it already been decided?"

"Feng Yao, that's not the point." Yun Zaiye shook his head and buried his head in his palms, "No matter what the situation was at the time, the result can't be changed."

"I once felt that this is actually a good choice... I have even reached an agreement with my father to adopt Jiajia. From a certain point of view, if this really happens, then for me , It really saves a lot of trouble.”

"But Fengyao, it turns out that I was the one who was always wrong... We have always emphasized that everyone has an equal right to express themselves, but we have never given ourselves the obligation to listen to others' expressions."

Yes, many times we are like that.We acted as if all beings are equal but actually superior, and in a state of not being able to feel a ten thousandth of the pain of the client, we opened our mouths to talk with the client, while persuading him to express boldly, and at the same time persuading him to let go.

Actually?

A large number of people just listened to it casually, and then announced their opinions and choices to the world in a long speech, as if they were afraid that anyone would miss his incisive and advanced unique remarks.These people will never learn to shut up, learn to listen... With a high probability, they can be classified as - I allow you to express, but you have to live according to my ideas.

"Fengyao, I should have realized it a long time ago." Maybe it was really regrettable, Yun Zaiye's voice sounded muffled, "The reason why she persisted until today is that she is not weak at all, but just happens to be Strong and persistent? How could such a girl accept a stranger who suddenly broke into her life, snatch her mother away as an adjudicator, and then tell her——you should leave here. "

Jiajia has never been a timid and cowardly girl, but just like this, it just confirms the saying "too hard is easy to break".

She can endure her father's beatings and scolding after drinking, she can silently forgive those classmates who hurt her with unscrupulous words again and again, she can even come to Yun Zaye voluntarily, and establish a relationship with a stranger. Trust, and show him the unhealed scars over and over again...

But this does not mean that she can accept it, and it does not mean that anyone can easily decide whether she will stay or not.

So the mother can't abandon herself because of that unborn little life, so the so-called "stepfather" can't directly pronounce her fate of being abandoned, so even Yun Zaiye, who may be trusted by her, can't You can decide her future destination and the path she will take.

But the power of the outside world is too strong. How can she, a 13-year-old girl with nothing, fight against it?

So leave, so don't face it at all, as long as you don't choose to start, there will be no sad ending...

When Yun Zaiye's fluctuating breathing turned into a steady and gentle state, Qi Fengyao raised his eyes and looked at the clock, it was already more than three o'clock in the morning.

He didn't want to sleep, he was so sleepy that he had to sleep.

After getting up and turning off the light, Qi Fengyao bent down and hugged Yun Zaiye, and walked gently into the bedroom.

The next morning, Yun Zaiye did not follow his elite routine for the first time.When he opened his eyes in a daze, the clock on the dial on his wrist had already pointed to ten o'clock.

After scratching his hair, Yun Zaye got up, changed his clothes and walked out of the bedroom.

Suddenly, his footsteps paused, and then he immediately started looking for his mobile phone...

Qi Fengyao, who just walked in from the balcony, saw Yun Zaiye frantically turning on the phone, and said, "It's okay, I called the counseling center, Teacher Lin Xian said that you don't have to go there for two days Alright, adjust it at home."

After breakfast, Yun Zaye changed his clothes and stood at the entrance to change his shoes.

"Didn't you ask for leave for you?"

Qi Fengyao stood aside and hugged Mi Xiu, and asked.

"I'm not going to the company...I'm going to see Jiajia."

Hearing this, Qi Fengyao stopped moving his hands for a moment, and then he put Mi Xiu on the ground, "Wait for me, I'll go with you."

After a while, Qi Fengyao changed his clothes and came over, but Yun Zaiye stood there motionless.

"Come on, what are you doing standing here?"

"You haven't seen her..."

So why are you still going?

Probably due to the tacit understanding of the lovers, Qi Fengyao easily received the meaning conveyed by Yun Zaiye's words.

"I've met her mother, but I haven't had the chance to see her properly. I always feel it's a pity... After all, who doesn't want to say goodbye to such a strong and outstanding girl in your mouth?"

Yes, I want to say goodbye seriously, not go to her tombstone to pity her out of pity.

I don’t know if it’s because of the bad influence of this incident, or because Jiajia’s stepfather is eager to start a new life, or it may be a combination of both or other reasons... But in short, Jiajia’s departure, from death to being raped The burial took only a day and a half.

During this day and a half, she fell from the scaffolding on the construction site, was watched by a group of people and then sent to the hospital, was sent from the emergency room to the crematorium, was locked in a small box, and sent to a small river behind a hillside. beside.

The land price in the cemetery is too expensive, and she can't enter that high-end place, so she can only let the colorful butterflies, wild flowers, mountains and rivers accompany her.

Under the guidance of Jiajia's mother, it took Yun Zaiye a long time to find the small mound that belonged to Jiajia.

Before coming here, Yun Zaiye first went to the place where Jiajia's mother lives now. Although it is not so gorgeous, it is still stable enough to live.When bidding farewell to Jiajia's mother, a piece of manuscript paper was stuffed into Yun Zaiye's hand.

"I found this when I was sorting out Jiajia's things, and I wrote it to you, Doctor Yun."

During the rest of the journey, Yun Zaiye kept that piece of paper in his close pocket.I didn't throw it away, but I didn't dare to open it.

It wasn't until standing in front of Jiajia's tomb and putting the bouquet of daisies in his hand next to the girl's smiling photo that Yun Zaiye carefully took out the piece of paper from his pocket——

"Doctor Yun, this is probably the last time I will speak to you. It is better to call you brother, because I often think that if I have a brother, he should be similar to you.

You are very good to me, you should be the best and best person to me so far, thank you.

I often think, why me?Why was I born in such a family, why did I meet such parents, why was it me who was bullied by my classmates, why was it me who was born with a disease... Brother, this is probably what adults call fate .

I'm about to leave this world, but I'm not giving up, I'm using all I have in the end to fight against all injustice for the last time.

Brother, although we only met twice, I can feel your concern and care for me.Don't be sad about my departure, because I am not in pain, I think this may be another happier relief.

It seems that there is nothing more to say, so I would like to say thank you in the end.

Please remember, don't feel sorry for me, if you think of me occasionally, please bring me a bunch of sunflowers. "

Holding the piece of paper, Yun Zaiye's arms and back were shaking non-stop, and there was a suppressed sob in his throat.

Qi Fengyao, who was standing by the side, couldn't stand it anymore, he walked over quickly, took the letter away, folded it, put it in his pocket, and then took Yun Zaiye into his arms.

"Don't be sad, Jiajia said, her departure is a struggle and relief, you should be happy for her... Don't blame yourself, it's not your fault... When Jiajia left, I definitely didn't want you to be like this sad."