moon illusion

In "A Moment in My Life", there is such a passage: People who have not experienced the death of their loved ones will not know how fragile life is. Before, they only thought that the future would be long.But after experiencing life and death, you will understand the truth of life.

Yun Zaiye grew up in a big family with loving parents and loving family, so perhaps he didn't feel much about it.But when it comes to Qi Fengyao, this passage can be vividly expressed.

He has lost his parents, lost his friends, lost his lover.But after a circle of life, his friend came back, and his lover also came back, but there will be no parents in his life anymore, no matter how long it takes, they will never come back again.

Lost and found indulgence makes people happy, but lost but not found will teach people what it means to cherish.

Before losing it, we would quarrel, fight coldly, tear our faces, and blurt out ugly words recklessly.

But after you lose them, you really have nothing. No matter how you admit defeat and admit your mistakes, you won’t be able to reach them when you stretch out your hands.

So Qi Fengyao cherishes the people around him too much.Among them, the most important thing is Yun Zaiye.

After sorting out the materials he had found, Qi Fengyao turned around and went to the bathroom to wash up, preparing to go to bed on time and not stay up late.

On the other side, Mrs. Yun is still obsessed with Yun Zaiye's experience after going abroad, holding on to Yun Zaiye, wanting to know in detail what Yun Zaiye has experienced.

Seeing that Yun Zaye still had no intention of opening his mouth, Yun Gang patted his wife on the shoulder, and comforted him, "Don't worry, Xiaoye is so old, he must know how to protect himself. Besides, if something big happens, Xiaoye will Why don't you tell us?"

Seeing that his wife was still worried and did not respond, Mr. Yun raised his chin at his son again, "Is that right, Xiaoye?"

"It's true, Mom, nothing irreparable happened, it wasn't that bad. It just happened suddenly, and I was not prepared at all, so the reaction afterwards was bigger. Now I'm really good, very good, I have nothing to worry about or let go of.

I have you, my friends, and Fengyao. I am really satisfied with the current state. "

After hearing Yun Zaiye's repeated affirmation, Mrs. Yun finally felt a little relieved, and went upstairs with her husband's support.

After tidying up the living room, Yun Zaiye turned off the lights and followed him upstairs.As soon as he reached the stairs, he ran into Mr. Yun who had just come out of the room.

"Ono, come with me to the study."

Hearing this, Yun Zaiye paused, opened his mouth but said nothing, and followed his father into the study.

Without politeness or pleasantries, Mr. Yun asked directly, "Are you and Qi Fengyao serious?"

"Of course." Yun Zaye nodded, "Dad, you should understand me, I can never bring someone I don't like with me."

"But Xiao Ye, I don't know how you are sure about your feelings for Qi Fengyao... I mean, are you sure that the relationship between you is... love, not a momentary curiosity or impulse?"

"Dad, I don't know." Unexpectedly, Yun Zaiye didn't immediately give an affirmative answer. He looked at his father and said, "Actually, I really don't understand, and it's hard for me to explain the relationship between us." Feelings are another definition, but I can be sure that I am not on a whim."

"You don't even know, so how can you be sure?"

Listening to Yun Zaiye's words, Mr. Yun leaned back in his chair and looked at Yun Zaiye.

"I don't know much about love, but Dad, I know that I am willing to let him walk by my side from the beginning to the end. I hope that I can hold hands with him and walk on the street without any scruples. I look forward to being able to With his presence, that person is only Qi Fengyao from the beginning to the end."

Without concealing anything, Yun Zaiye directly met his father's scrutinizing eyes with a sincere and fiery gaze.

Neither of them spoke again, just looking at each other like this.

Finally, Mr. Yun smiled suddenly, and said, "I'm not old-fashioned, I'm actually... not incomprehensible. But Xiao Ye, you should not only take into account the attitude of me and your mother in the future, there are still people in this world A large number of people don't recognize your feelings, do you understand what I mean?"

"I understand." Yun Zaye stepped forward and pulled the chair away, and sat at both ends of the table with his father, "Dad, I understand your concerns, but it shouldn't be like this. Everyone has the right to have their own opinions and attitudes , this is unavoidable, but in the same way, the relationship between me and Qi Fengyao is also our attitude. Others may have objections, but we will persist."

Yes, homosexuality is not a mental illness, let alone a "pervert".They're just a minority of a group of humans who just happen to be a little different from the mainstream.There is no difference between them and us in this latitude of human beings.

On May 1990, 5, the World Health Organization removed homosexuality from the list of mental disorders, informing the world that homosexuality is not a mental illness.This day is very important for all gay people.

Because the word "normal" is commonplace for heterosexual people, but it is the result of years of struggle for a minority of people.

Yun Jaeye is actually very grateful that he was born in such an era.Because before him, countless people have fought for such freedom.

After coming out of the study, Yun Zaiye returned to his room.

The phone was placed on the desk, and the notification light on the screen flickered on.

After picking it up, I saw the message from Qi Fengyao.Without thinking too much, Yun Zaiye immediately replied——

"I must remember clearly. When my temples are graying, I swear that even if I forget my name, I will never forget you who are by my side."

Early the next morning, Yun Zaiye found a short-sleeved T-shirt that looked the most gaudy in the closet that he bought when he was a sophomore.

At the sports meeting, Bai Lang dragged himself out to buy clothes, and it seemed that Bai Lang tricked him into buying this dark green short-sleeved shirt with printed patterns of a few kittens on it.

Because he was going to see Jia Jia today, Yun Zaiye had to find a dress that would make him look less distant, and try to see if it could make Jia Jia less wary of him.

After changing his clothes, Yun Zaiye greeted his parents and got into the car with his computer bag.

After driving to the downstairs of the unit, Yun Zaye thought for a while, then ran to the convenience store next to him, bought some snacks that girls would like, and then trotted upstairs.

Lin Xian, who had been waiting for Yun Zaiye at the front desk, immediately came up to him with a smile when he saw Yun Zaiye.

"How? Are you ready?"

Yun Zaiye nodded, "There should be no problem, I know it well."

"That's good." Lin Xian patted Yun Zaiye on the shoulder, and the two walked inside together, "Will you need me to supervise you later?"

"This..." Yun Zaiye suddenly got stuck, "Teacher, what do you think?"

"I think? My suggestion is that you do it alone, and I don't participate, so that Jiajia can relax more in an unfamiliar environment. If there are any problems that cannot be solved, you can avoid and transfer them first, and we can discuss them later after recording them."

After making some preparations, Yun Zaiye walked into the consulting room with the snacks he had prepared.

Jiajia likes green, so today's consultation place is a green consultation room.

After a while, the receptionist brought Jiajia over and knocked on the door.

For so many days, Yun Zaiye saw this little girl who worried him for the first time.

There are still scars on the delicate cheeks that have not faded, and the thin and small body is wrapped in a coat that does not fit at all.

Because of malnutrition, his big eyes looked even more pitiful on his palm-sized face. His eyes were full of defense and indifference to the strange people and the strange environment in front of him.

Seeing Jiajia standing at the door, Yun Zaiye tried his best to restrain his tone from being emotional.He didn't dare to look into Jiajia's eyes, but took a small bag of candy and waved at Jiajia.

"Jiajia, brother bought the candy you like, would you like to come over and chat with brother?"

Because we are equal, I am not a doctor, you are not a patient, we are just good friends who can sit and chat.

After hesitating for a while, Jia Jia moved over in small steps, and sat on the sofa beside Yun Zaiye.

"What color candy do you like?"

"Green...green." Jiajia took a candy wrapped in green, opened it and put it in her mouth, "Thank you brother."

Although the voice is still very small, it is always willing to speak.

Yun Zaiye reached out and took out a candy in a blue package, and also opened it and put it in his mouth.

"I like blue, because the endless sky and sea are both blue. Why does Jiajia like green?"

Jiajia was a little puzzled as she rubbed the candy wrapper in her hand.My mother told herself that she came here to see a doctor, but why did the brother in front of her keep chatting with her?

Although it was a bit difficult to understand, Jiajia thought for a while and replied, "Because the grass and trees are green, the endless prairie and the vast forest are all green, that is the color of life!"

Yun Zaiye nodded, and asked again, "The color of life! Does Jiajia know what life is?"

This question is a bit complicated, Jiajia took a longer time to think about it, and then replied, "Life is our right to survive in this world."

Hearing this answer, Yun Zaiye was slightly surprised, he did not expect to hear the word "power" from this girl's mouth.

"The right to live? Why do you think so?"

As soon as the words fell, Yun Zaiye saw Jia Jia frowned subconsciously, and fell into endless thought.