Conformity

There was a loud roar in Chi Mei's head, she never thought that the choice she faced in the end would be a lose-lose.

Usually the children are disobedient, and the parents end up cutting off the relationship. They occupy the commanding heights of filial piety. If the children don't obey, they will be criticized by everyone.

There is an old sister in their community, the daughter is disobedient, and she is determined to marry an old man who is 20 years older than her, but the son-in-law chosen by the daughter is about the same age as her, and they are all white-haired. The two elders disagreed when they were beaten to death, but the daughter had a bad temper. In the end, the two elders just pretended that they had never given birth to this debt-collecting child.But for so many years, there are still old people in the community talking behind their backs, talking about this girl is nothing.

Although Chi Mei usually doesn't express her opinions, she also feels so in her heart, because everyone thinks so, the sky is high and the water is far away and you don't have any relatives, so who really cares about your happiness in the end?Sometimes even parents will say something similar to "how do you make others think of me like this", as if they have to live like that.

Have you ever had this kind of grievance, your own happiness is not as important as your parents' face?

Most of the facts are not the case, it’s just that being different makes people panic. The gaze of others is a double-edged sword. It drives people to live the same life in the same way. Only when there is no gap can people be balanced, and the living environment is therefore stable, but seek common ground With the removal of alienation, many distinctive natures will gradually disappear. The pursuit of freedom, daring to love and hate, and instant pleasure are all extravagant wishes of people who are drifting away on the lifeline.People who belong to the masses should not have edges and corners, and the freest people must be the loneliest.

Chi Mei didn't understand where Chang Yuan's disobedience came from. She had given everything she had to give birth to him and raised him, and she would not harm him anyway. Isn't listening to her what he should pay in return?

"You just..." Chi Mei looked at Chang Yuan pleadingly, her voice trembling very violently, "Are you just so filial to me?"

When it comes to sadness, even if there are diamonds under his knees, Chang Yuan’s tears come suddenly, and he wipes them quickly, and then this appearance of both pain and happiness seems to wash away some of the burden in his heart, and the bow does not Turning around, the more Chang Yuan talked, the more he felt that he was calm and a bit wolf-hearted.

"Mom, I love you very much, and I really want you to be satisfied. It's not that I haven't considered your feelings. You can't accept it, you will be sad, and even my father and I are most afraid that it will seriously affect your emotions. I am worried. But you also need to know that you want to live a normal life by the side of some people, and you want to live a normal life by the side of some people. You often tell me to pay attention to my image, go out for a walk, and make more friends. It's done, it really can't make you think, can I live better than before?"

Chi Mei is someone who has been there. If she is asked to recall the sweetness of love when she was young, she can't remember many things. She said: "But how long is the shelf life of love? Chang Yuan, if you expect to rely on these two words It would be a big mistake to hold on for a lifetime.”

Chang Yuan: "Some people have three or five days, and some people have a lifetime. If it's not suitable, it's not suitable. What's the shelf life?"

But you are not someone else, my son, Chi Mei thought sadly, she pointed to Shao Bowen and said, "Then how do you know this is suitable?"

Chang Yuan felt that she was messing around, so he said in a deep voice: "I don't know, and you don't know, but no one will know if you go on! Mom, don't just think about it in your head all day, thinking that I'm the worst in the world, Do you know how I feel every time you do this? I think you look down on me the most in the world..."

Snapped!

Chi Mei's eyes were red, and she was so angry that she slapped Chang Yuan's face with a slap without even thinking about it. In her heart, anyone could blame her, but Chang Yuan couldn't.Fortunately, Shao Bowen, who was listening attentively, suddenly stretched out his hand, and stopped her palm on his forearm.

Huzi let out a short "ah", and directly put his face into his father's arms, well, he couldn't see anything anymore.

Chang Yuan felt a dark shadow flash in front of his eyes, and there was a dazed look on his face that he couldn't react to.

Chang Zhongshan didn't expect Chi Mei to be like this, he immediately stretched out his hand to hold her other half arm, and said dissuadingly, "What are you doing?"

Shao Bowen pinched Chi Mei's thin wrist bones, stood up with his half-embraced Hu Zi, and gently put it back on the table in front of her. He didn't want Chi Mei to feel that he was showing off his power, so he kept silent, but this kind of concern will soon Ineffective, because calmness has become a cloud for Chi Mei.

"Auntie, calm down. Every time Huzi is disobedient, I will regret it immediately after pumping his ass. Comparing my heart to my heart, you must be in the same mood. Can we talk about it if we have something to say?"

"I can't say it." If it weren't for the temperature in Shao Bowen's hand, Chi Mei might not have noticed that she was so cold. She shuddered, and then laughed while crying, "His heart is biased toward you. I don't care what I say." Wrong, forget it, I'm old and tired, so I can't control him anymore, Xiao Shao, let me ask you a question at the end."

Shao Bowen listened attentively: "Say it."

Chi Mei: "I guess, you haven't met your parents yet, have you?"

With his head buried, Mr. Lu scratched his ears, hearing the words and said in his heart: Dad, this is already the second question.

Shao Bowen said badly about mathematics: "Not yet."

Chi Mei: "Then have you considered it? Your parents will probably, like me, firmly disagree and regard my son as a monster."

Shao Bowen said with the dignity of the superstructure: "Auntie, don't worry, this will not happen, I promise."

Chi Mei waved her hands and laughed with a look of "Don't tease me", but she burst into tears with a smile, she couldn't cry, and said in a high-pitched sentence: "Your guarantee may only be valid for yourself. You can't control anyone at the moment, people, people are so fickle, just like me, I hahaha... Before you came, I swore to Lao Chang that I would let Chang Yuan go, let you go, let... let go I’ve been better than myself, but look, when I see you, I hate you!!!”

Shao Bowen comforted him: "My parents are honest people, and they save face. Even if they are angry, they won't say it to Xiaoyuan. Besides, if their objection is strong, I won't let them see Xiaoyuan."

Chi Mei sneered and said: "An honest man? Mr. Qian Zhongshu said that the viciousness of an honest man will give people the most unexpected pain. Also, do you see it if you say you won't see it? When your parents hear the news, they will die To threaten you alive, do you dare to bet their lives? Or..."

Chi Mei knew that she was vicious like this, but she couldn't help the pleasure of revenge. She said sharply: "Because you are the adopted son of Lao Shao's family, the relationship between you is not so deep, so they don't care so much, you Don't you care about them too much?"

Chang Yuan suddenly felt that a layer of fire was burning above his calmness, regardless of whether people are right or wrong, why does she insist on picking on Shao Bowen's scars over and over again, and even provoke other people's relationships!He breathed out a loud and angry breath, and when he was about to speak, Shao Bowen patted his back. Chang Yuan turned his head and found that the man looked calm and was not irritated.

Shao Bowen looked very solemn, and he said: "Auntie, that's not the case. Even if I live to the day I die, the luckiest thing in my life is not love, but family affection. Without my parents, I could be anyone, except I won't It is Shao Bowen, I cherish them, and they treat me the same way, there are many relatives who have no blood relationship in this world, blood relationship is only a condition, the essence of relatives is feelings, and all feelings have something in common and respect each other."

"You just asked Xiaoyuan to be filial to you. In my opinion, he is really not doing well. Is filial piety blindly obeying your parents' opinions? I don't think so. That's lack of opinion. Mencius said, 'There are three ways to be unfilial and you will have no descendants. Big', but he also said, 'If you are too close, don't complain, the more distant you are, the more distant you are, the less filial you are'. This sentence is also a heart-pounding truth, but why no one advocates it? I am also a father , I can understand how parents want their children to be obedient. When they were young, it was guidance and protection. But when they grow up, as long as they don’t break the law and discipline, they should stop interfering. They are responsible for their own lives, otherwise What do you want them to do when they grow up? Be giant babies?"

Chi Mei was short of breath, and Shao Bowen's fallacies seemed poisonous. She didn't want to hear them, but they kept burrowing into her brain like earthworms. She wanted to refute, but she couldn't open her mouth for some reason. Maybe it was the only thing left in her spiritual aperture. A little bit of rationality resonated with the "giant baby". She looked at her precious son and had an illusion for a moment. Chang Yuan's body was covered with chains, and the end of the chain was connected to her hand.

Like throwing away a poisonous snake, she slammed many hands fiercely and abruptly.

Maybe except for this lightning moment, Chi Mei has never really been sober in the past 20 years.

The fear that went deep into the bone marrow overwhelmed her, and the desire to scream was extremely strong, but Chi Mei suddenly stuck her voice in her throat, and she stared deeply at Chang Yuan, with tears streaming down her face, her voice trembling in a mess, "The giant baby ? Chang Yuan, do you think so too? I... I have nothing to say, you guys get out, if you don't separate, don't bother me."

Shao Bowen didn't expect the topic to end abruptly, so he went to look at Chang Yuan, but Chang Yuan didn't meet his gaze. Chi Mei's gaze made him flustered, so he rubbed forward, trying to comfort her.But he didn't expect that Chi Mei would have a sudden attack, and she would throw the dishes in front of her to the ground, then she jumped up, and stumbled into the bedroom like a gust of wind.

If Xu Hui came here, he would find that Chi Mei's expression was rigid, and his eyeballs moved slowly, which was abnormal.

After tonight, Shao Bowen will find that the last dignity of this woman is to maintain her identity as a mother. Although she is wrong, she is still admirable.

But tonight is full of malice, their mood and concentration are very bad, so after being sent away by Chang Zhongshan with a wry smile, in order to liven up the atmosphere, Shao Bowen had to take the time to tell a cold joke, he pointed at himself The eyebrow on the left asked: "Son, what is this?"

Huzi was swinging in the air with a boiled duck egg that Chang Zhongshan gave him to play with before he left, thinking in his heart that it would be so cold that he could go home and hatch ducklings with little yellow chickens. Eyelids, with an expression of "Why do you ask so simple", said: "Maomei."

In the cold winter night, Chang Zhongshan stood upstairs, wiped away the fog that formed repeatedly on the glass, and watched the people under the street lamps slowly disappear. Then he suddenly realized that he seemed to be watching him walk away. The back view, from going to school when I was a child to working later, and now.