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Not long after Xu Xinglan left, Gu Chen regretted it.

Ever since he learned of Xu Fang's illness, except for class time, Gu Chen has never left him for half a step, and often followed him even when he took a shower and went to the toilet.And staying by his side every step of the way is not only to take care of him, Gu Chen also wants to seek a sense of security for himself.

Gu Chen doesn't know what other people's love is like, does it mean that as long as you fall in love, you will be desperate, even if you get yourself covered in bruises?That feeling is like taking a slow poison. The longer you love, the more hopeless it becomes.

Gu Chen can say without exaggeration that Xu Fang is his life.

Xu Fang's illness did not deter him, on the contrary, it strengthened his determination to go hand in hand with the other party.

He couldn't tolerate Xu Fang's slightest mistake, he would rather let go of everything, even sacrifice his rest time to be a silly guardian.Only when he sees Xu Fang doing well can he feel at ease.What he guards is not only Xu Fang, but also their love.

But Xu Xinglan left as soon as he said it, as if he took his soul with him.Returning home in a trance, Gu Chen collapsed on the sofa as soon as he entered the room, his mind was empty for a while, as if he suddenly remembered something, he took out his mobile phone and dialed the class teacher's number.

Xu Fang's condition is very unstable, and Gu Chen is really worried that they will face the unknown tomorrow alone.

Gu Chen wanted to accompany them, instead of waiting in fear, it would be better to follow them regardless.

Gu Chen asked the class teacher for a long vacation, and the return date is uncertain.He knew in his heart that they would definitely fight a tough battle with Xu Fang's stepmother and Xu Zhenghong when they went back.This pair of mother and child is like a cancer, if it is not removed, it will always be a hidden danger, Xu Fang will not be able to live a stable life in the future.

Gu Chen had planned everything. After asking for leave, he chartered a car to go back to City B, and informed Xu Xinglan to wait for him on the way.

However, life often goes beyond the plan, Gu Chen did not expect that the head teacher would reject his application for leave outright.

The reason is very simple. He has asked for leave too frequently recently. Before that, he took three days of leave in a row. He didn’t go to school these days, and now he has to take a long vacation. If he doesn't care about him, he will still act in accordance with the school's rules and regulations, and the head teacher will not agree to his request.

Although such a result was completely unexpected, Gu Chen did not continue to persevere.He was used to going his own way before, and he was not afraid of being an outlier in the eyes of others, but he had experienced a lot, and when considering issues, he no longer only started from his own point of view as before.

After all, it is growth.

And growth cannot be willful, and we must restrain our edge and face the world with a more rational and mature attitude.

Gu Chen admitted his mistake to the class teacher, and his life was back on the right track. He would do whatever he normally should do.What Xu Xinglan said was right. Putting aside all entanglements, "college student" is his real and unique identity, and he must be worthy of this identity.

In his spare time, Gu Chen would send WeChat messages and make phone calls with Xu Xinglan.Listening to the familiar voice thousands of miles away, Gu Chen's heart was like the surface of a lake with no wind or waves, extraordinarily calm, as if they were still by his side and never left.

Xu Xinglan told Gu Chen on the phone that after returning this time, he took the initiative to confess Xu Fang's illness to Xu Dingguo, including Xu Fang's growth experience from childhood to adulthood and the cause of the illness, and explained everything clearly.Those unbearable past events were finally dusted off and exposed to the sun. Both the storyteller and the listener felt an indescribable pain.And how deep is that pain?Xu Xinglan didn't say it clearly, but Gu Chen could empathize with him. While feeling sorry for him, he couldn't help but feel relieved. If a person can overcome the psychological shadow and face the past bravely, then he will naturally let go of the pain.

Gu Chen then asked Xu Dingguo's reaction, his child was tortured because of the grievances and grievances of the previous generation, and suffered so much that shouldn't be suffered, Xu Dingguo's inner suffering and self-blame can also be imagined of.

Xu Xinglan said that Xu Dingguo was going to take Xu Fang for treatment, and for this reason, he specially invited a well-known psychotherapist in the country, but the final decision on whether to treat or not was still in Xu Fang's hands, because the treatment of multiple personality disorder It is an iterative and lengthy process, and the treatment and rehabilitation generally take up to ten years, and the healer must form a good empathy relationship with the patient, that is, the full cooperation of the patient is needed to achieve better treatment results.

Gu Chen's heart tightened when he heard this. Although the treatment of multiple personalities is not to "eliminate" the successor personalities, but to try to integrate them, but he has the feeling that everyone will disappear, like a bubble, and when they disappear, there will be no more. Not even a trace will be left.

Probably feeling his depression, Xu Xinglan changed the topic with a laugh, and the two chatted about each other's recent situation.At the end, Xu Xinglan joked that if he really received the treatment, that guy Li Xin would definitely fight to the death, and what kind of chaotic situation would it be?

Gu Chen could tell that this was actually a comforting sentence, as for the ending, no one could predict.No matter what Xu Fang decides in the future, he cannot have the best of both worlds after all, but Gu Chen will still support and protect him as always.To love someone is to respect every choice he makes and never let him fight alone.

……

In a blink of an eye, New Year's Day has arrived.Gu Chen secretly booked a plane ticket back to City B, planning to make a killing first and play later.

Before the plane took off, he called Xu Fang several times but couldn't get through, and then he sent several text messages to the other party before turning off the phone.

After the two-hour flight with a restless heart, Gu Chen turned on his phone as soon as he got off the plane, but he still didn't get any response.

Standing at the gate of the airport, Gu Chen was at a loss for a moment. After a while, he pretended to smile relaxedly, stopped a taxi, and inquired all the way to the wealthy area of ​​the city, but was told that the Xu family's mansion was not here at all, because Xu Dingguo pays great attention to personal privacy. Except for his relatives, friends and cronies, no one knows where his home is, but there is a rumor that many people have heard.It is said that Xu Dingguo likes quietness, so he spent a lot of money to buy a barren mountain. That mountain is his home. His home has a self-built golf course and a private estate. He also raises elk in captivity, digs artificial lakes, and plants lotus flowers. Astonishing.

Regardless of whether this rumor is true or not, Gu Chen has a feeling that his expectations have been dashed. He had originally planned a big surprise, but unexpectedly the plan couldn't keep up with the change. Those few people didn't answer the phone or text messages, as if the world had evaporated, and suddenly they couldn't get in touch. up.

In desperation, Gu Chen had to give up the idea of ​​continuing to search and bought a return ticket for the next day.

……

On New Year's Day, there are lively scenes everywhere on the street.For all those who are engaged in the service industry, once the holidays hit, it means that they will be much busier than usual.

When Gu Shengnan was so busy, she suddenly found that her son had returned without making a sound.She looked around subconsciously, confirming that Gu Chen came back alone, a feeling of uneasiness suddenly surged in her heart.So many years later, as long as she thinks back to today's scene, her son's forced smile can still poke her heart.

She put down all the work at hand and decided to have a long and in-depth conversation with Gu Chen.The mother and son talked about the past, present and future from afternoon to night.They didn't try to convince each other, they just communicated candidly and talked on an equal footing like friends.

Comrade, this road is not easy to walk, Gu Shengnan listed the concerns in his heart one by one.

Gu Chen deeply understands her worries. In a traditional country like China, homosexuality has been wandering on the fringes of society for a long time, and has never been able to go to the ground.People are often misunderstood, ignored, and discriminated against by society simply because their sexual orientation is different from ordinary people.Coupled with some negative publicity and the exaggeration of individual film and television works, people turn pale when they mention homosexuality, and often associate one-night stands, drug abuse, and AIDS with them.So they chose to partner with Shen Mo, standing alone at the bottom of the normal society.

Gu Chen knows everything, knows everything.But he told Gu Shengnan that the reason why he is gay is not because he is avant-garde for fun, or because he is tempted and forced; nor is it because he thinks he is willing; nor is it because of his choice.It's because he was born a GAY who couldn't change his sexual orientation.After experiencing fear, fear, pain, and guilt, he denies himself and deceives himself and others. He has also been negative and inferior, and then slowly looks away, accepting and affirming himself step by step. Now he is still living bravely. I have put in all my efforts. If I could change it, I would have changed it long ago. I will never wait until today.

In order to express his determination, Gu Chen's tone was firm and decisive, as if he would never look back until he hit the south wall.

Gu Shengnan watched him silently for a long time, then suddenly reached out and rubbed his head, saying:

Chenchen, you've lost weight.

The jeans you were wearing were bought for you when you passed your birthday last year. You were wearing them just right, but now they are empty. Don’t you know how bad your mental outlook is?

You look tired, like you haven't had enough sleep, and your skin isn't as radiant as it used to be.All of these things are evidence that you're not doing as you'd like, and if being with that person makes you happy, it's not going to be the way you are.With you like this, how can I rest assured?

Since love is so tiring, why continue?

……

The New Year's Day holiday was only three days away, and Gu Chen stayed at home with Gu Shengnan for three days before embarking on his way back.

Gu Shengnan sent him to the airport, and after a few words of advice, he said, "Bring someone back to have a look during the Chinese New Year."

Gu Chen was stunned and didn't react for a while.

Gu Shengnan was annoyed, "Isn't he from City B? It shouldn't be difficult to meet, right?"

Realizing that this was a disguised compromise, Gu Chen hurriedly said: "It's not difficult, I will definitely bring him to see you during the Chinese New Year this year."

"Look at you so stupid!" Gu Shengnan poked his forehead, "I'm leaving, call me when you get to school."

"Understood." Gu Chen agreed, "Mom, drive slowly when you go back and pay attention to safety."

Gu Shengnan didn't say anything, looked him up and down, and said "I won't force you if you don't marry a wife, but you don't want to be someone else's wife" before turning around and leaving.

Looking at the back of his mother going away, Gu Chen scratched his head in embarrassment, Xu Fang was a tall man, half a head taller than himself, it would be inappropriate for him to be the one below...

The plane quickly slid across the runway and roared into the sky, leaving a white trail on the people who saw it off.

Although he didn't see Xu Fang when he came back this time, Gu Chen gained a lot of unexpected things.

His mother accepted his differences, and there was no barrier between mother and son. He finally realized the greatness and selflessness of maternal love, and he also deeply realized his own insignificance.In the future, he will put in more efforts to make himself better.

The time back seemed to pass much faster than when we came here. Gu Chen only took a nap before the plane landed.

Walking out of the cabin and stepping into the aisle, Gu Chen turned on his mobile phone while walking. Suddenly, a series of "Dididi" reminders sounded continuously, accompanied by overwhelming short messages.

Holding the slightly hot phone, Gu Chen was surprised for a moment before regaining his senses, and after a closer look, it turned out that it was all messages from Xu Fang.Before he had time to carefully read the content of each text message, a call came in, and the caller displayed in the call notification box was clearly Xu Fang!

Gu Chen only felt his heart beating, he wanted to cry and laugh at the same time, sometimes he had mixed feelings, and sometimes he was excited.

He called Xu Fang for three days in a row, but he failed to contact Xu Fang. Unexpectedly, just after he left City B, the other party called. At this moment, they are separated from each other.

After pressing the answer button, a long-lost voice came to my ears through radio waves.

"Gu Chen? Is that you? What are you doing? Why do you turn off your phone? I've called you countless times but I can't get through."

Hearing this, the tip of Gu Chen's nose became acidic, and his eyes instantly turned red.

"Xu Fang..."

He couldn't help calling the other person's name, and the corner of his mouth curled down uncontrollably, "You, are you awake? You, finally woke up..."

"Gu Chen, are you crying?" Xu Fang's tone was mixed with anxiety and worry, "Don't cry, it's all my fault, I slept for so long, I failed to take good care of you, but hurt you You're scared for me. Damn me! I'm sorry, I'm sorry...don't blame me, okay? I couldn't get through to your phone, and you didn't reply to your text messages. I thought you ignored me. I'm so scared, really , I'm so scared...I'm afraid you can't stand me anymore...I'm afraid you will give up on me..."

Tears rolled round and round in the eyes, Gu Chen felt his heart was heavy and sour.

This is the first time Xu Fang has shown weakness in front of him.

The other party is used to hiding everything in his heart, and never shows his vulnerability easily. He must be really anxious to say such a thing today.

Gu Chen suddenly thought of a sentence Xu Xinglan said:

——Xiao Chen, you have paid so much for Xu Fang, do you know that you already love him so much?

At this moment, it is still appropriate to apply these words to Xu Fang.

While I love him deeply, why not be loved by him with all my heart.

I love you, and you just love me, and there is nothing better and luckier in the world.