The host is a willful great devil

【16】

LSH.Ling Shaohan.

The cinnabar mole on Gu Yan's heart.

past tense.

After entering this world, except that he and Mo Bai are different, everything else is the same as the original world.

Including the information in the mobile phone.

Gu Yan didn't deliberately erase anything.Because it is already an irrelevant person.

It's just that mobile phones are used every day and all the time.Looking at those three words lying in his communication list, it is impossible to say that they are not an eyesore.Therefore, Gu Yan deleted it when he saw it. He didn't see it for a while, and he didn't deliberately find it and delete it.

He never minded that Mo Bai took his mobile phone.Because he thinks there is nothing that Mo Bai cannot see.

There is no separate contact information of Ling Shaohan in the mobile phone, but there is still a group of high school classmates.In order to facilitate identification, the squad leader asked everyone to change their WeChat names to their real names. The willing boyfriend LSH in "Track" is the willing high school classmate.Mo Bai guessed that "Track" was probably Gu Yan's semi-autobiography, so he looked through the list of high school classmates on Gu Yan's mobile phone out of curiosity.In the end, he met such a person, Ling Shaohan.

Ling Shaohan's wechat profile picture is a selfie, with his arms around his girlfriend's face.

After Mo Bai clicked on the profile picture, his face became cloudy.

The fucking similarity is as high as 70%!

Even if his appearance is better, it can't change the tragic fact that he is the substitute.

Who told me to come late.

Mobai is very unhappy.However, when he was very unhappy, his brother Gu Yan, whom he was so attached to, was being tortured by his mother so that he was physically and mentally exhausted.Love finally defeated jealousy, Mo Bai told himself that Ling Shaohan was already an impossible person for Gu Yan, and he was the one who would accompany Gu Yan.As long as he works hard, sooner or later his double will become the real palace!

As for the direction of efforts, "Track" has pointed it out - the heart disease of willingness is Gu Yan's heart disease, and what LSH does is what Gu Yan hopes someone will do to him.Mo Bai secretly made up his mind that he would do better than LSH in the book!The rest of Gu Yan's life belongs to him, and he will never let it go!As for Ling Shaohan in this reality, hmph, let him hug his girlfriend to cool off!

It's just that no matter how much I convince myself rationally, the jealousy still spreads like a catastrophe emotionally.Seeing Gu Yan below him with an embarrassed smile on his face, Mo Bai felt that he might not be able to control himself to show his claws and tear Gu Yan apart.

In Gu Yan's heart, he was actually looking forward to this day.But if this day is coming, he has never thought about how he should deal with it.

He doesn't want to prepare in advance.

He just wanted to tell the other party what he really thought at this time.

Therefore, after hugging him tightly and kissing him tenderly, Gu Yan said, "I don't deny it, I have liked him for many years."

Mobai: ...

Angry.

To endure.

"But I like him because what I really like is you."

Mobai:? ? ?

Mo Bai began to deeply doubt his own human language ability.Although I understand every word, but...how can I find no logic after composing a sentence?

"There is one very important thing that I didn't write in "Track". Because I thought it was too nonsense at the time." Gu Yan stroked the black hair leaning against his chest, and said slowly, "Actually, I I have been dreaming all night and all night since I was very young. I know very well that I have dreamed, but I will forget the dream completely when I wake up. But it has been a long time and the number of times has increased. I still know some things. For example, I know that every time I dream of the same person, it is still a man, and he likes to play some very heavy 'games' with me. Others became arrogant and rebellious in their middle and second years, and I Because of this, he became particularly sensitive and introverted during his middle and sophomore years."

Mo Bai understood immediately.Because Gu Yan wrote in "Track", more than ten years ago, homosexuality was no different from a scourge to the public.Even now, although the speeches are open, the gay community still hasn't been treated fairly and equitably.When Gu Yan encountered all this, he was just a child.He didn't dare to tell anyone, so he could only bear it silently.

That is a huge psychological burden.

And Gu's father and Gu's mother... education is not lawful.They only saw Gu Yan's obedient and sensible surface, but completely failed to notice the helplessness in his heart, they just blindly drove Gu Yan with a whip to become the so-called "superior man".

Gu Yan's ability to come to where he is today, to become the current Gu Yan, seems to be going smoothly, but it's just that the suffering involved is not enough for outsiders to understand.

People can see that he is invincible everywhere in armor, but they can't see his hollowed out body and heart full of holes.

"Brother..." Mo Bai rubbed against Gu Yan's chest, feeling so distressed that he didn't know what to say.

Gu Yan smiled indifferently, and continued, "I'm especially afraid of that man who always appears in my dreams, because I know that I like him, to the point of being crazy infatuated, even though I can't see his appearance clearly, listen I can’t make out his voice, and I can’t remember what I experienced in my dream, but I know I like him. Then on the first day of high school, I saw Ling Shaohan. At that moment, even at that moment, I can’t tell the reason , but I suddenly know that the person who always appears in my dreams is exactly what he looks like."

"But when I was in school, let alone coming out, male and female students were severely punished when they fell in love. I was afraid of my parents and teachers since I was a child, so although I liked Ling Shaohan so much, I didn't think about it. Fan didn't want to, but he didn't dare to do anything, he didn't even dare to go up to say something, for fear of being discovered by others, he just dared to look at him secretly. While being a nymphomaniac, he looks so good-looking, but at the same time, he felt, I can't say where, he is not what I want."

"Until I graduated from high school, the words I told him can probably be counted on two hands. I kind of forgot what motivated me to write "Track" at the time. Anyway, it has nothing to do with Ling Shaohan. I can swear to the sky. .”

Mo Bai looked up at Gu Yan who was holding up two fingers, and kissed him, "Well, I believe you."

Gu Yan licked his lips, feeling a little sluggish, "But I did write him as the one in "Track" in a whimsical way..."

Mo Bai: "Hmph." I still don't like it.

Gu Yan sighed, and patted Mo Bai lightly, "What I'm going to say next may sound super nonsense. But think about it, the fact that you can become a human is also super nonsense, isn't it? So you Trust me."

Mo Bai looked at Gu Yan for a while, then lay on his chest again, "I believe it. Tell me."

Gu Yan took a deep breath and let it out slowly, as if he himself needed to do a lot of psychological construction, and then said, "Mo Bai, you are Lucifer in "Oracle", "Drunken Dreams and Thousand Cities" Shen Lingfeng in "The Sabbath", Gu Xiangsheng in "Sabbath", Chu Tong in "Nirvana", Lu Li in "Night Apostle"... You are the little gong in many of my books, and these stories all happened in real life .”

Mo Bai, who raised his head in disbelief and looked at Gu Yan halfway through, was at a loss when he heard the final tone.

Gu Yan raised his hands and pinched his ears, and said with a smirk, "You have read so many books in this world and are trapped by the common sense of this world, you must think what I said is nonsense. But look, you can change From the perspective of common sense in this world, the matter of becoming an adult is ridiculous, isn't it?"

Mo Bai: "The stories in your book... are all true?"

"It wasn't long before I found out... Just before I picked you up, a lot of things happened suddenly. When I wrote those stories before, I always thought of a fragment first, and then moved forward or backward, easily I can think of the whole picture of the whole story. Before, I always thought that maybe I had such a dream, so there are so many stories. But one day, I suddenly realized that it was not a dream, but a real thing. , I was... much more shocked than you are now."

Gu Yan pressed the bewildered Mobai back to his chest and hugged him, "In short, we have always been together, 'life after life'. No matter where I go, you will always be with me....and now. "He lowered his head and kissed the top of Mo Bai's head, "So, I liked Ling Shaohan at that time because I forgot you at that time....But if I forget, I will always dream of you. Because I will always dream of you, so I have been secretly in love with Ling Shaohan who looks very similar to you for a long time..." Gu Yan sighed helplessly again, "It's just such a mistake, it's such a ridiculous strange circle... But no matter what, I like it Sorry for anyone other than you."

Mo Bai hurriedly kissed Gu Yan, shook his head and denied, "No! I understand, you like me because you like me, but you mistake him for me, so you like him. So, you have always liked me. "

Gu Yan was stunned for a moment, then laughed, "Yeah."

Mo Bai looked at Gu Yan with emotion and disbelief on his face. The expression on his face changed again and again. Finally, he wrapped his arms around Gu Yan's neck and bowed his head for several kisses. Then he pressed his forehead against Gu Yan's forehead and said in admiration, "Brother, have we really experienced so many things together? Really? Is it really true? Are you really lying to me?"

Gu Yan shook his head with a smile, "It's not 'so much' that I wrote."

Mo Bai was still very excited, "If half of your book is about our story, that's a lot! More than a dozen!"

"What we have experienced together cannot be calculated in units of 'ten'."

"Ok?"

Gu Yan sighed deeply, "As far as I know... at least tens of thousands."

Mobai: ...

Mobai:! ! !

After being hugged tightly by Mo Bai suddenly, Gu Yan was belatedly aware that some warm liquid fell on his face, and then quickly became cold under the cold air of the air conditioner.

"...Mobai?"

"Brother, I'm so happy, I'm so happy." Mo Bai was laughing happily, but his voice was mixed with the sound of crying. "I was so scared before...you know? I was so scared before..."

Gu Yan: ...

"I'm afraid that my life will be short, I'm afraid that I will die soon... The ten-year lifespan of a cat is far from enough for me, and decades of human life is not enough! I don't know why I like you so much, but I just like you! I just want to monopolize you! Ten years is not enough, decades is not enough, hundreds of years is not enough! I want to be with you and monopolize you for the rest of my life, and I will be unhappy when I see you being kind to Juzi... It turns out That's it, it turned out to be like this... Hey, hey." Mo Bai wiped away his tears and smiled at Gu Yan, "I'm not afraid of anything now, because we will continue to be together in the next life, right?"

Gu Yan smiled and nodded, "Yes. We will always be together."

As soon as the words fell, Gu Yan's expression suddenly changed.Mo Bai looked at Gu Yan who was looking at the top of his head with a horrified face, and wondered, "Brother?"

Gu Yan: Damn it!Happiness is worth 100! ! !

No! ! !