love you like a song

On October 1999, 10, the Long March 14B carrier rocket was successfully launched.

1999年11月20日6时30分，中国进行载人航天工程第一次飞行试验。

On November 1999, 11, the spacecraft was successfully recovered.

……

At the same time, Gu Nan's home.

It has been more than a year since Mu Zi'an left last time.

six in the morning.

"Mu Zi'an, what are you doing?" Gu Nan looked at the girl standing high and shouted.

The girl's tall figure melted into the yellowish light of the street lamp, as if she was thousands of miles away from herself, or not in this world.

With just a slight movement, she can disappear out of thin air.

Gu Nan seemed to be enlightened, and his whole body was full of intelligence. He sat up suddenly from the bed, touched his neck, and felt the cold sweat in his hands—it was another dream.

Up to now, she often hears hallucinations, for example, someone will hold a bunch of keys at the door of the house and turn the lock, as if Mu Zi'an came back.

When Gu Nan rushed to the door, he found that there was no one there.

If it wasn't for Mu Zi'an's quilt and clothes in her bedroom, Gu Nan wouldn't be sure if she had really met such a person.

Smart, exceptionally good and lonely kid.He is unwilling to talk to outsiders, but treats himself with unusual trust, and even says he likes himself.

Gu Nan pursed her lips involuntarily, a sour taste came out inexplicably in her heart, missing, and something else.

It's been a year with no news.

If she had come out, if she had stopped Shi Qing, if... then the child should still be here.

No one knew how devastated she was when she found the box of neatly folded candy wrappers.

Gu Nan also wanted to publish a missing person notice in the newspaper, but after submitting the manuscript, the missing person notice was never published in the newspaper.I called the police, and the attitude of the police was very good. After the case was filed, they promised to help find it, but there was no news.

In the first month, Gu Nan almost collapsed, but after a long time, it seems that there is nothing unacceptable.It's just that I often feel flustered, and I often feel like I've lost or forgotten something.

She knew that the missing person notice she wanted to publish in the newspaper was not published at all, and even the paper she posted by the roadside was torn off by others the next day.

It seems that the person 'Mu Zi'an' never appeared at all.

Gu Nan went to the school to look for her, and the leader said coldly that he had never been there, and then simply refused to admit that there was such a student.I asked Lu Yaoping and Shi Qing, but I didn't know. Later, it seemed that it really didn't exist.

……

……

New Year's Eve.

Sitting in the research room, Mu Zi'an looked out the window, thousands of lights in Beijing were covered with red and colorful lights, and the festive atmosphere was rich and delicate.

"The data sent back by the measurement and control network shows that the spacecraft separated from the rocket about 10 minutes after takeoff and entered the predetermined orbit. Well, there is still room for improvement."

Mu Zi'an thumped his waist, walked into the cafeteria, looked down at the bowl of dumplings on the huge table, picked it up as usual, and walked to the lounge.

She's always in the lab, the last one to go back to rest.

Even without turning on the lights, Mu Zi'an relied on the light reflected from outside the house to stare at the messy dumplings that had been soaked in water.The skin fell apart, the stuffing became loose, and the soup was cold.

It looks slimy and hard.

Mu Zi'an didn't wear shoes, and her bare feet felt cold. She took out Gu Nan's photo with one hand, and held a spoon in the other, eating while looking at it.

She imagined that Gu Nan was beside her.

That's right, she should be by my side. She was wearing a white shirt and gray slacks, smiling as warmly as ever.Then hold my hand and walk forward in the snowy snowy night.

The sound of the TV came from the next door, and everyone gathered to watch the Spring Festival Gala.

When Mu Zi'an finished the bowl of dumplings, he heard the host start the countdown: "Ten, nine, eight, seven..."

"Six, five, four, three, two, one." Mu Zi'an also counted silently, then kissed the photo, and said, "Nan Nan, Happy New Year, I love you."

Happy New Year, even if I'm not by your side.

……

……

The organization finally had a holiday, and it snowed heavily that day.

After the celebration, for safety reasons, they took different buses back in batches.Mu Zian covered his head and waited at the bus stop for a while, and the bus arrived.

It was a small bus that could carry more than [-] people. She put her luggage under it and got on the bus.

The heater in the car was fully turned on, and Mu Zian's dripping clothes were half wet and half dry.

The girl next to her was chattering, calling her boyfriend and family members, saying that it was snowing heavily outside, and that she would bring something when she came back...

--"I miss you so much."

The girl said so.

Mu Zi'an stiffened suddenly.

She seemed to be hallucinating and heard Gu Nan's voice.

Not knowing what the other party said, the girl laughed, stretched out her hand and waved complainingly, and said coquettishly, "I hate you, I really miss you!"

In Mu Zian's dizzy head, he was thinking over and over again what the girl said, his cold eyebrows softened, and the corners of his mouth slightly curled up.

It wasn't until her phone vibrated that Mu Zi'an was brought back to her thoughts.It was Lu Yun who called her, and she asked, "Sister, do you want to go back to Gu Nan's place now?"

"Yeah." Mu Zi'an said. "We'll be there in half an hour."

"Then..." Lu Yun took a sip of water, "Can I have a dinner with you? Celebrate your success."

Mu Zi settled down and said, "No need."

"Ah," Lu Yun lowered his head in frustration, "Forget it. I'm asking you about your body..."

"Well, ask."

"Do you have a fever? I see your face is red."

Mu Zi'an said, "...you read it wrong."

Lu Yun's heart was a little chilled, and he was too embarrassed to ask Mu Zi'an if something was really wrong without saying anything, and he squirmed around without asking why.

Whether it was hearing from his mother that Mu Zi'an vomited blood, or seeing the scar on Mu Zi'an's wrist, Lu Yun checked them all, but found nothing, and there was nothing in the medical examination report...

After waiting for more than ten minutes, it was almost time to arrive at the station.

Mu Zi'an said to Lu Yun, "I'm getting off the car. If there's nothing else, I'll hang up."

"...Ah? Wait, what about you?"

Before he could hear what Lu Yun said, Mu Zi'an hung up the phone and put the phone back in his backpack.When he withdrew his hand, he touched something, Mu Zian hesitated, and pulled out the bag.

It was a very small bag, it could only be used to hold a USB flash drive, and it usually lay quietly in Mu Zi'an's backpack.Mu Zi'an unzipped the zipper and took out the slender bracelet and pocket watch inside.

Mu Zi'an opened the pocket watch and put it in the palm of his hand.

There was a photo of Gu Nan cut by her inside. Mu Zian looked at it for a while, put the pocket watch on the inside of the bracelet, and then put the bracelet on the wrist with difficulty with one hand.

After doing this, Mu Zian touched her forehead, and her mood began to relax. She let out a breath of steam, turned her head and leaned against the car window, watching the scenery in the distance.

Eyes calm.

The joyful atmosphere in the car did not infect Mu Zi'an, her gaze was always on the neighborhood in front of the bus - among the crowds of people coming and going.

...there is where Gu Nan lives.

Mu Zi'an still remembered that not far from the community there was a waiting station that hadn't been repaired in time and looked a bit dilapidated.

In the autumn of that year, Gu Nan received the news in Beijing that he was going to attend classes at his alma mater. At that time, Mu Zi'an, who was far away in Shanghai, did not know that this person would open the door of her heart in the future.

Make yourself want to live with her forever.

Mu Zi'an wiped the white air from the car window, and stared blankly ahead.

My head seems to be getting hotter.

If she insisted that there was still one stop to go, she could go back, and go back to the person she was thinking about day and night.

……

……

Gu Nan lives as usual and teaches very hard, eating three meals a day, going to bed early and getting up early.

Until one day at noon, during this period of time when no one would look for it at a glance, someone suddenly knocked on the door lightly three times.

Gu Nan looked towards the door.After only three beeps, the door became very quiet again, which made her suspect that it was just her own illusion this time.When he lowered his head, there were three more light knocks on the door.

Not an illusion.

When she got up to open the door, Gu Nan felt a little out of breath, and her feet were a little weak, she stood up with her hands on the table, and the door opened by itself.

After Shi Qing returned to medical school abroad, only one person had the key to his house, and that person disappeared a year ago.

The face behind the door was slowly revealed, Gu Nan's eyes widened, and then he felt as if his head was about to explode. "……you you……"

Slightly blond hair from not seeing the sun for a long time, dull eyes, pale and slender fingers still fixed in mid-air, and it took a while before they were put down.

The man raised his eyes, showing a tired expression, raised his hand to touch his head, and said, "Nan Nan, I seem to have a fever."

The voice was a little coquettish.

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