love you like a song

Gu Nan responded to Mu Zi'an's questioning speechlessly, and continued to lower her head, looking at the cracks in the ground, as if there was something that attracted her there.

It wasn't until Gu Nan counted a crack at No. 20 that Mu Zi'an's voice sounded above Gu Nan's head. "Gu Nan, you know I love you, but what about you?"

She spoke seriously, her voice muffled.

"Half a year ago? Hehe, it's ridiculous. What should I say about you, Gu Nan? That's when you agreed to my pursuit, right?...Are you pitying me?"

Mu Zi'an smiled mockingly, stood up, grabbed Gu Nan's wrist, and dragged her into the room.

Mu Zi'an's actions were even a little rough, Gu Nan was staggered by her pull, but he didn't resist, as if he had already been mentally prepared for this.

Mu Zi'an turned his head to look at the silent Gu Nan, and suddenly threw her away. "So, are you not even willing to give me a reason to lie to me now?"

Mu Zi'an heard himself say.

Gu Nan was thrown away by Mu Zi'an, stood there, looked at Mu Zi'an for a long time, and said. "I know, I knew it from the day you pursued me, so I didn't promise you at first."

"Then why do you still promise me?!" Mu Zi'an roared.

Mu Zi'an tried his best to control his strength, not wanting to look so embarrassing, but it was very difficult to do it in practice, tears just didn't listen to her.

Gu Nan was silent.

"Why don't you talk?" Mu Zi'an looked at her with red eyes and questioned. "Aren't you talking?"

"……I hate you."

"I hate you so much, Nannan."

Mu Zi'an cried over and over again, roaring in a low voice, like a beast trapped by a glass cover, sad, but unwilling to break the cover that trapped it, sadness came from it.

Mu Zi'an watched Gu Nan staring at her motionlessly, and restrained her crying, because she found that Gu Nan's expression was stiff, without any trace of tears, but Mu Zi'an felt that there was a voice in his head crying all the time.

Gu Nan should have cried.

Otherwise, why did Mu Zi'an feel such pain?

Mu Zi'an wanted to leave in a fit of anger, but when he saw that Gu Nan was a bit unsteady, he instinctively chose to approach.

She used to hold Gu Nan's waist, and shed tears back to her heart.

Maybe at the beginning, the person who falls in love first has no right to shed tears.

Opening his eyes again, Mu Zi'an wiped away his tears and smiled brightly.

"'It's okay, Doudou, I will give you happiness, as long as you stay with me until the day you die'... At this time, do you think so, Gu Nan?"

Seeing Gu Nan staring at him in amazement, Mu Zi'an quickly changed his expression, and then smiled heartlessly, like a child who is sad for 3 minutes, who has cried and will soon be able to laugh again.

"I promise."

"What you think, I agree." Mu Zi'an's eyes were like knives, and his words were like arrows, fearing that the other party would not be bruised and empathetic. "I'll be with you until the day you die."

Gu Nan looked at Mu Zi'an, hesitant to speak.

After Mu Zi'an finished washing the dishes, she followed Mu Zi'an slowly without leaving an inch. Gu Nan didn't say anything to Mu Zi'an until she was lying on the bed. "Doudou, don't do this, I'm very sad."

Mu Zi'an closed his eyes in pain.

She just wanted to ask Gu Nan: Is it true that you love me?

The next day, while Mu Zi'an was still asleep, Gu Nan stood in front of Mu Zi'an's bed for a long time, not knowing what he was thinking, then turned around and left early in the morning.

There were not many people in the supermarket in the morning. When Gu Nan was picking things, he didn't hinder him. After taking out the things full, he waited for the bus.

Gu Nan cannot drive, because her hands and feet may be paralyzed anytime and anywhere, including some other sensory nerves. Of course, even if she can drive, there is no car.

After returning home, Gu Nan started to prepare lunch and dinner from the early morning. She made a lot of various ingredients.

However, what she didn't expect was that her illness would break out at this time. Gu Nan collapsed on the ground and wanted to crawl back to the bedroom to get the medicine, but she didn't have any strength in her whole body, and it began to be accompanied by pain.

Gu Nan gritted his teeth and endured, but the lacrimal glands were still developed, and the tears fell drop by drop.

Mu Zi'an is in the next bedroom... As long as Gu Nan yells, Mu Zi'an will come out in a hurry and help her up, and Gu Nan needs medicine to relieve her, otherwise she will fall asleep after time, maybe this For the rest of my life, I will never see Mu Zi'an again.

But in the end, rationality still prevailed over emotions. Gu Nan looked at Mu Zi'an's bedroom, gritted her teeth and crawled back bit by bit. As soon as she reached the bed, she closed her eyes.

……

……

At this time, Mu Zi'an was still immersed in a dream...

Mu Zi'an dreamed that from a third-person perspective, she saw a person who looked exactly like her at Gu Nan's desk, writing a diary.

In the dream, it was very dark and the desk lamp was a bit dim, she saw: the man was writing while looking at the bed.

There was no one on the bed, but that person looked at him strangely and tenderly.

Mu Zi'an looked at the man who behaved strangely and looked like him, then turned his head to look at the desk, and saw that there were only two scattered lines written on the blank page of the diary.

"There is no sun in my world. It is always night, but it is not dark because something replaces the sun. Although it is not as bright as the sun, it is enough for me."

"With this light, I can see night as day."

Then, Mu Zi'an woke up.

The surroundings were pitch black, and the room was dark because of the thick curtains. Mu Zian wiped away the tears from his face, picked up the clock next to the pillow and took a closer look. It was already past nine o'clock.

She is very heavy.

Mu Zi'an had these strange dreams for about three or four days.

It's not so much a dream, it's more like some fragments of memory that Mu Zi'an left her in the previous life.

Mu Zi'an stared at the expressionless person holding the award in the photo frame, sat quietly by the bed for a while, then got up, and went out from his bedroom.

When he walked to the living room, Gu Nan didn't get up, and the door was tightly closed.The huge room suddenly became empty, and the bright sunlight slanting in from the French windows on three sides instantly lost any temperature.

Even though it was scorching summer, Mu Zi'an felt cold.

The coolness from the bottom of my heart.

Mu Zi'an remained silent, and slowly finished the cold breakfast that Gu Nan made for her on the dining table, and put the half-processed ingredients into the refrigerator.

Then... She picked up the phone and pressed a few keys.

"beep--"

"Hey, who is it?"

"Shi...Qing," Mu Zi'an coughed, trying not to make his voice sound hoarse as if he had cried. "it's me."

"Mu Zi'an? What's wrong?" Shi Qing was writing something, his rustling voice came through the phone, he said while thinking.

"...How much money do you have?"

"Well, let me see..." Shi Qing pondered for a while, put down the pen, as if rummaging for something, and asked. "Five thousand, what's the matter? Are you short of money?"

"Gu Nan...she's sick..."

"……What?"

"Uremia...advanced stage..." Mu Zi'an said with difficulty.

Shi Qing was silent on the phone for a while, then laughed awkwardly a few times, and said hesitantly. "...Mu Zi'an, make it look like the real thing... This joke is not funny at all."

"..."

"..."

"You...why don't you speak? It can't be true, right?" Shi Qing's voice became flustered all of a sudden, what did the 'pingling bang bang' break, he asked.

"When did this happen?"

"……Half"

"Wait, needless to say, I'll book tickets right away."

The phone hung up with a bang.

Mu Zi'an put down the phone, went blank for a few seconds before walking to Gu Nan's room.

Seeing that Gu Nan was sleeping with his back turned to him, Mu Zi'an cautiously leaned over half of his body to touch Gu Nan's forehead, and accidentally noticed the faint dark circles under Gu Nan's eyes.

Looks so tired...

Nan Nan was already seriously ill, she didn't understand it, she didn't understand it, and even spoke angrily to her, causing her insomnia... Mu Zi'an felt very guilty, so he could only look up in a daze, thinking about something.

Mu Zi'an knew about Gu Nan's minor problems.

For example: Gu Nan really doesn't want others to touch Mu Zi'an, and also hates that Mu Zi'an is hiding things from her.

In her previous life, except during the Cold War, she would keep a proper distance from herself.At other times, Gu Nan wished she could stick to her body every day.Once she has too much contact with others, she will stop it.

It made the self in the previous life...very 'tired' of Nannan, right?

Mu Zi'an looked at the reading on the thermometer and heaved a sigh of relief, it was a low-grade fever.

Then, looking at Gu Nan's feverish face, Mu Zi'an couldn't restrain himself, carefully crossed his body, and gently dropped the kiss.

Before they kissed each other, Mu Zi'an approached, and found that the person on the bed was sweating profusely, his face was pale and he was curled up together, already trembling.

"Nan Nan, where is your pain?"

Mu Zi'an shook Gu Nan in a panic, but he didn't wake him up. He quickly wrapped Gu Nan in a blanket, supported his head with one hand, and the knees of his legs with the other, and bent down to hug Gu Nan.

"Go, get up, go to the hospital!"

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Wolf wolf details note: Gu Nan's previous car, as mentioned earlier, has already paid Gu Dongliang's medical expenses in advance.The photo frame that Mu Zi'an was looking at was the photo frame (that cardamom year, holding a trophy) that she had kept privately in Gu Nan's study two years ago.