love you like a song

"You don't want to come these days, girl." Zhao Long saw that Mu Zi had settled down, took off his coat, and stretched out his hand to open the curtains, and the sun suddenly flooded in.

Mu Zi'an said to Zhao Long. "I saved your picture just now, you can take a look."

Zhao Long said. "No hurry, - what time did you come?"

"... Very early." Mu Zi'an was silent for a moment, then said. "Did you just mean to fire me?"

Zhao Long was also a little embarrassed, he took out a cigarette from his pocket, and said.

"Then what, you know, I've never been a good person, otherwise I wouldn't be able to hire child labor and oppress children. Now you have no reason to stay here."

Mu Zi'an looked at him, but didn't speak.

Zhao Long took a breath of the cigarette, spit it out, and said. "Anyway, we don't have a formal contract. If you want to leave, just tell me before you leave, and I'll pay you all the money."

"I used to be afraid that you would not study well, so I didn't dare to give you all the money. I thought I would give it to you once you became an adult, but you are not yet an adult, so I transferred the money to your guardian's account."

Zhao Long's finger holding the cigarette trembled a little, but he was very calm and firm.

Mu Zi'an asked Zhao Long again.

"Are you really going to fire me?"

Zhao Long laughed, pressed the cigarette on the ground, and spoke for a long time. "It doesn't matter if you fire or not, you have to go back to the person who was with you - there's no way."

Zhao Long raised his head and said.

"Girl, don't go my old way."

When he spoke, there was no arrogance in the past, and his eyes were very calm, without any hesitation.

"That's it." Mu Zi'an said. "Whether you want to fire me or not has nothing to do with me, but if you give me all the money now, I will consider working with you for a few more years."

"Fuck, you're kidding Uncle Zhao." Zhao Long smiled, his expression relaxed a little.

Mu Zi'an said that, but she was surprised and puzzled in her heart. She never thought that Zhao Long would show that nostalgic and sad expression, and she didn't understand what the old road he was talking about was.

Mu Zi'an was in a daze throughout the afternoon, looked at Zhao Long several times, and wanted to talk to him, but felt that he was not familiar with Zhao Long, and it was better to keep a distance in some things.

Since he was about to leave soon, Zhao Long became much quieter. He stopped making fun of Mu Zi'an when doing business, and stopped ordering Mu Zi'an to do what he did. He even told Mu Zi'an when it was almost five o'clock.

"Let's go, get off work early today."

Mu Zi'an looked at his watch, knew that Gu Nan hadn't come yet, and he had nowhere to go, so he said:

"Wait a little longer."

Zhao Long stuffed the coat to Mu Zi'an and said. "Get out, let me go home, B174."

When he said 'B174', his voice was obviously small and vague. Before Mu Zi'an could react, he was pushed out and closed the door.

"..."

Walking outside, Mu Zi'an felt a lot more relaxed, however, her thoughts were like a clogged pool of water, thinking over and over again of those strange things that made her feel during this period.

The boss at work is suspected to be a member of the organization, the mother who suddenly changed her attitude, the files deleted by unknown hackers...everything, every one of them is like a huge net that traps her, and she is the only one hidden in it.

This feeling made Mu Zian restless, and she would think of Gu Nan from time to time. Sometimes she smiled at herself, sometimes she rubbed her head helplessly, and sometimes she was drunk and lying on her bed. Under the body, wrapped around himself.

Finally, it was fixed on Gu Nan's bruised and congested arms and constantly swollen body.

Mu Zi'an closed his eyes, feeling flustered and at a loss.

This emotion lasted until Gu Nan picked her up.

Mu Zi'an didn't dare to look into Gu Nan's eyes, as if he was afraid that Gu Nan would know what she suspected, that Gu Nan would hide her even more, and even more afraid that it was herself—she herself would be like the time before Gu Dongliang jumped off the building. Not noticeable.

Gu Nan felt the changes in Mu Zi'an very keenly, and she asked many times along the way.

"Doudou, what's the matter?"

And Mu Zi'an always answered 'it's okay', and then looked at Gu Nan, so he could more clearly discover the weakness that Gu Nan was hiding, that pale smile that forced his spirits up.

At the dinner table, Gu Nan hesitated to speak and said. "Did your counselor scold you today? Doudou, it's okay, just don't accompany me..."

"No." Mu Zi'an interrupted her and said. "Have a meal."

After eating, Gu Nan went to the bathroom to take a shower, and Mu Zi'an wiped the bowls. Because she was preoccupied, she brushed very slowly, and even washed one bowl three times repeatedly.

Mu Zi'an didn't hear Gu Nan's sound of opening the door. At that time, she was staring at a certain point in the void in a daze.

Gu Nan hugged her from behind, Mu Zi'an froze for a moment, a little at a loss.

Her breath fell into Mu Zi'an's ears, and she kept rubbing her cheeks.

Gu Nan's upper body was soft, sticking to Mu Zi'an's back, bringing a scalding heat.

"Nan Nan, don't make trouble."

Mu Zi'an's thoughts became even more confused, and he waved his arms, trying to break away from Gu Nan's embrace.But after her arm relaxed slightly, she subconsciously panicked, and Mu Zi'an turned around.

Seeing that Gu Nan was still reaching out to touch him, Mu Zi'an said in a low voice. "... let go."

Gu Nan was restless, while Mu Zi'an was still holding a bowl in his hand.No way, she thought for a while, let it go again, and hugged Gu Nan face to face.

Gu Nan buried her head on Mu Zi'an's shoulder, and gently touched her neck with her lips.

Mu Zi'an is now half a head taller than Gu Nan, and he can kiss her as long as he lowers his head.

Mu Zi'an glanced casually at Gu Nan's lips.

Gu Nan's lips are not as bright and dripping as other girls with lipstick on, on the contrary they are even pale and dry, but Mu Zi'an knows how soft those lips are when kissed, the softness makes Mu Zi'an's mouth dry.

So, Mu Zian swallowed her saliva, and Gu Nan took advantage of the opportunity to kiss her neck.

Mu Zi'an's neck itched, and an inexplicable heat burst out of her heart, she clenched her fists involuntarily, her only rationality was still entangled.

Mu Zi'an pushed Gu Nan's shoulder and said.

"Okay, let me do the dishes."

"Put it there." Gu Nan's voice was vague and weak. "I'll wash in a while..."

When he heard this voice, Mu Zi'an's head buzzed, his face suddenly turned pale, he let go of Gu Nan, and squatted down, covering his head in pain.

In an instant, countless scattered pictures flashed through Mu Zi'an's mind, so she was stunned.

Mu Zi'an saw himself kneeling in front of the tombstone, saw himself talking to someone, and saw himself holding a knife, with blood streaming down his face...

Seeing Gu Nan squatting down facing her, Mu Zi'an couldn't distinguish between reality and image, she actually cried.Tears were streaming down, there was no tissue, Mu Zi'an wiped the corners of his eyes with his sleeve, and looked up at Gu Nan.

"..."

"Would you like to sit down and listen to me?" Gu Nan also stared at Mu Zi'an's tear-filled eyes, and asked calmly, as if he had been preparing for a long time.

Mu Zian didn't say anything, but hesitated for a moment, then nodded.

She was afraid that once she opened her mouth and cried, Gu Nan would stop talking.

However, at the moment when Mu Zi'an hesitated, Gu Nan held her finger and kissed it lightly.Then, he sighed again.

Mu Zi'an stared blankly at Gu Nan, and suddenly found that the eyes of this always strong woman in front of her were also red.

"Doudou, I..."

"It's almost gone."

The outside lights were all blocked from the door, and the room was dark, and the darkness covered everything, and the silence was terrible, as if everything had disappeared.

Mu Zi'an just stared at Gu Nan, and after a while, she asked hesitantly. "What did you say?"

Mu Zi'an's expression should be ferocious, she couldn't control the expression on her face.Before she even had time to feel sad, she was filled with confusion, fear, and bewilderment.

Gu Nan gently touched Mu Zi'an's back, and kissed her cheek with his lips.Mu Zi'an felt Gu Nan trembling, and then heard Gu Nan repeat it again.

"I can not make it."

No luck at all.

This voice without any hesitation made Mu Zi'an panic.

She organized the words in her mind.

"What disease?"

Hearing this, Gu Nan looked at Mu Zi'an for a long time, and finally turned his face away and said. "Kidney disease, it's been almost half a year, and now... the advanced stage of uremia."

Mu Zi'an remained silent, staring at Gu Nan's side face, tears welling up in his eyes. "...Give me a reason, Gu Nan, give me a reason to hide from me."

"talk!"

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