Will you die if you don't act cute every day?

Just like good people do not necessarily live long, and bad people do not necessarily die early.

We are just in a samsara, walking in a circle forever.

"Huanhuan, each of us has done our best. The moment we passed the rostrum, we felt the same, and our thoughts were the same. At that time, we had formed a temporary group, and this was not enough. Is it?" Cheng Si gently pinched Ding Huanhuan's chin, staring at her, eyes as calm and dark as the sea.

The corners of Ding Huanhuan's mouth curled up, and she threw herself into Cheng Si's arms. Her two hands tightly wrapped around her slender waist, her shoulders twitched from crying, and her crying voice was full of grievances: " But I am still unconvinced, obviously we are also very good, and we are also walking very well..."

Cheng Si wasn't talking anymore, she knew the best time to do something, so she just patted her on the back quietly and listened to her calmly.

Liu Xin walked over from the front, she put one arm on Ding Huanhuan's shoulder, and poked her face with the other, teasingly said: "Hey, look at this little cat, who is it~"

Ding Huanhuan patted her coquettishly, and spat: "What little cat, you are the little cat! My sister is obviously the queen."

Liu Xin looked at her laughing through tears, pulled her out of Cheng Si's arms, and said with a smile: "You're not a little cat, you're crying when you're almost running, tsk tsk tsk, you're really made of water!" , this eye shouldn’t be a reservoir, right?”

Ding Huanhuan raised her brows when she heard the words, and her whole face instantly became a bit hideous. She wiped her face indiscriminately, then raised her hand to hit Liu Xin. Seeing that something was wrong, Liu Xin immediately ran out with oil on her feet. Behind her, angry growls hovered over the morning playground.

Everything is so vibrant.

Cheng Si smiled and looked at the shadows of the two of them until there were only two rice grain-sized dots left.Her eyelashes trembled slightly, and she looked at the leaden gray clouds above her head, showing a smile that almost burst into tears.

She calmed down again, raised her feet and walked in a direction different from others.

Only her life will only be one person.

The feeling of loneliness grew wildly, but she felt extremely at ease, like an apple with a rotten inside, and could only hide in the seemingly intact flesh.

How wonderful it would be if there was only her in this world and everyone else were strangers who had nothing to do with her.

She lowered her head and took out her mobile phone, and sent her dad a message on WeChat: I'm here.

Exit the WeChat page, and a message prompt will pop up on the first screen.

Yuner 2015/9/179: 23

Cheng Si, those two men are so annoying

Yuner 2015/9/179: 25

So many people now think I'm the girlfriend of one of them and I don't know what to do

Yuner 2015/9/179: 28

I'm so annoying, I want to cry

Yuner 2015/9/179: 58

Why are you not by my side.

Yuner 2015/9/1710: 23

I really miss our old days. At that time, there was only each other in our world.

Why are you not here, when I need you most, you are never here.

Obviously they can be by my side when I need someone, but you will never be able to.

Cheng Si's heart was at peace, she was already used to it, and there were too many complaints in their relationship.It is said that extremes lead to opposites, and if there are too many complaints and worries about this relationship, the relationship will naturally change in quality.She felt that she was able to deal with this relationship calmly, and she could withdraw at any time.

When the phone rang, Cheng Si suddenly felt uneasy. The phone seemed to have turned into a wild beast, and it was going to eat her in the next moment.

"Hey?"

"Sisi, come back quickly. If your mother dies, she is waiting for you. You can call back immediately." Dad's voice seemed to float to the distant sky. sighs like weeping.

Cheng Si's whole body suddenly shivered, and his brain became clearer than ever.

She quickened her pace, said in a low voice that she got it, and hung up the phone.She ran to the side of the street and waved to stop a taxi, but it was the time for taxis to turn over, and the passing cars either had passengers or didn't pick them up.

Watching the vehicles coming and going, Cheng Si's palms gradually broke out in cold sweat.But her expression was calm, and her mind was unusually clear.

She saw that there were more taxis driving across the road, so she hurried to the opposite side to stop the taxi.Finally, a green taxi from City H drove up from a distance, Cheng Si stopped it, got on it and asked, "Do you want to go to the People's Hospital at Wenxin intersection?"

The driver master pressed the green "empty car" sign in front of the car and said: "Go, you can sit at ease."

Cheng Si took the schoolbag from her shoulders and hugged her in front of her body, and continued: "Can it be faster? The sooner the better!" Her hand holding the phone was a little cold, but her tone was still calm, and she couldn't hear anything .

The driver glanced at her, nodded, and stepped on the gas.

Cheng Si took out the earphone cable, plugged it into the earphone jack of the mobile phone and started listening to the songs. The songs played in the earphones were all some piano music, because her mother liked it, so she downloaded a lot.Most of the melodies of those songs were sad and lonely. After listening to them, Cheng Si's tears began to flow down, and more and more, but her expression was numb, her eyes were calm, and there was no sadness. It seems that crying is just an action for her.

The driver looked at her through the front-view mirror several times, but in the end he didn't say anything, and only speeded up the car silently.

The phone in his hand started ringing again, and the melody that Cheng Si liked very much sounded like a magic song that urged death.

Cheng Si put the phone to her ear, "Hello?" The voice was the same as usual, and she couldn't tell that she had just cried.

In my ear was my father's anxious voice, "Sisi, where are you? Have you arrived yet?"

Cheng Si turned her head out of the window, she didn't want outsiders to see her crying, she said softly: "I just got in the car, and I just entered the elevated road now."

Dad said: "Okay, okay, then you try to hurry up and call me as soon as you arrive."

Cheng Si replied, "Yes."

The phone hangs up again.

Cheng Si continued to play the song silently, the tears on her face continued to flow freely, but the corners of her mouth curved slightly, she thought, her mother was finally free, and she should be happy for her.My mother told her more than once that on the day she died, she didn't want anyone to shed tears for her, she just wanted everyone to smile and watch her leave, as if she was just traveling to a very perfect place.

My mother doesn't want her to take away any sorrow after death, and she doesn't want to have a grave. She hopes that everyone can follow the rules of physics and erase her memory bit by bit in the long river of time.

Mother always sees so clearly, Cheng Si's tears are getting more and more violent, she can hardly control her tear glands, she can only smile ugly while wiping the tears on her face with the back of her hand.She can't do anything, she can't do anything.In the end, she can only be a witness to her mother's demise.

Cheng Si took a deep breath. My mother once said that when encountering a sudden emotion, as long as you keep taking deep breaths, you can calm yourself down.However, Cheng Si looked sadly at the reddish sky outside, her mother didn't tell her what to do if she was calm enough but her emotions were out of control.

Her chest seemed to be stuffed with heavy stones, Cheng Si could feel the acrid feeling coming from her trachea with every breath she took, she held her hands tightly, with blue veins popping out of her pale hands.

When did breathing become a burden for her.

The song in the earphones became more and more sad. It seemed that the closer she was to the hospital, the less she could maintain the upward curve of her mouth.Bitter choked sobs began to emerge from her mouth, like a trapped animal, locking herself in her own world.

Everything around her seemed to lose its light in an instant, and she seemed to be alone in the whole world. She was swallowed by the loneliness and depression like a tide, and there was not even a bone left.

Cheng Si didn't understand why a good person like her mother would get sick?Why is there always so much misfortune surrounding mothers?Why does bad luck always favor mother so much?

She always felt that everything that happened in the past year was like an idol drama.

As long as one day, a director appears to stop, all the misfortunes will be away from them immediately.

She wanted to escape more than once, and she wanted to save more than once, but the reality told her that her mother would die one day, and the death would be very painful.She can only be a lonely ferryman in her mother's last days, so that her mother will not be afraid of the uncertain future as much as possible.

She smiled and watched her mother lose weight a little bit.

She smiled and watched her mother cry out in pain.

She smiled and watched her mother struggle on the hospital bed.

She... smiled and looked at her mother's strong eyes, and her mother also smiled and looked at her. The love like the sea and the abyss surrounded her every day.People say that the temperature of the sea is freezing, but Cheng Si feels that when her mother looks at her, she seems to be in heaven, in a place that the world cannot touch.

But now, she is about to... watch her mother die with a smile.

How can she show such a smile?

How should she play the role of a perfect ferryman?What kind of expression should she use to tell her mother that she is not sad at all?

Cheng Si clenched the corner of her mouth tightly, tears clouded her eyes, she really wanted to cry desperately, but how could she do this?

How could she still make her mother leave with guilt at her mother's last moment?

The car stopped at the People's Hospital in City H. Cheng Si wiped her face vigorously, her expression returned to the previous indifference, her eyes were calm.

After paying, she got out of the car and ran to her mother's ward.