Will you die if you don't act cute every day?

"Your mother is critically ill. The doctor said it happened in the past few days." Cheng Si did not expect to receive such news on the morning of the military parade.

But everything was within reason, she always knew that sooner or later this day would come.It's just that every time she sees her mother smiling, she always feels that this day may never come.

Her throat was suddenly a little dry, and Cheng Si's breathing was stagnant, as if she had lost her breathing instinct all of a sudden. Her blank eyes looked at the white light above her head, and then she gave a faint "um", using even her own breath. Asked in a calm tone of disbelief: "Mom, what is it like now?"

It was fine 15 days ago, why suddenly...

She still remembers how childish her mother was at that time...

My heart was a little blocked, and an empty and terrifying emotion flooded up.

Oh, by the way... cancer, isn't that how cancer kills people?

"Your mother has been coughing up blood, and she vomited more and more. The human serum albumin that she is now on is useless to her. About the day before yesterday, your mother started to have blood."

Cheng Si listened, and hummed again, her expression was very indifferent, as if what she heard now was not a big deal.

There was a voice from her roommate telling her to go to the playground outside the door. She glanced at the door and said softly to her mobile phone: "Then I'll be right back after the military parade is over. Well, I know, I will be careful."

The phone hangs up.

Within seconds, the bell rang again.

It's rhyme.

Cheng Si darkened his eyes slightly, took a light breath, and answered: "Yun'er?"

"Cheng Si, I don't know what to do. There are a few men in the department who have been pestering me. Today we held an event in the playground. They didn't have anything to do with them, but they ran over and sat next to me to talk to me. "

It's the same topic again. Ever since Yun'er went to report at the university, Cheng Si has received such a call almost every day.

Cheng Si sniffed, her face was cold, but her voice was still soft, she said: "Then you can make it clear to them and let them not disturb your life."

"I said it, but it was useless. I told them that I have a boyfriend!"

Boy friend?When Cheng Si heard this, his eyes flickered. Is our relationship so shameful?She suddenly asked: "Yun'er, if I go to City Y, will you come pick me up?"

"You came to my place? Why?" The voice on the other end was panicked for a moment, like a frightened deer.

Cheng Sidao: "Didn't you really want me to visit you?"

"You don't want to go and explain to them yourself, tell them about our relationship?"

"Isn't it possible?" Cheng Sirou said, but bursts of coldness began to surge in his body, as if standing alone in the ice and snow, and his whole body would be buried under heavy snow.

"No, do you want everyone to know about our relationship? If you do this, how will I see people in the future?"

The coldness in his body became louder and louder. Cheng Si held the phone and wanted to throw it on the ground several times, but it didn't work. Now the family is in urgent need of money, and it's not enough to add an extra expense.

She panted sharply, her eyes were a little sore, she turned her back, leaned heavily on the door, gritted her teeth and said, "Yun'er, if you were here with me, I would tell others about our relationship, and even if someone told me Confess, I will also tell him that I have someone I like, please don't bother me."

"Don't be funny, even if you want to tell others, I won't let you tell. You are not in my position now, so you don't know how difficult my situation is. I have indeed been confessed by several people. , but I did not agree..."

"But how about you being ambiguous like this? You are ambiguous with so many men, what do you make other people think? Do you have to be told behind your back that you are a courtesan to be satisfied?" Cheng Si suppressed his voice, with a few twitches on his forehead Veins twitching.

"Fuck you, why do you talk about me? It's like this every time. You only get nervous about me and care about me when you feel like you're about to lose. Cheng Si, do you really still love me?"

like?Cheng Si took a few deep breaths, and she felt that she was about to be unable to breathe. When her mother was seriously ill, she still cared about Yun'er, and when her mother was chatting with her so earnestly, she still did not forget to send text messages with Yuner. When I stay up late every day to take care of my mother, I still coax Yun'er...

You know, that is the mother she may never see again someday!For Yun'er, she split herself in half, gave half to her mother and half to her, but now Yun'er said so to her.

Cheng Si opened her mouth, and the suffocated tears fell from her eye sockets. She choked up and said, "Yun'er, my mother is critically ill." As soon as these words came out, her heart seemed to be clenched by one hand, and her lungs were tightly squeezed. The air inside was squeezed out little by little.

The world seemed to be broken into countless pieces in an instant.

I'm about to lose my mother...

I have thought about losing my mother countless times, but as long as I think of my mother is still there, my heart will become very at ease.

It was a peace of mind that cannot be expressed in words.

You tell me, what should I do?

You tell me, what can I do to let you know that I like you?

"Ah?" Yun'er was obviously shocked on the other end of the phone, her voice suddenly became very soft, and said: "Cheng Si, don't be too sad, after all, you already knew that this day would come, I don't know what I'm doing now How should I comfort you, but I think you are well, and I think your mother must also hope that you are well, just wait for me, I will go outside and tell you."

The calls from the roommates outside the door became more urgent, almost to the point where they were about to slam the door in the next second.

Cheng Si's expression suddenly calmed down, she calmly wiped away the tears on her face, and said softly: "It's okay, you go ahead, I'm going to the military parade soon, we'll talk later."

"...Okay, that... Si, don't think too much, if you are sad, I will feel sorry for you." Gentle words are like a gust of wind, only a ripple on the heart lake, and nothing is left up.

Cheng Si's eyes became obscured, and she felt in a trance that there seemed to be an impenetrable wall between herself and Yun'er, and she could no longer hear the truth and falsehood in those words.

"Well, I see." Cheng Si raised the corners of his mouth and showed a flat smile.Then he heard the beep of Yun'er hanging up the phone.

She put the phone casually in her trouser pocket and opened the door.

"Hey, Cheng Si, what are you doing in there? It won't take that long to have a baby!!" Shi Jia patted her shoulder hard, and said anxiously.

The corners of Cheng Si's mouth twitched, and he said with an innocent face, "It only takes you 5 minutes to give birth~ I just felt a little sick to my stomach, and I released it in the toilet!"

Shi Jia looked her up and down, then pouted her mouth inward, and said, "Then you're all right now that you've finished stretching? If you're still sad, I'll ask for a leave of absence for you."

Cheng Si took a step outside, closed the door with his right hand, and said, "It's all right, I probably ate too much greasy food recently, now after pulling, I feel relaxed and revived in minutes."

"Then, let's go, it's too late for us to go to the cafeteria to eat, so let's go to the nearby breakfast shop to buy something to take away."

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On the playground, the same sports meeting march was played. Cheng Si heard this song from the first grade of primary school to the first grade of university.

The atmosphere on the field was a bit solemn, and the instructors sat on the viewing platform next to the rostrum, staring at them with piercing eyes.

The students puffed up their chests unanimously. Today is the last day of military training. After so many days of training, they must not embarrass the instructor.

Cheng Si was a little distracted, her left and right feet were often different when she was stepping, Ding Huanhuan whispered behind her, "Cheng Si, you have the same hands and feet again, quickly change it."

Cheng Si was taken aback for a moment, hummed in a low voice, and slowed down a bit, keeping pace with the people in front.

Liu Xin heard the voice behind her, turned her head and took a deep look at Cheng Si, then turned back without saying a word.

For some reason, Cheng Si always felt a hint of comfort in her eyes, as if Liu Xin already knew why she was restless.

Cheng Si stared at the back of Liu Xin's head for a long time, then looked away in relief, what was she thinking, how could Liu Xin know about her family affairs.

The parade began.

Cheng Si followed the team and began to walk forward slowly. Her mind gradually cleared away the mixed emotions, and her eyes became serious.The students around were very quiet, with only the sound of breathing and the sound of orderly footsteps in their ears.

It was only 50 meters from their positions to the rostrum. When Shi Jia, the acting squad leader, was 10 meters away from the rostrum, he yelled: "1, 2, 3, 4."

"1-2-3-4, one battalion after another, go forward bravely. The proud son of the army, fight for the first place." The voice of the password resounding through the sky made Cheng Si's eardrums buzz, and the moment she turned her head to salute, she saw On the podium, satisfaction flashed across the faces of the school leaders.

After crossing the rostrum, the students did not dare to relax for a moment, and continued to walk neatly to their respective positions.

***

They ignored the class passing in front of them, each with expressionless faces and firm eyes.There were continuous vibrations in Cheng Si's pocket, her eyes fell on the back of the head of the person in front of her, her hands were pressed tightly to the seams of her trousers, and the soles of her feet felt numb from stepping on the ground too hard, but her whole body remained the same. Stand like a straight pole.

Even if she doesn't care whether the class can get a place or not, she will never allow the entire class to be affected because of her own mistakes.

After more than half an hour, all the classes stood on the green lawn in the middle of the playground.

A school leader in a suit and leather shoes held a microphone in his hand and gave an impassioned speech on it. He affirmed everyone's hard work for so many days and expressed his gratitude to the instructors present.

"Okay, I think everyone can't wait to know the results of this military parade, and I will announce, No.1, [-]th Battalion."

"Wow!" came a cheer from the far corner.

"No.2, Battalion Eight."

"Yeah!" The class standing in the middle of the field said happily.

"No.3, Second Battalion."

"I hope that in the days to come, students can use this spirit of persistence and never giving up in their studies. I believe that every student is a young eagle that is about to take off. As long as you are willing to pay, you will eventually have One day, I will soar above the nine heavens! I will announce below that the military parade is over. Please be safe when you go home.”

"Why aren't we there?" Ding Huanhuan suddenly shouted behind him, and the eyes of the class moved to the back in an instant.

Seeing so many people staring at her, Ding Huanhuan didn't show any timidity. Instead, the corners of her eyes turned red, her face was full of dissatisfaction, her voice was choked up, and she sounded extremely aggrieved, "Am I wrong? Obviously we also worked so hard. In training, but why didn't we win the prize."

Cheng Si took out a pack of napkins from his pocket, took out one, turned around and helped her dry the tears on her face, her eyes were very light, and her voice was calm, she said: "In this world, if you don't work hard, you will have success." In return, we did not win the award, which only shows that we are not as hardworking as others. It’s nothing, don’t cry.”

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