After dressing up as a cub, cute and turn the world

Zheng Ruilin hurriedly put the incubator on the table, brought over the blanket at the end of the bed, and carefully wrapped Tang Haochu in the blanket, trying to make him nestle in his arms in the most comfortable position, before gently hugging him .

The blanket was specially bought by Tang Zhenkai for his younger brother, and it was very soft, so Tang Haochu subconsciously rubbed his chin on the blanket, and Zheng Ruilin subconsciously rubbed his chin on Tang Haochu's cheek.Probably because he was too busy these days, running between the work unit and the hospital, Zheng Ruilin didn't shave, and the hard stubble made Tang Haochu feel a little painful, but it inexplicably distracted him from the roiling pain in his brain.

Zheng Ruilin held Tang Haochu in his arms, and he felt that Tang Haochu was like a hot potato in his arms, he wanted to touch it but didn't dare to touch it, and he was like a baby he loved so much that he couldn't help but dare to touch it.

Since Tang Haochu had said before that he wanted Zheng Ruilin to talk with him, Zheng Ruilin rubbed his cheek while talking to him.Zheng Ruilin is indeed very sociable, but he is not the kind of talkative person. On the contrary, he is the most annoying chatterer, and he has no patience to chat with anyone. No matter how he treats family, friends or subordinates, he He has always been concise and to the point, and he can't say even half a sentence that is superfluous, except when facing Tang Haochu.Facing Tang Haochu, the more he looked at it, the more he liked it, and the more he liked it, the more he couldn't help but want to talk to him. This has been the case since the first time he saw him, even if Tang Haochu didn't give any echo or response, as long as he was willing to be by the side quietly Listen, he could talk non-stop all day too.

Apart from Zheng Ruilin's own experience, they actually have a lot of common topics to talk about, such as Mr. Zheng and Mr. Tang, their classmates in elementary school and the teachers who taught them in junior high school.After all, we have known each other since we were a few years old. Tang Haochu understood Zheng Ruilin's character more or less, and knew that he was not a person who likes to chatter and gossip. But listening to him talk about those trivial matters at this moment, it was as clear and interesting as if he had experienced it himself.Tang Haochu leaned on Zheng Ruilin's chest, listening to his heartbeat and his rambling words, inexplicably felt that the negative emotions in his mind subsided a little, his mood became much more stable, and he even faintly felt sleepy.

Sleep is a luxury for people with depression, so this sleepiness is very rare for him.Zheng Ruilin didn't know if the person in his arms listened, but felt that he looked very obedient in his arms, and his eyes were ignorant and obedient, which made his heart soften.It wasn't until Zheng Ruilin mentioned that in the year they were in the third year of junior high school together, the male student in the class who was so fat that he almost got stuck in the door but had a particularly good personality married the most beautiful study committee member in the class and was pregnant with twins. Finally, I responded, and even took the initiative to say 'that's great'.

But Zheng Ruilin felt that the person in his arms like this at the moment was good enough.

No matter who you are, no matter how strong your heart is, you will long for a harbor in your heart. Zheng Ruilin has met so many people over the years, but none of them have given him the idea of ​​getting married and staying together for a lifetime. This person makes him want to hug and coax him all the time, and he feels happy and satisfied when he sees him.

Zheng Ruilin suddenly held Tang Haochu's hand tightly, and said in a very serious tone: "Haohao, believe me, you will be fine. I know the recovery process is not easy, it will be very painful, but you still have family members Friends, there are many people who care about and care about you,...and me," the voice choked up as he spoke, "I will always be with you, please persevere, don't give up, okay?"

Tang Haochu blinked slightly and looked at Zheng Ruilin in a daze.

This kind of undefended expression rarely appears on his face, at least Zheng Ruilin rarely sees it. What he sees most is his expressionless and cold face. down.But after a few seconds, his heart became even hotter. This feeling was like looking at a dazzling fire through thick glass or ice, and he was teased out by him in this coldness and alienation. The desire and love that cannot be extinguished.

Zheng Ruilin looked deeply at Tang Haochu, and Tang Haochu also looked at Zheng Ruilin in the same posture just now, and then nodded faintly amidst Zheng Ruilin's nervousness and expectation.The nodding motion was very light, so light that it was almost invisible, but in Zheng Ruilin's eyes, it was infinitely large, even weighing more than a thousand catties.

Tang Haochu finally fell asleep in Zheng Ruilin's arms.

His body was too weak, and now he quietly closed his eyes, sleeping purely like a baby.Zheng Ruilin looked down at the sleeping person in his arms, and because he was afraid of waking him up, he gently stroked his hair at a distance of less than one centimeter, and then moved from the forehead down to the eyebrows, nose bridge and lips, smoothing the hair of his face. I traced every place in detail before retracting my hand.But he didn't look back, he still looked at him greedily, as if he couldn't get enough of it.

Tang Haochu began to take the medicine carefully according to the doctor's advice, and actively cooperated with the treatment.

Drugs specifically act on neurotransmitters. Although they will inevitably bring many side effects, no matter how big the side effects are, they are lighter than the disease itself.Tang Haochu is a doctor himself, and he knows the importance of taking medicine. It is purely a fluke if he wants to heal himself without taking medicine. If he refuses to take medicine, he may miss the best time for treatment.

The doctor prescribed medicines for four weeks according to Tang Haochu's actual situation. Large and small medicine boxes and bottles were piled up together like a hill. Zheng Ruilin strictly followed the doctor's instructions and divided them into daily doses. It took a long time to finally finish the division. , Checked it carefully again, and labeled the daily medicines with the date, and even drew a heart full of encouragement.

On the second day after Tang Haochu took the medicine, the medicine began to take effect gradually, and the side effects appeared at the same time, such as dry mouth and heart palpitations, dizziness and nausea, and his strength was not the same as before. He easily felt weak and his reaction to the outside world also slowed down. , seems careless and elusive, and will give people a feeling of arrogance and indifference.The insomnia has not improved either. He often lies on the bed with his eyes closed and cannot fall asleep after lying down for hours, but he no longer has so many negative thoughts, just rambling thoughts.

Because of lack of sleep, he will inevitably lose energy during the day, and he cannot concentrate when talking to others, which makes him appear even colder to those who don't know.Fortunately, this indifference does not make people feel annoying, and even feels very obedient and painful.

The medicine was taken every morning and evening. After Tang Haochu took the medicine in the morning, he was wheeled by the nurse to the garden for a walk.Originally, he should have walked by himself. If Tang Zhenkai or Zheng Ruilin were here, they would definitely half-coax and half-force him to walk and exercise more. Unfortunately, they are all busy today, and Tang Haochu suddenly started to get lazy. Indulging in the second half of the step is not willing to move.

But he didn't arrive at the garden, because he saw Cheng Yu not long after leaving the ward.

Cheng Yu already knew everything - from Tang Haochu's diagnosis of depression to his childhood autism, and this had a greater impact on him than when he found out that Tang Haochu had left that day.He knows people with autism. A cousin of a distant relative has autism. Although we don’t meet many times, every time I see him, he does his own thing and never communicates with others. , It is very difficult to get a response from him. It is said that even if he is cured, interpersonal communication cannot be as easy as ordinary people, and it still requires a lot of effort every time he speaks.

But Tang Haochu talked a lot with him, and even agreed to be with him back then.He didn't know how much effort he put in when he spoke, and what kind of determination he made to agree to be with him, but he still thought he was taciturn, didn't tell him anything, and thought he was always alone. People sat silently in a daze or soaked in the laboratory, thinking that he would not go out with him to meet friends, and even forced him to go to the club to find him.

Cheng Yu couldn't think deeply at all, because just thinking about it for a moment would make his heart ache, and the hand that had been tightly clutching Tang Haochu's internal organs since he left had never let go even for a second.But I dare not think about it, and I will unconsciously think of the scenes with Tang Haochu, the appearance of him cooking dinner when he was not in class and waiting for him to come back from work, and thinking of him quietly listening to him talk about the company. The appearance of being troubled, thinking of him lying on the sofa with him, reading a book and watching a movie, warming milk for him at night, tying his tie in the morning, and packing his clothes before the business trip...

Every beautiful picture is as deep as it is engraved in my heart, and it keeps playing back in my mind, and how beautiful it was before is how painful it is now.

Gaining and then losing forever is more painful than never having it.

Bearing the price for what you did wrong is a compulsory course for adults, Cheng Yu is well aware of this, but he still cannot avoid venting his anger.Because it was too painful, beyond the limit of what he could bear, if he couldn't find someone to share it, he might go crazy.Naturally, Bai Lingqing couldn't escape Cheng Yu's anger, and Cheng Yu exposed her restless scheming in front of the Cheng family's parents, but Cheng Yu's biggest shock to the Cheng family's parents was from Cheng Yu,—he bluntly said that The woman is disappointed and disgusted and will never marry and have children, and is even willing to give up everything in the Cheng family.

At this moment, Cheng Yu half-kneeled in front of Tang Haochu's wheelchair and repeated the words that he would never get married and have children, begging Tang Haochu to give him another chance in an unprecedented begging tone.It was the first time in his life that he lowered his posture so low, but as long as he could ask Tang Haochu to be with him again, it didn't matter how low he lowered himself.

But Tang Haochu's expression didn't move at all, Cheng Yu reached out to pull Tang Haochu's hand, but was dodged.Tang Haochu even turned the wheelchair and took a step back, moved a little distance away from Cheng Yu, then pursed his lips, as if he was trying to think of words, before he said, "It's not your fault."

The already slow speech rate became even slower due to taking the medicine. He tried to speed up the speech rate and repeated: "...It's not your fault, it's my problem."

This sentence made Cheng Yu feel even more uncomfortable.If Tang Haochu could get angry at him, scold him or beat him up, he would be able to feel better, but the other party would not blame other people's character, he would not even understand the selfishness of ordinary people, nor Bai Lingqing's hypocrisy and greed , he really felt that it was his own problem, even if he was hurt or treated unfairly, he would just silently keep it in his heart.

The hand holding the internal organs stirred again, and Cheng Yu had to press his chest tightly so that his whole body would not tremble from the pain, trying to explain again: "Haochu, listen to me, I did promise my mother would I gave birth to her a grandson, and I did go shopping with Bai Lingqing at my mother's request, but I have never had any substantive relationship with Bai Lingqing," the voice swears, and he looks at Tang Haochu with burning eyes, as if life and death They are all in the hands of the other party, "I don't care about anything in the future, I just stay with you and take care of you wholeheartedly, please forgive me, okay?"

Tang Haochu looked at Cheng Yu's expression without changing, and declared again in a serious tone: "I really never blamed you."

The sound was extremely soft, and disappeared in an instant in the empty and quiet corridor, but it was like a heavy hammer hitting Cheng Yu's heart hard.

There is no chance to be forgiven, Cheng Yu thought desperately.

"You go back," Tang Haochu looked at the gradually cloudy sky, and said slowly, "I'm going to rest too."

The young man's face was still pretty, his dark eyes were calm and warm, and his voice was still nice, like flower petals being blown down by the breeze, causing gentle ripples on the water.Cheng Yu remembered that he used to talk about us, such as shall we eat? Let's go back, but now there is no 'us', and there will be no more in the future.

It was as if thousands of needles were pierced into his chest, and Cheng Yu felt that each of them penetrated deeply into his heart, and his brain, which had not slept for many days, began to clamor to protest.Since the day he found out that Tang Haochu had left, he hadn't slept much. After returning to the villa from Cheng's house last night, he only rested on the sofa for a while.

The villa without Tang Haochu was as quiet as a dead place, and the whole building suddenly turned into a desolate tomb.The villa is actually not big, and there are not many vacant rooms, even fewer when the third floor is completely transformed into a laboratory, but Cheng Yu just feels that everything is terribly empty.Cheng Yu couldn't go back to his room to sleep, nor could he go to Tang Haochu's room to sleep, so he had to sleep on the sofa in the living room.The living room was also empty, and the yard could be seen through the floor-to-ceiling windows as soon as one looked up.Cheng Yu woke up suddenly after falling asleep for less than two hours, and vaguely saw a black shadow flashing by outside the window. He was so excited for a moment, and ran to the window without thinking about putting on his shoes. Tree branches blown by the wind.

But he still couldn't help walking out of the door and into the yard, even out of the villa, and stood by the street for a long time.After the strong wind, there was a shower of rain, and the rain fell on Cheng Yu's body from small to large, and drenched his clothes.

The whole person immediately became heavy, covered with rust, and lost all luster.

He felt himself falling from a height.

Falling at a hundred times the speed, he fell heavily into the dark swamp. The impact of the fall shattered his bones, tore his skin, and a cloud of blood filled his eyes.Accompanied by the rumbling thunder, a burst of heavier rain poured down in a hurry. Occasionally, a car rushed through the rain curtain quickly. Other than that, there were no other pedestrians on the road, only Cheng Yu was standing without any shelter and was not shrouded by street lights. On the street, I suddenly looked up at the slightly brighter sky in the east.

The rainy season has arrived, and the sun will never be seen again.

Tang Haochu had already turned around and returned to the ward, leaving only Cheng Yu in a half-kneeling position to stay where he was.He seemed to have lost the strength to support himself to stand, and tried to get up with his hands on the ground, but he lost his strength and fell to his knees heavily.

Cheng Yu not only didn't sleep much these days, but also didn't deal with his work much. There were a lot of things piled up in the company, and there was a major project that had to be signed by him before it could proceed, so the special assistant Lisa came to him early in the morning. Following behind Cheng Yu, she who was always eloquent could not speak a word.

Because she saw that Cheng Yu was full of despair, his face no longer had the usual high spirits, and his eyes also lacked the usual arrogance, only a gloomy and decadent look remained.

She joined Cheng's company right after graduation, and followed Cheng Yu from ordinary secretary to special assistant. After doing this for so many years, in her eyes, Cheng Yu is the kind who will never lose face and does not need to lose face. He is a proud man born with a golden spoon in his mouth, always glamorous and energetic.

Seeing that he can't even stand up at this moment, the nearly 1.9-meter tall man is hunched in a daze, he is more embarrassed than the unemployed vagrants on the roadside, more or less it will make people feel pitiful.

But the person he was thinking of had already turned and left, no longer looking at him, nor giving him any sympathy or pity.

Cheng Yu finally got up and followed to the ward, but Zheng Ruilin came back after a while.Zheng Ruilin was wearing a black overcoat, which made his eyes very dark. After seeing Cheng Yu, even his face darkened.But he didn't say anything, and he didn't rush up to punch Cheng Yu like he did when he saw Cheng Yu in the hospital last time. He just strode into the ward and walked towards Tang Haochu.

Compared with Cheng Yu's hostility when he saw Zheng Ruilin and Tang Haochu together before, this attitude can be called ignorance, but for Cheng Yu, it is better to be hostile, because it means that Zheng Ruilin no longer regards him as a threat.

Zheng Ruilin sat beside Tang Haochu's bed, helped him tuck the quilt carefully, and asked him what fruit he wanted to eat, and then peeled an apple when Tang Haochu shook his head to express that he didn't want to eat anything.The technique of peeling apples was unexpectedly powerful, apparently specially practiced, one apple was peeled without breaking, and he used it as a bargaining chip to ask for a reward, and half-coaxed and half-persuaded Tang Haochu to eat two pieces of apples.

After eating the apples, Zheng Ruilin took the thermos he had brought along on a special trip, and coaxed Tang Haochu to drink some porridge, which was as powerful as coaxing him to eat apples.Tang Haochu finally picked up the spoon under his soft and hard soak, and tasted the porridge. Zheng Ruilin was watching him from the side. An indescribable harmonious aura was formed between the two, as if even their breaths were entwined. .

Cheng Yu watched from the side, and subconsciously clenched his fists.It was very windy today, and the temperature dropped sharply in early autumn. Cheng Yu was wearing very thin clothes. He didn't feel cold when he stood in the air in the corridor before, but now he suddenly felt cold.The bone-chilling chill surrounded him, and there was nowhere to hide.

Zheng Ruilin felt very hot.The coat on his body was already thick, and the air conditioner was turned on in the ward. What's more, his sweetheart looked so obedient and cute eating porridge, and his ruddy and attractive lips and looming pink tongue made him even hotter.

Zheng Ruilin took off his coat, then got up and put it on the hanger near the door, and Cheng Yu happened to be standing next to the hanger, and the area near the door was too narrow, collisions would inevitably occur.Whether it was intentional or not, Zheng Ruilin bumped into Cheng Yu's shoulder when he turned around, but he didn't expect that the other party would be bumped so casually, and he was hit by a stagger, his back hit the floor hanger, and then there was another bang. There was a bang on the door panel.At the same time, the hanger fell heavily on the ground, making a loud noise.

Tang Haochu, who was drinking the porridge with his head down, was startled by the sudden noise. The spoon tilted, and a spoonful of porridge almost spilled on the quilt.He wanted to stabilize the spoon again, but failed several times. He tried to take a deep breath to calm down the panic, but his hands were shaking uncontrollably.

If a doctor or nurse is present, a 'panic attack' can be judged at a glance.This is a clinical reaction that patients with anxiety and obsessive-compulsive disorder often have, as well as patients with depression. Sensitive and fragile nerves cannot withstand fright at all, and loud or sudden sounds may trigger it.

Although Zheng Ruilin didn't know the symptoms very well, he reacted very quickly. He hurried back to Tang Haochu's side, quickly took the spoon and lunch box, hugged Tang Haochu into his arms, and rang the nurse's bell at the same time.Through the quilt, Zheng Ruilin could feel Tang Haochu's trembling. He held his hand and felt that it was icy cold. He didn't care about others for a while, Zheng Ruilin forgot everything, and just hugged the person in his arms to coax him.

But Tang Haochu was still trembling, his breathing was short, his shoulders heaved violently, he opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something, but he only uttered a few messy syllables, his voice was so fragile that it almost broke.

When Zheng Ruilin heard it, his heart ached so much that it almost broke.Zheng Ruilin held Tang Haochu in his arms and called his name over and over again, kissed his blood-stained cheeks, stroked his pale and cold lips, and said, "Haohao is good, Haohao is not afraid, I'm here..."

The tone is as soft as cotton, and it makes people feel warm.The call was very light, but it struck Tang Haochu's heart like a small hammer, and everything around him gradually faded away, leaving only the calming voice in his ear.Tang Haochu listened in a daze. Although he couldn't stop trembling, his nerves had already relaxed.

The doctors and nurses arrived and asked Zheng Ruilin to take a tablet of the sedative medicine prescribed earlier for Tang Haochu. Zheng Ruilin, who dispensed the medicine himself, was very clear about the names and effects of various medicines, and immediately found out the medicines.

The doctor waited responsibly for Tang Haochu to take the medicine and stabilized completely before leaving. Before leaving, he asked if there was anything else at ease.

"Yes," Zheng Ruilin immediately pointed to Cheng Yu, "Can you trouble the security personnel to invite this gentleman out? He is not a family member of the patient, nor was he invited to visit the patient. It will affect Haohao's rest here."

Upon hearing this, the doctor immediately invited Cheng Yu and his special assistant Lisa away.Cheng Yu has always been a sought-after VIP when he goes to various places on weekdays, and he has never been invited away in such a way that can be called driving away, which is simply embarrassing in the eyes of others.

But Cheng Yu didn't want to care about his face for a long time, but no matter how embarrassing he was, he couldn't make Tang Haochu come back to him.

According to the doctor's suggestion, Tang Haochu still needs to stay in the hospital for another week, and the hospital is a place where birth, old age, sickness and death are often experienced, and there will inevitably be some emergencies, so Tang Zhenkai plans to cover the entire ward with a lot of money to avoid any disturbance. to brother.However, just the next day Tang Haochu experienced another shock——he went to the garden after taking the medicine in the morning as usual, and saw a white shadow rushing towards him as soon as he turned the corner.

Immediately froze in place, but fortunately, the auntie, the nurse next to her, stopped him in time and asked with a frown, "Hey, who are you?"

While asking, one hand clasped the other's arm, and the other hand tried to pull the other's hair to see the other's face clearly.

It was Bai Lingqing who got the news from somewhere.

Her overall state was too different from the last time she asked Tang Haochu to meet. Her hair was disheveled, her face was haggard, and her expression was haggard. She had no image at all as if she had suffered a huge blow, even to the point where she was completely unrecognizable.Maybe it was because the nurse was using too much strength, Bai Lingqing screamed, and even cried out emotionally: "Let me go!!"

Don't talk about Tang Haochu, even the nurse was taken aback. At this moment, a strong and strong hand stretched out from the ground and blocked Bai Lingqing's mouth, which was about to cry again.

The nurse subconsciously let go of Bai Qingling, and just stepped back in front of Tang Haochu, keeping Tang Haochu behind him while looking vigilantly at the unusually tall man who suddenly appeared in front of him.But the man didn't pay attention to her, didn't speak, just grabbed Bai Lingqing, turned around and left.

It was Qi Xiangnan who came.Every time he came to visit his younger brother, it was in the middle of the night, and his whereabouts were elusive, so the nurses never saw him, and even the nurse on duty didn't know his existence.His strength was as strong as iron, and Bai Lingqing couldn't break free at all. He wanted to scream but was gagged and couldn't make a sound, so he could only make a terrified and indistinct whining sound.

Qi Xiangnan actually pulled Bai Lingqing all the way into the men's bathroom at the end of the corridor, and then pushed her head into the toilet. The whole process was clean and neat without saying a word, and his posture was the same as usual when performing tasks.Bai Lingqing thumped wildly with his hands and feet, making the sound of choking water, but Qi Xiangnan's strength was too terrifying, no matter how hard he struggled, he couldn't break free.And Qi Xiangnan was holding her down with one hand, and with the other hand he was still holding a plush toy in the shape of a white Samoyed dog—a gift bought for his baby brother.

In Qi Xiangnan's eyes, all men and women are treated equally, and he has never shown mercy to the weak.He has been in the army for so many years, has participated in special missions and been to the front line. He has seen a lot of old and weak women and children who look weak and pitiful but are full of lethality and cruelty, so his compassion has long been eaten into the dog's stomach.

Bai Lingqing's struggle became weaker and weaker, her limbs gradually began to lose strength, and she was on the verge of suffocation, but Qi Xiangnan still held her down expressionlessly and did not let go.Fortunately, the dean, who personally led people to inspect the ward today, rushed over after hearing the sound, and hurriedly persuaded Qi Xiangnan to let go, otherwise it would be disgraceful for anyone to die.

The doctors and nurses didn't know about Qi Xiangnan, but the dean did.Qi Xiangnan is now working with the Yang family. He is as mysterious as Minister Yang of the Ministry of Security. On the surface, he is just a lieutenant, but his real status is definitely higher than that. He dare not offend such a person.