under the filth

Although he made up his mind to go for a walk, Tang Cen still stayed out of bed for a while before getting out of bed. After getting up, he took some time to tidy up.

During this period of time, Tang Cen has been living very sluggishly, all the bones in his body have been raised to be lazy, and even doing things has become sluggish.By the time he changed his clothes and stood in the porch to change his shoes, it was already five past eight.

Before going out, Tang Cen looked up at the wall clock, but he was used to electronic products showing the time directly, so he stared at the wall clock for a long time before realizing the current time.

8:05, more than 20 minutes later than Tang Cen expected to go out, but he got up early today, and he was not in a hurry, and it didn't matter what time he went out.

Tang Cen thought so before going out, but when he opened the door and just took a step, he saw Eisen standing in front of the opposite door.Facing those deep blue eyes, Tang Cen began to regret why he didn't go out a few minutes earlier.

When he heard the sound of the door lock, Eisen turned around and stood by the door waiting for the person behind the wooden door to appear.Seeing Tang Cen, who was squinting lazily and walking slowly, appeared in front of him, the corners of Aisen's mouth kept rising, but Tang Cen's next actions made the smile on his face freeze instantly.

The moment Tang Cen saw Aisen, his half-closed eyes instantly widened.He froze in place, with his hand still in the posture of pushing the door. Now that the door was completely open, even if Tang Cen wanted to close it, it would be too late, but he did it anyway.

The second he regained his senses, Tang Cen yanked the doorknob to bring it in. He didn't know what he was hiding, but his body's reaction was faster than his brain's, and he did so subconsciously.

When the door was about to close, a hand suddenly stretched out from the crack of the door, and firmly clasped the door that was about to close.

Eisen stood behind the door, clasped the door frame tightly with his hands, and shouted almost gnashing his teeth: "Tang Cen!"

Tang Cen trembled in fright at Eisen's cry, and he finally understood the current situation after being startled.

He didn't want to see the person outside the door, but they lived on the same floor, and there would always be times when they would meet. Obviously, he just had to treat this person as air and turn a blind eye. Why did he run away now, and he didn't do it? What's wrong.

Eisen was holding onto the door with great strength. Tang Cen tugged hard several times but failed to pull the door. He could only struggle in vain, watching the veined hand pull the door open little by little.

"Let go!" Tang Cen knew that his luck had not been very good in the past few years, but he did not expect it to be so bad.

Eisen heard the trembling in Tang Cen's voice, and the scar on Tang Cen's wrist flashed through his mind, and he seemed to be able to feel the small bump with his fingertips. He slowed down and said, "We talk."

When Tang Cen and Lu Sheng were together many years ago, Eisen only dared to stand in the corner, secretly watching him from a distance, retreating because of their handshake.

Behind the tree at the University of Bath, in that dark bar, and on the streets of London, Eisen looked at Tang Cen's back, but he still didn't dare to take that step forward, and didn't dare to call out his name loudly.

This person doesn't belong to him, and he doesn't exist in his eyes, so he can only use alcohol to occupy Tang Cen despicably.

After waking up, he didn't feel much, but since he knew that Tang Cen was only two doors away from him, he realized that it was completely different from when he was in Bath.

No matter what happened in Tang Cen's past, he is standing in front of him at this very moment.Those dark eyes reflected his Eisen's appearance, and he would never let go again.

Eisen didn't mind alarming the residents downstairs. He leaned against the door and said very fast, "I'm sorry, it was my fault that day."

His apology did not calm Tang Cen's sensitive nerves, but instead aroused all the dissatisfaction that Tang Cen had suppressed earlier.

"Eisen, what exactly do you want?" Tang Cen didn't understand why Eisen, who had just left that night, was like a chewing gum on the sole of his shoe, unable to shake it off, and even repeatedly mentioned that he didn't want to. Revisiting the topic, "What's the point of repeatedly mentioning this matter?"

Even though Eisen tried to explain to Tang Cen, Tang Cen still didn't let go of his grip on the doorknob.He stepped on the door frame and pulled it hard, but he couldn't pull it in. He could only kick the door open in despair, panting and shouting at Eisen: "There is nothing to talk about between us!"

Eisen stood behind the door and couldn't see that Tang Cen inside the door let go of his hand. He was pulled back a step by his own strength, and the door kicked open by Tang Cen just hit his knee, making a muffled sound .

The kneecap was hit hard, and Eisen almost knelt on the ground with his legs limp, and staggered two steps back to stabilize his body.

Tang Cen heard the muffled sound, and saw that Eisen was about to close the door when he stepped back, but seeing him bowed and rubbing his knees, a subtle sense of guilt forced Tang Cen to stop his movements.

He stood by the door, pursed his lips, watched Eisen fail to stand up for a long time, and then asked vaguely: "Are you... all right?"

Eisen shook his head, this bump would be bruises for a few days at most, not too serious.

"I don't know what happened to you before, but I..." It is rare for Tang Cen to take the initiative to care about Eisen, but never mention his own affairs, but he paused in the middle of speaking, not knowing what to say so as not to offend Tang Cen.

Staring into Tang Cen's eyes, Eisen opened his mouth, swallowed the words a few times, and finally choked out a dry sentence: "I'm sorry, I just have a lot to say to you."

In Tang Cen's eyes, Eisen is very strange, he has an inexplicable attachment to himself, even if he is very satisfied with his one-night stand, he wouldn't be so stalking.

Tang Cen recalled the things that happened since he met Aisen. After thinking about it, he found that Aisen seemed to have known him a long time ago, and also knew about his relationship with Lu Sheng, but he didn't know what kind of plans this person had.

Although Tang Cen didn't know much about this alumnus who came out of nowhere, but after so long, he only hoped that the compromise could be concluded quickly so that he could live a stable life.

"Let's go." After Tang Cen finished speaking, he went downstairs without even looking at Eisen.

Eisen dragged his aching leg and followed Tang Cen downstairs.It was still early when they came out, and the warm sunlight shone on the cheese-colored buildings, casting a warm halo on the small town.

It's still a while before I go to work, but when I walk to the downtown area, there are more and more pedestrians on the street.

Eisen didn't know the destination, and just followed Tang Cen through one block after another, but Tang Cen stopped and walked aimlessly, raising his head from time to time to look at the surrounding buildings.

When he walked to the door of a cafe, Tang Cen stopped suddenly.Eisen thought this was where Tang Cen was going to bring him, but Tang Cen just looked around for a while and walked straight to the opposite park.

When Tang Cen stepped onto the sidewalk on the other side, the green signal light began to flash, and Eisen hurriedly ran after him.When he caught up with Tang Cen, Tang Cen stared at the lawn where there were obviously more people than usual and casually asked, "Aren't you going to work today?"

Eisen followed his gaze: "No, today is the weekend."

"Really..." Tang Cen murmured in a low voice.It turns out that today is the weekend, so I ran into Eisen by such a coincidence?

Tang Cen turned his head and glanced at the person closely following him, only to realize that Eisen was wearing sportswear, which he hadn't noticed just now.The time he went out this morning was probably during Eisen's morning jog, so he happened to hit him.

Eisen noticed Tang Cen's gaze, but before he could speak, he saw Tang Cen sitting on the bench, and patted the empty space beside him, signaling him to sit down.

"How have you been these few years?" Sitting down next to Tang Cen, Eisen finally choked out such a sentence after a long time.

Tang Cen raised his eyebrows slightly, and asked back, "What do you think?"

There was no emotion in that tone, Eisen rubbed his neck, a little confused: "I don't know, but I don't think it's good."

"Awful."

There seemed to be a sigh in Tang Cen's words, and Eisen looked up at him.Now that he was completely relaxed, he realized that Tang Cen was exhausted and exhausted.Just like what Tang Cen said, from his stagnant eyes, Eisen can tell that he has not had a good life these past few years.

The warm yellow light shone on the two of them, Eisen stared at the two girls running and playing on the lawn in the distance, and said slowly: "You and Lu Sheng... broke up?"

"Hmm." When Tang Cen heard the name "Lu Sheng" again from others, Tang Cen didn't even feel a wave of emotion. Although it was a bad past for him, Lu Sheng was already in the past tense.

Eisen got an affirmative answer but didn't stop there. Instead, he continued to ask: "Why?"

Tang Cen raised his head. He had no idea that Eisen was not only pestering but also inquisitive. He replied impatiently, "There are so many reasons, we broke up when we broke up."

Eisen choked on Tang Cen's impatient reaction, but he also saw a lot from Tang Cen's reaction.

"Lu Sheng is a senior from my class." Eisen paused, as if he was considering his words, Tang Cen waited for a while before he got his next sentence, "He...is not as good as you imagined. "

"I know." Of course Tang Cen knew, if it wasn't for that time of getting drunk, he might still have a chance to reject Lu Sheng.But things have come to this point, no matter what kind of person Lu Sheng is in the eyes of others, it doesn't mean anything to Tang Cen.

"But at that time, no one told me, and no one stopped me."

Until now, Eisen was the only one who had said such things to him, but it was too late.

Tang Cen leaned back on the bench, watching the yellowed leaf on the branch tremble in the wind, and was shaken off by the movement of the bird flying up, drawing circles back and forth in the air, and slowly falling to the ground.