under the filth

After Tang Cen forcibly ended the topic about Lu Sheng, there was no further conversation between the two of them.They sat on the bench in the park for a long time, Tang Cen propped his elbows on his knees, leaned slightly, staring at the withered and yellow leaves on the ground in a daze, while Eisen took advantage of his wandering time to use his spare time repeatedly. Light sneaked glances at him several times.

The surroundings were full of noise, the laughter of children mixed with the voices of adults talking loudly, amidst the bustle, this bench fell into a strange and long silence.

But in the end Eisen still couldn't hold back and broke the silence on his own initiative.

Eisen leaned back in his chair and asked Tang Cen beside him, "Are you still taking your medicine?"

At this time, the sun had already risen above their heads, and the heat was actually not suitable for people to stay in the sun for a long time. The heat emitted by the huge photothermal body above their heads made the two of them feel dizzy, and it was almost impossible for them to speak. Without brain thinking.

Eisen's nearly non-functioning brain could not stop his words and deeds at all. Under the condition that Tang Cen was not mentally prepared, he just blurted out what should have been thoughtful words so nakedly.

"Don't eat." Tang Cen's whole body was warmed by the sun, and he answered without even thinking, but when he said it, his chaotic brain immediately woke up.

Tang Cen sat up straight suddenly, subconsciously reached out and grabbed Eisen's collar and asked, "How do you know that!"

He didn't know how Eisen learned about it, he never told anyone, but it made him even more terrified because of this.The secret that Tang Cen tried so hard to hide was now spoken out lightly by Eisen, and it became known to the world. That simple interrogative sentence seemed to be mocking his past behavior.

When Eisen was pulled so violently by Tang Cen, his eyes met Tang Cen's narrowed pupils, and when he saw the uncontrollable panic on his face, the messy thoughts in his mind instantly disappeared without a trace.

In fact, when Eisen said it, he realized it later. When he turned his head to look at Tang Cen, Tang Cen's expression said everything, but he didn't expect Tang Cen's reaction to be so strong.

"I saw you come out of the hospital." Eisen held Tang Cen's hand, loosened the fingers holding his collar little by little, and then held the thin hand instead, wrapping it completely in his palm.

Eisen knew very well what the expression on Tang Cen's face meant, and he also understood why Tang Cen showed such an expression. Even though he couldn't empathize with Tang Cen, he couldn't fully understand Tang Cen's feelings, but Tang Cen's thin and haggard back was always there. It hurt his nerves all the time.

Tang Cen imagined many possibilities, but he did not expect it to be the most common one.He watched the man in front of him hold his hand. The wrapped hand felt the heat from the other's palm, and his fingertips moved slightly, but he didn't break free.

Staring at the hand being held, Tang Cen asked in a low voice, "When?"

Fingers slipped in little by little along the gap between the fingers, and he stretched out his clenched hands. Only when the two hands were clasped together did Eisen reply: "When I was a sophomore."

Ever since he saw Tang Cen walk into the hospital alone, and then walk out of the gate with his head down, Eisen couldn't help guessing Tang Cen's condition when he saw Tang Cen's shadow in school. In those few years, Eisen tried his best to learn a little bit about diseases that he had only known in name from various channels, and got in touch with groups that he had never been in contact with before.

But all that ended when Tang Cen left the UK, and he was not awakened until now.

"Really..." Tang Cen lowered his head and muttered, he didn't expect Eisen to know so early on, but since this is the case, why did this person approach him?

"I didn't mean to, and I didn't tell anyone else." Eisen's fingertips rubbed the back of Tang Cen's hand. He was glad that Tang Cen didn't break free from his hand, but he also knew that his words and deeds at the moment were Challenge Tang Cen's bottom line.

"I'm very sorry."

Eisen thought about it carefully. Ever since he formally contacted Tang Cen, he had been causing unnecessary troubles for Tang Cen. He shouldn't be like this. Even if he couldn't help Tang Cen, he shouldn't be this unreliable appearance.

"Don't mention the past." Although Tang Cen didn't know about Aisen's character, he was indeed not troubled by these rumors at that time. After more than ten years, there was no need to worry about these details anymore.

"I'm tired, let's go back." Tang Cen stood up, raised his hand to pat the dust off his body, but the moment he raised his hand, accompanied by a whirlwind, his vision suddenly became dark.

When Tang Cen stood up and slowly let go of his hands, Aisen kept his attention on him. When he saw Tang Cen suddenly fell backwards, he hurriedly helped him: "Are you okay!"

"It's okay, a little hypoglycemia." Tang Cen stood firm with his shoulders on Eisen, the dizziness came and went quickly, and he returned to normal after a few seconds.Tang Cen withdrew his hand and rubbed between his brows, his lips were still a little pale.

Eisen asked with some concern: "Didn't you have breakfast?"

"No." Tang Cen sighed, then remembered something, turned his head and glared at him, "I planned to go out for a walk and eat, who knew I would run into you when I opened the door." After speaking, he turned around No matter what Eisen's expression is behind him.

Aisen was frightened by Tang Cen's stare and stood there dumbfounded. It's not that Tang Cen's eyes were so scary, but Aisen didn't expect Tang Cen's attitude to change so quickly.But thinking of the strange cases he had seen before, and the lifeless Tang Cen 10 minutes ago, Aisen even felt that Tang Cen was more angry than before.

The subtle and awkward atmosphere between the two of them dissipated completely, and Eisen trotted two steps to catch up with Tang Cen who walked a few meters away, and suggested: "There is a Chinese restaurant nearby that does a good job, do you want to try it? "

His stomach was already so hungry that he couldn't feel it, but the discomfort caused by hypoglycemia had not completely subsided, so Tang Cen nodded: "Let's go."

The Chinese restaurant that Eisen mentioned was not too far from the park where Tang Cen and the others were walking. The two of them saw the signboard of the shop after walking a few tens of meters out of the park.

Standing in front of the store, Tang Cen was attracted by the poster pasted on the door. He stared at the poster for a while before realizing that Eisen had opened the door.

After sitting down in his seat, Eisen flipped through the menu and ordered a few dishes recommended by the clerk, but he asked for Tang Cen's opinion on every order.

Sitting opposite him, Tang Cen didn't want to read any more after turning two pages, and let Eisen order the food he didn't like.

Under the cover of a heavy menu, Tang Cen secretly looked at the man in front of him.The current situation made Tang Cen see the shadow of Lu Sheng in Eisen, and it seemed that he was still Lu Sheng when he was studying in England.

But Tang Cen couldn't remember the last time he sat face to face with Lu Sheng in the restaurant for dinner. Most of the time, he ate alone or with a group of people, and it was either too quiet or extremely noisy.

She has been wandering between these two extremes, and suddenly returned to this mode of getting along, but her partner is no longer Lu Sheng.Facing this man with unknown intentions, Tang Cen felt a little uncomfortable again.

"Enough." After Eisen ordered four or five items in a row, Tang Cen held down his hand flipping through the menu, "I don't have much appetite."

Aisen is not Lu Sheng, even if he knows about his illness, he cannot be as familiar with every habit of him as Lu Sheng who spends time together day and night.

These two people are different. Tang Cen knew that it was too much for him to repeatedly compare Aisen and Lu Sheng. He also knew that his mood and thoughts were inconsistent, but he couldn't restrain himself.

Tang Cen didn't want to hear other people mention Lu Sheng's name again, and tried to throw him out of his life completely, but Lu Sheng almost engraved his name on Tang Cen's bones, and the shadow he cast was always It enveloped Tang Cen's head for an instant, and he couldn't escape.

It's not time for meal yet, there aren't many people in the restaurant, and the dishes will be served soon.

At first, Eisen thought Tang Cen was being polite when he said he had no appetite, but it was only when he was eating that he realized that Tang Cen's appetite was indeed very small compared to other adult men.He ate slowly and moved everything, but he really didn't eat much, no wonder the rib marks on his waist were so obvious.

With things hidden in his heart, Tang Cen was absent-minded even when eating, and Eisen didn't even notice that he stared at him for a long time.

Eisen stopped the chopsticks in his hand: "Tang Cen."

"Huh?" Tang Cen was brought back to his senses by his shout. He raised his head and waited for Eisen's next words.

Eisen paused, and after sorting out his thoughts, he asked, "How long do you plan to live here?"

Tang Cen put his chopsticks on the chopstick rest, looked sideways at the passers-by outside the window and said, "I don't know, I don't want to go anywhere now, let's talk about it after staying for a year." He propped his chin, his voice was a little vague .

It was beyond Eisen's expectation to get such an answer, but at least he knew that Tang Cen would always stay within his line of sight if nothing happened this year.

fair enough.Eisen breathed a sigh of relief, raised his hand to pick up a piece of fish, and put it in his mouth.

After eating, Eisen, who didn't need to work overtime, followed Tang Cen, an unemployed vagrant, and walked around the area a few times before walking slowly towards the apartment.

When passing through the alley, the sun fell on Tang Cen, covering his whole body.Eisen stood in the shadow, the person in front of him had golden light even on his eyelashes, warm and soft, as holy as a son of God who strayed into the mortal world.

But he is not, under that pure skin, is a mud pond full of dead and corrupt things.

In Eisen's eyes, Tang Cen seems to like basking in the sun, but this is only because the sun can dispel the cold on his body, and when he bathes in the sun, he can wash off the filth all over his body.

Even so, even though Eisen kept changing his views on Tang Cen, he never wavered that feeling.

Going up to the apartment building, just as Tang Cen was about to close the door, Eisen suddenly put his foot against the door.He pushed open the door and walked into the entrance of Tang Cen's house.

"Why do you..." Tang Cen looked at him in surprise. Although the relationship between the two had eased, it hadn't reached the point where they could come here uninvited.

Eisen looked at Tang Cen, took a deep breath, and said solemnly, "Tang Cen, there is something I must tell you."