under the filth

Within the reach of Lu Sheng, Tang Cen carefully counted the pills every day.He struggled to maintain a seemingly peaceful daily life, walking on thin ice, taking every step with extreme caution.

At first Tang Cen thought that as long as he persisted in the treatment, he might recover in a short time.During the two years of working, Tang Cen discovered that he didn't need to take medicine, and he could adjust his mood just by Lu Sheng's occasional comforting movements, and he gradually became like a healthy and normal person.

But when he was about to graduate and was about to return to Tang Songyuan's sight, his peaceful life was messed up again, and even the secrets he had carefully hidden for many years were exposed to the sun.

And it was his father, Tang Songyuan, who caused all this.

"I heard that you lived with a man in England." Tang Songyuan said lightly, but from the moment he said the word "cohabitation", Tang Cen felt that the blood in his body froze in an instant, the familiar fear Spread to the whole body.

After Lu Sheng woke him up, Tang Cen swallowed two more pills.Although that was a normal dosage, Tang Cen had long forgotten its side effects.

Half an hour after taking the medicine, Tang Cen felt a tumbling sensation in his stomach.He rushed out of the bedroom, stumbled into the bathroom, retched into the sink, but something was stuck in his throat, and he couldn't spit it out or swallow it.

Lu Sheng was standing outside the window smoking a cigarette, but when he heard Tang Cen running out of the bedroom, he turned around and only saw Tang Cen's back.Lu Sheng pinched his cigarette, followed Tang Cen into the bathroom suspiciously, saw him retching by the sink, and quickly patted him on the back: "Ah Cen! Why are you uncomfortable?"

"Ahem——" Accompanied by a violent cough, two pills whose edges had been dissolved fell into the sink.

Lu Sheng looked at the two pills whose original shape could hardly be seen, the expression on his face changed, he frowned and looked at Tang Cen who was still retching, his hunched body, lying on the edge of the pool The back looks extremely distressed.

It took Tang Cen a while to stop retching and coughing. He tried to turn on the faucet, but his weak and trembling hands couldn't exert strength.Standing behind him, Lu Sheng caught a glimpse of the water in Tang Cen's eyes, and reluctantly turned on the faucet, allowing the water to flush the two pills into the sewer.

After Tang Cen rinsed his mouth with water from the tap, Lu Sheng helped him sit on the sofa.

Lu Sheng poured a cup of warm water from the kettle in the kitchen, he handed it to Tang Cen, and sat down next to him after Tang Cen took the water.Facing Tang Cen's pale face, Lu Sheng asked with a headache: "What... did you eat?"

Tang Cen clutched his stomach, the throbbing pain in his stomach pierced his waist and abdomen, and he struggled to speak.He shook his head: "I'm fine..."

His attitude made Lu Sheng agitated for a while, and his words became a little bit heavier: "Is this all right?"

Lu Sheng rarely talked to Tang Cen in such a reprimanding tone. Although he knew that Tang Cen was unwell, the fact that he was taking medicine behind his back made Lu Sheng feel Tang Cen's deep distrust of him.

Seeing Tang Cen looking up at him, Lu Sheng took a deep breath: "Tang Cen, tell me honestly, what kind of medicine did you spit out?"

Tang Cen held the cup tightly, rubbing the uneven body of the cup.He didn't remember the specific medicines in that sugar jar, he only remembered a few vague names, but it was hard to convince Lu Sheng based on those vague names alone, maybe he didn't even know what it was treating. medicine.

Picking up Lu Sheng's mobile phone on the table, Tang Cen typed a string of names on the screen and handed the phone to Lu Sheng.

Lu Sheng took it, searched for one of the drug names on the webpage, flipped through the searched content, and the expression on his face became more serious the more he looked.

He put down his cell phone, pulled the hair on the top of his head and sighed: "This... how long have you been eating?"

"I don't remember, I haven't taken it for a year or two." Tang Cen increased and decreased the dosage little by little. Although he remembered when he started taking it, he only dated Lu Sheng at that time. Once he told the time, he would Worried that Lu Sheng would take the disease on himself.

"What the hell are you..." Lu Sheng stopped in the middle of speaking, he didn't know how to ask so as not to touch Tang Cen's cunt.

After dating for so many years, Tang Cen never told him about this matter once. If it wasn't for this time, Tang Cen might continue to hide it.Thinking of this, Lu Sheng realized that he never seemed to understand his lover.

Tang Cen sat aside with his head tilted, rubbing his stomach without saying a word.Lu Sheng sat beside him, took away the water glass in his hand, and hugged him into his arms: "Why didn't you tell me such a big thing?"

"It's not a serious illness, and it's almost recovered." Tang Cen concealed a small part of the facts, but what he said was indeed the truth, if it wasn't for Tang Songyuan's sudden appearance.

"Then you just—" Lu Sheng paused remembering Tang Cen's reaction just now, and did not continue to ask, "Does your family know?"

Tang Cen shook his head: "I don't know, I didn't tell them." Except for the doctor and Jiang Yan, who had died long ago, Tang Cen didn't tell anyone about this matter.

"Then you..." Lu Sheng was still brooding over Tang Cen's concealment of his illness from him, "Why didn't you tell me?"

However, Tang Cen didn't explain the cause of the disease, nor did he explain why he concealed it. He just apologized to Lu Sheng in a low voice over and over again: "I'm sorry."

Tang Cen put on a low profile, even if Lu Sheng got angry again, he would not be willing to get angry at him, and being provoked by his father to get sick was enough to make Tang Cen uncomfortable.

He stroked the hair on the back of Tang Cen's head, and his fingertips inadvertently rubbed the cold and wet skin on his neck.Lu Sheng wiped Tang Cen's cold sweat with his sleeve: "Do you have to go back? I can't rest assured that you look like this."

Tang Cen nodded, he knew why Lu Sheng asked.He thought about emigrating and staying here and cutting off ties with the Tang family, but he dismissed the thought only for a moment.

Seeing that he was still insisting, Lu Sheng didn't force it, but just made a request: "I'll go back with you."

"This is a matter of my family, I don't want you to get involved! And your...elders are not..." Tang Cen grabbed Lu Sheng's shoulders. He remembered the reason why Lu Sheng went abroad. Lu Sheng not only had to face Tang Songyuan when he returned home Anger, but also beware of those people secretly stumbling.

"I'm fine, I'm worried about you." Lu Sheng patted Tang Cen on the back, "If something happens to you, I will be there as soon as possible."

"Alright then..." Tang Cen compromised.

Before returning to the country, Tang Cen never thought that when he returned to the Tang family, what greeted him was a burst of pain and a suffocating faint.

When Tang Cen woke up and saw the scene in front of him, he was stunned. The layout was obviously not Tang Songyuan's study, but someone's bedroom, like... his bedroom.

He was covered with a dark gray quilt, and a corner of the quilt just blocked his view of the room. He raised his hand to pull the quilt away, but Tang Cen only moved his elbow, and a bone-piercing pain spread from his elbow joint. Come.Tang Cen touched the painful part with his hand huddled under the quilt, and the tentacle was a long and wide swollen scar.

Tang Songyuan was so angry that he didn't hesitate to strike. A large area of ​​Tang Cen's body was covered with red marks from his blows. If he lay on the bed and moved a little, the wounds on his back and hands would be pulled.

But the wound on the flesh was far less than the pain on the heart, the sentence Tang Songyuan said in the study still hurt Tang Cen's heart.He never thought that in the eyes of his father, he was the same as a male (prostitute), and even denied his achievements in studying in the UK for so many years.

However, Tang Cen did not expect that this was just the beginning.

Tang Cen didn't know how long he slept, but judging from the injuries on his body, it should only have been a few hours.Before entering the study, he left his suitcase downstairs and lost his mobile phone somewhere. He couldn't get in touch with Lu Sheng, and he couldn't get up to find medicine. Now he can only lie on the bed and wait.

Not long after, the bedroom door was opened again.Tang Cen couldn't move, and he didn't see who was coming, but the sound of pushing the door was not loud. He guessed it wasn't his father, maybe the housekeeper or Tang Qian.

The visitor seemed to be looking at him too, the room was very quiet, Tang Cen could only hear his own breathing.

Not long after, the person who came finally got impatient and angrily shouted: "Don't pretend to be asleep when you wake up!"

Tang Cen's heart tightened, he frowned and covered his ribs, enduring the pain and slowly sat up.Every time he moved, the pain from the pulling of his body reminded him, forcing him to recall the painful memory in the study.

Tang Songyuan watched Tang Cen sit up slowly, and saw his frowning, thinking that he was dissatisfied with him, so he slammed the two pieces of paper in his hand onto his face: "I've been feeding you since I was a child." , for you to wear, and I will send you abroad for further study when you grow up, how can I treat you badly?"

The paper hit his face, and the sharp edge made a small gash on Tang Cen's face.Tang Cen's face was in burning pain, he couldn't tell whether it was the pain from being humiliated or the pain from the wound.He struggled to pick up the paper in front of him, and the familiar English came into his sight: "Moderate depression (moderate depression)".

Seeing Tang Cen pick up the medical certificate, Tang Songyuan asked mockingly, "Depression?"

The medical certificate was stuffed into the suitcase by Tang Cen himself. Tang Songyuan will see that it must have been found by the housekeeper when he was packing his luggage.Hearing Tang Songyuan's mocking words now, Tang Cen was not surprised at all. He even compared his son with a prostitute, and there was something he couldn't say.

"You're living abroad, hanging out with men, okay, I've indulged you for so many years." Tang Songyuan counted Tang Cen's crimes one by one, "Homosexuality is deviant, it's good for you, but you still want to marry him." Really love?"

What Tang Cen did after going abroad made Tang Songyuan very disappointed. He loudly questioned Tang Cen: "My Tang Songyuan's son is gay and mentally ill. If it spreads, where do you want me to put my face!"

"I have spent so much time cultivating you and doing so much for you, what are you still dissatisfied with?" In Tang Songyuan's eyes, Tang Cen seemed to be no longer a blood-linked flesh and blood, but a useless Failed product, "If I knew you were so muddy and couldn't support the wall, I shouldn't have cared about you!"

Tang Cen heard a lot from Tang Songyuan's words, for example, he knew about Lu Sheng a long time ago, and knew that the two of them were dating, but he never revealed it, and only regarded it as playing with other people's feelings.

And Tang Cen went abroad for eight years, and it was not voluntary from beginning to end.How many days and nights he worked hard to meet Tang Songyuan's expectations, but in the end he was just a second-generation ancestor who went abroad to gild himself.That being the case, why send him abroad and ask him in every possible way.

Tang Cen couldn't feel the pain in his body, his heart throbbed intermittently, as if someone had opened a hole, and blood gushed out from the hole.

"Did I beg you to send me abroad?" Tang Cen buried his head on the medical certificate, tears slid down his eyelashes onto the paper.

"You put a lot of thought into training me, but you never asked my opinion on the decisions you made for me!" If it wasn't for Lu Sheng, maybe he would still be living like this mechanically.

"I have lived abroad for so many years and went to the hospital so many times alone, have you ever asked me?" He can now slightly understand Jiang Yan's despair at that time. And money can't fill that.

Tang Cen once thought that when his father retired, he would be able to control the decision and freely choose the rest of the future, but now all this is impossible.

"What's wrong with me being with him? You don't care about me, he cares!" Tang Cen lay on the bed, snarling at Tang Songyuan disregarding his image, like a trapped animal.

"Shut up! It's really embarrassing." Tang Songyuan didn't bother to look at the ugly posture of the eldest son, he said coldly, "If you don't break up with that man, you will never even think about stepping out of this family!"