under the filth

She'd never been there, and she didn't know how it was any different from a hospital.But at that time, Jiang Yan was worrying about how to maintain her friendship with Tang Cen, so she pushed open the door of the consulting room with the mentality of giving it a try.

I don't know if it's because her mood has been too stable recently, or because the teacher in the consulting room is very skilled in speaking, Jiang Yan's tense nerves suddenly relaxed.That is, at a certain moment when she let down her vigilance, she inadvertently revealed her illness to the teacher she met for the first time.

Jiang Yan, who got some advice from the teacher in the counseling room, didn't realize how serious it was until a few days later, she was called to the office by the counselor.

"Don't you feel ashamed enough! How did I give birth to such a shameless (cheap) bastard like you!" As soon as Jiang Yan entered the door, Lin Wan's insults hit her head and face.

"Enough! What nonsense are you talking about in front of outsiders!" Jiang Chengli stopped Lin Wan, and looked at Jiang Yan in a panic, "How can you let Yanyan stay in school in the future!"

The counselor pulled Jiang Yan, who was standing in a daze at the door, to a corner, and stuffed a letter of knowledge into her hand.

Jiang Yan looked at the letter of knowledge in her hand, and finally understood what happened.

The school learned of Jiang Yan's condition and worried that she would have an accident at school and make the school take unnecessary responsibilities, so they contacted her parents, hoping that they would consider the school's difficulties and sign this letter of knowledge.

Lin Wan never thought that one day she would be "humiliated" by her daughter's condition, and she couldn't help making a fuss the second she saw the confession letter. Jiang Chengli tried to stop her, but his actions angered Lin Wan.

Jiang Yan was sitting in the corner of the office, the counselors and the teachers in the consulting room were all looking at her, and she looked at her parents, seeing their distressed appearance, her eyes were cold and numb, and there was no fluctuation in her heart.

"Dad, sign it." Finally, Jiang Yan spoke out, putting a stop to this farce.

She has long since lost everything, only a six-figure balance in her bank card and an endless amount of medicine in her medicine cabinet. It doesn't matter if she is known to be mentally ill.

After signing the informed letter, Jiang Yan completely cut off contact with her parents.She locked herself in the rental house, stopped going to class, and curled up on the small single bed every day.

At a certain moment, perhaps when she saw the pills hoarded in the medicine box, Jiang Yan suddenly decided to die and end this ridiculous life.

She knew very well that she would not change anything if she continued to live, she would not be happier, and perhaps even more miserable.

Perhaps it was because she committed a lot of evils in her previous life that she could live in such a difficult and painful life in this life.

The only happy thing in Jiang Yan's life may be that she made Tang Cen a friend, so that she could find a friend to say goodbye to before she died.

"I can't be what they want, and I can't start over, so it's over."

This is the last line in Jiang Yan's diary, and there is nothing further down.

"very pitiful."

He Xiu let out a long sigh, clipped the thin piece of paper into the title page, and slowly closed Jiang Yan's diary.

After the last phone call with Tang Cen, Jiang Yan deleted all his contact information, and then jumped down from the highest building in the school, falling to pieces on the hard granite floor tiles.

This incident caused a brief riot in the school, and finally the news was suppressed forcefully, but it became a rumor in the school.The school's psychological counseling room had been silent for several months, and it reopened the door on the day it welcomed new students.

With the continuous replacement of students, the rumors about Jiang Yan in the school finally disappeared. It seemed that except for Tang Cen's memories and the tombstone, there was no trace of her existence anymore.