Happy Life [Rebirth]

"Why did you change your name?" I asked Li Moxun. I thought it was because the name Li Yingming didn't sound good.

Zhang Mingchen said: "You are stupid, Yang Lu, of course it's because the name doesn't sound good."

Li Moxun: "You don't think the name Moxun has more connotations. This is the result of my year of thinking - Moxun. I changed my name."

Zhang Mingchen and I both had this "囧" expression.

"Where is the connotation?" Zhang Mingchen shouted, "It sounds like a name in a martial arts novel, that, that——Li Xunhuan!"

I asked directly: "Your father asked me to change?"

Li Moxun smiled: "I am worried that I will commit suicide, so I will follow me in everything."

Li Moxun stretched out two fingers again, pointing at Zhang Mingchen and shaking his head, Zhang Mingchen asked me: "What do you mean?"

I thought about it: "Maybe it means you are too old."

Li Moxun said to Zhang Mingchen and me: "Hey, actually I don't recommend that you read too many books. There is no use for scholars. Reading too much is of no use. Think too much and do too little. In the end, only geniuses and madmen A thin line."

I really couldn't understand what Li Moxun said, and I suddenly thought that if He Mingjie was here, maybe the two of them would have similar tastes.Zhang Mingchen asked directly, "Boss, are you a genius or a lunatic?"

Li Moxun said: "I'm just an ordinary person."

After Gu Tingsheng came back, he and Li Xun were sweating. There was no bathroom in the dormitory, and they had to go to the public bathhouse to take a shower. The two of them rushed to the bathroom to take a shower. After they came back, Zhang Mingchen taught the two of them what Li Moxun said. After repeating it, both Gu Tingsheng and Li Xun said, Boss, if you are an ordinary person, there will be no ordinary people in the whole No. [-] Middle School.

There was only one evening self-study in the first night of the first year of high school. The military college students invited for military training this year suddenly went to Ancheng for field training.

School is over at [-]:[-] pm, a self-study class is held at [-]:[-] pm, and class is over at [-]:[-] pm, so the students in the first year of high school are very leisurely. Li Xun always takes Gu Tingsheng to play basketball, and also tries to bring me, Zhang Mingchen and Li Moxun together. Pulled into the group, he has not given up on the idea of ​​forming a team.

I smuggled my laptop into the school, and I had already previewed the course until the second year of high school. I wanted to finish writing the serialized novels on the Internet while I was leisurely in the first year of high school.

Zhang Yueyang has been following in Jon's footsteps.

After entering high school, Xiang Linlin continued to act as the representative of the Chinese class. She was known as the number one disciple of Jiang Shaoning. She was in the same circle as Chen Binfan and several girls. Although Jon was very popular among the boys in the whole school, but this The girl is still as Li Xun said, walking alone, without any female friends.

Zhang Yueyang is also very popular. He is handsome and wears a famous brand. Li Moxun said: "There are people in this world who don't love money, but there is no one who doesn't love beauty. Even if Zhang Yueyang has no money, someone loves that pretty face." By the way, Li Mo Xun not only said that Zhang Yueyang was a jerk, but he also said that Gu Tingsheng and I were too. We suspected that anyone who was more handsome than him would call him a jerk.

We asked him, "Boss likes Jon too?"

Boss Li said: "I like it, not only Jon, Xiang Linlin and Chen Binfen are also very cute, I also like Zhang Meilin and Chen Bingbing very much."

Boss Li added: "We have Zhang Yueyang, Gu Tingsheng, and Yang Lu in our dormitory. Yang Lu is too young because of his young age. Otherwise, if the three beauties in dormitory 203 are dispatched, one of them will be able to take down Qiao En."

I didn't understand this, Li Moxun said: "The boys in No. [-] Middle School all love Qiao En, and the girls in No. [-] Middle School like Gu Tingsheng. The school flower is not mentioned in our class, but now the school girl is in our dormitory, Lao Li feels honored." Yan."

I was stunned.This evening, Gu Tingsheng was writing an English paper for self-study. After entering high school, he was not as thorny as junior high school, and started to do homework.

Gu Tingsheng said that it is important to lay a solid foundation for high school knowledge.This change has removed his rather unique characteristic. In junior high school, Gu Tingsheng never did his homework, which made him stand out from the world and attract people's attention.

Now in high school, Gu Tingsheng has also become a student who abides by the school rules, except that he still rarely talks, but no one will say that Gu Tingsheng in Class [-] is a strange person like junior high school.

Now Gu Tingsheng, who is more approachable than junior high school, can start to smile, and Gu Tingsheng, who also plays basketball with Li Xun and other boys on the basketball court, is very popular.

He was handsome, that kind of extremely clean handsomeness that a boy would have in his youth.He is also tall and slender, with a slightly thin face, a straight and straight nose, snow-white skin and dark eyebrows.His lips are healthy and rosy. Zhang Mingchen and I went to watch him and Li Xun on the basketball court. I saw him go up to the basketball in three steps, and the boys all surrounded him and clapped their hands.Seeing me coming, he ran over and stopped to pant slightly. Sweat dripped from his cheeks and forehead, his eyes were shining, his red lips smiled, and the action of pulling his collar to wipe the sweat made his heart beat.

Li Moxun was right, the figure of Jon carrying a guitar and waiting for the bus by himself fascinated half of the boys in the school.When the young Gu Tingsheng smiled, everyone loved Gu Tingsheng.It is exaggerated, but both girls and boys are beautiful and touching.

Gu Tingsheng asked me and Zhang Mingchen: "Do you two want to have a try?"

Zhang Mingchen said: "Forgive my little arm, let Yang Lu try it, he is taller than me."

Gu Tingsheng asked me: "Xiao Lu, do you want to try?"

I looked at him, opened my mouth, closed it again, shook my head at Gu Tingsheng, I saw Gu Tingsheng frowned, and he asked me suddenly: "You—"

Li Xun ran over, strangled his neck and dragged him to the basketball court. Li Xun said, "Come on, come on, those grandchildren in the second year of high school are not convinced, let's kill them again!"

Gu Tingsheng soon started running on the basketball court again. I saw his expression relaxed and excited. There were quite a few girls and boys in the paddock. Someone shouted for cheers. Zhang Mingchen bumped his elbow into me and said, "I'm so envious."

"What do you envy?" I asked Zhang Mingchen.

Zhang Mingchen said: "Don't you envy, let's not talk about Gu Tingsheng. He is very handsome. Girls like him at that stop. Let's say that Li Xun is dark, tall and thin, and his charm is long when he plays basketball. I If I can also play basketball, will any girls like me?"

I looked back at Zhang Mingchen, and told him very seriously: "The ones who can be called sisters by you are either junior high school students or elementary school students. You have to call all the girls in the school sister."

Zhang Mingchen: "My sister is my sister. I don't mind a beautiful sister. It's fine if Jon is like that. I also like Xiang Linlin."

"Wow." I think I should be expressionless at the moment, "You are really a playful."

"Pretty girl." Zhang Mingchen smiled shyly, "Yang Lu, don't lie to me, don't you like Jon, there are boys like Jon who don't like him, and Xiang Linlin, Chen Funfen, a literary artist A cute girl."

"I don't like it." I saw them taking a break on the court, and several girls went over with a plastic bag of water to send out one by one. They stayed in front of Gu Tingsheng for a long time, they were laughing, and Gu Tingsheng was also laughing.

I moved my lips, "I don't like it, I don't like those girls."

Zhang Mingchen: "Wow! Yang Lu, you are so demanding! By the way, some girls seem to be asking about you. They ask who is that very handsome guy—where are you going?"

I shook my head and said weakly to Zhang Mingchen: "I want to be quiet and be alone."

I originally came to see Gu Tingsheng play basketball, but he said to me, Xiao Lu, Li Xun and I go to play basketball every day after class, do you want to come and watch.

I want it and I want it. I also like Gu Tingsheng who plays basketball.But I found that when I saw that Gu Tingsheng, who played basketball, could be called "dazzling" and "eye-catching", when his excellence was discovered by more people, I suddenly felt that it was unbearable for me.

Obviously, two months ago, he was still the indifferent, paranoid and eccentric Gu Tingsheng. He didn't even know the entire class in the junior high school. He didn't want to communicate with others, and others didn't want to associate with him who was always indifferent. .

At that time, Gu Tingsheng was alone, but when I appeared later, it became the two of us.

I walked down the corridor of the library that was never open in the school. It was quiet here, the sunset was long and the afterglow was long, the wind was mixed with the fragrance of flowers, and there were blooming vines in front of the corridor.

But now, I think, Gu Tingsheng is no longer alone, he is not only my friend, he had Zhang Yueyang, now there will be Li Xun, and then there will be girls, he will not only have boys as friends , he is so good, girls are willing to be friends with him.

I can't describe how I feel right now. I always thought I was a selfless person. The boundary I set for myself was to accompany Gu Tingsheng to college all the time, and then silently watch him get married and have children.But now I'm only freshman in high school, and I found out that Gu Tingsheng has changed his previous personality, but I thought, it's really sad.

On the night when Gu Tingsheng left the crew, he told a story about a little monster living on a small planet full of roses. I also thought of a story.

It is also a small planet. There are only the little prince and the roses he planted on the planet. The little prince will feel lonely and sad that only he can appreciate the beauty of the roses when they bloom.The little prince thought it would be great if more people came to appreciate such a beautiful flower.But one day, people came to this small planet on a tourist starship to see the roses blooming. Countless people felt the beauty of roses, but the little prince thought, I am the one who waters it, and I take care of it. Bloom, once those roses were for me, now they are for all.

It's like the little prince's only treasure is no longer the only one.

Gu Tingsheng is my rose, and now so many people know that he is very good, he is a boy worthy of liking.I also think it's good.But I thought, how nice it would be if I was the only one who could monopolize this rose.I don't want him to bloom for others, and I'm not that selfless.

I am a selfish person, I think so, and at the same time feel ashamed of my selfishness and my undeserved desire for monopoly.

Because I can neither be selfless nor candidly selfish, and even my admonishing Gu Tingsheng time and time again, telling him that he should interact with people more now seems hypocritical.I told myself that I always hope that he can spend this life very well, that very well is to become the Gu Tingsheng in the previous life, to become the warm, gentle, upright and gentleman Gu Tingsheng, and then have a beautiful wife at the right age and cute kids.In this way, when his life is over, he looks back on his life, not only leaving footprints for this world, but also future generations remembering that he came.

Such a life is really good, adding that a gay man named Yang Lu once liked him, I think that would be a very dirty stain.

When I thought of this, I also started a habitual self-hatred, which I haven't gotten rid of from my previous life to this life.Obviously, only when people learn to love themselves can they be worthy of being loved and respected, but I often hate myself, and I really don’t love myself.I hated my girlish appearance, my body that was not strong enough, and my heart that was too sensitive.Once the heart is sensitive, it is difficult to feel happy, and it is often accompanied by pain.I have read A Dream of Red Mansions. At that time, on the one hand, I felt sorry for the role of Daiyu, but on the other hand, I felt that she was too much to miss.

People can't think about it. Life is long and short. Once you can't think about it, that's all right. It's too worthless to live this life.But I just can't think about it very easily, and I thought of what Li Moxun said, don't read too many books, don't think too much about people, because it's useless.

Powerless so angry, sensitive so fragile, think too much and do little so powerless.

I stood in the corridor, the setting sun was sinking, and the evening wind was blowing again. When the vines opened, they would be closed, and the smell of the flowers seemed to fade away. The distant sky gradually left only a trace of orange edge with the setting sun. I kept watching, trying to calm myself down.

At this time someone called me: "Yang Lu?"

I turned my head, surprised by the girl walking slowly.

The girl who came over was Jon, the girl who appeared most frequently in the conversation and spanking in dormitory 203, followed by Xiang Linlin.

Jon was carrying her guitar on her back, and she walked over slowly, leaning on the wall. Before she got close, I could see that she was very uncomfortable. She covered her stomach with one hand and looked up at me. Look at her too.

Jon said, "Yang Lu, I'm Jon."

I asked her, "Are you having a stomachache? Do you need my help?"

I walked two steps, only to find that her face was white, even her lips were white. She stood there motionless, frowning in pain, and the sweat on her face looked like she had just washed her face and didn't dry it. of.

"You..." I was taken aback.

But Jon said: "Gastroenteritis, it's an old problem. You can go to the school doctor's office and prescribe a Fenbid for me."

Then she tilted her body and the guitar hit the ground first. The girl sat on the ground and shook her head. I thought to myself that this is a 120. She looks very bad.

Immediately after I hadn't approached Jon, there were footsteps running over, Gu Tingsheng's voice sounded in the corridor, and he called me: "Yang Lu."

I stopped, and Gu Tingsheng ran over. As soon as he came, there was a rush of heat. I saw that the collar of Gu Tingsheng's clothes was wet. He looked at me, and I was stunned. I subconsciously asked Gu Tingsheng: "Why did you come here? ?”

Gu Tingsheng said: "You used to always—" He paused obviously, then he ran up to Jon and reached out to pat her face: "Classmate, classmate, what's wrong with you?"

I want to say what happened to me before, how can there be any past, but Jon's situation is more imminent, I also ran over, Jon moaned/groaned, did she raise her head barely, her eyes narrowed, and said weakly : "Stomach pain, painkillers will do..."

Gu Tingsheng turned around, "I'll carry you to the school infirmary."

I went to get Jon's guitar, but Jon froze there, Gu Tingsheng urged her: "I'll carry you on my back, otherwise I'll call 120."

"There is no need to dial 120."

Jon slowly climbed onto Gu Tingsheng's back, and Gu Tingsheng held up her legs and walked forward with her on his back.

I followed Jon's guitar on my back and asked her, "Do you just take painkillers? You can't cure the root cause like this."

As I said that, I went to see Jon, she looked tired and in pain, she slowly rested her head on Gu Tingsheng's shoulder.Jon didn't answer my question, what she said before she fainted along the way was: "Student, your back is wet, why are you sweating so much?"

When we arrived at the school doctor's room, Gu Tingsheng put Jon on the hospital bed. The school doctor was startled. I told the school doctor, "She has gastroenteritis."

But Jon pulled the school doctor, gritted his teeth and said something in the school doctor's ear with a painful face.

I asked Jon, "What about your guitar?"

She waved to me: "You put it away for me first, and I will ask you for it again."

The school doctor did not spare me and Gu Tingsheng, the two laborers. She took a disposable paper cup and instructed Gu Tingsheng to fetch hot water, and wrote a list for me to prescribe medicine.I took the medicine, the name of which is ibuprofen sustained-release capsules, and handed it to Jon to watch her take it. After she finished eating, she said thank you to both of us, and then she lay on the bed and wrapped herself in the quilt. .

When we left, Gu Tingsheng and I went to ask the school doctor, is it okay to treat gastroenteritis like this.

The school doctor said: "She's not gastroenteritis, she's—" The school doctor paused, looked at us meaningfully: "Just treat it as gastroenteritis."

After the lights were turned off that night, Zhang Yueyang started to mention Jon again, saying why she didn't come to the evening self-study. I thought of her bending her neck to rest on Gu Tingsheng's shoulder, like a beautiful swan bending her neck.

"She's sick." I said in the dark. "Around 06:30, she had gastroenteritis. It was Gu Tingsheng who carried her to the school doctor's office."

Zhang Yueyang: "Are you sick?"

Zhang Yueyang asked about the specific process. After I finished speaking, Li Moxun said: "You two are dumb/forceful, she is suffering from dysmenorrhea, you really think it is gastroenteritis."