Happy Life [Rebirth]

Gu Tingsheng's tone of voice, if it were another person, I don't think I would be angry. I have been so gloomy since I was a child. Someone described me in my previous life, saying that my heart is like a stone, gloomy and cold. No feelings.

With me like this, when I met someone with a flattering tone like Gu Tingsheng, I would just turn around and leave.

But when this person is Gu Tingsheng, I can only sigh, I have something to say to him, I have questions to ask him, so I am willing to attend his banquet.

The call was connected very quickly, Wanwan was very surprised, I didn't say anything specific, I just said whether I would go out for lunch or not, she kept asking, I repeated it and hung up, there was still Wanwan vaguely Crazy "ahhhhhh" sound.

When Gu Tingsheng said he wanted a big meal, I thought he would go to KFC or a western restaurant with an average price of 40 yuan per person. In this day and age, 40 yuan is enough to eat a steak set meal in a western restaurant.

Unexpectedly, after Gu Tingsheng studied the bus station, he looked awkward, looked at it for a long time, then lowered his head and said to me: "There is no bus to Huanmao."

When I heard him talk about Huanmao, Huanmao is not too far from here, and it takes only half an hour to walk there.The concept of Huanmao is very big, where a supermarket, two pedestrian streets and Huanmao Building are collectively called Huanmao.

When Gu Tingsheng mentioned Huanmao, I thought I was going there for dinner. After thinking about it, I said to Gu Tingsheng: "Let's go to the intersection ahead and take the subway, and we will arrive at Huanmao in two stops."

When Gu Tingsheng heard this, he pursed his lips. The expression on his face was awkward and embarrassing. I didn't care. I just attributed all of Gu Tingsheng's inexplicable behaviors to the peculiar puberty or rebellious period of a 14-year-old boy.

When I arrived at the subway station, I realized that it was [-]:[-], which was the rush hour of the subway. Gu Tingsheng and I watched the crowded crowd in the subway, like a group of worker bees rushing into their nests.

That was terrible. I have never experienced the peak of a subway station in two lifetimes. I just watched the scene in front of me and hadn’t experienced it myself. I was already timid. I swallowed, and Gu Tingsheng held my hand again.

He spoke in a distressed voice: "There are so many people... Hold on, don't let go!"

I didn't want to squeeze the subway at all, it was horrible, I said to Gu Tingsheng: "Brother, it will be squeezed, let's walk to Huanmao, or go to the front to see if there is a bus."

Gu Tingsheng didn't care, he took my hand to buy a ticket, and said to me: "We've arrived at the subway station, anyway, it's only two stops, we'll get there after a while."

When we got on the subway, Gu Tingsheng had already scolded his mother. He had a bad temper and was easily irritable. Before he got on the subway, he justified his words. When he got on the subway, Gu Tingsheng was even more irritable than me.

The two of us were squeezed into the crowd in the carriage. There were really too many people, like a group of sardines squeezed into a tin can.

It’s May again, and there are already signs of heat. There are people wearing all kinds of clothes and smells in the subway. By chance, I seem to see students wearing the same school uniforms.

Gu Tingsheng held my hand tightly, but there were really too many people, someone squeezed between our hands, and the hand let go.

Before I said anything, Gu Tingsheng suddenly shouted: "Xiaolu! Xiaolu!"

There was a lot of noise in the carriage, and I saw him squeeze through the gap. There were all kinds of faces in the surrounding crowd, chatting and laughing, expressionless, indifferent, and anxious, but only Gu Tingsheng's boyish face The expression is horrified.

It's kind of funny, I laughed out loud when I was standing in the crowd, Gu Tingsheng squeezed over and grabbed my shoulder first, then knocked on my head: "Laugh! What are you laughing at, it's not funny at all—damn, we can take a taxi, Why don't you take the bus or the subway, I don't need the money!"

After Gu Tingsheng finished speaking, I thought about it too. I don’t have money so I’m used to going out by bus and subway. But if you think about Gu Tingsheng’s life in detail, the only thing he doesn’t lack is probably money.

Theoretically speaking, since I was adopted by the Gu family, I did not lack material things. At that time, I never worried about money. What I suffer every day is that I lack love. I like Gu Tingsheng, and I hope he likes me too.

But Gu Tingsheng likes me - why, liking a man is not allowed in Huaxia.

The place where I grew up is vast and rich in resources and has a long history. The motherland where I grew up is a place to be proud of, but at the same time, because of the long history, there is a set of stubborn traditions engraved in the hearts of the people in this land.

Maybe in another place, on the other side of the ocean, what does it matter if a man likes another man, they can even get legal recognition.

But here, my likes will criticize me, I don't have parents, but my sister will be laughed at, and the employees at the place where I work will criticize me, and even the people I like will be criticized Make fun of.

I like Gu Tingsheng not because I like him to be laughed at by others.

With adoptive parents and a sister in this world, you can no longer say that you lack love with no conscience. I finally understood the difficulty of not having money.

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"Brother." I hooked my fingers, "Don't swear, you promised me."

Gu Tingsheng was staggered and staggered by being squeezed, he simply stuck to me, holding my hand instead of hugging my shoulder.

Gu Tingsheng squinted at me: "I didn't promise you, didn't you, you lie and don't make drafts?"

"Then you promise me."

"..." Gu Tingsheng glanced at me, "Yang Lu, you're pretty good at climbing up poles. Are you a monkey?"

"I belong to the horse."

Gu Tingsheng turned sideways this time and pulled me into his arms. He put his arms around my shoulders and said loudly, "Shut up, I don't want to talk to you anymore! You child——why do you owe me so much!"

It was obviously Gu Tingsheng who owed him the most. I buried my face in his chest and found that Gu Tingsheng was very good at beating him up.

It takes less than 10 minutes to arrive at the station by taking the two subway stations together. There are a lot of people on and off at Huanmao station. Gu Tingsheng and I got off the subway following the flow of people. The two of us also heard someone anxious Shouting "I haven't arrived yet! I can't get off!".

After arriving at the station, Gu Tingsheng put his arms around me and changed back to holding hands. This time, he held hands very tightly. It wasn't until the two of us got out of the subway station and landed on the ground, that Gu Tingsheng relaxed a little. But he never let go.

I asked him, "Where are you going to eat?"

After thinking about it, I wanted to add: "Brother, let's go to a place with private rooms to eat, I also have something to say to you."

Gu Tingsheng heard me talking, but didn't make a sound. He took my hand and just walked forward. The direction he walked was facing the Huanmao Building.

I didn't think much about it until I got on the elevator and stopped on the 27th floor. He took my hand and walked out. The people who walked out on the same floor and didn't go out looked at us both sideways.

I was also surprised. The people who came down from this floor, the couple walking in front of us, the man was wearing a three-piece suit, and the woman was wearing an LV suit. It wasn't that I recognized the brand, but that the brand's LOGO was too obvious.

The clean marble floor and metal walls reflect that the people who come and go are dressed inappropriately and expensively.Everyone only looks at the appearance, not an antique, but also a very gorgeous piece of porcelain.

Gu Tingsheng and I were wearing the fat school uniforms of the No. [-] Middle School. It was the first time I noticed that the No. [-] Middle School uniform had such a long face. Although some people looked sideways, Gu Tingsheng took my hand and entered the restaurant. Are you here to see your parents?"

Then he added: "No. [-] Middle School, a very good school."

It can be seen that in Jincheng, the reputation of No. [-] Middle School is enough.

Gu Tingsheng held me with one hand, put the other in his pocket, and shook his head: "No parents."

Waiter: "..."

I shook Gu Tingsheng's hand: "Brother..."

You have three one-hundred sheets in your pocket, how dare you invite me to eat here?Just enough for two desserts.

The waiter looked at Gu Tingsheng and me, and his tone was always very kind. In short, he looked familiar, and he said with a smile, "Are you two?"

Gu Tingsheng nodded, and the waiter led the way: "Please follow me."

"I want a box."

Gu Tingsheng spoke again. As soon as he opened his mouth, the waiter turned to him and said, "Do you have an appointment? We have reserved all the boxes for today."

While the waiter was saying this, a woman in a black suit came over. She saw Gu Tingsheng and me, and probably heard what Gu Tingsheng said. I saw the delicate makeup on her face, and suspected that she was the foreman.

Sure enough, she looked at Gu Tingsheng and me with a funny face: "Little friend, how about sitting by the window, it's very quiet, and you can still see the scenery outside."

Gu Tingsheng's face has always been cold and expressionless, it's really lucky that people in the service industry can still smile at Gu Tingsheng all the time.

Gu Tingsheng was given a smiling face, but he still had a cold face. I heard him say in a very cold and orderly manner: "Gu Xingsong is my father."

I, the waiter, and the foreman were all stunned. I almost wanted to ask him immediately why he spoke like this, but maybe I should thank Gu Tingsheng for seeing that he was young, and the foreman quickly reacted.

She looked at Gu Tingsheng in amazement, and this time her eyes were scrutinized. She didn't say anything, but smiled and repeated that there were no private rooms, only the lobby.

I squeezed Gu Tingsheng's hand, and Gu Tingsheng looked down at me: "My family is a shareholder of this restaurant, so I can't afford a private room."

I think Gu Tingsheng's thinking is simple, but if you just talk about it, do people believe it?No matter how well the lady in charge hides it, she looks at you suspiciously. I think she can't help but ask you if you have money to pay the bill.

"It's good to sit by the window."

I emphasized Gu Tingsheng's tone, and added: "I want to sit by the window."

After sitting by the window, Gu Tingsheng ordered two set meals, one ice cream and two desserts. After the waiter left, there was a partition between each table, and it was very quiet and there was no noise.

This is a high-end western restaurant on the 27th floor of Huanmao. Each meal is thousands of people, and there are successful people who come and go.

On the way Gu Tingsheng and I came here, people gave us glances from time to time, not to say it was kind or malicious, but because we couldn't find two boys in fat sports uniforms in the whole restaurant.

The two of us were sitting by the window, I took a look at the scene outside the window and was no longer interested. Across the table covered with a tablecloth, there was a vase of flowers on the table, and there were tableware in front of me. I looked at Gu Tingsheng, and Gu Tingsheng was looking out the window.

He looked very seriously, looking into the distance from a distance. I found that when I met Gu Tingsheng in this life, he often looked into the distance, looked into the distance.

At this age, Gu Tingsheng is 14 years old, his eyebrows have just opened, because he is too thin, so there is no flesh on his face, and his brow bones are more prominent. His high nose and deep eyes make people wonder whether he is of Western blood.

I know that Gu Tingsheng is not, Gu Tingsheng looks into the distance, I look at him.In the blink of an eye, his drooping eyelashes were black and long. Although 14-year-old Gu Tingsheng is thin, he is also a handsome boy.When he grows up year by year and his facial features take shape year by year, in the near future I will see a man with good browbones, dark eyes and a straight nose.

He is such an excellent person. Not only is he smart and has a good family background, but he is also beautiful when he was a child or teenager, and he is handsome and tall when he is an adult.

This kind of Gu Tingsheng deserves everyone's love and the most beautiful love.He deserves to be cherished and treated, and deserves a smooth and conventional life, in which he should have a beautiful and gentle wife, have a normal and healthy family, and then have one or two or three children.

Then when he was old, I would leave everything I had to his children because I had no wife or children and was single all my life.If his wife dies earlier than him, then let me selfishly accompany him in the last period of my life.

If I die young, then I hope that one day Gu Tingsheng will sit in the sun in his gray-haired twilight years, surrounded by young children.

He recalled the past, except for his wife and children in the past, when he talked about his youth, when he talked about his childhood, he told them with a smile that his grandfather once had a younger brother named Yang Lu.

We used to be very close, we grew up together.

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"You look at me again."

Gu Tingsheng turned his face away, and his tone was accusing: "Yang Lu, if you weren't young and a boy, I would have doubted whether you liked me."

My eyes followed his turned face all the way, I saw him say this, I nodded, with a smile on my face, my heart was eager to try, but my hands and feet were cold.

I nodded and smiled and said, "I like you."

Gu Tingsheng leaned back, and he also smiled, the smile was indifferent, it was just a simple smile, he laughed at my words as funny, he said to me: "You looked very serious when you said it, so it's even more funny."

I sat on a chair, knowing why it was funny, I barely touched the ground with my toes when I sat here, and when I sat a little further, my legs were drooping and shaking slightly.

On the white vases, on the silver tableware, on every piece of clean objects, there is a child's face reflected, that is my face.

"I like this flower." I pointed to the vase.

"I like to look at the scenery outside the window from here." I turned my head to look at the scenery outside.

"I like Gu Tingsheng."

I turned my face and looked straight at Gu Tingsheng.

Gu Tingsheng blinked: "Children like it, I understand. I said like it..."

Gu Tingsheng's tone was blurred for a moment, and then he looked at me ambiguously and smiled: "When you are older, you must look good when you are my age."

Gu Tingsheng's tone sounded like a rogue.

As soon as I pushed the plate in front of me, I didn't like his sudden change of face. In his previous life, Gu Tingsheng was the same, gentle and upright. He knew that the world was dangerous but there was light in it. He believed that the world was either black or white.

Gu Tingsheng in this world is ever-changing. After being indifferent and irritable, I saw the worst side of him that was taught by his family background - the second ancestor who has nothing to do and behaves perversely.

The knife and fork swayed in the white porcelain plate, making a crisp sound, Gu Tingsheng was still laughing: "Little friend, why are you angry, why are you suddenly angry?"

"Because I praised you for looking good?"

Gu Tingsheng pushed away the vase in the middle of the table, his tone calmed down, I looked up and saw his face regained its peace, although it was neither gentle nor warm, even quiet and silent.

Gu Tingsheng said to me: "It's impossible for you to be as handsome as me, your appearance is not just like that."

At this time, the waiter came to deliver the food with a dining car, and the two set meals were all steaks, followed by a middle-aged man in a black suit.

When the man saw Gu Tingsheng, he called him politely: "Young Master Gu."

Gu Tingsheng also glanced at him, and he only said, "It will be recorded in Gu Xingsong's account."

The man smiled and said a few more words. Gu Tingsheng didn't say a word from the beginning to the end, and the man didn't think what he said was boring. I looked at Gu Tingsheng in a cheap school uniform and then at the restaurant manager in a Wan suit. I felt this scene It's a bit philosophical or caricatured.

In the end, the man came with a consistent smile, and left with a smile, and told the waiter to pay more attention to this table.

He walked forward, and the head waiter came back, apologetically expressing that there is a special box for Mr. Gu, in fact, this is very inappropriate, all the dishes are on the table, the head waiter came back and said, probably the restaurant manager came to confirm his identity too late.

The foreman's tone was as low as dust. Gu Tingsheng looked cold and seemed to mind, so I could only say: "This place is very nice. I can see the scenery outside. I like sitting by the window very much."

When Gu Tingsheng heard what I said, he smiled a little. The lady foreman followed my words and said a few more words before leaving with a sigh of relief.

When I was eating steak, I moved slowly with a knife and fork. I was already hungry, but my mind was heavier than my hunger. Over there, Gu Tingsheng pushed over his plate, and on the plate was a steak that had been cut into small pieces.

"You are so slow." Gu Tingsheng took my plate away.

I hurriedly told him: "I have already eaten this plate."

"You are a child, I don't despise you."

When Gu Tingsheng made a cut, I seemed to hear the sound of the fleshy fibers being torn, and he filled his mouth with a fork.

I ate slowly, took a bite, wanted to open my mouth to talk, and finally finished dessert and ate ice cream, and then I opened my mouth to him: "Brother, what happened when you were seven years old, what does it mean that you don't know what it means?"

Gu Tingsheng had already stopped eating, he was at the other end of the table, he didn't look at the distance outside the window, and I realized he was looking at me.

Gu Tingsheng looked at me: "Give me one, why should I answer your reason?"

I thought about it a long time ago, and I asked him why he told me. I thought of many reasons, so at this moment I told Gu Tingsheng: "Because I care about you."

Gu Tingsheng raised his eyebrows, he wanted to laugh, ridicule, mock, and then I told him: "I want to be friends with you, the first time I saw you, I felt that I had seen you before, and I really wanted to get close to you, I want to be good friends with you."

Gu Tingsheng's ridicule didn't have time to show it all, he slowly put away the arc of the ridicule, and I continued to say to him: "I have no friends, no one, I don't like to be close to people, and I don't like to communicate with people, but I When I saw you, the first time I saw you, I really wanted to get closer to you, even closer."

Three years have passed since my death, three years have passed in a blink of an eye, I really miss you.

The expression on Gu Tingsheng's face was after my two paragraphs, he was silent for a long time, he asked me: "I have no friends...don't you have a sister?"

"A sister is just a sister."

Gu Tingsheng stared straight at me with his dark eyes: "Do you feel lonely?"

Then he looked at me blankly: "Why me?"

He added: "Why you."

These three sentences have no beginning and no end, they came abruptly and out of nowhere, I can only answer him the first two.

"Yes, I'm lonely."

"Because it's only you that I want to be close to you."

Gu Tingsheng looked at me: "You answered my two questions, then I will tell you what happened to me when I was seven years old. First of all, I said it first, and I don't remember it very clearly. After you have listened, you have to make sure—— If you finish listening, would you still want to be my friend?"

I don't need to think, I don't need to hesitate, I can answer him immediately, no matter what happens, I am willing to stand by your side, as long as it is you, I am willing, I am willing.

But Gu Tingsheng didn't give me any time to answer. This time he simply continued, "I remember that I have a younger brother."

He was saying this sentence, and after just saying this sentence, he stopped his voice.

I heard that his tone was normal and decisive, and I didn't understand why he didn't finish this sentence.I went to see him, and I was startled, my heart twitched violently, as if someone had grabbed my heart, I took a breath, and looked at Gu Tingsheng in pain: "Brother, don't cry."

The Gu Tingsheng in front of me, who was only 14 years old, showed the expression that he showed when he was holding my dead body with him in his previous life.

The 14-year-old Gu Tingsheng had no tears in his eyes, but when I looked at his face, I was very sad.

That sentence I have always wanted to say to Gu Tingsheng, when I watched him hug me and cry when he died, and when I said goodbye at the Happy House, now I repeat it to him again, weakly and sadly: "Don't Cry, brother, don't cry."

Gu Tingsheng touched his eyes, he was very puzzled: "I didn't cry, look, there are no tears."

"But you look like you're crying."

I put my hands on my knees, dangled my feet, and leaned forward. I looked away and asked calmly, "Continue talking, brother, do you have a younger brother?"

Gu Tingsheng opened his mouth: "I remember—"

As soon as he uttered these three words, he closed his mouth. The hoarse and choked voice shocked him, and it also shocked me.

I raised my head, and Gu Tingsheng picked up the lemonade and drank it vigorously. He drank the glass in one gulp, cleared his throat, and then continued.

"I'm an only child, I have no siblings, but when I was seven, one day, looking around the house, I was looking for a boy, I don't remember the name, but I do remember—"

When Gu Tingsheng said this, his voice became difficult, his tone became heavier, and his breathing became thicker. I saw the corners of his mouth tightened and the corners of his eyes drooping. Gu Tingsheng gasped: "I remember, I have a younger brother."

"But I couldn't find it. Everyone said I didn't have it. Everyone said I was hysterical. I searched everywhere. I remember that I was going crazy at that time. I thought it was my brother who was seriously ill and was dying. They were afraid I was sad and kept it from me. I asked them to hand over my brother. If they couldn’t, they would take me to the hospital and let me see him for the last time. Then I thought maybe my brother was dead and I had been stimulated, so they told me Lied to me--"

Speaking of this, Gu Tingsheng suddenly raised his voice, and his dark and heavy eyes stared at me: "But I'm actually sick, I'm a mental patient, the psychologist said I have bipolar disorder and schizophrenia , Yang Lu—"

Gu Tingsheng smiled: "Are you still willing to be friends with me?"

My heart, my whole body, my limbs are numb, my fingertips are hurting with my heart, the expression on my face is no longer under my control, my heart is beating crazily like convulsions, in the past and present, I have nothing A moment is more difficult than this moment.

These words that Gu Tingsheng said made me feel more uncomfortable than when I died. I just listened and felt so painful that I wanted to yell loudly. What happened? Why did Gu Tingsheng have such an experience?

I don't know what kind of expression I have, I stared at Gu Tingsheng, looking at his sad face, I heard myself say: "Yes, I am willing."

"Even if you're crazy, I'd still like to be your friend."

"Oh." Gu Tingsheng nodded, then he stopped laughing and told me calmly: "Then I will tell you another secret."

"My first

The author has something to say: When I saw you, I thought you were my younger brother. "

"I regard you as the younger brother in my fantasy that doesn't exist in reality."