Happy Life [Rebirth]

I don't remember what month and date it was, but I only remember that I was in the third year of junior high school that year, and it was an upcoming summer.

Every morning seems to be the same as the morning that passed yesterday and the morning that is coming tomorrow.Every day I understand that life is just such an ordinary and repetitive life, but the day after day that should have been repeated was broken by a bunch of four-leaf clover that day.

I held the bunch of four-leaf clover and smiled foolishly. I didn't know how long I laughed. I threw off the quilt and ran outside before I could put on my shoes. At that time, Gu Tingsheng had already moved back to his room.

I broke into his room holding a bunch of four-leaf clover in the morning light, Gu Tingsheng was lying on the bed, the quilt was kicked aside, he was curled up on the side of the bed, I squatted by the bed and looked at his sleeping face .

I looked at it for a long time, watching the sun getting stronger and stronger, seeing that my legs were numb, and only opened my eyes after being watched. Gu Tingsheng looked at me and asked me vaguely: "Xiaolu, don't sleep much on Sunday." when?"

I looked at him, Gu Tingsheng had good-looking eyebrows, straight nose, and under his half-closed eyelids were the pair of pure black eyes inherited from his father.

He looked at me, he woke up a little, Gu Tingsheng smiled at me with gentle eyes, I saw myself in his eyes, a boy with a little childishness.

I raised my hand, and the four-leaf clover in my hand made the sound of intersecting branches and leaves.

I asked Gu Tingsheng: "Brother, such a bunch of four-leaf clover is hard to find, did you give it to me?"

Gu Tingsheng was lying on the bed, he moved in, I climbed onto the bed, pulled over the quilt, and the two of us were covered with a distance of not too far, and we could see each other's faces very clearly from this distance.

"Don't you want it?"

"How long have you been picking?"

Gu Tingsheng rubbed his eyes and answered me: "I don't know, I'm exhausted—it's really hard to find, you put it away, it is said that you can get happiness if you get a four-leaf clover—this must be a big handful of happiness."

"Why did you send me, it's so hard to find?"

"because--"

Gu Tingsheng frowned, and he let go again, lazily said to me: "What do you care about so much, I want to give it to you, is that a reason?"

I looked down at the four-leaf clover in my arms, and looked up at Gu Tingsheng in the morning light. He was so beautiful and gentle. He was my brother, and he was Gu Tingsheng.

I opened my mouth, and a warm and passionate emotion surged in my heart. At that moment, I was only 15 years old, and I was thinking, I want to be with this person, I want to be with him forever.

I didn't even realize my feelings at that time, but the strong and sudden feelings had overwhelmed my mind, and I thought it was family affection, friendship, pure and intense feelings to the extreme.

I took a few breaths, my face was hot, and my heart was beating wildly. I heard my voice contained deep feelings, and I told him purely and warmly: "Brother——"

"I love you."

This is my only confession in 26 years. In those 26 years of my life, I told Gu Tingsheng countless times that I like elder brother, I like brother, I like Gu Tingsheng, but I never told him that I love you .

When a child is ignorant, he can say "I love" easily, but when he understands, he loses his courage. Only the word "like" can be pretended to say casually.

Said that he likes this flower, this bouquet of roses, this aunt, his brother, and Gu Tingsheng.

But as long as love is in the heart, it is difficult to express it.

Gu Tingsheng looked at me, he pushed me, he laughed, and he also said loudly to me: "Yang Lu, what are you doing, you're so disgusting."

After I finished saying that, the warmth and ardor in my heart were suppressed by the quickening heartbeat and sudden fear. I was both sweet and scared. I thought, I love Gu Tingsheng, of course I love Big Brother, but I am afraid, very Fear.

I am fifteen, I am not a child of twelve or thirteen years old, I am a boy who already understands the sex/things of men and women.

Saying "I love you", I understand the weight of the word "I love you".

After Gu Tingsheng finished speaking, I looked at him, I wanted to say something, I wanted to cover up the confession just now.

Gu Tingsheng stretched out his hand again, and he touched my face with a smile on his lips, his eyes were full of morning light, my elder brother gently touched my face with a gentle light, because he just woke up not long ago, his voice Still a little hoarse, he said to me: "Little Lu, I love you too, and my elder brother loves you too."

At that moment, that day, holding a bunch of four-leaf clover, I almost thought he really loved me.

I almost thought his "I love you" had the same meaning as mine.

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Gu Tingsheng took my hand, and when I walked through the small garden, I knew he was going to take me to the small playground behind.

"Brother, is it okay if you don't go to class?"

I looked at Gu Tingsheng's big hand holding my little hand. His school uniform was a little fluttering because he was very thin. Gu Tingsheng said: "The textbook is too simple, and it doesn't matter if you don't read it."

"But that teacher has seen you."

"Grass!"

Gu Tingsheng scolded, I looked at him, and I didn't understand how Gu Tingsheng's character could be so wrong with his previous life, Gu Tingsheng in his previous life never cursed or uttered dirty words.

"Don't swear."

I sincerely persuaded Gu Tingsheng: "Swearing is not good, you think it's cool, but it's really stupid/crazy."

After I finished speaking, as soon as I shut up, I realized that I had also said something unpleasant.

Gu Tingsheng didn't let go until he reached the small playground.He climbed onto the cement pipe and motioned me to sit beside him, and I climbed up too. Gu Tingsheng said to me, "Yang Lu, you are so talkative, just like an old lady."

I think Gu Tingsheng's words are too unfair. Gu Tingsheng turned to look at me and added sincerely: "Really."

I thought to myself that in the previous life, you were the old lady who took care of me all day long, saying that you were my elder brother, and replaced my identities as parents, relatives, and best friends in my life.

Gu Tingsheng's legs drooped, he shook and said to me, "Push me down."

I thought I heard it wrong, Gu Tingsheng repeated again: "Push me down."

"Why should I push you?"

My eyes widened, looking at Gu Tingsheng, remembering that he once said that his mind is not clear, I asked Gu Tingsheng uncertainly: "Are you, your mind is not clear again?"

"Pooh!"

Gu Tingsheng answered me concisely, obviously he is not out of his mind.

Why do you want me to push him if he is not out of his mind?

I also drooped my legs, and I still felt a little sunburned. It's already May, and the weather is now 25 or [-] degrees. When the sun is shining, there are already signs of heat.

I also shook my leg: "The brain is not bad, what do you want me to push you for? I pushed you down..."

I still have to feel sorry for you.

Gu Tingsheng supported the cement pipe, the boy's body was backward, he was facing the sun on his back, Gu Tingsheng answered me why.

"You paid me back the money, then push me down once, so that everyone will owe nothing, and I have nothing to do to you."

I turned around very quickly, and I understood what he meant. He was saying that last time he accidentally pushed me off the cement pipe, this time I will push him, so that he apologized.

I should have said: You can just apologize, why are you so awkward, you didn't mean it at the time.

But I was really stimulated by his words, I looked at him, leaned over, and stretched out my hands to cover his eyes, I didn't want him to see my expression, because it must be very ugly.

I said to Gu Tingsheng in a calm voice, "You owe me a lot, and you can't pay it off."

This sound fell in a long silence, Gu Tingsheng faced the sky, his eyes were covered by my small hands, he didn't say anything, but after a while he laughed silently.

"Yang Lu." Gu Tingsheng called my name, he pushed my hand away, bent his legs, Gu Tingsheng arched his back and supported his face, "You are only mentally ill, do you want me to bring you some medicine? "

"No."

I answered Gu Tingsheng, and Gu Tingsheng took out the money: "Then take the money back."

I took a look and pulled out a [-]: "A bottle of safflower oil plus registration fee, this [-] is enough, there are more."

Gu Tingsheng clutched the remaining money: "If you have money, you don't want it, are you stupid?"

"Aren't you a fool to give free gifts to people who have money?"

Gu Tingsheng was quiet for a while, then he quickly stretched out his hand and rubbed my head, then Gu Tingsheng got up and climbed to the top of the cement pipe, Gu Tingsheng stood on a high place and looked down at me: "You are too thin, Yang Lu, I invite you to eat."

I looked at the cement pipes piled up against the wall, looked at Gu Tingsheng who was only an arm's length away from the top of the wall, and realized that he was skipping school after skipping class.

When the two of us climbed over the wall and walked on the street, pedestrians on the road looked sideways at us from time to time.

Gu Tingsheng was still puzzled: "Why do people always look at me?"

I looked at the school uniform on his body, and then at the school uniform on my body, and soon understood, Gu Tingsheng asked me again: "I'm not familiar with this place, do you know where there is a better restaurant?"

There are many snack bars around the school, they all serve fried skewers, casserole noodles and the like, but it's only before ten o'clock, Gu Tingsheng is really ready to eat?

I felt that his head was kicked by a donkey, or he lacked common sense, so I told him: "We two are wandering in the street in school uniforms. If others see this, it means skipping class."

Gu Tingsheng shook his sleeves, and cursed again: "This school uniform is too big, and it is still eye-catching. Who designed the school uniform for No. [-] Middle School, no, who chose it, did you get kicked in the head by a donkey?"

I looked at Gu Tingsheng and found that our brain waves were quite consistent. He also felt that some people's heads were kicked by donkeys.

In the end Gu Tingsheng bought two boxes of ice cream and dragged me into the Internet cafe. The front desk was very irresponsible and asked if we both had ID cards.

Gu Tingsheng walked ahead with the start-up list, and I followed him. It was Monday again, and it was rare to come to the Internet, but I saw many young people who looked like students sleeping on the sofa.

The private room opened by Gu Tingsheng, the two of us went in and he turned on the phone. I saw that he was very familiar with Internet cafes, and thought: "Brother, do you often come to Internet cafes?"

Gu Tingsheng sat in front of the computer, and he also opened the single sofa next to him. He asked me to sit on it, and said, "Occasionally, once the Internet was disconnected, I came to the Internet cafe."

I sat over, knowing that he would come to the Internet cafe, I might as well persuade him to go back to class. After Gu Tingsheng entered the ticket number into the computer, he handed the ticket to me. I didn't answer it. He looked at me: "Can you use the computer?"

In this era, computers are at a stage where they have just been popularized but not yet fully popularized. At least many people still don't use computers.

Gu Tingsheng thought I didn't know how to use it, so he leaned over and entered the tracking number, then clicked on the desktop, and a movie came up, and he handed me the earphones: "Watch the movie."

I took the earphones, but didn't put them on immediately, I asked Gu Tingsheng: "Then what are you doing?"

"I have something to do." Gu Tingsheng had already started to move with the mouse.

I wondered if he was going to play games and looked at his computer screen, but Gu Tingsheng entered a webpage, which I could only see was a forum.

Gu Tingsheng looked sideways, the private room was half-dark with the curtains drawn, and there was still an old-fashioned computer screen with a bulky butt, the light on the screen was reflected on Gu Tingsheng's face, and he said faintly: "Don't look at me, watch the computer, the movie titles are all pass."

I had no choice but to look away, and looked at the computer screen, and it turned out to be the classic romance movie "Titanic".

The movie is a good movie. I watched it once in my previous life. I also watched it on the computer in my previous life. When I watched it, I watched it with Gu Tingsheng.

The coincidence of this life is that it is exactly the same as the previous life except for changing the place.

I put on my earphones and thought about what Gu Tingsheng was going to do later, but the movie was very good. I saw the encounter between Jack and Rossi, saw the beauty of the young Leonardo, and listened to me. The song of eternal heart, I saw the end of the 194-minute movie in a blink of an eye, and watched it again because I knew the plot earlier, but I was still sad at the end.

I was wearing earphones, but the player was already turned off, and my eyes still didn’t look back, but the earphones were taken off. I turned my head, and Gu Tingsheng looked at me and said, “Isn’t it all over? Why are you still staring at the computer?”

I looked at Gu Tingsheng silently: "Have you seen this movie?"

I asked very simply, but after I asked, Gu Tingsheng looked very strange, his tone was vague, and he said: "I don't think I have seen it, but I seem to have seen it. The doctor said I did, but I can't remember clearly." Yes, but the subconscious still retains those plots.”

Gu Tingsheng replied me with a long paragraph, but I didn't understand a word, so I asked him: "Who is the doctor?"

Gu Tingsheng didn't answer, he pointed to his computer, and asked me to look at it. I didn't understand. I poked my head over and found that his computer was a compiler with programs written all over it. I was very surprised. Gu Tingsheng has been exposed to programming at this age. Can you write a program?

In his previous life, Gu Tingsheng only became interested in programming in high school, and later made his own website and finally entered the IT industry.

Gu Tingsheng clicked Run, and the corners of his mouth curled up. I saw him smiling proudly: "Pay attention, don't lose your mind."

I saw a red line appear on the white background board, and then the line twisted and changed, like the trace of fireworks falling, and finally the red line turned into a heart, and the heart was still beating .

"awesome."

I praised, although compared with the previous life, Gu Tingsheng's current level is just a small case.

Gu Tingsheng rested his head on his head: "Can you be full of emotion in your compliments? It's flat and straightforward without any ups and downs. It's almost like saying that the weather is good today."

"Pride makes people regress." I told Gu Tingsheng: "Brother, you will write more powerful programs than this in the future."

Gu Tingsheng put down his hand, he looked at me, and then he said: "Yes, I will write more powerful programs in the future."

"go to eat."

Gu Tingsheng didn't continue this topic, he changed the subject himself, stood up and left the sofa seat, Gu Tingsheng moved his body, and I also turned off the computer.

"Please have a big meal."

Gu Tingsheng's tone was cheerful, and he appeared with a little pride before. I walked up to him, and he took my hand naturally.

I let him lead, and he took me out. The Internet cafe is very lively at this time. People who have slept wake up, and there are more people surfing the Internet. Six yuan for rice, six yuan for rice with spicy chicken... ".

Gu Tingsheng repeated to me amidst the noise and the smell of smoke: "Please eat a big meal, not this cheap one."

I didn't think much of it, I walked out of the Internet cafe and went to the bus stop and shook my hand, Gu Tingsheng was studying the stop sign, he also shook his hand: "Don't let go, you are short and small, someone who can't see you was abducted what to do."

I was speechless to Gu Tingsheng's words. I squeezed his hand and said to him, "Brother, I'd better go home and eat. My sister won't see me at noon, so I should be anxious."

Gu Tingsheng lowered his head and frowned. I saw that he likes to frown so much, and I was really worried that he would wrinkle his forehead at such a young age.

"Brother, don't frown."

Gu Tingsheng let out a "tsk", and dragged me to the street not far from the station to call for a stop with an unhappy expression on his face.

He took out one by one: "Call."

Then he picked up the yellow landline and handed it to me: "Report a letter to your sister, what's delicious when you go home, you are so thin, you should mend it, you call me big brother, I will recognize you as a younger brother , brother treats you to a meal today that you can't usually eat."

I looked at Gu Tingsheng, he spoke really well, his face was impatient and irritable, now I understand why some boys wanted to beat him that day.

really…………

Very bad.

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