Happy Life [Rebirth]

Episode 2·Yuan Mengyu

My name is Yuan Mengyu, the person I love the most in my life is Shao Feng, and the person I am most sorry for is Gu Tingsheng.

One of them is my lover and the other is my son.

When I was fourteen, Shao Feng asked me: "Xiaomeng, what kind of boy do you like?"

I glanced at him, this guy had a little white face, like a little girl, and I said to him: "I don't like you like this anyway."

Shao Feng said: "Don't be like this...you really hurt my heart like this."

When I was sixteen, I was still in the same class as Shao Feng in the same school, and the class teacher had to share the same table. Shao Feng waved at me and said, "Here, here!"

All the new classmates in the class looked at him, I pretended not to know him, I felt very ashamed, I didn’t want to go home with him when I went home at night, but who made me and his family neighbors, we are in the same class again, class The time after school is the same, I don't want to go all the way with him.

Shao Feng, this little boy, even got into a temper tantrum with me. He refused to talk to me on the way, and I didn't get used to him. I kept my head down and played with the newly bought game console, and ignored him.

The author has something to say: This little boy is really worthless, he loitered over to my side, and asked me coyly, "What are you playing?"

"Tetris," I said to him, and then asked him, "Didn't you ignore me?"

"Who told you not to sit at the same table with me!" Shao Feng glared at me again.

"I have been at the same table since kindergarten, six years in elementary school, and three years in junior high school. If you don't get tired of me, I will get tired of you." I said to this guy, "Can you let me go, classmate Shao!"

"You..." Shao Feng looked at me, and I also looked at him, rolling my eyes to him by the way.

This guy has been "you" for a long time, and I'm almost home, he held my arm tightly, I squinted at him, and he gritted his teeth and said to me: "I just don't get tired of it, I'm not tired of being at the same table with you for the rest of my life." greasy!"

"Are you a bit promising?" I rolled my eyes again, thinking that he was very stupid, but if I thought he was stupid, I would be stupid, at least I was protecting him.

On the day we graduated from high school, we confirmed the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend, and I confessed it for nothing, because the girl in the class next door asked him to confess, I felt very angry, so I held his hand and said to the girl in the class next door: "This is my boyfriend, you Dare to covet it?"

On the way home that day, we still went together. His family didn’t move, and neither did mine. It’s just that my uncle and aunt told me not to be so close to Shao Feng. I know why, because my uncle and aunt hate his business. It's starting to fail.

But neither of these two people dislikes them, they even dislike me, often scolding my parents who died young, saying why they didn't take me to die together, leaving a bottle of oil for them.

At this time, I was actually fantasizing about the future of getting married and having children with Shao Feng, my childhood sweetheart, but I was not sure that we would be together in the future.

This may come from the insecurity in my bones. I have been dependent on others since I was a child, which caused me to have self-esteem and low self-esteem in my bones. I am good-looking and study well, but I have no parents, which makes me conceited and stubborn.

I worked very hard to make a lot of money in the future and become a master, so at first I didn't really think that Yuan Mengyu would definitely be with Shao Feng.

I decided that I must be with this person in the future. It was the winter when I was 20 years old. I had a fever. I was alone in the dormitory. He should call once. I don’t know what I answered. It's clearer, it's because of the cool wind blowing on my face, which made me feel a little more comfortable, and I realized that I was carried on his back.

From yesterday to this afternoon, there was just a heavy snowfall. The snow on the ground was as thick as a person's calf. Shao Feng carried me on his back, and went to the school infirmary with one foot deep and the other shallow. I touched his face and touched his hand. sweat.

At this time, I was not too moved, so it is not far from the dormitory to the school doctor's office.Unexpectedly, there was no one in the school infirmary, and I didn't know where the doctor had gone, so Shao Feng carried me to the hospital two streets away.

He walked to the end and tore off the collar of his clothes, panting all the time, I lay on his back, there was no one or car on the street, because the snow was really too heavy today, I was carried by him like this, suddenly felt There are only two of us left.

I suddenly realized that he really likes me.

Because of such a thing, in the process of our love, he has done many things, but on this day, I suddenly decided that as long as he still loves me and is willing to be with me, I will never be with him separate.

Although he is very useless, I can work harder. At worst, he will be the husband of the house and I will be a strong woman. After I have children, I can raise two by myself. I believe I have the strength.

In short, on this day, I decided to be with this man in the future, and we will be together.

But my future is more obstructed than I imagined. There is no such person as Shao Feng in my future.

he died.

My uncle asked me to marry a man named Gu Xingsong, who was the same age as me. I had seen photos of him. He was very good-looking. To some extent, he was the same as Shao Feng, a man with a pretty face.

But I will not marry him. At this time, I have already planned to go to get a certificate with Shao Feng. No one would give in and suddenly marry another person.

But my uncle did some calculations for me, and finally he calculated 35 yuan, and said to me: "Xiaomeng, if you can give me 35 yuan now, I will pretend that I haven't raised you in these years, otherwise you have to go get married."

At this time, I don’t hate my uncle very much anymore, because when I became an adult, I suddenly realized that I was not their child. They didn't treat me badly.

So my choice is request.

This is the winter when I was 21 years old. Shao Feng and I bought gifts and came to our door. My uncle was not at home. Shao Feng and I went to beg my aunt. This woman is very mean-I always knew it, but when she said: "You kneel outside , Kneeling all afternoon, I can find a way to wipe off the leader, 30 you can always make up, right?"

I went to kneel outside for a fraction of the 5 yuan. Shao Feng refused to let me kneel. I said to him, "Kneeling will save you [-] yuan. Don't be stupid, it's worth it."

At this time, I didn't know that I was two months pregnant, because I had my period just last month. Shao Feng knelt with me in the snow that day. I didn't kneel for an afternoon, so I got down There was a very painful feeling. I always remember that day, the snow was white, and the blood flowing from my body was too red by comparison, and Shao Feng called 120 like crazy, yelling at the phone Said to come and save his wife.

When I went to the hospital and entered the operating room, I realized that it was a miscarriage. The two-month-old child was gone, and the gender of such a big child could not be discerned. I didn’t know whether the abortion was a boy or a girl. Although I always say I dislike Shao Feng, I actually love him very much.

So I think if we have children in the future, I want a boy like him, white and good-looking.

But the child is gone, and so is Shao Feng.

I know he is very sad. He has been depressed since his family went bankrupt until our relationship was hindered. I was forced to marry, but I never took it to heart. good.

In the morning Shao Feng said to me: "Xiaomeng, you are a very strong person, let's... break up."

I said to him: "You are stupid, it's not the ancient times of feudalism, if I don't marry, even if the money really can't be exchanged, can they really force me to marry?"

After I finished speaking, this man just smiled at me, I thought he listened, but he walked out of the ward door without saying anything, this man has never lost his temper since I knew him, at least never to me Having said a serious word, now even before he died, he looked calm.

It was because of Shao Feng that I knew that a person who was really going to die was very calm, and he didn't say anything.When the man left the ward, he went to the top floor of the hospital and committed suicide by jumping off the building.

It was only after his death that I found out that he had depression. Why didn't he tell me, I don't know.I even suspect that he doesn't love me that much at all, at least not as much as I love him.He died, I counted, only to find that he is the only person who loves me in this world.

Too bad it's gone now.

I lost my parents when I was very young, then lost my kids when I was 21, followed by a lover.

I don't know why I still live, I don't know who I have to fight for, I don't want to live anymore, but I saw my uncle and aunt came to the ward and said to me: "Look, although there is a trouble, Such a thing, but the Gu family, that young man Gu Xingsong is still willing to marry you, Xiaomeng, people don't dislike you for having children, so what else do you choose?"

At this moment, I understood that of course I want to live, I want to live a good life, I want to live longer than these people, I want to see them lose their rich life, and they can only live in the world like dogs live.

I want to live by hating them.

There is really nothing to say about Gu Xingsong. My only impression of him is that he is the same person as me. I asked him why he is still willing to marry me. He looked at me with gloomy eyes, which made me suspect that he also has mental illness. .

The man told me: "My girlfriend jumped into the lake and died."

Surprised and gloating at the same time, I said, "My child and the father of the child are gone."

Gu Xingsong didn't follow up on my words. I later gave birth to a boy named Gu Tingsheng. I didn't like this child. From having him to giving birth to him, I thought about it, and my only thought was——Why are you Can it be born?

You survived.

But my child is gone.

I know it's wrong to think like this, Gu Tingsheng is also my child, I probably love him too, sometimes when I look at his pretty boyish face, I wonder if this is exactly what the child in my mind looks like .But soon I will hate him even more, I don't want to see him again, every time I see him, when I feel a little soft towards him, I will feel more guilty.

He is not my child, my child died long ago, in the winter when I was twenty-one years old.

I often feel that I don’t live very long. I lived another 23 years by relying on hatred. Hatred can torture people to death.

My uncle and aunt went to Southeast Asia to work as laborers. I let them live, because this way of living caused them more pain than death.

The Yuan family and other members of the Gu family let them participate in the shipping business one after another. From now on, everyone will live in the prison lovingly and love each other, and they will still be a family.

Then there is Gu Tingsheng, I sometimes think that I should kill him, because my children have no chance to come to this world to see the world, so why does Gu Tingsheng—why survive?

But when I looked at him, I felt that death was never the best way of punishment. This is a child who was born with sin. I later found out that Gu Xingsong’s girlfriend who committed suicide by jumping into the lake was four months pregnant. boy.

I looked at Gu Tingsheng, saw him kissing and hugging another boy, and seeing the happy expression on his face, I found it ironic, did he know that he was born with the lives of his two older brothers on his back?

He doesn't know anything, so why can he survive?

My lover is dead and he doesn't know anything.

So why - why can Gu Tingsheng be happy?

I thought about it, and I still hate, so for this last object of revenge, I decided to make him my continuation, as Yuan Mengyu's continuation, I decided to make him the second me.

So I chose to leave this world with Yang Lu.

Gu Tingsheng is an excellent child, but also cold-blooded and frightening. After I received the information, I had two options for me to choose, fleeing abroad or waiting for the death penalty. This child personally sent me to the guillotine.

In fact, I think it is very good, because there is no place to be happy for me to be alive. I wanted to die a long time ago, but I missed a push. Now that Gu Tingsheng has done this push, I have fulfilled his wish.

I came to his and that child's home, looked at him, I hadn't seen him in real life for a long time, I suddenly found that he looks really good-looking, although he is no longer as childish as he was when he was a teenager, he is a young man But his appearance is still the delicate and good-looking type.

I suddenly discovered that he looked like me, and also the same as the child I imagined that should have been born.

At this moment, I felt a very strange feeling in my eyes, I even wanted to cry, I wanted to hug him, but in the end I heard myself asking him very sadly: "How long have you not shouted?" Did you call me mother?"

The child was scared away, and when he was no longer in front of me, I returned to the Yuan Mengyu who hated everything, and I began to hate my child Gu Tingsheng again, I looked at Yang Lu, and I thought I didn't get it Happiness, you don't deserve it either.

Aren't you just me, you are my continuation, you should have the same fate as me.

When I was lying on the ground with my back up, I saw Gu Tingsheng jumping off the seventh floor after him, and I realized that Gu Tingsheng was different from me.

He is far more affectionate than I am. Shao Feng is dead, but I am still alive.

But it turned out that Yang Lu was dead, and Gu Tingsheng didn't want to live anymore.

I suddenly wanted to touch his face, because I suddenly understood that it wasn't that he looked like the child I imagined.But when I saw him, I thought my child should look like this.

Shao Feng.

I think we have known each other since we were four years old, and I am 45 in a blink of an eye, and it has been 24 years since you left me, so I am looking for you now.

My name is Yuan Mengyu, and the person I love the most in my life is Shao Feng.The person I am most sorry for is my son, his name is Gu Tingsheng.

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