Happy Life [Rebirth]

It has been three days since I left Gu Tingsheng and returned home. Lin Shuzhen did not interfere with the rest of my life except forbidding me to live with Gu Tingsheng again.

She and Xia Chaobei bought a lot of books about homosexuality, one of which mentioned that homosexuality was caused by children's lack of care in childhood, which was an acquired influence caused by external factors.Xia Chaobei believes it or not, I don't know, I heard him argue with Lin Shuzhen about whether I was born or acquired by the external environment.

Speaking of this kind of thing, I have never thought about it in my previous life.

After I confirmed that I like Gu Tingsheng, the kind of liking that I want to have sex with him, I have been secretly in love with him. From the age of 14, I fell in love with him until I died at the age of 26. In the past 12 years, I only liked Gu Tingsheng.

At that time, when I was walking in the shopping mall, Yang Lu was still Mr. Yang of the Gu family, and there were always people who spared no effort to send me beautiful boys or girls, and some of them had already been sent to the bed, but whether it was facing a man or a woman, I found that I have no interest at all.

So whether I am gay or bisexual is completely unknown. If Gu Tingsheng has never appeared in my life, my real situation is closer to asexuality. I am basically a man and a woman. Wouldn't like anyone - someone who wouldn't like anyone at all.

But I can't tell Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei these words and these things now. The beginning of the incident is the period when people are most prone to irritable and sensitive emotions. What should be done at this time is not to carry out secondary stimulation.Time is the best medicine. When the time passes slowly and everyone's emotions calm down, it is suitable to sit down and listen to each other calmly.

On the third day after we separated from Gu Tingsheng, Xia Chaobei was driven by Lin Shuzhen to deal with company affairs, and Lin Shuzhen changed into her home clothes. In the past three days, she never mentioned Gu Tingsheng to me again. It's about being a couple with Gu Tingsheng.

It seemed that Lin Shuzhen never knew the boy Gu Tingsheng.

Lin Shuzhen didn't do anything else these three days, just cook for me at home, drive me to and from school, and talk about some ordinary things in life. She would chat with me, talk about some interesting things in her life, and then ask me He also asked me if I like small animals, and if I want to have a cat or a dog.

Sitting on the bus to school, I replied to Lin Shuzhen: "I don't like small animals, I find it troublesome to keep them."

Lin Shuzhen drove me to school, she said: "Hey, is it? But I saw several cats in your place."

"Gu Tingsheng took him home." I said, "He used to raise cats and dogs when he was a child."

I didn't think about it at all, and said this sentence very smoothly. After I finished speaking, the car was silent for a moment because Lin Shuzhen refused to answer.

But it's not embarrassing, it's just that Lin Shuzhen has been carefully avoiding her for the past three days. At this moment, a crack was broken by me, and I felt that my mother seemed to be angry.

But soon Lin Shuzhen talked about other things, she said to me in a relaxed and natural tone: "Go out to eat at night, you finish class at 05:30, I will pick you up by car, Mom has a friend who wants to take you to meet .”

"What friend?" I was curious.

Lin Shuzhen said: "He is a professor of history, and he will be hired back to your school as a doctoral supervisor in the second half of this year. Don't you plan to continue studying? I want to take you to meet this person. If you can talk to him, you can follow this person when you are a graduate student." The teacher is also very good, he is a very knowledgeable old gentleman."

I didn't reject Lin Shuzhen's kindness. I heard her argument with Xia Chaobei last time. Xia Chaobei agreed that I was born gay, but Lin Shuzhen kept rebutting. She thought that I liked men because of acquired factors, and that I It may be that I lacked love in my childhood, but Gu Tingsheng made up for some roles in my childhood, so I like Gu Tingsheng.

She always thought I could like women.But mother doesn't know, except for Gu Tingsheng, I don't like men or women.

The three classes in the afternoon are a big class. After I entered the big classroom, Zheng Yize greeted me. Because of his sexuality, Zheng Yize was not close to Zhao Yuan and the others in the dormitory, and he was relatively solitary.

According to my observation, he got very close to some girls in the class.This big class was held together with a class majoring in drama and literature. I walked over to Zheng Yize, there were four people in a row, and he sat next to a boy with three girls.

I couldn't even pronounce my name, so a girl smiled and offered to give up my seat.

Someone patted me, and when I turned my head, I saw Xiang Linlin standing behind me, and behind Xiang Linlin, Zhang Yueyang made a face at me.

"Go and sit in the back." Xiang Linlin said.

Today she was wearing a white cotton skirt, canvas shoes, loose hair, and holding the books of our professional courses. She still looks like most of her in my memory—a young girl with a literary and artistic style.

But her personality doesn't match her usual attire at all. In fact, Xiang Linlin is much tougher than me, Zhang Yueyang, Su Fan, and what we take for granted.

Zheng Yize said: "Beauty, this is not authentic, how can you cut off your beard?"

Zheng Yize smiled at Xiang Linlin: "I also have something to say to Yang Lu."

"You're so popular, Yang Lu?" Zhang Yueyang came over and put his arm around my shoulders, walked towards the back, winked at Zheng Yize, and said, "Student, one class per person, and I'll return Yang Lu to you after the next class." .”

I saw Zheng Yize was stunned for a moment, then nodded with a smile, I thought to myself no, on second thought, Zheng Yize was seduced by masculinity.

Sitting in the third-to-last row of the classroom, commonly known as the gathering place for salted fish, they are all sleeping, playing mobile phones and reading novels.

After sitting down, Xiang Linlin didn't say anything, because Zhang Yueyang kept his arms around my shoulders and kept thanking me repeatedly.

"You thanked me on the phone before." I said to Zhang Yueyang, "There is no need to do it again."

But Zhang Yueyang said to me very seriously: "Brother, don't always look so calm and breezy. Maybe you just helped my brother that night, but you really saved my whole life!"

I don't think so, is it such an exaggeration?

Zhang Yueyang said exaggeratedly: "I was almost beaten that day and I was going to jump into the river. Flowers, flowers were used as snot paper by us. The suit, the suit was also caught by your cat. Kicking the hall, no luxury car , and fell into the swimming pool by mistake, I thought this would be the most unlucky and embarrassing day in my life, but the situation suddenly changed—"

Zhang Yueyang must have been too excited when he said it. His big head was on top of mine, and I was knocked dizzy by him. The guy was still saying: "The beauty is on my side, and the Ferrari key is also in my hand. Although the Ferrari ran Half of the gas was gone, and the beauty also took a taxi and left, but at least she didn't lose face in front of Su Fan's grandson, life is enough!"

I sincerely feel that whether it is Zhang Yueyang or Su Fan, Xiang Linlin should give it a pass.

Because stay away from mental retardation, cherish life.

I pushed Zhang Yueyang away and said to him: "The car belongs to Gu Tingsheng, you can go and thank Gu Tingsheng."

Zhang Yueyang said: "Thank you, thank you all, you can't just say it, let's go out for dinner tonight, I also made an appointment with Zhang Mingchen and the boss, Li Xun can't come because of something, plus Linlin, the six of us have a big meal .”

I can only refuse Zhang Yueyang: "I have something to do tonight, so I can't go to Brother Yang."

Zhang Yueyang said: "Can't you push it?"

I shook my head, because I thought it would be difficult for Lin Shuzhen to make an appointment with the old professor. I can still tell which is more important, so Zhang Yueyang could only mutter: "Then I'll ask Brother Gu if he can come."

Zhang Yueyang lowered his head and began to button his phone. Gu Tingsheng was probably on Wechat. Xiang Linlin, who hadn't spoken all this time, looked up at me. She asked me, "Yang Lu, why did you come with Zhang Yueyang that day? So there are still flowers?"

I didn't know that Zhang Yueyang didn't tell Xiang Linlin what happened on the road, so I told her everything honestly. Xiang Linlin kept laughing after listening to it, and she said, "That car is really useless, it's so flattering. I was so cold that I caught a cold the next day after I got home."

"But that car is not cheap, a luxury car is super fast." Xiang Linlin said, "Is that Gu Tingsheng's car?"

I nodded and shook my head again, the owner of the car is not Gu Tingsheng, so how can it be regarded as Gu Tingsheng's car.

"Yes or no?" Xiang Linlin laughed again.

"It's Gu Tingsheng... Mom's car." I answered Xiang Linlin.

Xiang Linlin said to me with a smile: "To be honest, I always thought that Gu Tingsheng's family was just a well-to-do family. I didn't expect to be so rich. The car is a limited edition. You don't have the money to buy it. No wonder Gu Tingsheng has the courage to drop out of school and start a business." .”

I didn't follow Xiang Linlin's words anymore. I knew that Xiang Linlin meant that Gu Tingsheng's family background was good and he had the capital to afford not to go to college to start a business and fail, but I can't say anything about the inside story. I can't say anything. At that time, I also realized that too many things in this world are like this.

We humans have a pair of eyes, but too many things in this world, what we see with our eyes, what we hear with our ears, and the information we get through sound images are actually false.

Zhang Yueyang raised his head at this time, and he said, "My day, Brother Gu also has something to do at night, what has he been up to lately?"

Zhang Yueyang looked at me, "I'm a busy person, so I just replied three words, busy, no time. Isn't this too indifferent? Is there true love in the world as promised? A good brother will last forever!"

"Maybe I don't want you anymore." Xiang Linlin said, and then she said, "Su Fan?"

Zhang Yueyang and I looked at the outer aisle in unison. Su Fan was standing by Xiang Linlin's table. He knocked on Xiang Linlin's table. He glanced at me and Zhang Yueyang and rolled his eyes. Su Fan lowered his head , with a calm expression, but a gentle tone, said to Xiang Linlin: "Why did you block my WeChat?"

Su Fan made a helpless expression: "Anyway, we will continue to be friends in the future."

"Forget it." Xiang Linlin said, "If you don't have the same temper, you can't be friends."

Su Fan still wanted to say something, but the class bell rang and the teacher stood on the podium. He shrugged and walked forward without saying anything more.

As soon as Su Fan left, Zhang Yueyang said: "This grandson has the nerve to appear in front of you. Next time he comes to you, I'll beat him up."

Xiang Linlin glanced at Zhang Yueyang, her expression was very calm, Xiang Linlin said directly to Zhang Yueyang: "You and him are just the same, in my eyes, you two have a lot in common."

After Xiang Linlin said this, Zhang Yueyang pestered Xiang Linlin very much this class, and kept muttering.I had no intention of attending class, so I lowered my head and sent Gu Tingsheng a WeChat message. His reply was not as concise as Zhang Yueyang's, but the meaning was the same. He was really busy, so he couldn't get away when he was supposed to come to see me.

At that time, I didn't think about Gu Tingsheng being busy because the company was in crisis. I simply thought that they were going to do the project themselves. As the company's current technical backbone, Gu Tingsheng was very busy.

After three classes that day, Zheng Yize didn't look for me again, he slipped away after only one class.After class, Xiang Linlin walked east, and when I left the school gate, Zhang Yueyang took a second look, said goodbye to me, and chased after his beloved girl.

I was walking out of school alone, and a new message came from my phone. Gu Tingsheng asked me if I was out of school.

Gu Tingsheng: I heard the bell for the end of get out of class, have you left the classroom?

I immediately realized that Gu Tingsheng was in school, and I replied to him: I just left the No. [-] teaching building and walked to Shendu Road ahead.

Gu Tingsheng replied: Look up and look to your left.

I looked up, took a few steps and turned a corner, and saw Gu Tingsheng standing there by the side of the road. He was wearing suit pants, a white shirt, and a tie, with a suit jacket draped over his arm.

I saw students passing by to look at him from time to time, until I walked over, there were girls who turned their heads three times a step.

As soon as I walked in front of him, Gu Tingsheng smiled and called my name: "Yang Lu."

I couldn't hold it back, so I opened my arms and hugged him. Gu Tingsheng bent his head and rested his head on my shoulder. He stretched out his hand and patted my back. More students looked at us curiously, but I couldn't bear it. Let go, I haven't seen or touched Gu Tingsheng for three days.

Lin Shuzhen did not confiscate my mobile phone in the past three days, and Gu Tingsheng and I were still able to chat on WeChat, and I even made video calls with him when the bedroom door was closed.

But since the day I left, Gu Tingsheng has been very busy. He didn't tell me what he was busy with, he just said that he was striving for a new project.

How can the images and text brought by WeChat and videos compare to real people, to the skin that can be touched and kissed.

I hugged Gu Tingsheng, thinking that I would hug him for a while, and let go after a while, but more and more eyes passed by and looked at us, Gu Tingsheng touched my head again, his lips were close to my ears, calmly Kissed.

He said: "Let go, let the eldest brother take a good look at you."

I let go of my hand, took two steps back, and looked at Gu Tingsheng face to face. I found that Gu Tingsheng's complexion was very bad. His skin was fair, but now his complexion is pale, with no blood at all, and the two dark circles under his eyes are even more obvious. Also, his eyes and his whole body revealed an unconcealable exhaustion.

"You've lost weight." I don't think it's an illusion. When I looked at Gu Tingsheng, his cheeks were sunken. He used to be very good-looking, with a kind of sharp handsomeness. Now his cheeks are a little thinner. The lines became sharper, making him even look a little gloomy.

It even made me feel that at this moment, Gu Tingsheng looks a lot like Gu Xingsong.

"It's just that I haven't seen you for three days, how thin can I be?" Gu Tingsheng laughed. He stretched out his hand to hold my hand, but he hesitated halfway through, and wanted to take it back. After all, he was at school.

I was taking the initiative to shake his hand, and I said to him: "Let me hold your hand, or I will always feel uneasy."

Gu Tingsheng and I held each other’s hands and walked slowly towards the school gate. It takes about 15 minutes to walk from here to the school gate at normal speed. Both the new and old campuses of Jincheng University are very large. Students often complain about walking from the teaching building to the school gate. It's too much trouble to go out, it's too far away.

But I hold Gu Tingsheng's hand, but I hope that this road can be longer, and I will walk with someone on some roads, and I always hope that even if this road does not end, it will be a sweet treat.

At the very beginning, while walking on the road, Gu Tingsheng told me what happened recently.He and KK's company encountered a crisis. The Shen family's face is still easy to use in Jincheng, but it's not very good. The projects have successively exploded with bad reputation.

As a company that is still very young, even in its infancy, such a blow can already break its capital chain. For this reason, Gu Tingsheng and KK have not even returned home for three days. , only vaguely inquired out a little clue.

"But it should have been thought of long ago, and it was completely expected."

When Gu Tingsheng mentioned that the third party involved was a subsidiary of the Gu Corporation, his voice was very indifferent, a kind of complete indifference. Only then did I realize that no matter what Yuan Mengyu said, she was always targeting Gu Tingsheng.

Of course I don't understand why, I only think that she and Gu Xingsong are two lunatics, I can guess some reasons, Yuan Mengyu and Gu Xingsong should both hate their original family, I don't know why, but they regard Gu Tingsheng as the person who hates Object continuation.

After saying this, he could already see the shadow of the school gate in the distance, so Gu Tingsheng stopped talking about these things, and asked me instead: "Do you miss Big Brother?"

"We've only been separated for three days." I said to Gu Tingsheng, "Is there anything else I can think about, and it's not that I haven't chatted with you and made videos."

Gu Tingsheng refuted me solemnly: "The video can't touch you, nor can I kiss you."

Gu Tingsheng bent down, and he looked at me seriously. I saw that his eyes were still very tired, but his eyes were focused and gentle when he looked at me. Gu Tingsheng said seriously: "Brother Miss you very much."

"I miss you too." I squeezed Gu Tingsheng's hand and told him.

We didn't say anything more, we just held each other's hands like this, our pace was already very slow, many passing students always looked back at us two, I think someone in the class will know that I am gay tonight, but I think Holding Gu Tingsheng's hand.

I just like him, liking someone shouldn't be wrong.

But no matter how slow you walk, you will always reach the end of the road. I let go of Gu Tingsheng's hand before I left the school gate. Gu Tingsheng looked at me suspiciously, and I said to him very sorry: "My mother They have come to pick me up after school these few days, so it's better not to add fuel to the flames during this time."

Gu Tingsheng also let go, the way he looked at me made me feel that he was going to kiss him in the next moment, which made me really want to kiss him too.

Gu Tingsheng said, "Damn it, brother can't even kiss you if he wants to."

I looked at him, Gu Tingsheng took a step back, he waved his hand and said, "Don't look at it, if you look at it again, I can't help but kiss you here."

"Let's go, Yang Lu." Gu Tingsheng said, "Don't wait for Auntie to come in and look for you. It would be terrible if she saw me."

"But I can't bear you." I said to Gu Tingsheng.

Gu Tingsheng looked at me, he smiled, but soon a very sad expression appeared in his eyes, he said to me tiredly and sadly: "My brother can't bear to part with you...but we still have to see you again."

Gu Tingsheng said: "Go forward, I will watch you go, I will go again."

I took two steps, but couldn't help but look back at him, Gu Tingsheng said to me: "Don't look, let's go."

There is a lot of traffic at the school gate, and Gu Tingsheng and I have attracted a lot of attention. I also know that it is too strange for me to bid farewell to each other. In the end, I endured and walked forward until I got outside the school gate. Turning around, Gu Tingsheng was still standing there watching me from a distance in the gap between the bustling students.