Happy Life [Rebirth]

I thought a lot that night, with a strong fear. I had this fear several times in my previous life. For example, I found the document that Gu Tingsheng signed under the deception of Yuan Mengyu in a pile of documents. At that time, I found That document, the hands are trembling.

I pinned the document behind my body and covered it with my clothes. Fortunately, it was the beginning of winter and I was wearing thick clothes. I walked out of the company pretending nothing had happened. When I got home, I didn’t even take off my shoes. The first thing I did was go to the kitchen and turn on the gas to burn the document.Coincidentally, Yuan Mengyu came to my house suddenly that day.

She had the key to my residence at that time. In fact, after falling out with Gu Tingsheng, the house I lived in was provided by Yuan Mengyu.

When she came in, luckily I had finished burning for quite a while, and disposed of the burnt ashes, and opened the window to put on a pot to make porridge.

When Yuan Mengyu came in, the high heels she was wearing made a "thud, thud, thud" sound, and the sound and posture she made when walking were very similar to her, capable, decisive and ruthless.

When she entered the kitchen, I looked calm, and she asked me: "What's the smell, what's wrong with it?"

I said that I just cooked a pot of porridge, but it was overcooked, so I cooked a pot again.

Yuan Mengyu said to me at that time: "You are very rich now, you can hire a nanny to cook for you."

"I'm used to being alone." I told Yuan Mengyu at that time.

Yuan Mengyu smiled at me and said, "But you didn't grow up alone."

But in fact, there was a fatal omission that day. Sometimes I think that maybe it is a coincidence of fate, and many coincidences come together.

For example, there was a major mistake that day - I didn't change my shoes, but the person who came was Yuan Mengyu. If it was Gu Xingsong, I think something might go wrong that day, but Yuan Mengyu who came, this is fate.

Yuan Mengyu is a very cool and selfish person by nature, and she doesn't really care about me, so there is a high possibility that she doesn't care why I didn't even change my shoes because she doesn't care about me.

Or she found out that I didn't even change my shoes, but I was standing in the kitchen cooking porridge, but it was also because I was nothing to her, probably just an ant-like existence, so she didn't care when she found out.

There was another time in my previous life that made me feel deeply afraid, that is, when I died, everyone in this world may suddenly think about life and death at some point. When I was young, I couldn’t sleep at night. I just want to die what is it?

The result I think of is that death is a deep sleep without dreams, I don’t know anything, my consciousness disappears, I will never think about it, I will never see this world, it’s like never dreaming again forever To sleep—is to die.

When I thought of this conclusion that night, I was so frightened that my whole body panicked. It was the same at that time. I couldn't hear anything, only the sound of my heart beating "Bang! Bang! Bang!"That night I had a feeling that was more fear than fear, and after thinking about it a lot, I was no longer afraid, and even after I fell in love with Gu Tingsheng, I always thought brazenly that I was not even afraid of death for the sake of my elder brother.

But at the moment when I died, I was terrified. At that moment, I realized that even if I was unhappy in life, even if I was always unhappy every day, at the moment of death, I burst into tears. The only thought left is...

I don't want to die.

Even if I live like a dog, I don't want to die.

Now I lie on the pillow, and I can hear the sound of my heart beating heavily. I lie there and look at Gu Tingsheng lying there through the railing at the head of the bed, and see his head and his figure lying there in the dark.I stretched out my hand and touched a little bit of his hair carefully, covering my mouth with one hand, I felt so sad.This time I finally spoke out and told Gu Tingsheng that I like him, and he agreed to "try".

But I was still very sad. I covered my mouth and trembled with fear, which was bigger and more turbulent than the lingering sadness of fear.I covered my mouth and didn't dare to make a sound, because I felt that I did something wrong. Not only did I not get Gu Tingsheng, but I also pushed him further away.Now he's with me, but I feel like I'm really about to lose him.

I didn't sleep all night.

At [-]:[-] the next day, Li Mo got up gropingly, and I sat up too, then pushed Gu Tingsheng's shoulder, and whispered to him, "It's past six o'clock, brother."

Gu Tingsheng woke up in a daze. He looked very tired when he came back yesterday. Li Moxun had already got out of bed and tiptoed to wash up. Gu Tingsheng also got up. I glanced at him. We only wear clothes when we sleep at night. Underpants, it's September now, but it's still terribly hot at night.

I saw Gu Tingsheng's bulging. Gu Tingsheng is three years older than me, and he has already started to have a morning erection phenomenon. We used to sleep in the same bed, and Gu Tingsheng occasionally did this, even myself occasionally.But at that time, I was sleeping at home with the air conditioner on, and everyone was wearing long-sleeved pajamas and pajamas.

Now I look at Gu Tingsheng, he is naked/naked, the boy has slender limbs, although the muscles are weak, but the well-proportioned bones are covered with a thin layer of flesh and white skin, I look at him naked/naked Chest, abdomen/thigh/legs, when I look at him, I feel my throat is very thirsty and has a very itchy feeling.

Gu Tingsheng rubbed his eyes, I didn't dare to look at him anymore, I felt like I was going to harden myself.

"Yang Lu." Gu Tingsheng called me softly, his voice still a little hoarse.

He didn't care where he was, I said to him, "It's ten past six, brother."

Gu Tingsheng nodded, he leaned over, I didn't know what he was going to do, I just saw him grab my hand, he looked around, and quickly held my hand, he quickly touched my finger I kissed him sharply, and I felt the warmth of his lips, very warm and soft.And at this very moment, I suddenly became hard/up.

At this time, the alarm set on Zhang Mingchen's mobile phone rang, and "The End of the World Is My Love" echoed in the bedroom, which could be called noise pollution.

Gu Tingsheng let go of his hand as soon as the voice rang, and he smiled at me with a kind of tender nostalgia in his eyes, but when I looked at his eyes, it felt like a stick in my throat.I felt that my throat was swollen, and I wanted to ask him something, but I couldn't say it.

Gu Tingsheng climbed out of bed, Zhang Mingchen was still sleeping as if nothing had happened, his cell phone kept ringing, and when Li Moxun came back, Zhang Yueyang and Zhang Mingchen were "quarreling" with each other.

I also put on my clothes and got out of bed, Li Moxun asked me: "Why did Brother Yang and Xiao Chenchen quarrel?"

Zhang Yueyang was on the bed: "Day, Zhang Mingchen, it's useful for you to set an alarm, and you don't want to get up!"

Zhang Mingchen: "I'll wipe it, Zhang Yueyang, you can't throw the pillow at my face, I'm dreaming, and suddenly the dream turned into a meteorite hitting my face!"

I was holding a cup toothbrush, and was about to brush my teeth and wash my face, and said to Li Moxun, "It's nothing, it's just that Zhang Mingchen's alarm kept ringing, which woke up Zhang Yueyang, and Zhang Yueyang pressed a pillow on Zhang Mingchen's face."

Li Moxun: "Huh?"

Li Moxun suddenly realized, and said to the two who were arguing on the bed: "Tsk, goodness, goodness, the two benefactors stop arguing, the second child is still sleeping."

As soon as he finished speaking, before I went out, I saw Li Xun sitting up, and a pillow flew over and hit Zhang Yueyang on the face.

After washing and returning to the dormitory, Zhang Yueyang, Zhang Mingchen and Li Xun still didn't get out of bed.

The three of them were kneeling on the bed, and pillows were flying around in the air. I took a look and found that these people were not authentic. The number of pillows flying in the air was more than three. In addition to the three of them, there were mine and Li Mo. Looking for a pillow.

The three people were screaming and laughing while flying pillows. I saw Li Moxun sitting cross-legged on a chair as if nothing happened. The chair was facing the window. He was facing the flying pillows and screaming , looking serenely at the rising sun outside the window.

Gu Tingsheng was just like a normal person, the English book he was holding was New Concept [-], and he was chanting words, I walked over and heard him reciting words.

When Gu Tingsheng saw me walking over, he said to me: "Are you okay? The dormitory is too noisy. Let's go to the playground to endorse."

When we left the dormitory, Li Xun said, "Hey, hey, little one, you two, don't run away!"

As soon as a pillow flew towards me, Gu Tingsheng stretched out his hand to block it, and I saw—my sister's is still my own pillow.

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