Yokohama Future Lovers

Looking at Natsume Soseki's preoccupied look, Osamu Dazai raised his face and asked doubtfully, "Teacher Natsume, what's wrong?"

Natsume Soseki shook his head, shaking off the miscellaneous things in his mind.

Let's ask Osamu Dazai what he thinks first, this kid is very assertive, and Natsume Soseki believes he will think about it carefully.

"Dazai." Natsume Soseki squatted down in order to be on eye level with Dazai Osamu. He stared at each other with extremely bright eyes, and said, "Do you want to consider their invitation?"

"They" refers to Mori Ogai and Fukuzawa Yukichi.Osamu Dazai knew this, he blinked and asked, "Why? Because they are your students?"

Although Natsume Soseki didn't say it directly, Osamu Dazai knew that he had two disciples when he chatted with him before.When I met Mori Ogai and Fukuzawa Yukichi, I deduced that these two people were the disciples of Natsume Soseki.

"It's not like that." Natsume Soseki shook his head and said, "I just think...maybe you can try a different life from what you have now."

"You understand, right?" Natsume Soseki said earnestly, "Wandering around in a daze like this every day, looking for a way to die will only make you gradually overwhelmed by pain and despair."

"So I was thinking, maybe you can try a different life first?"

"Of course, the final choice is in your own hands." Natsume Soseki patted Osamu Dazai on the shoulder and said, "The path you want to take must be chosen by yourself. All I can do is just give you some advice That's all."

Osamu Dazai asked, "Even if I choose to die?"

Natsume Soseki replied: "Even if you choose to die."

The elderly man who has experienced many past events lowered his eyes and said seriously: "The only one who can redeem himself is always himself."

"Even if I try my best, all I can do is to give you a hand when you call for help."

"..." Osamu Dazai was silent for a long time, and finally said in a light, cotton-like voice: "I will think about it."

This is already the best answer Dazai Osamu can give so far, and Natsume Soseki is very aware of this, so he just sighed.

Natsume Soseki lowered his eyes and suddenly remembered the last fragment of that dream.

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After Osamu Dazai died, Natsume Soseki passed a very empty time.

He turned into a cat and wandered around every corner of Yokohama all day long, pretending that he was such a free and carefree wild cat, who would not feel pain and sadness for something like a human being.

After hearing the news of Osamu Dazai's suicide, two disciples of Natsume Soseki, Mori Ogai and Fukuzawa Yukichi, came to visit him.Seeing the sad and hesitant expressions of the two, Natsume Soseki somehow got angry and blasted them away with a beard and a stare.

Perhaps it was because for him, Osamu Dazai hadn't completely "dead".

Even though he already knew that Osamu Dazai was dead, and even took over the other party's body himself, Natsume Soseki still felt unreal.It was as if he was in a dream, and every step he took was like stepping on the clouds. As soon as he woke up, his lover who was particularly mischievous would say good morning to him with a smile.

When I was with Osamu Dazai, time passed very quickly.The other party always does various things on a whim, such as suddenly wanting to cook something devilish, suddenly wanting to enter the water, suddenly wanting to catch mice.Natsume Soseki also tossed with him for a while, and after everything was done, Osamu Dazai hanged himself in the blink of an eye.

After he died, time slowed down again.Every second is infinitely extended, and sometimes Natsume Soseki can't even remember what he just did.

How long has it been?How many minutes?How many days?few weeks?Who knows?

Fukuzawa Yukichi sent a message saying that he hoped that Teacher Natsume could take care of his health.

Natsume Soseki thought a little strangely: Why did Fukuzawa Yukichi ask such a question?Am I living the same life as I always have?Even if Dazai-kun dies, I'll just go back to the life I had before being with him.

After much deliberation, he couldn't answer this question, so Natsume Soseki simply left it behind.

It was another day, and Natsume Soseki, who had been wandering outside as a cat for a day, returned to the house exhausted.

Perhaps because it was too exhausted, the little three-colored cat curled up and lay on the floor, unable to even utter a "meow~".

When he was about to fall asleep in a daze, Natsume Soseki suddenly remembered something, which made him open his cat eyes, and subconsciously looked up - the beam above was the one that Osamu Dazai used to hang himself one.

Not long ago, Osamu Dazai stepped on the high chair here, hung a rope from it, and ended his life.

If it was an ordinary person, he would definitely try to avoid the room of the deceased as much as possible. Even if he just moved away, it would be normal to never return to this sad place.

It's human to not want to touch things that hurt, to not want to suffer.

But Natsume Soseki just refused to move away, and he even ran directly to Dazai Osamu's room - the room where he hanged himself to sleep.

Perhaps it is because the cat will linger in the room where the owner died and refuse to leave after his death.Although Natsume Soseki is not a real cat, Dazai Osamu is not his master but his lover.

Looking up, Natsume Soseki was thinking, why did Osamu Dazai hang himself?Is it because of loneliness?

Cats like lonely people.Osamu Dazai is so popular with cats, is it because he is too lonely?

No, for Osamu Dazai.Perhaps the reasons for suicide are far simpler than that.Just because for Osamu Dazai, death is like water in the desert.

And he embraced death only because he was thirsty so he wanted to drink a glass of water.

Natsume Soseki thought so, and turned back into a human form.

He stepped on the chair that Osamu Dazai had used before, and hung the rope on the beam.

Don't get me wrong, Natsume Soseki didn't have the idea of ​​dying for love, he was just suddenly curious, what was Osamu Dazai thinking in his heart when he hanged himself?

Natsume Soseki is not Osamu Dazai, he can't personally feel the other party's thoughts.Then at least he wanted to understand as much as possible what Osamu Dazai would be thinking when he died.

The hanging rope was tied with a dead knot, forming a huge hole that seemed to lead to the abyss. Natsume Soseki could even vaguely smell the breath of death and blood there.

What was Osamu Dazai thinking when he stuck his neck into this hole and ended his life?Even now, Natsume Soseki couldn't know.Rather, how did they get together in the first place?It should be two people who are not related to each other, but they are together beyond everyone's expectations.

Natsume Soseki, who originally had no fixed residence, liked to turn into a cat and wander around every corner of Yokohama. When he was tired and hungry, he would go to other people’s homes to eat and drink at will. The cat's soft footsteps come back here.

Osamu Dazai, who originally liked to commit suicide everywhere, and even invited beautiful women to die in love, had a very peaceful time after being with Natsume Soseki.

The changes made by the two made people around them wonder if they had some strange supernatural powers.

But these are all things in the past, after all Osamu Dazai is dead now.

Natsume Soseki lowered his eyes and thought, maybe he and Osamu Dazai were together just by coincidence.Thinking of this, he sighed, and turned around to step down from the high chair-this action also made him face the door.

At that moment, his eyes widened.

Because Natsume Soseki suddenly discovered that the position he was standing in happened to be able to catch the large maple tree outside.

That is - what a beautiful maple tree.

The maple trees, like sunset clouds, grow quietly, swaying with the wind, making crisp sounds, as if they are telling moving words.A few maple leaves were blown off and danced around the maple tree, like a burnt flame, sleeping in the soil with ashes.

The wind blew over, carrying the breath of maple leaves.It reminded Natsume Soseki of Dazai Osamu who was sitting in the courtyard and looking at the maple trees with him while smiling.

The person who loves this world more than anyone else, who wants to live harder than anyone else, who is obviously a coward who is afraid of happiness but chooses to be with him resolutely, unexpectedly saw such a beautiful person before he died. scene?

Yes, Natsume Soseki was very sure.Dazai Osamu deliberately chose this place to hang himself.After all, he is that Dazai Osamu.

Originally, Natsume Soseki thought that deliberately choosing to hang himself in the room was just the despair of his lover before his death, but this turned out to be the most beautiful picture that his lover wanted to share with him at the end.

The unrealistic dream was shattered with a "touch", finally revealing the cruel but beautiful reality.For the first time since Osamu Dazai died, Soseki Natsume wept with trembling lips.

——This is the last, little prank of his beloved lover, and also his last tenderness.

Tears slid down Natsume Soseki's cheeks, and after he wiped them away with his hand, there was a helpless smile on his face that often appeared when he was with Osamu Dazai.

"This is really... losing to you, Dazai-kun."

In a trance, he seemed to be able to see his lover shouting with a mischievous smile as usual: "Old teacher."

This picture that will never be forgotten allows Natsume Soseki to continue walking with a smile even after his lover dies.

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"Teacher Natsume?" Osamu Dazai couldn't help shouting when he saw that Natsume Soseki was in a trance again.

Hearing the boy's voice, Natsume Soseki came back to his senses. He shook his head and said, "I've finished what I want to say. It's getting late. I'm leaving. You should go to bed early too."

Osamu Dazai nodded and said with a smile: "Then, goodbye, teacher."

Natsume Soseki froze for a moment, he stopped where he was.I don't know how long it took, but when Osamu Dazai thought he was in a trance again, the man turned his head and asked, "When autumn comes, do you want to go see the maple trees together?"

Osamu Dazai gave him a blank look, and replied, "Maple tree? Yes."

Natsume Soseki didn't go to see Osamu Dazai.He waved his hand, and the man who was standing next to Osamu Dazai immediately turned into an agile and lovely three-colored cat.

The cat flicked its tail, jumped onto the window sill with light steps and jumped out again, and soon disappeared from Dazai Osamu's sight.

"..." Osamu Dazai pondered for a while, but without saying anything, he closed the window and prepared to go back to sleep.

Unexpectedly, at this moment, there were some noises outside.

Osamu Dazai complained in his heart about why he was so busy recently, while looking vigilantly in the direction of the sound.

"Ah, hello." The white-haired boy stood outside the window.Under the peaceful moonlight, his smile looked more immature and soft, as if exuding the sweet aroma of candy.

The boy who looked much younger than the man he saw in the morning greeted Osamu Dazai in a youthful voice, and uttered heavy words comparable to bombs.

"I'm Bailan, Bailan Jesso, your future lover~"

The author has something to say: Although the 10+ marshmallows in the BOSS version are not lovers, we still have the teenage version of Chunliang(?) Marshmallows (hey)

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Accidentally wrote it very hypocritical. My pot ORZ teacher Dazai in the world line deliberately chose that place to hang himself. As long as you turn around in that place, you can see the beautiful maple trees in the courtyard well. The maple tree that people used to sit and look at.

This is probably Dazai’s last prank and his last tenderness—even after I die, I hope you won’t be sad about it, and I hope you can always see such beautiful maple trees.

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Thanks for the time:

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: 1 shadow and moxibustion;

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: 40 bottles of Bai Moqiu without renaming Yu Sheng; 20 bottles of Zhan Lian; 5 bottles of Chacha;

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