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"Here." At this moment, Shen Jianxia came out with two trays, "If it's not enough, scoop it into the pot, there's still a lot."

"Oh! Where did you go just now? You weren't here to take the family portrait!" Shen Guangzong complained, then took the tray from Shen Jianxia, ​​turned around and greeted Xiaochai's relatives, "Come, come, cousin, cousin." Aunt and uncle, come and eat glutinous rice balls!"

Zhou Ruqin said with embarrassment: "He was standing by the side just now, helping you cook glutinous rice balls..."

But no one heard her voice, the words to defend Shen Jianxia were drowned in the joyful noise.No one noticed it, and no one noticed him.

"You guys should eat glutinous rice balls, too." Shen Jianxia brought two bowls and handed them one by one, with a normal expression, "I specially made a few big ones for you guys."

Tu Bai took the bowl from Shen Jianxia's hand, he stared at the white and fat glutinous rice balls in the soup, and was speechless for a moment.In the end, he didn't say anything, just stood in the corner and finished the bowl of glutinous rice balls silently, not even a drop of soup left.

Shen Jianxia's glutinous rice balls are delicious, not as sticky as those sold in supermarkets. The fried sesame seeds and crushed white sugar taste very refreshing.But when this sweet taste entered his mouth, Tu Bai's heart became more and more sour.

He suddenly regretted what he said to Shen Jianxia a year ago to let him grow up quickly.If the price is to swallow all the grievances in his stomach, then he really doesn't want Shen Jianxia to grow up.

He didn't want Shen Jianxia to become a calm adult.

But is it still too late?

The bustling reception in the morning lasted until noon.The meals were prepared by Shen Jianxia's parents, it was always a bit uncomfortable to sit and eat with strangers, Tu Bai and Zhou Ruqin didn't pick up any dishes.After dinner, the bride and groom went upstairs to rest, and the relatives of the Shen family also went home to take a nap for the time being, while the relatives of the Chai family were arranged in a nearby hotel, waiting for the formal banquet in the evening.

Shen Jianxia seemed to have forgotten the unhappiness in the morning, and silently cleaned up the leftovers on the table, washing the dishes and cleaning the pot.Tubai and Zhou Ruqin wanted to help, but Shen Jianxia refused, so they could only sit and watch.

Sister Fei went upstairs and changed into casual clothes, and came down to see Shen Jianxia.Seeing Tubai and Zhou Ruqin sitting in the store, she greeted them with a smile on her face: "Thank you two students for coming to help today, it's really hard for you."

"It should be, auntie, Jian Xia is our friend." Zhou Ruqin smiled politely.

Tubai also forced a smile absent-mindedly, but didn't speak.

Sister Fei didn't care so much, she got into the workbench, stood behind the busy Shen Jianxia, ​​and patted the shoulder of the youngest son: "Son, you worked harder today. Your father and I are too busy, It's up to you to help us cope."

"Isn't this a common thing? You can forget me when you take a family portrait." Shen Jianxia stopped washing the dishes, and his shoulders stiffened. Although he was very restrained, Tubai still heard it from his voice. An imperceptible trembling, "I'm used to it."

Shen Jianxia never said anything serious to her parents, and she always endured it by herself.But this time his heart was really cold, the gray level was 100%, and he couldn't help but say this sentence.

"Don't say that either." The first time she heard Shen Jianxia say such words, Sister Fei was a little surprised, her expression looked tired and a little sad, "I didn't mean it, mom is so busy every day what is her last name?" I forgot, I didn’t get enough sleep, my mind was groggy..."

"Well. So I just stood by and helped you with things, and you didn't even see me." Shen Jianxia continued to wash the dishes, without looking back, and said half-truthfully in a joking tone.

"Understand your parents." Fat Sister's voice was also very tired, and she looked really tired, "We can't do everything well."

"Well, I understand you." Shen Jianxia laughed, the laughter was drowned in the sound of splashing water, making it unreal, "Okay, since you are so tired, go and rest."

This is always the case.

He is willing to understand everyone, until his understanding becomes a matter of course.But who wants to try to understand his feelings?

Every time Shen Jianxia tried to communicate with his parents, his mother always acted like this, putting on a disappointed attitude of "I'm really working so hard, why do you even understand me", as if compared with the feelings of his parents, his feelings are completely ok As ignored, it is not worth mentioning.

So he still chose not to communicate.He has tried many times, to no avail.

Although he was so angry that he couldn't do anything about it every time, as long as his family members treated him a little better, Shen Jianxia would bury all those bad emotions in his heart, and only remember their kindness.

But he is also tired, annoyed, and hurt, all he wants is an apology.

When Shen Jianxia said that, Sister Fei really went upstairs to take a lunch break without even saying an apology.Looking at Shen Jianxia's lonely eyes, Tubai sighed in his heart, and the tip of his heart felt a little bit painful.

This child is too simple, always thinking about his family, afraid that if he is a little careless, he will hurt his family, he is reluctant to say a word of serious things.

Why can't he think about it for himself.

Tubai doesn't like to meddle in other people's business, and he doesn't want to argue with others, but this time he couldn't bear it anymore. As soon as Sister Fei left, he immediately spoke, without hiding the dissatisfaction in his tone: "How could your parents do this?"

It's fine if she didn't call Shen Jianxia last time when she got engaged, but this time when she got married, she could still ignore her. Tu Bai, an outsider, stood by and watched, and even curled up her toes in embarrassment for Shen Jianxia.

But after all, he is just an outsider, and he doesn't know what is going on between Shen Jianxia and his family. Shen Jianxia doesn't say anything, he can only guess from the details of how the two get along.

Now it's one party trying to communicate and the other party not being able to communicate at all.So the party who tried to communicate finally chose to give up and remain silent forever.

The reason why they have become such an awkward family relationship, Tu Bai knows a little bit, Shen Jianxia told him about the little aunt, for this matter, Shen Jianxia has always felt guilty towards his family.But it's been so long, even if Shen Jianxia can't forget it, don't his parents always remember it?

Makes no sense.

The way this family gets along is so weird.

It shouldn't be like this.

Perhaps, is there some other reason...

Tu Bai here is still speculating about various reasons, but Shen Jianxia over there shakes his head: "Forget it. They have treated me very well, I can't ask for anything more."

Tubai looked at him, unable to tell if he was angry or speechless: "You are really..."

In the end, he could only sigh and didn't say any more.Tubai knew in his heart that although Shen Jianxia didn't say anything on the face, he must be very sad in his heart.He can't and can't blame him for anything at this time.

Shen Jianxia quickly cleaned up the shop on the first floor.

Last night she almost didn't sleep all night, she came to Shen's house in the early morning to help, and even took a four or five hour drive back and forth to pick up her relatives, Zhou Ruqin was so sleepy that she yawned, but she didn't want to stay at Shen's house.

The actions of Shen Jianxia's family just now really made her very angry. Zhou Ruqin herself has never been wronged like this, but she feels sorry for Shen Jianxia.But she is an outsider, so it's hard to say anything, just like Tu Bai, holding back her anger and having nowhere to vent it.

"Brother Qin, why don't you sleep in my car for a while." Tubai gave Zhou Ruqin his car keys, "It will be more comfortable to turn on the air conditioner, remember to open the windows to keep ventilation, otherwise you will suffer from lack of oxygen."

"Okay." Zhou Ruqin nodded, and took Tubai's car keys, "Let me enjoy the pleasure of napping in the supercar."

Zhou Ruqin lowered the passenger seat, put on dark white sunshade sunglasses, and fell asleep lying down.Shen Jianxia went upstairs and took a clean blanket to cover her body in case she caught a cold.

After closing the car door, Shen Jianxia breathed a sigh of relief, looked at Tubai, and asked, "Where do you want to go? You've been tired all morning, why don't you go sleep in my room?"

"I'm not sleepy, I can go anywhere, just walk around. Anyway, I don't really want to stay at your house." Tubai spoke mercilessly and straightforwardly.

It was embarrassing to stay at Shen Jianxia's house, he was still angry and didn't want to say a word to Shen Jianxia's family.

"Okay." Seeing that the man was angrier than himself, Shen Jianxia smiled softly, "Take you to my old junior high school?"

"Okay." Tubai agreed very simply, so the two left without saying a word.

Shen Jianxia's junior high school is not far from here. They are divided into primary and secondary schools by area. After all, it is the city center where every inch of land is expensive. The school is not a famous school, it is small and old. There are only two teaching buildings in the whole school. You can have a panoramic view of the entire campus from the gate.

It was summer vacation at this time, and all the teaching buildings were sealed up, and there was no way to go up.There was nothing to do on campus, so the two walked around the basketball court, relaxing under the shade of the trees.

"I'm sorry Xiaobai, I didn't expect this to happen today." After hesitating for a while, Shen Jianxia opened his mouth first, his tone full of annoyance and self-blame, "You're usually so busy with work, if I had known, I wouldn't have called you here."

"It's time to come." Unexpectedly, he would apologize to himself, Tubai paused, "If I didn't come, how would I know your real appearance?"

Shen Jianxia also paused, and the two walked a few steps forward before he asked, "Am I vulgar?"

Hearing Shen Jianxia's words, Tubai turned to look at him: "How tacky is this. You are real."

"Is it real?" Shen Jianxia also turned her head to look at Tubai, her tone slowed down, her voice sounded a little low, "My real appearance... must be ugly."

After speaking, he laughed self-deprecatingly.

It's all fake.Whether it's the love he received on the virtual network, the interpersonal relationships he handled with ease in real life, or the relaxed smile that always hangs on Shen Jianxia's face, it's all an illusion.As long as he stands under the camera or returns home, the illusion created by these efforts will be completely shattered, and he will become the second son of the taciturn and non-existent restaurant.

Shen Jianxia felt an indescribable sense of frustration in her heart.He feels that the real self is vulgar, a philistine, and a marketer, and he will always be emotionally affected by his family's neglect. This weakness will never be corrected in his life.

Tubai frowned.

Why is this person so insecure?Why did the self-confidence that I finally regained when I was recording the program disappear without a trace?

He was about to say "how come", at this moment, a middle-aged man who was walking towards him suddenly stopped, stood aside, and looked at them steadily.

Tubai noticed this person from the corner of his eye, and felt weird in his heart, so he didn't say anything, but turned his head and looked directly at him.The man had thick eyebrows and big eyes, and was dressed casually, with ordinary short sleeves on his upper body, black sports shorts and sneakers below his knees.

Few men would wear such short trousers, Tu Bai felt a little strange in his heart.He turned his eyes from the clothes back to the other person's face, making sure that he didn't know the middle-aged man.

The middle-aged man didn't look at Tubai, but stared straight at Shen Jianxia for a while, until Tubai and Shen Jianxia were about to pass him by, before he spoke: "Shen Jianxia? Are you Shen Jianxia?"

"I am." Shen Jianxia didn't notice him at first, but when she suddenly heard someone call her name, she stopped in surprise and looked at him, "You are..."

It seems to be someone who knows Shen Jianxia.Tubai also stopped.

"Do you remember me? I'm your junior high school physical education teacher." After confirming his identity, the middle-aged man walked towards them, stopped in front of them, looked at Shen Jianxia, ​​and then at Tubai next to him.

It turned out to be a physical education teacher, no wonder he was dressed as if he was ready to run at any time.Tubai thought silently.

"I remember." Shen Jianxia smiled, "Teacher, I have graduated for so many years, you still remember me."

"Remember, of course I remember you." The physical education teacher seemed to be here to chat with Shen Jianxia for a while, "You don't know, your aunt and I are high school classmates, and I know your parents."

aunt?

Is it Shen Jianxia's little aunt?

Hearing what the physical education teacher said, Tu Bai was a little surprised.He suddenly remembered that Shen Guangzong got married today, and the legendary little aunt didn't seem to show up.

Sure enough, the two families really broke up completely?

"Ah, that's right." Shen Jianxia nodded. He was not at all curious about the relationship between the physical education teacher and his little aunt, but he still cooperated with it.

The physical education teacher took out a cigarette case from his trousers pocket and handed it to Shen Jianxia. Shen Jianxia shook his head, and he took out one, bit it in his mouth, took out a lighter and lit it for himself, took a sip, and asked, "Shen Jianxia, ​​what are you doing now?" Where did you go to college? Or did you stop studying and go out to work directly?"

Tubai frowned: "..."

Crazy, even a teacher can't be so rude.He felt offended for Shen Jianxia.

Tubai understood Shen Jianxia's growth environment, surrounded by some strange people.

They are all wonderful.

"I'm studying at the Art University." Shen Jianxia didn't seem to care, and kept a decent smile all the time, and added two more words, "Undergraduate."

"Oh, you can study art." The physical education teacher nodded indifferently, perhaps in his heart, there is no difference between studying art and studying hairdressing, "By the way, where is your aunt now? "

Tubai was about to be annoyed to death.This physical education teacher teaches Chinese part-time, right?Why so much nonsense?Do you want to check your account?are you crazy?

Hearing that the person she hated the most was mentioned repeatedly, Shen Jianxia always looked normal, without showing the slightest displeasure: "I don't know, our two families don't have much contact."

The physical education teacher let out an "oh" and smoked silently, not knowing what he was thinking.

The two sides didn't speak any more, and the atmosphere was a little awkward.

Tubai was really impatient, and was about to tell Shen Jianxia whether we should go, but unexpectedly, the teacher took a puff of cigarette, suddenly raised his head to look at Shen Jianxia, ​​and said slowly: "Shen Jianxia, ​​you are your mother Picked it up, you know?"

Tu Bai was stunned, the words he was about to say were choked back in his throat.

The moment he heard this sentence, his first reaction was not to question the authenticity of this sentence, but turned his head suddenly to look at Shen Jianxia's expression, for fear that he would be hurt because of this sentence.

Tubai's heart was beating wildly and restlessly, almost bursting out of his chest.

However, no.

The complex expressions of shock, surprise, sadness, indignation, or even anger that he originally imagined in his heart did not appear on Shen Jianxia's face. , There was not even a trace of ups and downs in his expression.

Shen Jianxia's expression was too calm, like pouring a basin of cold water on Tubai's head.It was clearly the scorching heat of July, but Ke Tubai's brain began to feel cold.

how come……

real or fake?

If it is false, why did the teacher say such a thing?

If it is true, why is Shen Jianxia's expression so calm?

The answer is already obvious, and no one will joke about this kind of thing with others.The only possibility is...

Almost instantly, Tu Bai thought of Shen Jianxia's strange way of getting along with his family, Shen Jianxia's obstinate forbearance, and his unclear sentence today "They have treated me very well, I can't ask for anything more".

He seemed to understand everything suddenly.

He couldn't bear to look at Shen Jianxia's expression at all.

"I know."

But Shen Jianxia still said the words that Tubai didn't want to hear, with a calm tone.

There was a smile on his face, but there was no smile in his voice, it was just plain: "I knew it a long time ago."

Seeing Shen Jianxia's calm reaction, the physical education teacher looked a little surprised: "Oh? You know? Your parents told you?"

"It's not my parents, they never mentioned this to me. Coincidentally, it's an old acquaintance who we both know." Shen Jianxia smiled, "—your old classmate, my little aunt .”

Depend on!

Hearing this shocking answer, Tu Bai was stunned, as if a bomb had exploded in his mind, and all his thoughts were blown to pieces.

No wonder Shen Jianxia dislikes his little aunt so much, this is probably the real reason, right?

What kind of fucking relative is this? !

The teacher wanted to say something, but Tu Bai at the side turned dark first, took a step forward, glared at him, and choked angrily, "Who are you? What's wrong with you? Did Shen Jianxia pick it up or was it her own?" It's none of your business? Is it your turn to tell him?"

Tu Bai spoke very fast, with a strong smell of gunpowder in his tone, and every word and every word kept spraying out like a machine gun.He was already very upset at Shen Jianxia's house just now, and he was holding back his anger and didn't know where to vent it. Now it's all right, a fool who took the initiative to bump into the muzzle of the gun came, and Shen Jianxia would never have any interaction with this person again. Tubai didn't need to show him any affection at all.

After finishing speaking, he didn't care about the teacher's expression, he stretched out his hand to grab Shen Jianxia's wrist, and pulled him away without looking back.

Tu Bai doesn't know the way, so he just keeps walking, it's best to take Shen Jianxia away from this crappy school as soon as possible.He took big steps and walked so fast that Shen Jianxia was almost dragged away by him.Just like that, he dragged Shen Jianxia out of the school, and walked far, far in an unfamiliar alley in one breath.

"Xiaobai." Seeing that he was walking farther and farther, Shen Jianxia finally stopped, grabbed Tubai's wrist with his backhand, pulled him to stop, and comforted him when he spoke, "Don't be angry."

Tu Bai was really mad with anger, his back was still heaving with violent breathing.Hearing Shen Jianxia's words, he turned his head, frowned, his eyes were a little red.

Seeing Tubai's red eye circles, Shen Jianxia froze for a moment.

This alley is slanted, and there are few people walking in the sun on a hot day.Shen Jianxia pulled Tubai to a cool place, supported his shoulders with both hands, and comforted him softly: "Don't be angry."

Tubai let Shen Jianxia hold his shoulders, panting hard, and it took him a long time to force himself to calm down.He looked up at Shen Jianxia and asked, "Is what that person said just now true?"

Shen Jian Xia paused for a moment, with an unnatural expression on his face.

Tubai could feel his fingers on his shoulder tighten unconsciously.

Tubai knew that, no matter for Shen Jianxia or anyone else, this was an unspeakable matter.

"Well. It's true."

But Shen Jianxia still answered him.

Tu Bai took a deep breath: "Then when did you know?"

"..." Shen Jianxia was silent for a while, lowered his eyes and didn't look at him, "12 years old."

Hearing this answer, Tu Bai's mind buzzed for a moment.

12 years old, this mother is still in elementary school, right?Tu Bai also came over at this age. He knows that children of this age have just entered puberty, are sensitive, self-esteem and suspicious, and always like to think wildly.

What kind of heart is Shen Jianxia's little aunt telling Shen Jianxia about this at that time! ?

What kind of mess did Shen Jianxia go through...

The bitterness and heartache that I had endured for a whole day was finally uncontrollable, and at this moment, it all burst out and completely collapsed.Tubai closed his eyes, stretched out his hand involuntarily, and grabbed Shen Jianxia's clothes: "You..."

"You" for a long time, but didn't know what to say.

He doesn't comfort people at all.

For the first time, Tubai felt anxious because of his clumsy mouth, and he couldn't help tightening the hand that held Shen Jianxia's clothes, angry and anxious, and his eyes became even redder.

"Xiaobai." After a moment of silence, Shen Jianxia seemed to have finally made a decision. He raised his eyes, looked directly at Tubai, and said in a solemn tone, "This is what I want to show you, everything about me."

It is also the cheesy and sad truth that I have been hiding to avoid exposing it to the sun.

This is the biggest secret in my life, the fishbone that I have been stuck in my throat for 19 years, and I can't get it out or swallow it.It stuck deep in my flesh, made me bleed, made me rot, and brought me a clear pain day after day.

Now, I deliver my secret to you.

This is all the honesty I can give you.

The author has something to say: I have finally cut this hidden line (although I said it in advance), and I am going to start to slowly cut other lines~ (I don’t think it will be finished in April, I feel like I can’t finish writing orz)