light and shadow [entertainment circle]

For dinner, the summer solstice was absent as usual.

The psychiatrist said: "Since Xia Zhi ate cake just now, it doesn't matter if you don't eat dinner. As you know, patients with severe depression generally don't have a good appetite."

But Qiao Yue, who knew the inside story, was not as optimistic as the psychiatrist. He brought some cookies for Xia Zhi, but Xia Zhi didn't do anything.Helpless, Qiao Yue had no choice but to pick up the guitar. "Let me sing you a song, or you can order a song, I can even sing the theme songs of many of your movies."

Xia Zhi still vaguely resisted the intervention of the psychiatrist, but he was indeed used to Qiao Yue's company.Even though he just wanted to immerse himself in his own mood now, he still replied: "Sing it, let's start with the theme song of "Wulin League"."

"Wow!" Qiao Yue couldn't help whistling, "Listen! Loved by many people! I knew you still love Kou Jun's CP combination the most! I really sing this song very well!" Many crooked nuts have a dream of a superhero in their hearts, and many Chinese people have a dream of a martial arts knight in their hearts.Over the years, not only "Wulin League" has always occupied the top ten of the Chinese people's favorite movie rankings, but listening to the theme song of "Wulin League" has always been one of the must-have songs on KTV.

Xia Zhi casually squeezed a piece of cookie and threw it to Qiao Yue. "Sing quickly! If you can't sing well, you will pinch the song!"

After eating the "reward" in two or three bites, Qiao Yue lowered his head and plucked the strings.He sang a lot, not just listening.From Xia Zhi’s 16-year-old guest appearance in the first movie "Yunchuan Series II: The Birth of the Demon World" to his last movie "Xtreme Killer 26" when he was 4 years old.For a full ten years, he completed a TV movie and 25 film works, with an average of 2.6 films per year.As the theme song of each work sounded, Xia Zhi found that he could remember almost every detail of the filming and every public evaluation after the film was released.Those times, those joys and pains, struggles and cocoons, confusion and persistence, covered him with glory like pearls, and scarred him like gravel.Once, those glory made him intoxicated and made him believe that everything was worth it.But now, those scars accumulated unconsciously have already been fatal.

After an unknown amount of time, Xia Zhi suddenly gave a suspicious "uh" and asked in a low voice, "Why haven't I heard this song before?" That episode had no lyrics.

Qiao Yue hastily stopped his plucking fingers, and said in embarrassment: "It's easy to sing, it's a fan song, I really like it..."

"What fan song?" Xia Zhi asked. "You stay where you are, and fate is whistling, where will it take me?" - Such lyrics give Xia Zhi a strange sense of familiarity.

Joe swallowed in panic, he didn't know how to answer, he only knew that he messed up everything.

"What fan song? Where did you hear it?" Xia Zhi frowned and asked again.

"C...on C station, there are many..." Qiao Yue swore he didn't want to say it, but facing Xia Zhi like that...he was not just Xia Zhi, he was Li Shimin, Yuan Budu, Xu Feng, Han Yu... …are many, many powerful and terrifying characters.Qiao Yue could only choose to hand over his mobile phone obediently.

Xia Zhi proficiently opened the app of station C and opened Qiao Yue's cache list. ——It has to be said that Qiao Yue is indeed a senior fan of Xia Zhi, and it's true.The full cache list is almost full of various MVs edited by Xia Solstice fans.

"Summer Solstice!" Qiao Yue shouted eagerly.I know my own cache list, except for Xia Zhi's personal MV, half of the list is occupied by the various CPs he formed with others.This is no longer a question of how shameful it would be to be publicly executed by the idol himself, it is a question of whether Xia Zhi can accept it and whether it will be more irritated!

But the summer solstice has already been opened.

The first MV is his character's personal MV, which is...battle damage? In the first half of the MV, he saw Han Yu's dead friend, Han Yu fell from the [-]th floor to the [-]th floor, Han Yu soaked in ice water to induce vomiting after taking drugs to win the enemy's trust, Han Yu was tortured by PTSD and almost went into respiratory arrest. Dead, Han Yu or stubborn or angry or guilty repeating "I didn't complete the task" over and over again... The second half of the MV is a collection of various highlights of the "Extreme Killer" series. When the car crashed too fast, he had a slight brain disorder. Concussion phenomenon, squatting next to the studio to vomit; filming the scene of climbing a tall building, he accidentally fell from the upstairs and broke three ribs; his costume...

At the same time, the barrage is rolling, and different fonts are constantly swiping the screen.

"distressed tears"

"You're good enough, baby don't do that"

"God! Please retire! I really can't stand it!"

"Check in every day to find abuse"

……

Although he understood that this might be another expression of love, Xia Zhi still frowned suspiciously.Since you can't stand it, why do you still come to abuse every day?

The second MV is the CP of him and Kou Jun. From the sweetness in the scene to the outside of the scene, there are still many fans posting bullet screens to record the time points of daily check-in.

The third MV is the plot MV of "Kai Tang", father and son CP.That respected old actor Guo Keyong actually posted a barrage "Di! Old age card!" in his real name, um...

Fourth, the soundtrack is the fan song Qiao Yue sang just now, of course Qiao Yue sang it better.As for the content of the MV, it is indeed an edited scene of him and Zeng Yijing in "Immortal".

Then from the fifth to No.11, they are all "Immortal" and various real people and AUs related to it.From on-screen to off-screen, Xia Zhi and Zeng Yijing have always had a lot of contacts. Almost every MV has been cut to the funeral in the play and Xie Yuan crying in the car, and more than half of the MVs have Xia Zhi in Jinan. Crying at the Peony Awards Ceremony.Even today, Xia Zhi still can't stand this, he had to skip the next four MVs and click on his personal MV.

The MV is very long, maybe more than ten minutes.The person who made this MV is obviously a senior fan of his, and he has a lot of video footage of him in his hand.This MV records almost every detail of his ups and downs in the entertainment industry for many years since his debut, every role, every success, every friend, and every honor.At the beginning, the song is cheerful, he wears different costumes and smiles in front of the camera, he hugs many friends, he takes pictures with fans, and he holds up the trophy again and again; then, the song starts to be gloomy, and his character no longer smiles , his partners left one by one on and off the screen; in the end, it was still inevitable to put the car accident in "Undead" and his crying at the Golden Peony Award ceremony, the song repeated over and over again. Singing "I finally lost you", and finally stopped abruptly on the Weibo of "I Quit".

The screen went black, but the progress bar hadn't finished.But Xia Zhi obviously couldn't care about those anymore.With the help of this MV, Xia Zhi suddenly remembered a lot of past events hidden in time.Everyone around him, everything he's been through.It turned out that he had obtained so much, possessed so much, and lost so much in the end...

His parents died.His mother was still worried about him until his deathbed, and even when his father died, he couldn't call him "Daddy".

Some of his friends have left, the entertainment industry is too complicated, and there are too many entanglements of interests, some people can't be friends forever.Some have their own lives to deal with and cannot always be by his side.Others also died.

His fans, he failed them.Instead of fighting to the end, he abandoned his comrades like a shameless deserter and fled.

His lover, Brother Shan, he left him alone.Probably his ignorance and willfulness finally made him feel tired, and he could only choose to give up.

All of them left.He was left alone, alone, with nothing.

Xia Zhi cried, from silent tears to completely uncontrollable wailing.

"I was wrong, I was wrong..." He leaned against the wall, crying until his whole body convulsed.He did so much wrong and deserved what he got.

"Xia Zhi, don't be like this... Please, don't be like this!" Qiao Yue was at a loss, and finally he could only hold Xia Zhi and cry himself. "You're not wrong, really nothing...you're not hurting anyone, you're just hurting yourself...don't do this again, do you know how much we love you?...please...please... "

Then, everyone around him gathered around...

Xia Zhi couldn't remember when he stopped, nor when he fell asleep.So maybe the doctor gave him a tranquilizer?All he knew was that when he woke up, everyone was still there.

They looked at him eagerly one by one, and when they saw him open his eyes, they shouted at the same time: "Xia Zhi!" The shout should have been loud, but it seemed to be afraid of startling him, and it was deliberately suppressed to a low level.

Sister Ling and Xiao Jian came forward to help him up, and asked in unison: "How do you feel?"

Xia Zhi shook his head subconsciously, he was really exhausted, and crying bitterly was always a physical effort.But for some reason, after crying for a while, the feeling of depression in my heart dissipated a little.Then, he clearly heard his stomach gooing.Xia Zhi looked at his stomach strangely for a while, and after a while, he looked up at Sister Ling innocently and said, "Sister Ling, I'm so hungry!"

"Huh?" Sister Ling was only puzzled for half a second, and immediately responded neatly. "...Hey! Sister Ling will cook for you right away! Pan-fried buns, salt-baked chicken, grilled lamb chops, borscht, Napoleon cake, all of which you like! Sister Ling has always prepared them!" Since the summer solstice depression , He never said "hungry" in front of Sister Ling again.How can Sister Ling not be moved to tears to be able to feel hungry today and ask for food?Wiping away her tears, she rushed downstairs in a hurry.

Half an hour later, Qiao Yue and Xiao Jian watched in horror as Xia Zhi killed eight pan-fried buns, two roasted lamb chops, and half a salt-baked chicken by himself, and was now attacking the egg-scrambled beef and Napoleon cake.Sister Ling helped Xia Zhi refill the soup with a gentle face, obviously she didn't think there would be any problem with Xia Zhi's overeating.

"He used to have such a good appetite?" Qiao Yue carefully tugged on Jane's sleeve.To be honest, I was a little upset.When Qiao Yue was a trainee, he had to count the amount of food he could eat every day, and he didn't even dare to drink too much water, for fear that there would be a little bit more on the weekend.As for eating carbohydrates with meat and desserts, it is even more unthinkable.It's been so hard, and the weight is just up to the standard to be photogenic, but it's not amazing enough.If the big devil Xia Zhi eats like this every day... God would be too unfair!

Little Jane shook her head, his appetite was better before!It took a long time to hold back a sentence: "It's really like a dream..."

Another person with a happy face is Xia Zhi’s psychiatrist. He hid in his bedroom and repeatedly assured Guan Shan on the other end of the phone: “Although I don’t know what happened, I can guarantee my career. Great improvement!...I am absolutely confident that Xia Zhi will heal!"

After hanging up the phone, Guan Shan was trembling and crying.He has never had any religious beliefs, so he had no choice but to put his hands together and thank God and Allah.

But obviously, Guan Shan thanked him too early. —Only the next morning, Xia Zhi disappeared from his room.Fortunately among the misfortunes, Xia Zhi finally remembered to leave a note to explain his whereabouts before disappearing this time:

"Axue has an accident, I want to go back to China!"

The author has something to say:

Director: Do you know where you went wrong?

Guan Shan: I didn't find a bodyguard.

Director: No!The main reason is that your faith is not firm!

Guan Shan: ...