light and shadow [entertainment circle]

"I thought it was getting better, but the psychiatrist still said that Xia Zhi refused to talk these days..." Xiao Jian looked at Guan Shan worriedly, and said anxiously. "Mr. Guan, what should we do?"

Guan Shan, who was busy in the kitchen, just sprinkled chocolate powder on the freshly baked chocolate lava cake, put it in a carton, and said softly: "The treatment of depression has always been a long process, and the patient's condition will often appear. Repeatedly... It's like being stuck in a quagmire, climbing up one step with all your strength, and then sliding down three steps... Those who can overcome the disease are true warriors." He took out the ribbon and tied a beautiful bow on the cake box Handed it to Xiao Jane, said firmly. "I believe in Xia Zhi!" After a pause, he added a few more words gently. "I know everyone is working hard, but under the current circumstances... I can only ask you to be considerate and tolerant of Xia Zhi, and everyone will work together to win this battle!"

"It's not hard work, it's not hard work..." Xiao Jian shook her head again and again. Compared with Guan Shan who has been worrying so far, how can Xiao Jian think that she is hard work?Not long after Xia Zhi ran away from home, Xiao Jian found out the whole truth from Tang Chi.As a senior staff member in the entertainment industry, if Jane was asked to evaluate the whole matter from a professional perspective, she never thought that there was any problem with Guan Shan's handling of Hu Daxian.The reason for such tragic consequences can only be said that during that time Xia Zhi was indeed a shining star, and she herself was unprofessional as a celebrity assistant! ——So, it's no wonder that Guan Shan, who was in a hurry at the time, wanted to "fire her".

Half a year has passed, and of course Xiao Jane regained Guan Shan's trust in her through her own efforts and her heartfelt care and maintenance for Xia Zhi.Didn't Xiaojian clearly see Guan Shan's deep love for Xia Zhi through the process of working together with Guan Shan to find Xia Zhi in the past six months?She used to disagree with the relationship between Xia Zhi and Guan Shan, but now, she knows that no one in this world treats Xia Zhi better than Guan Shan treats Xia Zhi.

After Xia Zhi came to Switzerland, Guan Shan was not by his side, but this does not mean that Guan Shan is not in Switzerland.In fact, Guan Shan has always been there, but Xia Zhi doesn't know it.In order to get the best recuperation in Switzerland during the summer solstice, Guan Shan bought an entire new building in the sanatorium, and he himself lives in a room in the old building not far from the new building. Looking at the courtyard downstairs of the new building from a distance, I waited for the summer solstice and came here to take a walk and relax after dinner. ——That was the only chance for Guan Shan to see the summer solstice in the whole day.But the summer solstice does not go downstairs every day.

"Why doesn't Mr. Guan go to see Xia Zhi?" Xiao Jian took the cake box, but tears came out.Every day, Guan Shan would personally cook a dessert for Xia Zhi.Xia Zhi didn't know, and rarely used chopsticks.But Guan Shan still persisted, and had no intention of giving up at all. "He needs his family by his side. Your existence is more important than any of us."

On this point, Guan Shan has a different opinion. "If I'm just a brother or a lover, then I will definitely be here... It's too complicated, little Jane..." Guan Shan was so complicated that he didn't know how to explain it to Little Jane. He stood there in the kitchen for a moment, powerlessly Leaning against the cabinet. "With Xia Zhi's current situation, I don't think he can sort out this mess of feelings. So... I just don't want to provoke him anymore."

"If..." Xiao Jian just tentatively opened her mouth and then quickly emphasized, "I mean, if!" Then, she took a deep breath and asked questions as slowly and gently as possible, as if she was afraid that her questions would hurt Guan Shan .But even so, her whole body was still trembling unconsciously. "If in the end Xia Zhi expresses that he can no longer face you, whether as a brother or a lover...or, he can only accept you as a brother..."

"Everything will be as he wishes," Guan Shan's answer was firm and peaceful, just like in the past. "As long as he gets better."

Xiao Jian sighed for a long time, this was actually an answer she had expected, but the sourness in her heart did not decrease a bit.After a while, she put down the cake box and stepped forward to hug Guan Shan.This hug is not a subordinate to a boss, nor a woman to a man, but just a comfort from a human being to another human being. "I'm sorry, Mr. Kwan."

Guan Shan understood the hug, he patted Jane on the shoulder lightly, and whispered back: "Thank you." For love, it is difficult to fight hard; but because of love, it is even more difficult to wait silently.Give up the choice, give up the decision-making power, and put the happiness of the other party before your own happiness. There is no one in the world who can do this step in love.Guan Shan never thought he was such a "sage", but that person was Xia Zhi, so what else could he do?

After returning home, Xiao Jian simply tidied up her makeup, and excitedly took the still warm lava cake to present treasures to Xia Zhi. "Chocolate can make people feel happy, just like... like the taste of love. Summer solstice, try it?"

The cake box was opened, and the lava cake, the size of a little girl's palm, was exquisitely incredible.The whole cake trembled slightly due to the external disturbance, as if the thick and sweet chocolate magma inside would rush out with just a spoonful of it.

Xia Zhi stared at the cake in a daze for a moment, and finally put down the silver spoon that Jane had so kindly stuffed into his hand just now. "I don't have much appetite, you can eat it." —— These days, the desserts made by Guan Shan himself often end up like this.

But today, little Jane still wants to work harder.She picked up the silver spoon and stuffed it back into Xia Zhi's hand, and whispered almost pleadingly: "Just, try it... Xia Zhi? This is... this is today's chef's recommendation, I've been waiting in a long line... Summer solstice..."

Hearing Xiao Jian's voice trembling slightly, Xia Zhi couldn't help turning his head to look at Xiao Jian in surprise.It was only then that she noticed that although Xiao Jian's makeup was bright, there were still reddish bloodshot eyes in her eyes. It was obvious that she had just cried a while ago. "Okay..." Xia Zhi's gentle temperament made it impossible for him to refuse, and he took a spoonful of cake and put it into his mouth.

"How is it? Is it delicious?" Xiao Jian looked at him nervously.

"Well, it's very sweet." Xia Zhi replied in a low voice, and ate the whole cake bit by bit under the joyful eyes of Little Jane and Joe.

"Just as long as you like it!" Xiaojian was very comforting, "I'll bring you a new one tomorrow... No! No! If you still want to eat, I'll go now! It just so happens that we don't need to be on camera now, so we can let go Eat! Eat whatever you want!"

Seeing that Xiao Jian's attitude was that she couldn't wait to go out, Xia Zhi hurriedly grabbed her. "Don't...Little Jane, don't...Desserts should be enough..."

"That's right! Boys are different from girls. They get tired of eating too much sweets!" Xu Shi vaguely sensed Xia Zhi's embarrassment, and Qiao Yue hurriedly made a sound.

"But the summer solstice..." I really like desserts!Xiao Jane thought to herself.She turned her head and looked back at Xia Zhi, seeing that his expression after eating a piece of cake was not as happy and satisfied as before, so she was slightly taken aback. "Okay, it's time for dinner soon, I have to eat dessert." She gently touched Xia Zhi's cheek, and then rubbed his ear.

Xia Zhi didn't resist his physical contact with Jane, but took advantage of the situation and rubbed his face against her palm.He looked up at little Jane, even though he was still ill, there were still stars shining in his eyes. "I want to rest for a while..."

Xiao Jian's heart was broken, and she couldn't distinguish her position at all in a trance.Mother?elder sister?lover?friend?guardian?subordinate?She only knew that she couldn't resist any of his demands, so she pulled Qiao Yue out together.

But in the second that Little Jane and Qiao Yue disappeared outside the door, the smile on Xia Zhi's face disappeared instantly. He quickly got up from the sofa and rushed into the bathroom, holding the toilet and vomited it out.How many servings does a small slice of Chocolate Lava Cake serve?Xia Zhi quickly confessed all the cakes that had just been stuffed into his stomach, but he still kept retching, and felt extremely uncomfortable.

"... Xia Zhi?" After an unknown amount of time, Qiao Yue whispered tremblingly from outside the bathroom.

Xia Zhi wiped her mouth and quickly pressed the flush button. "Close the door! Don't tell Jane!"

Qiao Yue hurried forward to help Xia Zhi up, twisted a hot towel and handed it to him. "You should have told us earlier..." Qiao Yue could not agree with Xia Zhi's actions at all.If he hadn't forgotten to pick up his guitar, maybe he would vomit every day after the summer solstice.

"It's not about the cake..." Xia Zhi shook his head exhaustedly, "It's me...I'm sorry..."

With just this one sentence, Qiao Yue's eyes also turned red. "Xia Zhi, you should be more selfish." He sniffed and forced himself to smile. "Do you still remember the first time we met, what did you tell me?" Noticing Xia Zhi's puzzled frown, he cleared his throat and imitated Xia Zhi's tone. "You said, 'Why should I be sorry to you? What do I have to do with your own failures? Why do you have to bear your own hopes?'... I was thinking, how can this fucking bastard also Is it a big star? How could he be successful?!" Speaking of this, he couldn't help laughing again, looking into Xia Zhi's eyes and said seriously. "Be a little more of a jerk, Xia Zhi! This is better for you! Really!"

"Since I entered the entertainment industry, everyone has asked me to be better, not to be a jerk." Xia Zhi answered softly, covering her face with a towel.

"So you're depressed." Qiao Yue replied without blinking. "Do you know what I think?" He picked up a chair and sat in front of Xia Zhi. "At that time, my mother handed over the photos of our domestic violence to the media in order to fight for my custody... At that time, I did not get along with the captain of the group 'Youth', although we have been selling CP. But compared to that trash, I actually want to be the captain more. After the accident, many of his only fans posted my photos everywhere, mocking me as a poor bastard living under the shadow of domestic violence. And then my only fans...they did the same , the only difference is that they keep telling people how miserable I was before, everyone should understand that I support me.... And I... I really don't appreciate them at all, not at all. I just want them , everyone, no matter those who mock me or those who pity me, all die!"

Xia Zhi lowered his head and smiled, quickly and lightly.But this was the first time since he came to Switzerland that he smiled from the heart, not polite or reassuring. "This is human nature, not an asshole." Although he had known Qiao Yue not long ago, Xia Zhi had already realized that the handsome and gentle boy in front of him had never been a delicate flower in need of care, but an angry little lion!

——Perhaps, I have really forgotten my original self for too long.

The author has something to say:

Xia Zhi: This is not a delicate flower, but a lion!

Qiao Yue: O(∩_∩)O~