Xijing Chronicle

In the gazebo outside Fenglin, Gu Huaisheng and He Huan sat opposite each other, chatting casually, their eyes falling on the edge of Fenglin from time to time.

The sun gradually set to the west, and the two figures finally reappeared within the range of vision.

Gu Huaisheng and He Huan looked at each other, stood up together and greeted them. Before they could speak, Chen Ji spoke first: "Your Highness, I have offended you because of my humble position, please forgive me."

After finishing speaking, he lifted his clothes and knelt down, which shocked He Huan, and immediately reached out to help him, but Jin Xuenian, who had always been taciturn, reached out his hand to stop him beyond everyone's expectations.

Jin Xuenian shook his head slightly, He Huan blinked blankly, seeing Chen Ji bowing down straight in front of him, suddenly a sense of enlightenment rose in his heart, followed by unbelievable ecstasy.

This...is this done?

No one in the room spoke, and the atmosphere was silent for a while. Chen Ji finished his kneeling silently, then patted his knees and stood up again. He Huan tried his best to suppress the smile on his lips, and solemnly clasped his fists and bowed back to him. General."

"His lowly position acted recklessly, fortunately His Highness did not give up."

The two of them were very measured, and neither of them uttered too explicit words, but they understood it in a few words, and there was no need to say any more.

Enduring until Chen Ji left, He Huan finally couldn't help it anymore, and held Gu Huaisheng's hand ecstatically, his tone still full of disbelief: "He really agreed?! Huaisheng! Tell me, did he Did you really agree?!"

It's been a long time since I saw He Huan's lively posture, and Gu Huaisheng couldn't help feeling a little nostalgic. He remembered that when he was still alive, he was too indulgent and tolerant towards this little brother, and he accidentally developed a mischievous, free-spirited temperament. It's not like now, love and hate are sealed in the bottom of my heart, and I have to think twice before making every move.

"A man has gold under his knees, and he only kneels to heaven and earth. What could be more indicative of his attitude than Chen Ji's kneeling? Your Highness, rest assured, nothing went wrong." Gu Huaisheng patted He Huan's hand gently, There is an imperceptible pampering in the eyes.

The movements of the two of them were too natural, and He Huan was still in excitement, so he didn't pay attention to this too intimate interaction. Only Jin Xuenian, who stood silently by the side, took all this into his eyes. His hands were like a thorn, piercing all the way to the bottom of his heart, causing a dull pain.

It turns out that Gu Huaisheng is so gentle to everyone, nothing belongs to him alone.

"Mr. Jin, what did you say just now? Why did General Chen agree so easily?" After the excitement, He Huan finally remembered to ask the whole story.

Jin Xuenian pulled back from his thoughts, pinched his palms to barely maintain his superficial calm, shook his head and said: "I didn't say anything, General Chen told me that my father sent him out back then, so that if the Jin family really Something happened, I hope that one day he can come back to avenge the Jin family, General Chen is upright and trustworthy, so naturally he will not disappoint his father's entrustment to him. So I just mentioned it to him, and he agreed."

"Hey, you've been here for so long, I thought it would take a lot of talking."

"We..." Thinking of what Chen Ji had inadvertently revealed just now, the blood on Jin Xuenian's face faded again, and his body swayed imperceptibly. The sunlight had obviously gradually dissipated, but it still made him dizzy.

He Huan was taken aback by his suddenly pale face, and quickly supported him: "Young Master Jin, are you alright?"

"Thank you for your concern, Your Highness. I'm fine." Jin Xuenian stood firm and forced a smile, "We talked about some old things, and time passed before we knew it."

He didn't look at Gu Huaisheng from the beginning to the end. He was afraid of meeting those clear eyes. He was afraid that Gu Huaisheng would see something. The filthy thoughts and darkness that touches will be invisible in front of those eyes.

In the evening, no matter what Gu Huaisheng did, he was a little absent-minded. He held a book in his hand, and he didn't turn a page for a long time.

Naturally, he could see Jin Xuenian's state, and he even noticed that Jin Xuenian deliberately avoided his sight.Something is not quite right, although Chen Ji and Jin Xuenian didn't have much personal relationship in the past, but he is an old member of the Jin family, not to mention how warm they are when they meet each other, it shouldn't be Jin Xuenian who lost his mind like Jin Xuenian Disastrous appearance.

Those eyes, those eyes that were once filled with endless darkness and gradually became brighter under his own witness, seem to have returned to the way they were when they first met... No, no, it's not exactly the same, the eyes in his eyes now Desperation and struggle seemed even better.

In the end what happened?Did Chen Ji say anything to him?

Could it be...

Thinking of a possibility, Gu Huai stood up abruptly, not caring about the book being knocked down, he took out his cloak and hurried out.

Hearing the movement, Chu Tingya quickly turned over and jumped off the tree: "My lord? Where are you going? It might rain depending on the weather, do you want me..."

"Don't follow," Gu Huaisheng fastened his cloak, put on the hood, and with a single step of luck, just as he was about to take off into the air, he stopped in place, hesitated for a moment, and then urged, "You... Keep an eye on the snowy year, Qian Qian Don't let anything happen to him."

"Ah?" Although he was a little confused as to why the young master gave such an order, Chu Tingya still complied, "Don't worry, young master, I will protect Brother Jin well."

Gu Huaisheng nodded, his facial features were hidden behind the hood, deep and fuzzy, he seemed to want to say something more, but in the end he didn't say anything, he jumped up to the roof with lightness kung fu, and quickly disappeared into the night.

Here, Chu Tingya scratched his head and climbed back to the tree again. Tonight, the moon was covered by dark clouds, and there was no light in the sky. It was gloomy and scary, and there were thunderclaps in the distance from time to time. All these indicated that a heavy rain was coming .

I don't know if the son has an umbrella...

Here Chu Tingya was still thinking about Gu Huaisheng, when suddenly there was a soft creak in the front yard, he rubbed his eyes, only to see a black shadow appearing in the yard.

Chu Tingya's heart suddenly rang out, and he jumped down and stopped in front of the black shadow. The black shadow was startled by him, stepped back a few steps, and asked with a trembling voice: "Who, Who?!"

"Zi Nu?" Chu Tingya was also stunned.

"Huh—you scared me to death," Xue Zinu patted his chest, and managed to straighten out his anger, "Why don't you sleep at night?"

"I'm not guarding the surroundings for the young master, what about you, what are you doing out again?"

"Hey, there's no water in the house. I'm thirsty. I'm going to go to the kitchen to get some water to drink." Xue Zinu jumped over the roof and looked towards the direction of the backyard. Did you not rest?"

"Young Master has always been diligent, so what is this hour? In the past, you still have to read books for at least an hour, but it seems that there is something urgent to go out tonight." Chu Tingya opened the door of his room, "I have water here, you Just stop going to the kitchen and drink mine."

Xue Zinu laughed: "That's good, we are brothers, I don't thank you for such a trivial matter."

Xue Zinu went back to the room with the water bottle, Chu Tingya jumped back on the tree, the courtyard fell into silence again, and a bird that flew from nowhere circled in the air twice, maybe it was too dark to find him. When he couldn't reach the road, he plunged into the branch like a headless fly, and was caught by Chu Tingya.

"This bird is quite fat..." Chu Tingya pinched the bird's wings with a smile on his face, murmuring, "It's just in time, I haven't eaten meat for a long time..."

At this moment, the sound of the door opening suddenly came from the front yard again, Chu Tingya learned his lesson this time, focused his internal energy on his eyes, and looked intently, only to see that it was Brother Jin who came out this time.

Chu Tingya was about to call out to him, but when he noticed his appearance at the moment, he froze in place: at this moment, brother Jin was only wearing a jacket, with a hollow and indifferent expression, walking slowly outside, like Like a ray of wandering soul, I don't know where it came from, and there is no way back.

Looking at Jin Xuenian like this, for some reason, he couldn't call out the title that was already on his lips... Chu Tingya watched him worriedly, and saw a sense of hopelessness in his thin and depressed back It was desolate, which made Chu Tingya feel uncomfortable.

Jin Xuenian walked aimlessly around the yard, but finally stopped outside Gu Huaisheng's house. Gu Huaisheng walked in a hurry, the house was still lit, and the warm and dim light fell outside through the thin window paper. Jin Xuenian just stood in the corner where the light couldn't reach, silently looking up at the window.

Chu Tingya looked at him motionlessly, feeling a little uncomfortable.

I don't know how long it's been like this, the long-awaited heavy rain finally poured down, Chu Tingya suddenly came back to his senses, and was about to rush down to persuade Jin Xuenian to go back, but a figure appeared in Jin Xuenian first side.

...It's the young master, the young master is back.

Chu Tingya stopped when he was about to jump, pinched the branch, and couldn't help but glance over there, only to see the young master took off his cloak and put it on Brother Jin, and stretched out his hand again, as if he wanted to hug him Brother Jin...he turned his head away, didn't look any further, but quietly jumped back to the front yard.

The sound of the rain was so loud that it covered up all other sounds, so that's good, he wiped the water from his hair, thinking, he could sleep soundly without being disturbed.

"You, why are you here?"

Jin Xuenian seemed to be startled by the sudden appearance of Gu Huaisheng, her eyes widened in panic, and her voice trembled slightly.

"I still have to ask you this!" Gu Huaisheng came back and saw that he was only wearing so little clothes, and he was still standing here in the rain, so he was angry, but he unambiguously untied his cloak and put it on his clothes. On him, and took his shoulders again, wanting to bring him into the house, "Why don't you sleep well, what are you doing outside my house?! Didn't you see it raining? Why don't you go into the house!"

"I, I," Jin Xuenian stared blankly at one place, and it took two breaths before he realized, and suddenly struggled hard, "No need, I'll go back now..."

It was fine if he didn't struggle, but for some reason, Gu Huaisheng's anger didn't decrease but instead increased after this struggle, and he even used internal force in his hands, which taught Jin Xuenian that he couldn't break free no matter what.

Jin Xuenian said in embarrassment: "Don't..."

"You know it all, right?"

As soon as Jin Xuenian opened his mouth to say two words, he was blocked by Gu Huaisheng's words. He raised his head and finally met Gu Huaisheng's gaze for the first time. Time passed quietly, and the heavy rain hit the ground, making a shock The roar of the ears.

The body under the palm suddenly began to tremble, even the voice trembling: "You, what are you talking about..."

"I went to the barracks," Gu Huaisheng did not let him escape, grabbed his shoulders, looked him in the eyes, and said word by word, "General Chen told me everything about your Jin family. , The Jin family has long been with He Ze's faction, and even the late emperor was under house arrest back then, and the Jin family's handwriting was in it, he said he didn't know you didn't know, and accidentally told you all this afternoon."

"You..." Jin Xuenian's pupils shrank suddenly, her lips trembling, "You, don't you think it's ridiculous...don't you think I'm ridiculous...Why are you so calm, why are you always so calm? !!"

His voice was full of tears, but when he said it, he almost yelled heartbreakingly. Gu Huaisheng was so distressed that he couldn't help pinching his shoulder even harder.

"Snow Year..." He sighed.

"By the way, did you already know?" Jin Xuenian looked at him in disbelief as if suddenly remembering something, "That night, in Fenglin, you said those things to me... Did you already know? These?"

Gu Huaisheng answered silently, while Jin Xuenian froze in place, a sad smile gradually appeared on his lips.

"You are always so smart, you can see through everything, but you don't tell me anything... that's all..." It's his wishful thinking, from his loyalty to the Jin family to the person in front of him... he has always been alone wishful thinking...

……

"If one day you encounter something more desperate than before, can you promise me that you will survive no matter what."

……

After such a long time, Jin Xuenian finally knew his answer.

"That's too difficult, I can't do it, I really can't do it..."

After the age of nine, only darkness remained in his world. The last entrustment of his elder brother before his execution became the only belief he insisted on living, but now that this belief in just living has been defeated, what else can he live on? How about going down?

...Does he still need to live?Like a clown, like a joke, like a walking dead...

"Jin Xuenian! You never live for others, you only need to live for yourself!"

"No, I can't do it..."

Gu Huaisheng stared closely at the person in front of him, not letting go of the slightest emotion in his eyes. When the death-like silence slowly emerged, Gu Huaisheng finally felt a wave of fear rising from the bottom of his heart.

At this moment, he thought a lot. He thought of the child who was always silent and timid when he was a child, the man who pulled him to save me when we met again, and remembered that he was curled up on the white jade slab and endured the pain without saying a word. humiliation and pain.

Live for yourself... The person who said this is easy, but who knows the despair and pain in the heart of the person in front of him?

His spine was broken, his pride was destroyed, and his dignity was trampled on. Living for himself is probably just a joke to him. If it wasn't for Xuanying's dying words, he would have committed suicide long ago. .

The Jin family was the only pillar that supported him until now, but it was also the last straw that broke him.

For some reason, in this turbulent time, Gu Huaisheng finally remembered the sweet caramel when his will was on the verge of collapse. At that time, he was betrayed by his relatives and friends, tortured, and he had no will to survive. If it weren't for that candy ...

It was Jin Xuenian who pulled him back from hell. Perhaps fate arranged it this way just to allow him to return this kind of information one day.

In the heavy rain, Gu Huaisheng suddenly put his arms around Jin Xuenian, pulling him closer, his chests pressed against each other, and his lips touched.

Jin Xuenian suddenly opened his eyes wide.

"I like you, even if you live for me, okay?"

The author has something to say:

As soon as I write about emotional scenes, I'm like a certain book that has been beaten up (cover my face)

Tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, I will move to Faxiao to share the apartment with her. I stayed up late tonight and wrote a chapter. I will see if the situation will stop updating in the next two days. I will try my best to update it. If it doesn’t work, I will say it in the comments