Shimen is poisonous

Se Xiyin doesn't remember many things that happened 300 years ago very clearly.

The things he knows most should be related to his brother Chu Hanjiang, but even this part of his memory only left some faint and vague memories, but the details are completely gone.

But when using the past life book, his memory suddenly revived in the illusion created by the magic weapon.

Because he saw a very familiar scene.

This is the Chu family where he lived for many years when he was young.Se Xiyin thought she had forgotten, but the plants and trees in front of her were so familiar, as if engraved in her bones.Once here, it only made him feel out of place and ignorant, but later it gradually became tired and disgusted.

...Perhaps Grandma Princess is right, he is not without emotion, but for him, no matter how deep the emotion is, the sign is not obvious enough.Even if you love someone or hate someone to the bone, your body can't respond accordingly.Imitation is imitation after all. Many people can react instinctively, but he has to accumulate countless analysis and judgments to barely make an appropriate response.

Moreover, every time I put this set of rules on my brother, it will not work at all.why?Because he's actually different from everyone else?

But if you put it this way, even though the thinking is different, other people can understand Ye Baihan's thinking and even recognize him.Obviously doing things that have no benefit all the time, how could it be correct?It just seems that Ye Baihan can always convince others that he is right.

That kind of reason...he doesn't agree.

To be someone who will be missed... Se Xiyin does not deny that he will indeed miss Chu Hanjiang.Although in the middle of the journey because of Chu Hanjiang's departure and death, he couldn't turn around for a while, and he was full of resentment towards his brother, but for the first time he clearly understood that it turned out that it was the feeling of hating someone.But the fickleness of the human heart is that sometimes you hate a person to death, but once he smiles at you... your heart softens again.

But even so, he didn't see any reason to value other people's opinions more than his own life.

Se Xiyin doesn't really feel the difference between feelings and opinions, so it's hard for him to understand that his elder brother is not because he cares about other people's opinions, but because he cares and loves the most important people around him. Choose to go down that path.

Se Xiyin didn't understand, but she also instinctively realized that she couldn't deny what Chu Hanjiang had done.

Se Xiyin recalled how he was trying to fool Ye Baihan when he was a child, and felt that as long as he tricked him into being more ruthless, letting him know that if he didn't hurt others, others would hurt him, he would be able to be ruthless.Ye Bohan made a move, covered in blood, he felt very happy.

Later Ye Bohan hated him very much, but in Se Xiyin's heart, he didn't regret it.

Even if he is hated, he doesn't feel regret at all... Maybe it's because, in Se Xiyin's heart, Ye Baihan's safety is more important than his own feelings.

Perhaps, he didn't completely understand his brother's mood.

As the illusion slowly unfolded, "Chu Hanxi" walked all the way to the door of the study in the inner courtyard.

He thought he had forgotten everything, but in fact he didn't.He still remembers this road, this road that he has deliberately not recalled for many years.

At the end of this road is the grandfather's study.

In Chu Hanxi's memory, when he came to the end of this road, his heart should actually be full of fear that he couldn't understand.Because when he came to the end of this road, what he heard were the cruel words of his grandfather.

"...There was blood all over the place. Do you know that our family's face was completely lost by him! When I was born, I thought I was a fool, so I just endured it! But it was a monster!"

Then a father's voice replied embarrassingly: "This kid Hanxi is a little ignorant, but dad, you are too..."

"Anyway, here's what I'm talking about! He looks like that, and it's not good for Hanjiang to keep him. He is still young, and no one will think about it if he gets sick and dies suddenly. In a few years, he will be older. Now, Hanjiang still has to take care of such a younger brother, how do you ask him to behave!? That child is good at everything, but soft-hearted, too emotional! Keeping that little monster alive will be a burden to him for the rest of his life!"

The father seemed to want to argue, and said, "You are also a younger brother, if something happens to Hanxi, Hanjiang will definitely be very sad—"

"It's better to be sad for a while than suffer for a lifetime!"

Se Xiyin stood silently in front of the door, watching her grandfather's cruelty and father's weakness.He actually didn't have much memory of what happened at this time, but when he looked back at this time, he vaguely recalled it.

It turned out... At that time, his father also argued for him, although it didn't play any role in the end.

Se Xiyin quickly understood the function of the magical instrument Past World Book.The past life book seems to extract some memories that even he has buried deeply in his sea of ​​consciousness, turn them into a complete and detailed illusion, and let people learn the feelings similar to ordinary people in such an illusion.

This is indeed a magic weapon that only the Qian people can use.

But for Se Xiyin, it is indeed very useful.

Perhaps it was because the illusion sensed Se Xiyin's own confusion, so at the beginning, many of the hallucinations were memories of when he was still in the Chu family and when he was a child with Chu Hanjiang.

In the illusion, Chu Hanjiang, who was just a cub but forced himself to act like an older brother, walked up to Chu Hanxi, who was also a little Zhengtai, and squatted down, and asked in a childlike voice, "What are you doing?"

Chu Hanxi replied: "I want to peel off the frog's belly to see why it can move."

When Chu Hanjiang heard this, he seemed to be taken aback for a while, before he finally managed to say: "...But the frog will hurt a lot."

Chu Hanxi looked bewildered: "...does it hurt?"

Chu Hanjiang said: "It's just uncomfortable, uncomfortable, and painful."

"don't know……"

Chu Hanjiang said: "If the frogs die, they will not move. They will never move again."

Chu Hanxi retorted: "It will move."

Chu Hanjiang froze for a moment.

Chu Hanxi said: "Even if they are dead, they can still move. They will move for a while."

Then, he really proved to Chu Hanjiang how the dead frog moved.At that time, Chu Hanjiang's face was pale, but Chu Hanxi didn't feel it, and looked excited.

The naive and ignorant dispute between the two children caused Se Xiyin to show a complicated expression.Thinking about it now, after the animal is dead, even if it can still move, how long can it move?

Besides that silly brother Chu Hanjiang, how many people really care about whether a frog hurts or not?

It seems like besides Chu Hanjiang, who cares about that Chu Hanxi who is like a lunatic who doesn't understand anything but is already hated and feared by everyone?

Even if he is beaten and scolded by his parents, he will not feel sad.This may be his greatest misfortune.

However, even after many years, Se Xiyin has to admit that his greatest luck may be to have Chu Hanjiang as his elder brother.Even though his nature is completely opposite, Chu Hanjiang is willing to work hard to understand him, trying to convey his thoughts to him over and over again.

Although it did not succeed in the end, it became a way to fill the emptiness and loneliness in Xi Xiyin's heart that she knew nothing about.

Se Xiyin looked at everything in the illusion, and looked at the childish Chu Hanjiang trying to take care of and teach herself.

Now it seems that Chu Hanjiang may not be so smart.Many times, Se Xiyin could see the bewilderment and confusion on the little child's face, as if she was at a loss as to how to talk to Se Xiyin, how to teach Chu Hanxi what she knew, how... let Chu Hanxi behaved like a normal person.

This process is more difficult than imagined, especially for such a child.During this process, Se Xiyin watched, but suddenly did not move for a long time.

Because it was only at that moment that he realized very deeply that Chu Hanjiang held his brother's hand tightly because he liked his brother and cared about him.He used to rely on Chu Hanjiang and miss Chu Hanjiang, but he never realized that his elder brother actually loved him too.

He didn't know anything then.

It must be very hard, right?elder brother.

Their father was a man of inconsistent words and deeds.If I have to say it, Chu's father is not a bad person, he can also be called kind-hearted, but his behavior and thoughts can never be unified, which also led to the final decline of the Chu family.

Se Xiyin now thinks back, back then, Chu's father always taught the brothers to love each other, but he never gave them any support.Chu Hanjiang left home. Before his grandfather died, Chu's father was sandwiched between his father and his son to live a meager life, drinking and drinking.Chu Hanjiang left home, and after his grandfather died, Chu's father could only rely on Chu Hanxi to live a lot of times.He had no opinion and couldn't handle any major matters. In the end, Se Xiyin completely took away the control of the Chu family, and even after Chu Hanxi left, he directly lost the family business.

The complete opposite of Chu's father is their mother.Chu's mother has a very close blood relationship with Chu's father, and the two are cousins.But Chu's mother is irritable, very nervous, and has a pathological dependence on her eldest son.

Because he disliked Chu's mother's nervousness and irascibility, Chu's father had always disliked going home, and preferred Xie Yuhua outside.And this only made Chu's mother more irritable and nervous - she secretly killed several fireworks or women from good families who had contacts with Chu's father, which directly caused the two to completely turn their faces.

After turning her face, she became more and more dependent on Chu Hanjiang.

Chu Hanjiang left, but Chu Hanxi stayed.For a mother, that may be a completely unforgivable thing.

That day, with hatred in her eyes, she said in a tone that wished to cut Se Xiyin into pieces: "Why don't you die!?"