I don't love you tomorrow

In the middle of the night, Li Guanmian couldn't sleep at all, so he slipped to the balcony on tiptoe.When passing by the piano, he was still thinking, he doesn't play the piano anymore, it's meaningless.

There are more than these meaningless things in life, as if his whole life has been a mistake from beginning to end.A person who is immersed in a certain emotion cannot jump out. If he looks back after a while, Li Guanmian believes that he will feel that he is a fool, abandoning himself and complaining about others.

But... there is no way.

The resentment and anger that had accumulated for many years turned into reality, and became the hand that pushed Liu Yujuan to jump off the building. Why did he insist on fighting for it!No matter how much I said, I couldn’t tell others. No one knew, let alone understood. Li Guanmian sat on the wicker chair and cried for a while, hugging her legs. After that, the tears could no longer flow, and she squeezed out air from her throat with her mouth half open. Voice.

You have to cheer up and be a mature person, because Wei Chunxuan is by your side, and you can't help comparing him.If it was him, he would definitely not be like himself, maybe he would be calm about everything, and could calmly accept everyone's departure.

Why is there such a big gap between people.

Someone approached, Li Guanmian raised his head, suddenly feeling annoyed.Why doesn't he have time alone to make him cry.The light in the living room was on, Wei Chunxuan came over with a thin blanket, covered Li Guanmian, turned around, and came back with a kettle after a while, and poured hot water for Li Guanmian and himself.He was sitting opposite the round table, looking at the night view of the city outside and the lights in the distance. The atmosphere was suitable for smoking, but this conflicted with his health preservation philosophy. He could only pick up the water glass and said, "Guess you can't sleep either."

When someone found out while crying, Li Guanmian lost face, wiped his face carelessly, and told himself to think of something happy.It didn't matter if he thought about it, he found that he had never met any happy things, so let's look at Wei Chunxuan in front of him.

After a while, Li Guanmian was able to speak, and he boldly asked: "If you have relatives... sorry, I mean if you..." He couldn't organize his words, and hated himself for starting, and said angrily: "I don't even know what I'm talking about."

"Everyone will leave at a certain time." Wei Chunxuan said, "I can understand the sadness caused by this, but I don't want this emotion to stay for more than a day."

"Won't you be sad?"

"I don't do nonsense things that don't solve problems."

Li Guanmian understood Wei Chunxuan's way of thinking, in fact, he also thought about becoming that kind of person, but the facts told him that he was still far away.

"But why do you need to solve the problem?" Li Guanmian's grievances in the first half of his life were almost finished this night, and he said angrily, "Aren't you tired if you solve the problem?"

Wei Chunxuan said in a casual tone: "Life is like this, although we know that the only output is death, the fun lies in finding the optimal algorithm."

Everyone knows too many principles of life, but not many can really apply what they have learned, so some people have succeeded, some people are still on the road to success, and most people are doing nothing. Li Guanmian feels that he is one of those people. He developed a reassuring sense of belonging.

Just like Wei Chunxuan on the opposite side of him, they are so close, and there is almost no distance when they are closer. However, after people put on clothes, they have their own world.

Li Guanmian has nothing to say, and anything he says will only be despised, but he knows that Wei Chunxuan will not despise him, and will only look at him with tolerance, whether it is unreasonable or giving up on himself, these will never shake Wei Chunxuan a cent.

He has to solve it himself, he can.

Suddenly he coughed again. Li Guanmian had heard this voice many times. The dark room was filled with the smell of cigarettes. The man with the old voice asked him to go out to buy shredded tobacco, and the man died within a few years.

People go to their own graves. Some people work hard along the way while others are comfortable. When they reach their destination, they just lie down, close their eyes and sleep, and the world loses its sound.

"Don't catch a cold." Wei Chunxuan looked at Li Guanmian who kept coughing and said, "Go to the hospital if you are sick."

Li Guanmian nodded, "I want to sleep."

Li Guanmian could eat and sleep. Three days later, he weighed himself and lost three catties.These days his mobile phone was not turned on, he turned it back on after recharging it, and saw that Wu Hui had sent him countless messages.

The last sentence is "Let's talk".

Li Guanmian looked at his profile picture indifferently, and replied hello.

The location is a coffee shop near the apartment, I haven't seen him for a few days, Wu Hui is unshaven, his hair is messy, he has changed a lot, and he doesn't look like a boy.He sat down opposite Li Guanmian, looked around, and laughed, "You have chosen a very elegant place, and you earn a lot of money, right?"

Li Guanmian met him just to solve the problem, otherwise the matter would never end, he ignored Wu Hui's ridicule, and briefly explained Liu Yujuan's situation.

Feeling ashamed, he also admitted, "It was me who had quarreled with her before, and she couldn't think about it, but I absolutely... absolutely have no intention of asking her to commit suicide. You can blame me, but it won't change anything."

The veins on Wu Hui's hands were protruding. He couldn't believe it: "How can you be so cold-blooded? You can still say these words in such a calm manner. Of course I know, of course I fucking know that this can't change anything, but you can't even apologize at all." There's none?"

Li Guanmian watched his eyes turn cold, and he asked, "What about you?"

"I……"

Wu Hui gritted his teeth, "You have no idea what happened to me and her."

"I figured it out." Li Guanmian didn't think that Wu Hui's reaction was abnormal. He must have had some difficulties. He knew what Liu Yujuan was like. He had been with him for several years, but he still couldn't stand her character. Wu Hui grew up beside her. of.But what happened between their mother and son, Li Guanmian didn't care anymore.

Wu Hui knew that he had no right to criticize Li Guanmian, but seeing his calm attitude, he couldn't get angry.Wu Hui couldn't accept it, and now he still couldn't recognize the facts. His mother died, and the people he had had countless quarrels with all these years just jumped off the building, so what should he do in the future?

"I hated her." Wu Hui looked at the chandelier above his head, and his voice calmed down.

He lived with his mother since he was a child, and only saw his father occasionally. He always thought that his father was very busy, but it was not until a long time later that he realized that it was because he was an illegitimate child and Liu Yujuan was a mistress.Over the years, he and Liu Yujuan had quarreled countless times, and after the quarrel, they would hug each other and cry again.Although Liu Yujuan asked him to return to his father, he would sneak out to find her in the middle of the night, not wanting to leave her alone.Then there were endless quarrels. When the conflict broke out completely, he went abroad and wanted to sever ties with Liu Yujuan, saying that he would never talk to her again.

"Later I heard the old man say that she left and went back to find her former husband." Wu Hui stared at Li Guanmian, as if trying to get something out of his face, he sneered a few times, "What do I think, what should I do?" What do you think, she abandoned me."

In the past few years, he has lived a good life abroad, and he is taken care of by his cousin who likes him. He thinks that he can continue like this until the day he grows up. It is not that he has no regrets, and the self-esteem of a young man makes him go forward and never look back.

The most hurtful words will be said to relatives, even if they will regret it after saying it, he knows that they still keep breaking up.

"I thought about going to her after graduation and asking her face to face what she thinks and why she left me here. If you want to find me, you can call me. I will pick her up no matter what I say." Wu Regret spoke one sentence here and another, and sometimes Li Guanmian couldn't understand it.

"But she still left, and just returned to her hometown."

Li Guanmian at least understood one thing, Liu Yujuan came back after Wu Hui left the country, and did not take the initiative to contact him.

"Have you ever asked your father what happened?" Li Guanmian asked.

Wu Hui suddenly remembered something, his fists on the table were clenched tightly, as if they were suddenly broken, and he said, "It's possible that the old man didn't like her later, and he never let me see her... ...But I, but I..."

"But you didn't think about it at all because of your impulsiveness, or for some other reason, and didn't think about whether it was your father who made it difficult for you to cut off contact. She had nowhere to go, and suddenly remembered that she seemed to be still After giving birth to a son, she came back to look for me. She always called your name on the hospital bed, and asked me to contact you like crazy, but what about you?" Li Guanmian asked softly.

"I know you are with her, you are taking care of her, I don't want to go back, but I said I will give you money, I don't want her to owe you, besides...I'm back at the school after I'm busy ..."

"I'm back!"

Wu Hui pounded on the table, and his voice suddenly increased a lot, scaring the waiter next to him.And he didn't realize it, and continued to vent: "What can I do when I come back? She died before I saw her, before I had time to talk to her! Why are you arguing with her! You don't know her brain Isn't it good! Her thinking is different from normal people!"

Li Guanmian looked at him and said, "You can also ask yourself these questions."

The waiter finally plucked up the courage to come over and remind them to keep their voices down. After speaking, Wu Hui lay down on the table and cried.

"..."

"..."

Li Guanmian had no choice but to take out her mobile phone: "Understood, let's pay the bill."

Ten minutes later, Li Guanmian looked at Wu Hui, who was squatting on the side of the road, crying with his head in his arms, with a blank expression on his face.

Twenty minutes later, Wu Hui had cried enough, hugged Li Guanmian and said, "I have no place to live, take me home."

Li Guanmian: "...it's not convenient for me."

Wu Hui cried and accused: "I see, you are popular now, you are a piano god, and you live in a big place, you can't leave me alone."

Li Guanmian: "...It's really inconvenient."

Wu Hui: "But I have nowhere to go. I don't want to go back to study. My dad won't let me take my mom back. I won't go back either. I really don't know where to live."

Passers-by all looked sideways and stared at Li Guanmian with all kinds of eyes. Li Guanmian definitely couldn't let Wu Hui live in the apartment. At the end he said, "If you really don't plan to go to school, you can rent an apartment here."

After hearing this, Wu Hui cried again.

Even after seeing Wu Hui, Li Guanmian's guilt didn't lessen. He often had nightmares.

Wei Chunxuan got busy again, went to various places for inspections, attended meetings, and only occasionally saw news from him.At night, Li Guanmian turned on the bedside lamp and kept it on all night. There was water next to the lamp. When the cough was severe, he had to drink cough medicine. Although it didn’t improve, he would go to the hospital to see if it was worse. Li Guanmian thought, another week passed like this time.

Tryna called to ask about his physical condition, and told him to go to the hospital if he felt unwell, and she would pick him up.

Li Guanmian didn't cough very much, and he didn't smoke recently. He only had occasional pain in his ribs. He declined Tryna's kindness and asked her if she could broadcast live today.

In recent years, Internet celebrities are like a short-lived epiphyllum. The popularity lasts for a few days, and then disappears.

When Li Guanmian asked for leave on the platform and Weibo, he obviously felt that the popularity had dropped, and the most prosperous period had passed, but what he took was the money from Wei Chunxuan, and how much he tipped was left to fate. Tryna still wanted him to pay attention to his body, and he didn't want to make it too obvious, but said: "You don't have to follow the platform now, everything is up to you."

Li Guanmian: "Then eight o'clock in the evening."

He sent a message here, and the promotional image of the website was ready in the afternoon, with the words "Little Brother from the Salt Department Playing the Piano Online", before eight o'clock, more than 1000 viewers entered the live broadcast room.

On time at eight o'clock, there were more pictures in the live broadcast room, and Li Guanmian's face took up most of the screen.

The barrage quickly passed by.

Li Guanmian adjusted the angle, walked to the piano bench and sat down, put his fingers on the keys, and the prelude to "Steve's Theme" sounded slowly.