System sister!Ask for shelter!

Ever since I distanced myself from my 'girlfriend' years ago, I haven't had the desire to meet another person.Not to mention the so-called new lover, I don't even want to deal with the necessary interpersonal relationships in life.A few friends who had a good relationship have also lost contact since then, and they can only rely on their own ability to do some odd jobs on the Internet to survive.

"You can't abandon all your life just because she is alone, can you? Please think about which is more important."

An old acquaintance once said this before estranged from me.

The situation is as she said, the whole life is not based on one person, and there is no such ridiculous fallacy as "you can't live without one person".This world has a set of rules for its own operation. During this period, everyone needs to make more or less changes to make it easier to operate within these rules.These are all helpless things, and I understand all of this.

Every night, I scoff at my blindly avoiding behavior in my heart, always thinking that I will bravely get rid of all these things until dawn, and take steps to face the normal life that I have abandoned for a long time, but the facts are different from me time and time again. The expected direction runs counter to.In today's society, no one will pity you because you have been wronged by others in your life. When you fall and refuse to get up and move on, no one will help you up. If you insist on doing this for a long time, you will be gradually approached by the rear The crowd replaced and trampled on.

Even if I don't want to face it anymore, I can't put my future life on the network part-time jobs that cannot guarantee stability because of my willfulness. So I forced myself to ignore the haze in my heart, get out of the small house, and rejoin the society.

As I thought before, a city full of traffic will always make people less humane. Even if friends who have been classmates for many years meet in the company, they just nodded silently.Perhaps for normal people, this kind of life is too dull and rigid, but for me, this is the best situation.

The days I spent in the new company were far better than I imagined. The high-intensity working environment made everyone only care about the things in front of them when they were working, and made employees lose the ability to point fingers at others in private and slander others in private. Opportunity.As far as jobs are concerned, due to the difficulty of promotion, the employees of each department first build on the role relationship of competing with each other. Since they are already opposed, how can they talk about others?So here, I suffer much less pressure and rejection.Although the current position is far from what it used to be, it is satisfactory enough.

In an employee statistics, the head of the department learned that we were from the same city, and even graduated from the same university. She is a senior sister who is several years older than me. She has been working here since she graduated, starting from temporary work Up to the current position, I am the first alumnus she has met in such a long time. I couldn't help but feel a little excited, so I asked me to have a barbecue after work.As the team leader's invitation, I couldn't be rude to save face, so I had no choice but to agree.

In the barbecue restaurant, several high-power range hoods are roaring, and several slices of good-looking pork belly are slightly curled up after being grilled on an iron plate. The fat oozing out of them makes the meat itself more attractive. There are Many people, the hot atmosphere made everyone excited, and at the same time their mouths were dry, and they refilled their beer glasses again and again.I stared blankly at the sizzling iron plate under the baking, and was a little lost.

For me at the moment, the situation is a bit tricky.Apart from my ex-girlfriend, I have never gone out alone with anyone, let alone chatted with someone I have known for a long time.Now my mood is naturally a little delicate, maybe it's timidity towards strangeness, or maybe it's curiosity about novelty.

The team leader is very talkative, or she just needs someone to listen to her thoughts and ideas, and I am the right person.From the company's inhumane way of taking time off, she talked about the thesis killer old professor at our alma mater who caused students a lot of headaches, and then talked about the delicious and inexpensive meals in the surrounding cafeterias, and the topic change did not violate.During this period, I just drank and drank, and I answered very few words, but she didn't feel embarrassed at all, and she didn't even feel unable to continue the topic.

The night was getting darker, and when we walked out of the barbecue restaurant, the team leader was staggering already drunk, and couldn't even walk straight when the cold wind blew.Although the beer bottles piled up in front of me just now are definitely twice as many as hers, but because I am good at drinking, I am not too drunk, so after such a toss, I became more sober. Get her home safely.

After that, she seemed to have discovered a new world, and she often asked me to have dinner together, and often got drunk and passed out in front of my eyes.Accompanied by her chatty narrative style, I gradually got out of the shadow of my ex-girlfriend, laughed at my youth and ignorance, and felt world-weary because of this kind of thing, and unconsciously relieved my inferiority complex.And this company has been working for two years, sticking to a boring position. I think all this may be because of the team leader, because of her appreciation and praise of my ability, because of her affirmation of the value of my life.

I think, although it is wishful thinking, she has probably become an indispensable and important friend in my life.

Soon, the company went through several huge changes, and there was an extra vacant position in the management department. The manager planned to select an employee with excellent work efficiency from our department to be promoted to replace him.Although this kind of personnel change is just an unrelated colleague for the management, but for our department, getting such an opportunity can be said to have entered the stage of "flying to the top".In terms of salaries and salaries, such a large company whose business scope has expanded overseas will not be ambiguous about the treatment of the management, at least it will be several times higher than it is now, not to mention the bonuses and subsidies that are issued from time to time up.Therefore, people in our department who think they have strong working ability all write self-recommendation letters with one brain, and those who sharpen their heads want to drill in.Of course, these people also include the team leader.

The team leader is the most experienced senior in this department, active and has strong self-esteem.After hearing that she also intends to compete, many people in the department gave up the idea of ​​sending a self-recommendation letter to the manager, because everyone felt that the promotion and salary increase would undoubtedly be included in the bag of the team leader.And the team leader herself felt the same way.

Unlike my colleagues, I am not interested in this matter. Rather, because the purpose of my ex-girlfriend's relationship with me was for the position, I don't want to be in the position of a manager anymore.Instead of being a person who doubts whether others come with a purpose even when they are close, I am more willing to spend the rest of my life peacefully.I never wrote a single word in those self-recommendation letters. I thought this matter would have nothing to do with me, but I didn’t expect the manager to not read the stack of self-recommendation letters at all, and instead used his own way to choose who is more suitable for the vacancy I was also considered by her for the position that everyone didn't know about.

At the weekly regular short meeting, the manager told everyone frankly that she had selected two talents who were most suitable for management vacancies based on the current situation.As for the so-called talents, one is the team leader, and the other is me.After hearing the news, the team leader's eyes widened, and then he looked at me in shock, and I was not much calmer than her, frowning and said that I had no intention of working in the management team, let alone This kind of qualifications.

"Don't underestimate yourself. A young man with rich work experience and ability like you is the talent we are scarce now. To be honest, I am still very optimistic about you." The manager answered me with a smile, and joked with the group Chang joked, maybe this time I will jump to the management level and become her boss.The group leader's expression sank obviously, but it was inconvenient to attack.

After the meeting, I realized that the team leader was in the wrong mood, but I couldn't say anything to comfort her. After all, although I didn't intentionally create a competitive relationship with her, saying such words is undoubtedly adding fuel to the fire, and there is a lot of hypocrisy Suspected of false mockery.So I just sorted out the few files in my hand back and forth, waiting for the next move of the team leader.Fortunately, she didn't mean to blame me, she just laughed and said that she didn't expect to have a day when she would confront me, and she was a little distressed.

"After all, you are also a very powerful person." She smiled wryly, seeing my silence, then said that she wanted to ask me to go hiking with me tomorrow, just to relax and forget today's unhappiness.Because I was eager to repair the broken relationship caused by this accident as soon as possible, I naturally did not refuse.

Probably wanted to try to watch the sunrise on the top of a mountain that I had never been to, so the team leader chose a very early time, bought a cup of coffee for me, and then hurriedly set off. We drove to a mountain that I had never been to before, and arrived at At the foot of the mountain, even the sky was still gray, and there was no one else around. If I hadn’t remembered the route I came from, I almost doubted that I would be trapped in the mountain and never be able to leave.

In order to catch up with the moment when the sun rose, we moved quickly to the top of the mountain.If I pay a little attention, I can find that today's team leader is unusually quiet and the atmosphere is dull.But along the way, I was thinking about how to get rid of that job, and I didn't care that much.The team leader didn't speak again until she stood still on the top of the mountain. She said softly:

"I started working for this company right out of school and I've been there for six years now."

"……kindness?"

I didn't understand what the team leader meant for a while, but just looked at her curiously.She said that this time she was going out to relax, maybe she wanted to leave her troubles on the top of the mountain, just like standing on a high place and shouting can relieve negative emotions.But she didn't intend to shout, instead she took two steps forward slowly, getting closer to my position, her eyes fixed on me, making me even more confused.

"Six years...it took me six full years to get to where I am now...but you...are just an ignorant idiot...you can easily compete with me and try to jump into the management..."

"I didn't mean that..." The group leader's sudden change of attitude made me a little overwhelmed. I have never seen such emotions of anger and contempt on her face.I wanted to argue, but she couldn't listen to my opinion at all, and became more and more emotional, scolding me hoarsely for taking away her opportunity. Only now did I realize that the person in front of me was so strange, and my words were so pale.

"The seat you are sitting at now belonged to a young man named He Yu two years ago. We entered the company at the same time, and we were competitors for the position of team leader at the same time. He Yu is very smart and has a quick brain. She always It is to show her hard-working side to the superiors at the right time, and to flatter her at the right time, so everyone likes her more. If there is no accident, she will undoubtedly take the position of team leader... If, she is climbing If you can be more careful, don't accidentally fall to your death..."

As she said that, the team leader looked forward thoughtfully, and I also followed her gaze. The huge gap between the top of the mountain and the depths of the cliff made me only see a gray area, and I couldn't even see to the bottom.At the same time, he probably guessed another meaning in her words.I wanted to retreat, to escape from the top of the mountain, but I couldn't do it anyway. My legs seemed to be poured with concrete, and my brain stopped turning.I thought, maybe the coffee she gave me just now was not so pure.The group leader ignored my terrified eyes, and just muttered to himself, as if he had been possessed by an evil spirit.

"After you entered the company, I just saw your gloomy appearance, and speculated that you might not be someone who likes to cause trouble, so I got close to you and wanted to build a good relationship, so as to hinder competitors that may appear in the future. After all, if I get promoted, the position of team leader must be left to someone else. Instead of handing it over to a stranger, it is better to cultivate a puppet who can do things for me, so that I can completely control several important departments in the company... But I I never thought that the biggest stumbling block would be you who I am complacent about... This is really shooting yourself in the foot..."

The team leader smiled and stepped forward slowly.She put her hands on my shoulders, like a frolic between friends, and pushed forward lightly, and the artificially damaged rock climbing equipment hanging on my body quickly burst open, unable to support the downward trend any longer. Slide down the mountain with me.I was powerless to struggle, and could only watch helplessly as the moment of my own death approached. In a trance, I saw her again.

The 'myself' who used to chat with me all night when I was a student.

"Everyone seems to hate you," she said.

"If it's not for taking advantage of you, I'm afraid you'll never want to get close to you, right? You're a person who thinks that one day someone will truly like you, you're a fantasist who seems to be living in a dream. You can always be betrayed repeatedly. Let you wake up? Never, no one will really like you now. Never, never."

Her words were harsh, but she had to admit it was the truth.

I grinned helplessly, trying to put on an expression that I didn't care.It may have seemed like a long time while we were communicating, but it only took seconds to fall from the top of the mountain into the crack of the cliff.The intense pressure seemed to tear my eardrums apart, and it knocked out my eyesight, shattering everything.

"If I still have a chance to see you, I will stop you from being stupid."

The moment her body touched the sharp stone pile, 'she' said,

And I responded at the same time.

"If you still have the chance to see me, I will let you change me. Whether it is appearance or mood, please do everything according to your wishes. Please completely become me and replace me. Because we have the same One body, we have one soul, and we have one name."

Jane listened.

"If life can really reincarnate or stop, I will create the most perfect you."

……

Life is always like this, while we gain, we also lose, and the joy is shattered in the change.Just like how free I am now, I have become the character that "I" hated the most during my lifetime.

In the Underworld Building, Sun Wanqing was arguing pointlessly with Su Ran about the color of the curtains. After a whole night of hangover, Jian Tingxun, who was still groggy, just leaned on the sofa, closed her eyes, showing a trace of mockery smile.

"I changed everything about you. It seems that the result is still good, but I'm afraid you will never see this result. Right?"

The real owner of this body.

The author has something to say: I fell asleep while writing... (ノ｀Д)ノ I only obey myself when it comes to idiots! !