fickle midsummer

It was extremely difficult for him to say these words, just a few words seemed to use up all the strength in his whole body, but at the end, he was relieved, as if the grievances and resentments hidden in his heart all these years were like a puff of smoke, blown by a gust of wind , vanished.

Shu Shaoyuan was crying, crying more sadly than him, You Yu wanted to ask her what's wrong with you, but he didn't want to leave a word for Shu Shaoyuan.Only now did he realize that he actually didn't understand Shu Shaoyuan at all, just like Shu Shaoyuan never planned to understand him.The two of them, like strangers living together, one of them found his real home and left with his luggage, while the other stayed where he was.

You Yu suddenly laughed out loud, his vocal cords were hoarse as if they were wading through sandpaper, "Shu Shaoyuan, tell me, what do you think we are thinking now?"

"Actually, we are not like mother and son at all, we have always lived like enemies."

Shu Shaoyuan bit You Yu's shoulder, unable to say a word, just cried, crying heartbreakingly.

"I don't need your consent." You Yu said.

"No, no, Youyu, listen to me, listen to me!" Shu Shaoyuan wiped away tears in a panic, holding Youyu's face in both hands, "You are my proudest son, mom really... really of……"

You Yu sniffled, held Shu Shaoyuan's wrist, took her hands away from his cheeks, stood up and took a step away from Shu Shaoyuan in the blink of an eye, and looked down at Shu Shaoyuan's face that was red from crying and was crystal clear.

He said, I have long wanted to tell you so openly that I am not without someone I like.

I'm afraid you can't accept it, I'm afraid you're begging me like this.

Finally one day it was your turn to cry and tell me that you are my proudest son.

"But not my proudest mother." Yu Yu said, "You're not even a mother."

"Don't be like this." You Yu stroked his drenched forehead hair, tears mixed with salty taste, the tears contained the helplessness he had suppressed for so many years.

"You said that my achievements will eventually surpass yours."

"You have drawn so many seas, but I think the sea in my eyes is not the same as that in your eyes."

The sea that Bo Qinan took him to see was the gentlest blue he had ever seen.

"You have a new family and a daughter like Xia Xia, which is enough to be happy." You Yu choked up, "I hope you find happiness, but I don't."

"I don't have a father, but I don't want you to have a husband. But my subjective consciousness tells my rationality that you don't want other men to share your mother, and you don't want your sense of existence to be swallowed up by the new family and finally forgotten. "

Shu Shaoyuan collapsed on the ground, no longer crying loudly, just shedding tears.Hearing You Yu's words, he shook his head crazily, "You will always be the first in my mother's heart, You Yu, no one can compare to you."

It's not important anymore, Youyu's stomach was aching again, he didn't give Shu Shaoyuan a chance to refute, he tidied up his messy clothes and left quickly.

Going out and closing the door, you can still hear Shu Shaoyuan sobbing, You Yu has never seen Shu Shaoyuan lose all manner in front of him.

"Are you here to see my joke?" He turned his head and said to the person hidden in the darkness at the end of the corridor.

He Zhizhou walked into the area covered by the lights in the courtyard, You Yu leaned against the railing, inserted his fingers deep into his hair//, and messed up his hair before raising his head.

He Zhizhou was looking at him worriedly.

"Senior, you have crossed the line." He warned softly.

He wasn't called He Zhizhou, he wasn't called Boss, he was called by the name he used when he was in college.

"Recently you have been with him." He Zhizhou said.

You Yu nodded.

"I know you want a disease control project." He Zhizhou said in a deep voice, "but you shouldn't..."

"His name is Bo Qinyan, he is the person I have always kept in my heart, not an unspoken rule."

You Yu bent his eyes and smiled, "I'm not as unscrupulous as you think. I've been working with you for a few years, so I'm so unbearable in your eyes?"

"Only relying on one's own subjective judgment to negate a person at will," You Yu said.

He Zhizhou: "I'm sorry."

"I know what you mean to me. I tried my best to please my mother, thinking that if I was smarter, I could get what I wanted."

You Yu stood up straight, facing He Zhizhou, "I never told you the name of the person I was thinking about all the time, because I didn't think it was necessary."

For those who have already left, you shouldn't be nostalgic for them, You Yu wants to hide them in the bottom of your heart as an incomparably precious secret.This secret made him feel like a shackle, carrying the shackles to live, not only exhausted his body, but also his heart that was riddled with holes and irreparable.

As soon as the words fell, He Zhizhou asked, "Can you be sure that he hasn't changed at all? Youyu, you still have a bright future, are you really going to give up for a man?"

No, You Yu shook his head.

He repeated, "I don't think it's necessary to introduce him to you."

"You've heard the story between me and him, but you just think it's a story." You Yu opened his mouth and didn't speak anymore, just stood side by side with He Zhizhou.

He Zhizhou liked him, but he didn't really want to understand him for a moment, and he didn't even have the patience to experience his nearly 30 years of life.

Finally, You Yu rubbed his swollen eyes and said.

Your love is really worthless.

The next day, Shu Shaoyuan didn't show up, and stayed in the room with her body feeling unwell.It was Bo Qinan who drove over early in the morning to help Fang's family move things.He Zhizhou didn't deal with him, and he could hardly be seen where Bo Qinan was.

He brought breakfast over, and You Yu ate it in his car, feeling familiar while eating.

"What did you do?" Youyu asked.

Bo Qinyan picks out the garlic slices that Youyu doesn't like to eat from the food box. Stir-fried vegetables can't improve the flavor without adding garlic. Youyu is fine with raw garlic, but you can't even see cooked garlic.

"You can enter the back kitchen of the hotel." Bo Qinan said.

"I told you not to cook in the future." You Yu took a few more mouthfuls of rice, pondered for a moment, "It's not impossible to cook it for me once in a while."

Bo Qinan laughed deeply, and he asked You Yu whether he agreed or prohibited.

He pressed the back of his index finger against Youyu's eyelids, "Crying."

Yes, not only did I cry, I also knelt down to my mother.

You Yu bit her lip and said, "She disagrees."

"It's ok."

But it's nothing, You Yu squeezed next to Bo Qinan, and buried his face in his palm for a while, "I've made up my mind, I will resign after I finish my work for a while. The household registration book has always been connected with the family one. I went to the neighborhood committee to go through the formalities, and when they saw that my dad was only a few years older than me, they pointed at me."

"I moved my household out of my mother's."

"Bo Qinan, even if you don't love me anymore, don't lie to me."

You Yu put down the bowl, lowered his eyes and smiled, "Other children can take their parents' hand and leave without nostalgia, but I have no home anymore. If you don't love me, you must tell me so that I can save myself in advance." Prepare a home."

"I don't want, I don't want to go out from your house and become a lonely soul wandering in the park, and I don't want to be a wild ghost with nowhere to hide."

His eyes were bright, and he kept looking up at Bao Qinan after he finished speaking.

Until Bo Qinan clasped his hands, wrapped himself in his arms, and said to himself in a low voice: "When you go back, drive Shao Yi out of the household registration book."

You Yu was amused, and asked him where he was going.

"Wherever I love to go."

You are so ruthless, You Yu said, you are really the most ruthless father I have ever seen.

When Bo Qinan was young, he never thought that he would become a father early in his life.

When he first started working, he worked and studied with a professor.The professor accidentally got infected while performing an operation on a patient, and died of illness within a few days, without even having time to tell him what to do next.He divorced his wife and went out of the house. In order to get married in the future, his wife asked not to have custody of the child, and he disappeared from sight.

The relatives on the professor's side were unwilling to take care of the child. Bo Qinyan packed up the things on the professor's desk and sent them to the professor's house. The child was sitting in the dining room eating instant noodles alone. When he saw Bo Qinyan coming, he asked his brother if he wanted to eat.

"I thought you adopted Shao Yi for some other reason." After hearing this, You Yu felt dissatisfied. The story didn't sound as dramatic as he had imagined.

Bo Qinyan used some relationship to support Bo Shaoyi, and asked for Bo Shaoyi's opinion when changing his name, who knew that Bao Shaoyi immediately agreed, saying that changing his name would also be a good way to welcome a new life.

In fact, he can be called brother or uncle, but Bao Shaoyi prefers to call him dad according to the household registration book.

"Why is it a father-son relationship?" You Yu asked.

Bo Qinan said with a smile, "My family knows that it is impossible for me to marry a woman, because I can't have children with a man, so I have a little interest, so the old man can feel at ease."

"Then you are still with women..." You Yu frowned, "You still bring female stars home!"

The smile in Bao Qinan's eyes was even bigger, "If you don't bring a woman home, how can you stop your thoughts."

Although it didn't break.

"Okay, you." You Yu suddenly jumped up and wanted to pounce on Bao Qinan, but when he hit the roof of the car, he was dizzy and his mind was buzzing.

Bo Qinan was both distressed and funny, he kept his voice muffled to keep the laughter from wafting out of his throat.Gently rubbing the top of You Yu's bumped head, said: "The suite in the suburbs has been cleaned, and I will take you to live in it for a few days after the burial is far away."

"Not sold?" You Yu was stunned for a moment, "It's such a waste to keep empty."

Seeing that Bo Qinan didn't speak, he suddenly realized that Bo Qinan is a rich man, and rich people don't care about such a little money.

Bo Qinan held You Yu's wrist, carefully looked at the watch on his wrist, and suddenly leaned over to take out a small black velvet bag from the storage box in the front seat of the car.Under You Yu's curiosity, he opened the pouch and took out the contents.

"Watch?"

Bo Qinan nodded, and lifted the metal clasp on Youyu's watch with his fingertips, and replaced it with the brand new one in his hand.

"When Shao Yi went to college, I also gave him a watch." Bo Qinan said, "This one is yours."

In middle school, adolescent boys always like to wear electronic watches with luminous lights, and they can also set alarm clocks to remind them to get up and go to school.You Yu also has such a piece, but he doesn't wear it often, and always puts it in his schoolbag, and occasionally takes it out to check the time.

When they met again, what made Bo Qinan feel differently about You Yu was probably the expensive buckle metal watch on You Yu's wrist that glowed under the shadow of the lamp when the two shook hands.

From a teenager, he has become a man who can stand alone in the workplace.

"You've grown up," he said.

This watch is not the one that Bao Qinan prepared for You Yu as an adult, and that watch seems too childish for You Yu now.

Before he had time to give it to You Yu, You Yu hurriedly took the luggage out of his sight.

No, or never left, at least in his eyes.

He put his lips on the blue-green veins of You Yu's wrist very devoutly.

You Yu had never seen Bao Tanan who showed his emotions so much, and was so frightened that he didn't dare to move.

"I love you."

……

"boom!"

It was as if fireworks exploded in You Yu's mind, and it seemed that some kind of nuclear missile was launched, and the intense roar produced by space rocket lift-off, the shock wave stunned his mind and even pierced his eardrums.Trembling, he withdrew his hand and clutched his wrist, his heart almost jumped out of his throat through his chest.

"You...you...what did you say?"