fickle midsummer

"..."

You Yu stopped peeling the oranges and didn't speak for a long time. He just pinched the orange peel with his thumbnail until the gap between his fingers was full of orange. He put the orange peel on the radiator and looked up at Fang Yuan. .

No matter how lively a sick person is, the weakness emanating from the bottom cannot be concealed.Fang Yuan's lips were bruised and purple, and his eyes were full of thick dead air that couldn't be dizzy.

For him and Fang Yuan, Shu Shaoyuan is probably indispensable in life, but this importance means different things to two people of different age groups.

He asked softly, "What does she look like to you?"

Fang Yuan didn't expect You Yu to ask such a direct question. Although he was ready to talk to his biological son whom he hadn't seen for many years, he still couldn't organize his words quickly.

You Yu smiled reluctantly, "I've heard a little bit about you before."

"Zhicai told you." Fang Yuan said.

You Yu nodded.

Fang Yuan: "You half believe what he says, and you don't need to take it all seriously. He was not as old as you at the time, and children's memories are very subjective."

"You will tell me later, will you guarantee your objectivity?" You Yu asked immediately, although the orange in his hand was very sweet, he couldn't eat it anyway, leaned over and put the orange on the orange peel, and roasted it together, " Actually, I don't like listening to stories."

Probably because you haven't reached the age when you can't regret that the time is gone for a short time. Until now, You Yu has never regretted everything he has done before.

It was Fang Yuan's own memory, and it was heavy with the naked eye.And before long, this burden will be shared by two people.

"If you don't want to hear it, you won't see me."

As soon as the words fell, You Yu immediately denied it, and apologized: "I saw you because I don't want you and your family to disturb my mother's peaceful life just now."

There is no doubt that Shu Shaoyuan's current life is the most comfortable in You Yu's view.

When he was bleeding heavily, he saw Yang's mother being aggressive, but after seeing Shu Shaoyuan, he found that she was the one who cared about Shu Shaoyuan the most.She finds a nutritionist to match all of Shu Shaoyuan's diet recipes, and walks with Shu Shaoyuan when she has nothing to do. After Shu Shaoyuan became pregnant, she has less friends circles, but as long as she posts a post, three of the five are from her mother-in-law who took her to the mountains to see the scenery.

You Yu is not the person involved, so it is impossible to tell whether this person cares about his unborn grandson, or really loves Shu Shaoyuan.

"It's very hard for her to take me by herself." You Yu smiled, "Why don't you listen to my story first, and then decide whether you want to tell me your past or not."

"You know, she's very good at drawing, although I personally think she's very selfish."

Regarding the scenery that he is good at painting, he never allowed his son to paint, Youyu shrugged, "Probably because I was afraid that I could draw better and steal her job."

But recently, Youyu has also been relieved of this point. He is also taking the road of art, and competition comes before family affection. Shu Shaoyuan's thoughts are normal people's thoughts.It would be strange if Shu Shaoyuan didn't mind at all and gave her everything she had.

"I have learned to draw since elementary school, and drawing is as common to me as eating."

"In your brother's story, my mother didn't have a good resource like me. She got to where she is now through her own efforts. In my opinion, it's no exaggeration to compare it to killing a bloody road."

Compared with Shu Shaoyuan's previous difficult self-study, You Yu has received good guidance and education since childhood.Knowing the ruggedness of the detour, Shu Shaoyuan made a flat road for Youyu, and Youyu's starting point was higher than others.

Winning at the starting line is talking about everything he has experienced before.

He uses expensive paints, has resources that everyone can only get with a lot of money, and he has an excellent teacher who supervises him anytime, anywhere.

"I struggled before the art exam. I didn't want to paint, and I didn't want to follow the life she gave me."

You Yu sighed softly.

A few days ago, when he walked out of the examination room after the art examination, he looked up at the twilight sky, and countless candidates walked past him.The expressions may be sad or joyful, lamenting loudly that the exam is finally over, and worrying in a low voice what to do if the grades are not good.

"Those struggles were precious to me, and made me realize how rare it is for a person to have a skill."

"Do you know, she helped me find a teacher last year, the kind of apprentice." You Yu said, "He is stronger than her, and I can go out in the name of his apprentice and cheat."

But while being grateful, You Yu also hated everything Shu Shaoyuan arranged for him.

You Yu counted with his fingers, "Primary school students went out on Sundays, and she locked me in the studio to draw. I couldn't even call the names of more than half of the students in the class after I graduated from primary school."

"The junior high school organized an outing, and she still shut me up in the studio. I cried and made noises, and I could only go out when I had painted all the pictures she stipulated. But when I finished painting, the outing was over long ago. The next day, my classmates sent me photos. Keep it for me as a souvenir."

"This year I was a senior in high school, and I committed suicide in my sophomore year."

Speaking of this, Fang Yuan frowned and hesitated to speak, You Yu bent his eyes and said: "You can interrupt me at any time."

"If you want to ask me how my body is now, I can assure you that my body is very healthy."

"I'm very timid and jumped off the second floor."

"Actually, I didn't think about falling to my death at all, but I just felt that if I jumped, I would feel better." You Yu shrugged and sighed: "But it hurts too much, and the disinfectant in the ambulance smells worse than that in the hospital." It smelled bad, the emergency bed was cold and I thought I was going to die."

"In order to prevent you from misunderstanding, I will make a special statement." You Yu looked up out of the window, "Dr. Bo has nothing to do with my mother, he just sees me as a doctor who helps me with pity."

"The other half my mother is looking for is much younger than him."

Having said so much, You Yu just wanted to tell Fang Yuan that in the past few decades, everyone has their own lives, and there is no need to change the status quo for the sake of obsessive things.

Everyone lives in a stable life, and it is too tiring to set off another turbulent wave. Just listening to the literal meaning makes people feel tired.

He didn't care why Shu Shaoyuan abandoned Fang's family and took him away, he had no feelings for Fang Fangyuan, and it was still the cold expression.

"Although people share emotions, they don't empathize with each other."

"I don't understand your suffering, I don't understand your longing, if you want to give me fatherly love... I don't think it's necessary."

You Yu sniffed, he calmly made himself feel terrible at the moment.

He stood up and said solemnly: "As an independent individual, as a son raised by his mother, I hope that you will stop disturbing our lives at any time."

These words made You Yu feel heartless, he didn't even dare to look at Fang Yuan's face, but he had to say it, he had to say it.

Whether it's heartless or scolded, he was raised by Shu Shaoyuan, no matter what, it's her mother.

"We can continue to keep in touch. If there is anything I can help you with, you can contact me." You Yu said softly, "But I hope you don't come to my house again."

After being stimulated by Fang Yuan once, and then catalyzed by Fang Zhicai, You Yu dare not go home and live alone now.In the past few months, she has been in and out with Bao Shaoyi, and Bao Shaoyi is playful but very reliable.Sometimes Youyu has nightmares, and the next morning, she can see Bao Shaoyi hugging the pillow and covering herself with a quilt.

The loneliness that should have been borne by himself was suddenly shared by someone, and he will always remember this warmth in his heart.

Do you hate Shu Shaoyuan?

hate, but human feelings are always accompanied by self-contradiction.

You Yu didn't think about it clearly, so he stopped thinking about it. This year, he only thought about it so much and he got old quickly.

Having said all of this, You Yu quietly waited for Fang Yuan's response.

Fang Yuan put his hands on his knees and didn't speak for a long time. After eating all the oranges in his hands, he sighed and asked You Yu, "You are a child with ideas."

"Your mother is such a paranoid person, it is a blessing from heaven to raise such a good son as you."

He rubbed his hands, took out the medicine from his jacket pocket, chewed it in his mouth, and swallowed it raw.

You Yu immediately turned around to get water, and only took a few steps when Fang Yuan's voice came from behind him.

"But there's one thing I don't understand."

"Please tell me." The water in the cup has become cold, adding a little more is just right for palatable temperature.

"You are kind too, but all kindness has a price."

"Youyu, from the perspective of a stranger, Dr. Bo treats you very well."

"But from a father's point of view, have you ever thought about why Doctor Bo cares so much about you?"

You Yu opened his mouth, but did not answer. He put the water in Fang Yuan's hand and watched Fang Yuan finish the other medicines.

"Why is it so cold today! Xiaoyu, come here and try this frozen persimmon!" Grandma Fang said as she entered the door, seeing Youyu and Fang Yuan sitting together, she said happily, "What are father and son talking about? Come and listen to me too. "

"Youyu, grandma is calling you."

With his mind blank, You Yu was suddenly awakened by Bo Qinan's voice, and he quickly turned around and said, "Come here."

He hurried over, and Grandma Fang patted the seat beside her, "Sit here."

In a place that he couldn't see, Fang Yuan and Bao Qinyu looked at each other, and Bo Qinyu gave Fang Yuan a polite gesture, but Fang Yuan didn't return his friendly smile, but instead had dark eyes, no trace of what he had just heard. The softness of storytelling.

You Yu had never eaten frozen persimmons before, and found them novel. Although the taste was not to his liking, he still ate three of them under the expectation of Grandma Fang.

The dinner table was constantly stuffed with meat, and they ate so many persimmons before going to bed. The country people always went to bed earlier than the city. When sitting on the bed at 08:30, You Yu rubbed his stomach with his hands.

He sent a message to Bao Qinan who lived in the next room, saying, "I seem to have eaten too much today."

Bo Qinan didn't reply, and Youyu waited for a long time but still didn't get it, so he asked him to play games online after watching Fu Xing's game online.

Fu Xing asked Youyu how his new home was?

You Yu sighed: "It's too kind to me."

"I don't know how to refuse?" Fu Xing really knows Youyu No.1 best.

Not really, You Yu thought for a while and said, "I don't really want to get involved in the story between him and my mother."