The system knelt down and begged me to let it go [unlimited]

A small butterfly the size of a thumbnail rests there quietly.

Fei Yuan stretched out his hand and touched the butterfly lightly, and the butterfly turned into light spots and dispersed.

Feigaki closed his eyes and entered a world where there was nothing.

No sound, no feeling, no darkness...nothing but your own world.

Very quiet, very lonely.

Fei Yuan asked the system: "How is Ji Congming's current situation?"

The system hesitated for a moment, and then answered truthfully: "Ji Congming's consciousness is collapsing. It's useless, Fei Yuan, already..." He couldn't continue.

Ji Congming's "death" was the path he spent ten years planning for himself.Once it starts, no one can stop it.

Fei Yuan was just repeating his words calmly: "You said before that my sea of ​​consciousness was shared with me by Ji Congming, right?"

The system didn't quite understand what he meant by that.

"Although Ji Congming shared it with you, after it is divided into two, he is him and you are you."

"Haven't you ever thought about it? My sea of ​​consciousness can now accommodate evil spirits, resentment, evil spirits, and even the power of faith and divine power." Fei Yuan looked sarcastically, "Half of me is Entering, half of Ji Congming is releasing. Although the way of heaven and the core cannot be completely restored, as long as he and I are together, it is a complete cycle. Right?"

The system froze for a moment, and then the black eyes seemed to shoot out rainbows.

But he was excited for less than a second, and he froze again: "If you really want to think this way, Ji Congming couldn't have found out. He likes you so much, if there is still a chance, he will never choose to leave you .It must, must be—"

Fei Yuan frowned impatiently: "I say yes! Don't talk nonsense, just take me to him if you continue!" Fei Yuan's vicious look made the system want to cry again.

Fei Yuan took out a black "little fish", the half of the teleportation bead, Ji Congming didn't know if he wanted to keep it as a souvenir or for some reason, but didn't take him away.

The karma line has changed, and this thing has become a small ornament that Feigaki bought at a roadside stand during the summer vacation.

"I told Ji Congming that as long as he dares to throw it away, I won't forgive him. He won't throw it away, and he is reluctant to throw it away." Fei Yuan lifted him, his eyes were cold and gloomy, "You said his consciousness is Dissipated, that is to say, his consciousness has not completely disappeared, right?"

The system vaguely guessed Fei Yuan's meaning, and widened his eyes in horror: "No way! Then you will just lose consciousness and turn into nothingness together with Ji Congming! I promised Ji Congming to protect you!"

"Then, I can only let you die now." Fei Yuan grabbed the system's slender neck.

"Don't—" the system was trembling with fear, "I will help you."

If possible, he also hopes that Ji Congming can come back.But the odds are too small.

"Please must, must..." The system choked up and couldn't speak.He has already lost Ji Congming, and he can no longer lose the agreement with him.

The system cried so badly, perhaps Fei Yuan's conscience realized that Fei Yuan reached out and rubbed his head: "I will bring Ji Congming back."

Fei Yuan threatened again: "If you dare to do small tricks behind your back, make me unconscious or tamper with my memory, I will make you disappear from this world completely before Ji Congming. Understand?"

The system shrunk its neck and nodded.

"I will send you to Ji Congming's consciousness world, but his consciousness is too huge, and you will get lost if you go in. I can only try to give you a 'rope', and I don't know if it will work. So... ..."

"I'll bring him back."

Deathly silence, purer whiter than snow...

"..."

I don't know when, batch after batch of butterflies around Ji Congming began to die. Every morning when Ji Congming woke up, he could find a large pile of butterfly corpses scattered beside his bed, which seemed to drown him.

Although he had to wake up from the pile of butterfly corpses every day, Ji Congming didn't feel much. Although they were all butterflies, they were just a group of "elves".Died and just returned to this world.Then, through a certain opportunity, it appeared again.

Just like being with him for so many years, it will appear again after death.

Even if it is not wiped out for some reason, it will die.

Just like him.

One day, I will die too.

Ji Congming doesn't like to imagine the scene of his death, but because it's too boring, even if he doesn't think about it, the worry of death will appear in his mind.

Loneliness is painful, but no one wants to die before they find the meaning of their existence, right?

"Figaki, I like you! Do you want to date me?!"

Ji Congming's high school is very good, and the area is also very large. The number of students in the third school year is not large, and it is not necessarily a lot to fill up any part of the campus. But Ji Congming's luck is not very good, although The per capita area is huge, but when he was just looking for a place to be in a daze, he accidentally heard the confession of innocent boys and girls that would definitely appear on campus.

Fei Yuan doesn't like to talk, and his personality is more gloomy, but he is not annoying.He is handsome and has a surprisingly good personality. He is good at taking care of people and can read the atmosphere. Although he is not very talkative, his popularity is not low at all.He is like moonlight, neither hot nor dazzling, but always attracts others to gather to him.

This shouldn't be the first time Fei Yuan has been confessed by Gao Bian, he has experienced many such confessions, so he rejected it very quickly without leaving any thoughts.

So far, Guangji Congming knows a lot, although no one has succeeded in Fei Yuan.

Although Ji Congming was used to this, when he saw the boy confessing, he finally figured out the problem that had been bothering him.

Like it, hate it, whatever it is...

Anyway, these emotions are something he can't feel.

It is the same as "listening" and "seeing" things, although I know it, but I don't understand it, I don't understand it, and I just stay at the level of "Do you like it? Like it".

Neither will my heart beat faster because of a word from the other party, nor will my mind be full of him because he is not in front of me.

His time and feeling have been assimilated by the butterfly.

No matter how deep the feelings are, they become insignificant in the long time as a human being.

I don't know why, but suddenly feel sad.

The sad thing is that even feelings like "sad" don't really exist.

I am indeed a monster...

Ji Congming and Fei Yuan's three-year high school career ended as "classmates" who never said a word.

Ji Congming is a strange person, except for answering questions in class, he hardly speaks.

No one talked to him either.

"Super handsome! Super cool too! It would be great if you could talk to me anytime, and you will surely die of happiness!"

"But I always feel a little weird. Isn't Ji Congming too arrogant? I ignore him even when I say hello to him!"

"That's personality, personality. A handsome guy always has something different from others, and even if he just ignores people with a cold face, he's still so handsome!"

"It's really lucky. I was born with such an advantageous face, and I can easily live a happier life than others without working hard."

"I'm going to try my best to have a conversation with Ji Congming today! It would be even better if we can communicate, even for a day, I would like to!"

"I'm so envious, that guy Ji Congming is surrounded by so many girls every day, so happy~~~~~!"

"If only there were girls around me..."

Every day, every day, Fei Yuan could always hear the voices discussing Ji Congming in any place, and it was nothing more than those who were obsessed with faces, wanted to date him, envied and hated, and said sour words... There are all kinds.

"That guy Ji Congming is really a freak! One hundred percent pure!"

For Xu Jianchang, making friends is an extremely simple matter. A cheerful and familiar person like him can get in touch with anyone.

Even Feigaki is no exception.

But there is such a person who broke Mike's belief that "as long as you work hard and stalk, you will succeed."

Ji Congming, a [-]% pure freak!They were in the same class for three years, but they didn't even speak a word.

Of course, it was Ji Congming who did not say anything.

Neither find him annoying, nor "submissive" to send him a few words.

Are you saying he is dumb?But the teacher in class asked him to answer the questions and he could hear him speak, so he is not dumb, right?How can a normal person not make any sound for several days!Xu Jianchang suspected that if the teacher hadn't called him to answer the question, this person would have been silent for three whole years!

Those pure black eyes looked at him blankly and seriously for three years, and then ignored him for three years.

On the day of the graduation ceremony, Xu Jianchang really gave in, and reluctantly admitted Ji Congming's freak attributes.

Like Xu Jianchang, Fei Yuan is also Ji Congming's classmate.But different from Xu Jianchang, Fei Yuan never said a single word to Ji Congming in the past three years.

Xu Jianchang is tirelessly trying to get Ji Congming to talk to him, but Fei Yuan is different, he is a typical energy conservationist, and he never takes the initiative to provoke troublesome things.

Although Ji Congming is not a trouble to him, there is no need to provoke him.

Neither of them was acquainted with each other, even when they were discussing in class or arranging to clean up together, they didn't say anything.

But by coincidence, Fei Yuan asked Xu Jianchang that day: "Don't you think he is lonely?"

"Huh?!" Mike's eyes widened as if he had seen a ghost, "How could that guy be lonely? Is your brain broken? Look at the girls who surround him every day, as long as he wants to , hook your hands casually, there will be a large group of girls rushing to be friends with him!"

How could such a guy be lonely?

Yes, how could he feel that Ji Congming was lonely?

Fei Yuan thought, probably it was the sense of alienation that was incompatible with everyone.

From the very beginning, Ji Congming gave Fei Yuan a very illusory feeling, as if it didn't exist.Like butterflies, they are beautiful but fragile, and they will disappear without knowing when, as if they are not in the same dimension with them, like phantoms, or hallucinations.

But even so, Fei Yuan didn't have any special feelings for Ji Congming.

Fei Yuan doesn't feel that he is the one who can change or give anything for others, let alone that he is a special person, so even if he feels Ji Congming's loneliness, he doesn't think too much.

After all, he couldn't even save himself, let alone save others.

Moreover, it's not a second-degree illness, so it's too shocking to talk about salvation!

Not only is Fei Yuan not proactive, Ji Congming is even more ignorant of others, and when they are closest to each other, they are just the names that appear together when others mention the two freaks in their class.

that's it.

——But on the day the graduation ceremony ended, Feigaki turned back because he left something in the classroom.

"I'm very happy." Ji Congming said with a smile, "Because, now I'm not lonely at all."

Gentle people, gentle words...

so warm...

"Thank you so much! Let me meet everyone."

Gentle people are scary people.

But... I like it very much.I'm not afraid at all, I don't want to escape at all, I like it very much.

Fei Yuan kept saying that he was an idiot, that he couldn't even understand good words.Ji Congming also felt that he was an idiot, because he couldn't understand the feelings in other people's words at all, whether it was ridicule or awkward praise, he couldn't distinguish well.

But that kind of gentle mood didn't need any difficult distinctions, and it came to his heart naturally.

I am such a lucky person!

Thinking of this, Ji Congming slowly revealed a smile. Although I am a monster, there are still so many people who are willing to treat me with tenderness. It's really... great.

Fei Yuan peeked into the classroom secretly. In the empty classroom where even the textbooks and trash had been cleaned up, Ji Congming stood alone on the podium, bowing to the empty classroom with a happy face.

"..."

At that moment, Feigaki was speechless, his mind went blank.

Ji Congming has a ninety-ninety face. Although he doesn't speak, and although he is partial to subjects, he has good grades and a good face.A good face always has an advantage. Among the girls, Ji Congming is well-known.

It's just that because of his indifference, even if many girls want to go up and talk to him, they regress because of their shyness and reserve.

It would be embarrassing if you were ignored.

So Ji Congming didn't know that he was also a very popular person.

Fei Yuan didn't ask him what he wanted to do in the future, but he subconsciously felt that such a person would only be suitable for a relatively pure academic and scientific research field or a celebrity who relies on his face for his living and capital operation.

But Fei Yuan never thought that when they met after graduating from university, they would be assigned to the same jurisdiction with him.

Fei Yuan was taken aback, the inexplicable heart palpitations and blankness from his youth flooded his brain again.

"Hello, we meet again, Ji Congming."

Ji Congming seemed to be in a daze for a long time before reaching out his hand: "Hello."

That was... the first sentence Fei Yuan heard Ji Congming said to him.

Ji Congming's voice was very clear. Four years had passed, and the years didn't seem to have left any marks on him. It seemed that he was still the handsome and ethereal boy he was back then.

Fei Yuan stretched out his hand in a daze, and held the warm hand.

The sound that people can accept is limited. It's not that Ji Congming can't hear the sound, but the sound he hears is too loud. The sound of the wind, the sound of people, and the sound of traffic are not quiet for a moment.

very noisy……

very noisy……

very noisy……

so painful...

Then one day, all the sounds in Ji Congming's ears disappeared.

The world fell silent again.

so quiet……

so lonely……

No one can understand him, no one will understand him...

Sure enough... a person like him should die in loneliness and despair all his life.

Ji Congming is like everyone else said, he is a freak.

Obviously not blind, but can't see things.

Obviously not deaf, but can't hear the sound.

Weird, right?

No parents, no relatives, no friends, his world can only accommodate him and his butterflies.

Butterfly will tell him everything about the outside world, here is the house, here is the blackboard, what kind of words are written on the blackboard, here is the table, here is the stool, who is standing here, what are they talking about.

It's a wonderful feeling, so he can't hear or see, but he is neither blind nor deaf, because the butterfly, which is as silent and empty as his world, will tell him everything about this world.

so quiet……

But not afraid anymore.

Because, no matter how scared he is, no one will come to save him, no one.

So it doesn't matter if you are afraid or anything else.

Die in solitude, disappear in solitude, and finally merge with nothingness. This is probably the meaning of his birth, right?

Although he didn't know the use of such a meaning.

Ji Congming doesn't like to talk, because speaking is a sad thing for him.

In the empty world, the voice that belongs only to him echoed. In the quiet and silent world, his voice was so clear that it kept echoing.

And only his voice.

Although the silence was broken, but this...

Lonelier, and sadder at the same time.

Every echo made him confirm over and over again that he was alone.

Only myself... alone.

"Hello, we meet again, Ji Congming." ——that was the voice Ji Congming heard.

Ji Congming was stunned for a long, long time.

"Boom-"

"Boom-"

"Boom-"

Such a beautiful voice...

very warm voice...

There is an urge to cry.

Cold tears dripped down on her fingertips, Ji Congming slowly wanted to take a closer look at every part of Fei Yuan, but——

It was still a vast expanse of whiteness.

Do I have to die in such a world?

This is my fate, right?

perhaps……

but--

That kind of warm voice, that kind of voice other than him, I want to listen to it again, even just once.

This time, he will definitely remember every little detail carefully.

Ji Congming wanted to open his mouth to pray to God, just give me one more second, just one more second.But no matter how strong the desire in his heart is, under the huge desire, the pure white world begins to collapse, starting from Feigaki's eyes, the whole world begins to become hazy.

my eyes……

Is this... the outside world?

so beautiful……

But people like me don't deserve to live in such a world, right?

The silver butterfly flapped its wings and flew across the blurred world, and the sight became white again.

However, I will keep it in mind.

Such a beautiful world, that gentle person, that gentle words, I will protect them as something more important than my life.

Ji Congming likes Fei Yuan.like very much.

From high school, to college, to graduation.

He has always liked that kind of person.

Gentle, silent, careful, considerate...

Ji Congming liked everything about him.

But he didn't know what Fei Yuan looked like, what his voice was like, and he didn't even speak to him.

Ji Congming thought that her secret love would go to the grave with a blank like this.

Then, on an unusual day, Ji Congming and Fei Yuan met again.

Met him, saw him, heard him.

—Is there anything more pleasing than this?

No more.

The work of grassroots policemen is mostly cumbersome and busy. Although Fei Yuan and Ji Congming's dormitory is next door, they basically have no time to go back to the dormitory after they have just worked.

Snuggling at the desk for a while every day counts as sleep.

But because they are newcomers, the two of them work the night shift together and stay up late together, so the unfamiliarity that they haven't seen in four years is much less.

——Although they were not very familiar with it.

"Huh—finally off work." Fei Yuan stretched his waist, picked up the cup and wanted to take a sip to refresh himself, but thought that he would go back to sleep soon, afraid that the strong tea would affect his sleep, so he immediately put it down again.

"Ji Congming, do you want to have supper together?"

"Ah, you are off work, I want to tell you to finish this before leaving!"

Fei Yuan and another policeman who came to take over his shift spoke out at the same time.

Ji Congming didn't pay too much attention to their voices, whether it's other people, Fei Yuan or not, they're just a point in his world, and it's okay to ignore them.

Or rather, he didn't notice at all.Ji Congming didn't know what Die Die didn't tell him.

Because he was in the same room with Fei Yuan, Ji Congming was so nervous that he could fidget, so he controlled the butterfly's range of movement within half a meter of his body. As for the world half a meter away, the butterfly would not "disturb" him unless there was "business". .

Figaki has always felt that socializing is unnecessary for him, but that doesn't mean he can't socialize.Fei Yuan, who just came out of society, is very bad at socializing, it can even be said to be a bit annoying, but even so, it is a hundred times better than Ji Congming's socializing.

If it wasn't for Ji Congming's good luck, the people he met were not bad people, and all kinds of workplace bullying would have been targeted at him many times.

But even so, the senior's expression was still so embarrassing that his facial features were stiff.

"Probably because I'm so tired that I'm in a trance." Fei Yuan found an excuse for Ji Congming.

Fortunately, the senior is not the kind of person who has a small stomach and small intestines, and after the two of them handed over, Fei Yuan left.

What a fool.

The more we get along, the more Fei Yuan feels that Ji Congming is a clumsy idiot.

A fool who can't read the atmosphere, has no emotional intelligence, can't express himself, and has nothing but his face and head.

He's clumsy enough to even straighten his hair.

The newcomer has been very busy for the past two months, and I usually don't get enough sleep, so I don't have time to take care of myself.Ji Congming didn't care too much about himself, and his hair grew a little.Every day, my hair is in a mess, and it can stick out in any shape.

Whenever Peppa Pig popped out, Fei Yuan didn't think it was an accident.

That is to say, the police have uniforms, so there is no need to bother, otherwise it would not be surprising that Ji Congming turned himself into a Fei Yuan.

For Ji Congming, it is normal for her to wear two clothes for one season, and her hair is a mess, which only becomes less messy after washing her hair.But because of that face, it doesn't look too disobedient, anyway, no matter how messy it is, it can be called "messy beauty".Ji Congming was probably born suitable for the job of the police. In the past few months since he came in, Ji Congming has become more and more imposing, and no one dares to look directly at him.

But whether it's a casual look or a more stern temperament, Fei Yuan thinks, in the final analysis, it's because he's too stupid.

Too stupid to buy clothes, too stupid to brush your hair before going out, too stupid to know how to restrain your temperament, too stupid to read the atmosphere, too stupid to blend into this world, too stupid...to even laugh Neither will.

If you can laugh, at least you won't be targeted like this.

The relationship between Fei Yuan and Ji Congming is still the same. They stand together when they are on missions, and do their own things when they are not on missions. Whether it is work or private, "energy conservationism" meets "not saying a word", and they are so quiet. Even the policemen and prisoners walking around were eerily quiet.

Obviously they are partners with little to no communication, but at some point, Fei Yuan's eyes can't help but stay too much on Ji Congming.

By the time he found out, he couldn't just ignore this idiot.

"Cup, do you like anything?"

The butterfly, invisible to ordinary people, told him the coordinates of everything within a radius of one meter.But Ji Congming didn't care about it, and he wasn't ready to buy a cup, he just started to stay in a daze again as usual.

On Fei Yuan's coordinates, Butterfly "told" him what he said, but Ji Congming didn't care.

Probably talking to himself.

It has nothing to do with him.

So Ji Congming, who came back to his senses, blinked slowly his eyes that became a little dry because he forgot to blink because he was in a daze, and then prepared to leave.

"Miaomi's cup, do you like it?" Fei Yuan picked up a cup with a meow printed on it and asked.

Are you talking to me?

Ji Congming thought in a little confusion, but didn't intend to pay attention to it.

The toothpaste ran out, and he was out to buy toothpaste, so he was not interested in cups or anything.

I'm... not interested in Feigaki either.

Hold back, hold back.Ji Congming desperately told herself.

Figaki wouldn't like a man liking him.hold back!

Fei Yuan raised his eyes to see Ji Congming's absent-minded look, lazily put the cat cup into the shopping cart, and then walked in the opposite direction from Ji Congming.

I kind of... want to see what kind of expression Ji Congming will show when he sees the cup.

Ji Congming's cup was given to him by the dean who sent him to the school after he went to high school and moved out of the orphanage to live in the high school.If there is any meaning, there is actually no point, but it just happens that you don't need to buy it anymore.When Ji Congming came to Xiongying, he had nothing but his few clothes.

He originally came to the world alone, and will leave this world alone in the end, so naturally he doesn't need anything.

The dean is like everyone else, just a coordinate, just a "dean".When it appeared, Butterfly would tell him that the dean was standing in this position, and when it did not appear, there would be no unnecessary miss.

That's it.

The cup is not a consumable, as long as it is not broken, it can be used all the time, so Ji Congming has been using it for so many years, and when he moved out of the university dormitory, because there is still a lot of space in the suitcase, the cup was also brought.

But just throwing it away like that, Ji Congming won't care.

His world is very simple, you don't need to care about it, and if you don't care about it for one second, you don't need to care about it for the next second.

So the next day, when she found that there was an extra "that cute cup that Fei Yuan took in the supermarket yesterday" on her desk, Ji Congming was at a loss.

Is it a mistake?

"Well, it's a gift for you as a newcomer in the same period, although it's a bit late." Fei Yuan who was sitting on the side lowered his head and said casually.

gift...

The dean seemed to have said that when he gave me the cup.Is it the kind of etiquette that must be done?

Ji Congming touched the slightly raised pattern on the cup and thought.

A cute mug featuring a chubby kitten with a rolling tail.

Ji Congming didn't understand the definition of cute, but he touched the kitten and recalled the touch and softness, um... it should be called cute!

Thinking this way, Ji Congming asked Butterfly to remember to remind him to buy return gifts after get off work.

Ji Congming has a great forgetfulness, and the person who was arrested in the last second can be regarded as not having existed in the next second, let alone other things.

It's just that Ji Congming took a long time to send it out after buying it as a gift.

Fei Yuan and Ji Congming went on a business trip.

Ji Congming thought that he would be able to give the gift to Fei Yuan when he came back from the meal, so he bought the cup and put it in the drawer, planning to find a suitable time to give it to Fei Yuan.But on the way, he was notified to cooperate with a serious case, and he couldn't go back to the office, so he hurried back to the dormitory to pack up some things and left.

Ji Congming is not a person who cares about time, most of his short life is spent in meaningless daze.

It's just because I was thinking about returning the gift, during the time I was on a business trip with Feigaki, I was a little, a little bit concerned.

Obviously it was the same repetition as usual, but because there was something extra, I became a little concerned.

Then, after sixteen days of waiting, Ji Congming and Fei Yuan finally finished their affairs and came back.

Fei Yuan, who hadn't closed his eyes for three days, collapsed and fell asleep as soon as he came back.

Ji Congming is also sleepy, but he has more important things to do.

Ji Congming brought back the cup that he had bought sixteen days ago but had not been able to send out.Then wait.

He is sleepy but doesn't want to sleep.He wanted to give this gift to Fei Yuan immediately.

Ji Congming waited and waited... until it was dark, and then it was dawn.

Then he opened the door and stood nervously at the door of Fei Yuan's dormitory.

"Knock knock."

Ji Congming felt that every second was so long, like a year.

Although he slept soundly, Feigaki still woke up quickly.The nature of police work determines that they must be prepared anytime, anywhere.

With a sleepy face, Feigaki opened the door with low pressure, his bloodshot eyes filled with a dangerous aura that would strangle him to death in the next second.

"It'd be better if there's something big about the end of the world!" Fei Yuan said in a nasty voice.

Ji Congming unconsciously put the cup into Fei Yuan's hand, and whispered, "Return the gift."

Fei Yuan was stunned.

Xu Jianchang worked hard for three years and was angry for four years but couldn't do it.

Fei Gaki suddenly didn't know what to say.

To be honest, Fei Yuan never expected Ji Congming to respond to him.He is not prepared to further develop his mood.

only……

It's just that some want to see the world in his eyes.

Fei Yuan wants to know what the world looks like in Ji Congming's eyes.

I want this idiot to see the normal world more or less.

That's enough.

That's all...

But when he held the porcelain cup with some residual warmth in his hand, he was unwilling to do so again.

Fei Yuan stared at the cup silently for a long time, then pulled Ji Congming into his arms before turning to leave: "Thank you, I like it very much." He said in a low voice.

You are welcome.

According to the routine he had memorized before, Ji Congming felt that he should have said so.

But I don't know if it's because Fei Yuan's body temperature is still a little high just after waking up, Ji Congming feels that his lacrimal glands and esophagus seem to be melting.

Swelling, sour, and a little clogged.

But, very warm.

Don't want to leave.He didn't want to leave this embrace.

Ji Congming seldom cares about anything, or in other words, there is no such thing as "caring" in his concept.His emotional channel is very narrow, so narrow that it can hardly accommodate emotions other than loneliness.

He doesn't like literature, so he can't understand it. Since he was a child, his Chinese grades have only barely passed, and he can only get some points by rote memorizing answers for liberal arts.It's not the only answer, there's nothing he can do about it.

Although subjects such as mathematics can fill in the correct answers and get high marks, he doesn't like it either.

There is no dislike, no liking, just like a glass of distilled water with nothing in taste, for him, it makes no difference.

He can't be a writer because he can't empathize, and he can't be a scientist because he has no curiosity.

To be a hero, I just want to find something to do for myself, in order to keep myself alive.

He can't see or hear this world. In the field of butterflies, he can "know" everything around him, but the complicated "perception" dilutes all thinking.

Either it exists or it does not exist.

Everything doesn't matter to him.

Because it doesn't matter, so "seeing" will forget "listening" will pass, there is no difference between what happened in the last second and the world in the next second, just "nothingness".

But that's fine too.

Their abuse, their doubts... can never hurt him, their love, their expectations... will never turn into pressure for him to force himself.

Ji Congming, as long as he can survive.

——what was he thinking.

But... so warm.

Feigaki's hand, Feigaki's breath...so warm.

The warmth made his eye sockets sour and swollen, the warmth melted away the narrow passage, and the warmth made him reluctant to leave.

I... want to see Feigaki, I want to hear Feigaki's voice, I want to go back to Feigaki's side.Even if it's only once, I want... to see him again.

I want to tell him how I feel.

I don't want to disappear, don't want to.

Something has gathered...

Ji Congming slowly felt her breathing, and then her heartbeat...

Ji Congming opened his eyes——

A piece of white with deep and shallow white thorns made him unable to bear to close his eyes.

——Ji Congming stopped his delusions.

The relationship between Ji Congming and Fei Yuan has become a little better, at least it's the kind of friend relationship where they can enter each other's room.

Fei Yuan is an energy-saving advocate who pursues "doing nothing if possible", and Ji Congming can't be said to be that kind of wasteful, but the fact is that he is not only slow, but also extremely slow.

Obviously I only wear two sets of clothes, but I can still be in a daze while putting on clothes, brush my teeth, wash my face, eat, no matter what I do, I seem to be able to be in a daze anytime, anywhere.

Fei Yuan was absolutely convinced by him, but even if he told him dozens of times, he would only look at you with confused eyes, and then start to be dazed again after a few seconds.

In the end, Fei Yuan got used to it, so just be in a daze, as long as he does his own thing.

Most of the police are busy. They are either on duty or training. No matter how bad they are, they have to rest and relax. Anyway, the time is fully arranged.

Except for Ji Congming.

Apart from work, he never seemed to have any free time of his own for entertainment.

It has nothing to do with him if he doesn't watch variety shows, don't follow dramas, don't read novels, don't go out to play if he doesn't have girlfriends, whether he has a holiday today, or whether he gets off work or not.

Probably, this is one of the reasons why Ji Congming was squeezed out by his colleagues.

When Ji Congming is idle, she will only sit on the desk alone, or find a place to sit down.

Then in a daze.

Fei Yuan once asked him if he would be bored if he just sat in a daze all the time.

Ji Congming looked at him very strangely