woe

It wasn't long before I found out.

He Zhou's return to China was not to study, but to play in China for half a year.

However, he met me by accident, so he didn't want to go back to the United States.

He originally wanted to procrastinate for a day, but he dawdled for four years.

It wasn't until his father passed away that his family began to urge He Zhou to go back.

However, he never told me.

He did something like that that night, probably because he was jealous, and because he wanted to leave his mark on me.

He Zhou, he was looking for a sense of security.

He Zhou doesn't believe me.

I couldn't understand his thoughts. When He Zhou got on the plane to Los Angeles, I went to see him off.

He Zhou told me to wait for him, I nodded and said yes.

He kissed me, in the huge airport.

In the stream of people mountains and seas.

I can feel that He Zhou really loves me.

This love scares me.

That night the man asked me to drink again, I couldn't help but glared at him, the lesson from last time wasn't enough?

He smiled and winked at me, and said, "Bai, I'm broken in love."

I didn't know how I should react, but I followed the man to the food stall.

The man didn't let me drink, he told me to watch him and drag him back to the dormitory when he was drunk.

"Did you know? Bai, I came out because of him."

"And yet he told me he was engaged."

"If I want, he doesn't have to have any relationship with that woman after having a child. He also said that he really loves me for the rest of his life. He said nonsense. I'm almost sick of it."

The man cried and cursed, pouring himself a few sips of beer from time to time, he was a little drunk.

People around who heard his words couldn't help but cast strange glances, and some even paid the money and left.

We are like a virus.

"Fucking bisexuality, what labor and management hate most in this life is bisexuality! Bai, let me give you some advice, don't be a zero, because if you are a zero, you have no way out. "

"His fiancée came to laugh at me, yes, what's wrong with labor and capital being a damn gay hahahaha."

I do not know what to say.

I just suddenly felt sad.

Genetically, there is no way out for homosexuality.

It used to be up to the high class to decide whether the low class gets an education, and it used to be up to the white people to decide whether the black people would survive, and now it is up to the heterosexuals to decide whether the homosexuals have a way out.

Isn't this ridiculous and sad?

I watched him rise from a tall building, and I watched him collapse in an instant.

After the man was drunk, he didn't play crazy, so I put him on my shoulder and walked in the direction of L University.

I met Cheng Yang during the period, and I asked him to help.

I sent the man back to the dormitory with him.

Finally, I would like to thank Cheng Yang.

Cheng Yang asked curiously, "What happened to him?"

I sighed: "Broken love."

Cheng Yang smiled: "What a big deal."

I replied, "Yes, what a big deal."

Cheng Yang stared at me for a while and said, "You are in a bad mood."

What he used was not a question, but an affirmative sentence, as if he was sure that I would not care too much.

Cheng Yang didn't know that I was a crook now, let alone that I already had a lover.

I replied angrily: "Is your boyfriend in a good mood after leaving the country?"

Cheng Yang's eyes widened, but he spit out in surprise: "It turns out that straight men can also be turned around!"

I was speechless: "I can only say that I am not thorough enough."

Because straight men will not be moved.

Cheng Yang groaned a few times, shaking his head as if some new land had happened, and left.

Cheng Yang is actually a bit weird, but I don't really care.

The next day I saw that the man was really drunk, so I asked for leave for him.

After He Zhou left, I still lived my own life, took the classes I should have, and read the books I should read.

It just feels uncomfortable sometimes.

Every night, I chat with He Zhou on the video screen across the vast ocean.

He said that he was not used to the food on the West Coast, and the girls here were more open-minded than those in New York.

I said it's nothing to do with other girls being unrestrained, you're a crook anyway.

I said that I saw a wild cat on the road today, and it felt very much like you.

He said that I was a Persian cat, and it would be my owner's negligence if I ended up on the street.

He said that he met a good-looking oriental girl at a party last night.

I asked if I look good?

He can't answer one-thousandth of your answer.

I said you lied to me, can you wink?

When He Zhou heard this, he crawled on the bed and laughed. I could feel his joy through the screen.

I couldn't help but raise the corners of my mouth.

Then He Zhou calmed down, looked at me closely through the screen, and said, Ah, I miss you so much.

He said, Ah, I'm so scared, I'm afraid that someone will snatch you away, as long as I think about that scene, my heart will hurt to death.

I rolled my eyes and said, then you come back.

He said yes.

Then the next day at the bottom of the dormitory, I saw He Zhou in a white suit, holding flowers and smiling at me, who was extremely coquettish.

He Zhou stayed for a long time and then went back. There were a lot of things going on at his house, but he was convulsing like an idiot because I rushed over just because I said a word.

After graduating from my senior year, I started graduate school. The teacher who took me was an old man who looked energetic. He said that I was quite talented in art, so he accepted me as his last student.

Now I basically make money by painting, and I hang my paintings on the Internet, because I have the name of a teacher's closed disciple, and many people buy my paintings.

Gradually I became famous myself.

It happened that Cheng Yang was also studying in graduate school, so I shared an apartment with him.

The apartments here are specially used for those who continue their studies after graduating from university. The environment is good, the location is good, and the price is cheap.

Couldn't have liked it more.

Cheng Yang and I made a three-pronged agreement, we can't bring unscrupulous people back for the night, we're not allowed to have a party inside, and we're not allowed to make noise.

Cheng Yang is simply a three-good roommate who couldn't be better.

And he also has very good cooking skills. Ever since I tasted his cooking skills, I have never held a spoon again. I just pass him the condiments and choose the leaves to start.

After eating, I felt that I should wash the dishes, and then Cheng Yang followed me to wash the dishes for the second time.

I don't know why, but I always feel like an old married couple when I get along with Cheng Yang.

Later, when I told Cheng Yang about this, he blinked and suggested a very bad idea: "Why don't you dump your boyfriend and live with me."

I almost didn't spit out the rice in my mouth, and swallowed it with difficulty, and then I said: "Although you are handsome, you are not my type."

Cheng Yang poked the meat in the bowl with his chopsticks, snorted and stopped talking to me.

I found it interesting and couldn't help saying: "I feel that you are different from a man."

Cheng Yang instantly forgot that he was still arguing with me just now, and asked doubtfully, "Why is it different?"

"I feel that sometimes you are more practical than a man, but sometimes you are more naive than a man."

Cheng Yang smiled and rolled his eyes, and said: "Bai, don't compare me with him, he just got rid of the word innocent, and I don't know how to write the word innocent for a long time."

I was speechless, got up and picked up a dictionary from the bookshelf and threw it to him: "No, go to the dictionary and look up the spelling of the word naive."

Cheng Yang laughed again, and really obediently picked up the dictionary and read it obediently.

However, what he was looking for was not innocence, but ideals.

Cheng Yang said: "My dream once was to be an excellent pianist. However, when I won the International Youth Piano Competition, the doctor told me that I had hearing problems. However, I am not Beethoven after all. My dream now is to find a pianist. I live an ordinary life, and I don’t know if I will be brushed off the list by God. After all, compared with other people, my ideals seem so insignificant, and this is my only naivety.”

He spoke very naturally, as if he was telling someone else's story.

No wonder I was familiar with Cheng Yang's name when I heard it for the first time. It turned out that I heard it from He Zhou.

The teacher once asked me what is my ideal?

I said my ideal is to be a painter like Van Gogh.

The teacher said that everyone actually has ideals, big and small, but ideals are cruel things that have abandoned many people.

Ideals once abandoned Van Gogh.

Ideal once abandoned Cheng Yang.

to the end.

Ideal finally abandoned me.