Sinus tachycardia

The matter has come to this point, and it is useless to say more.Chen Donglin was worried, and Qin Xu turned the page lightly.His cold recovered very quickly, and he was supposed to be on an intravenous drip for three days, but Qin Xu only went on the day he had a fever, and took the medicine on time at home, and he recovered quickly.The busy New Year is coming to an end, and Chen Donglin is also starting to prepare for his four-day vacation.

Qin Xu still accompanied him to and from get off work these days, but instead of sending Chen Donglin to the hospital, he only stopped at the entrance of the hospital, and only ordered takeaway for lunch. Since he chose to confess to the director, it meant that under the director's sight, he had to Keep a distance from Chen Donglin at all times to prevent him from doubting Chen Donglin.And Chen Donglin didn't express any opinion about it. After their quarrel, although Qin Xu was still considerate and considerate, they were not close, let alone slight physical contact. Both sides restrained and respected each other as guests.

There is always a big night shift before the emergency leave. This is a routine. It is said that it is a four-day leave, but in fact it is only three days, and one day I just fell asleep.This time was no exception, but Chen Donglin was finally transferred back to the EICU, at least he could lie on the bed for a while if he was fine at night, whether he could sleep or not was another matter.

The ten beds in the ICU are still full. There is a low season throughout the year, and the New Year is even the peak season. Fortunately, his condition is relatively stable. Stability means that he has nothing to do, and he is prone to sleepiness when he has nothing to do. I went to the duty room in the cubicle to lie down, but I was always half asleep and half awake and couldn't fall asleep. At two o'clock in the middle of the night, Qin Xu sent him a message, didn't say anything, and asked him if he was busy or not. After resting, Chen Donglin directly called him back.

"Why haven't you slept yet?" Chen Donglin asked.

"I can't sleep, I always think about what the teacher is doing."

"Isn't it just those things? It's not like you don't know."

There was no sound on the other end of the phone, and Chen Donglin didn't hang up. He intuitively knew that Qin Xu still had something to say.

After a long time, a voice came from over there: "Teacher, are you tired?"

Tired, how could he not be tired on the night shift? When he first entered the hospital, he suffered from neurasthenia several times because of being on duty. Although he is much better now, he still feels tired, physically and mentally exhausted.But he knew that Qin Xu wasn't asking him about work.

"If you're asking about work, I'm tired."

There was a pause over there: "Teacher, are you tired with me?"

"We haven't been together for long." Chen Donglin calculated, it was only a few days.

Chen Donglin didn't know why the two of them became like this, it was as if they had become a lot stranger suddenly, he didn't know what Qin Xu was thinking, sometimes he wanted to ask, but he couldn't ask in circles.

"You should rest early." The two sides were silent for a long time before Chen Donglin said.

The duty room was not very soundproof, and the monitor in the intensive care unit beeped occasionally, as well as the sound of nurses walking around. Chen Donglin rubbed his face and began to consider whether he should talk to Qin Xu.Qin Xu is a person who can hide things, Chen Donglin has discovered since he deliberately alienated himself back then, and he is extremely stubborn, if he really doesn't want to tell, no matter how much Chen Donglin asks, there is no result, but If this continues for a long time, it will be a kind of harm to both of them, and they will part ways sooner or later. Chen Donglin does not want to see such a result.

There was nothing to do overnight, and shifts had to be handed over in the morning. Those who could be transferred from the ICU were transferred to the general ward, and half of them left at once.Chen Donglin, who stayed up all night, had a very ugly complexion. In his words, he was overly indulgent. When he walked out of the emergency room, it was almost ten o'clock. He wanted to go back to the old lady directly, but when he thought of Qin Xu, he He decided to solve the two problems before going back. He thought Qin Xu didn't come to wait for him, because Chen Donglin got off work so late and didn't receive a call from Qin Xu. The only explanation is that the other party didn't come to wait for him.As soon as Chen Donglin left the hospital gate and turned a corner, he saw Qin Xu standing there in a daze with nothing to do, and he didn't notice Chen Donglin walking over.

Chen Donglin called him, and Qin Xu came back to his senses.

"Why are you leaving get off work so late today?" the two said as they walked.

"There are too many patients, so the shift will be delayed. You have been waiting for a long time? Why didn't you call me?"

"Fortunately, it's only for a while. I got up late today and just arrived. I'm afraid you are too busy to answer the phone." Chen Donglin didn't say anything. He didn't want to expose Qin Xu. It's already ten o'clock. How would he know if he didn't? He got off work instead of leaving, so it is possible that Qin Xu has been standing here waiting for a long time.

This was indeed the case, Qin Xu arrived near the hospital before eight o'clock.He didn't sleep all night last night. In fact, it wasn't just last night. Qin Xu hadn't slept much for several nights. Ever since Chen Donglin got angry that time, he hadn't had a good sleep. He even got up in the middle of the night and wrote on the draft paper, Full of unfounded worries.He was indeed worrying unfoundedly, even fearing whether Chen Donglin would be dissatisfied with him, and sooner or later he would turn around and leave.He couldn't help thinking of a saying that people always feel happy when they are close to happiness, but worry about gains and losses after they get happiness.

Chen Donglin was really tired, he didn't even have an appetite for breakfast, he lay down on the bed after taking a shower, Qin Xu sat next to him and put his legs on his pillow to dry his hair, neither of them spoke, only the hum of the hair dryer.

When his hair was completely dry, Chen Donglin seemed to be asleep, Qin Xu gently moved his head to the pillow, and covered him with the quilt.Just as Qin Xu stood up, put away the hair dryer and was about to go out, Chen Donglin called to stop him.

Chen Donglin moved inside, vacating half of the bed: "Don't go, just sleep with me."

Qin Xu pursed his lips and said nothing, took off his coat and lay down on the bed, but still kept a distance from Chen Donglin.As if Chen Donglin didn't notice it, he naturally leaned over and put the quilt on him.Chen Donglin likes to curl up when he sleeps to keep warm. He subconsciously rubbed Qin Xu's shoulder, feeling that the person next to him was warm and comfortable.

"Did you have something on your mind recently?" Chen Donglin asked unexpectedly when Qin Xu thought he was about to fall asleep.

Qin Xu was stunned: "No."

"You're lying." Chen Donglin opened his eyes. "I can feel it. I was angry a few days ago. I was too excited. It was my fault. If you are depressed because of this, I apologize to you."

"No, you're right. I really didn't think that much. I was too impulsive, but I wasn't depressed, really." After speaking, as if he was afraid that Chen Donglin wouldn't believe it, Qin Xu showed a big smile.

Chen Donglin was expecting his answer, but he was a little disappointed. He knew that Qin Xu must have something hidden in his heart, but he refused to say it.

"Really, maybe you don't feel it yourself, but I feel it. What I feel is that you are unnatural, unhappy, and even absent-minded when facing me." Chen Donglin moved back, distanced himself from him, But Qin Xu remained silent.

Chen Donglin sat up slowly: "Actually, you did it on purpose, you gave me such a feeling on purpose, and then made me feel unhappy, and in the end, the two of you just fell in love and broke up, right?"

"I'm not a woman, so I'm not that difficult to entangle. If you don't want to continue, just say a word, and I promise not to entangle you." Chen Donglin took out his nirvana.

"Okay." Qin Xu got off the bed and stood up, saying yes calmly.

This time, Chen Donglin was stunned: "What did you say?"

"As the teacher wished, one, two, two, loose." After speaking, Qin Xuqiang smiled, raised his head and covered his eyes with his hands, and the heavy shackles in his heart suddenly disappeared. It turns out that this feeling of relief is the feeling. When it really came to the day when I lost it, it was not as hard to accept as I imagined.But my heart still twitched in pain, and I wanted to cry.

Chen Donglin's first reaction was surprise, and then he flew into a rage. He kicked the bedside table down, and the desk lamp fell to the ground and shattered. He got off the bed barefoot and stepped on the floor. No pain at all.

"Don't tell me you've been playing with my feelings." Chen Donglin looked into his eyes with a blank expression.

Qin Xu smiled: "I just fulfilled the teacher's wish."

"Actually, the teacher has regrets. He regrets being with me. That's why he doesn't want me to move here, and he doesn't want me to get close to the teacher. He even said something like "one shot and two parts" to test me, right?"

"As for playing with the teacher's feelings, I don't think I have such a great ability. If the teacher agrees to be with me, I feel that I have used up all my luck."

"I remember that night, my biggest wish was to see the Ferris wheel with my teacher, but then we rode the Ferris wheel together, and I thought it would be great if we could be together. If the teacher can love me, is this considered an inch?"

"On the second day of junior high school, my parents came, and they asked me what to do if you regretted it. At that time, I said, even if the teacher calmed down and regretted it, it's okay, I can leave and not pester the teacher, and I can also be with you in front of everyone. The teacher keeps a certain distance to prevent others from finding out, including the teacher's parents, even if the teacher doesn't want to live with me for the rest of his life, it doesn't matter, I will accompany the teacher until the day when the teacher doesn't need me."

"Now that I think about it, I feel that I was too naive at the time. I couldn't be so magnanimous, and I couldn't be by my teacher's side without asking for anything. I hope you love me and need me, just like I love and need my teacher. "

Chen Donglin wiped his face: "Why do you think I don't love you, because I don't let you get close, don't let you move here, and I'm angry at you? I said, I was wrong when I lost my temper with you. I apologize, but have you ever thought, if I don't love you, then what are we now?"

"You are not a child anymore. You can't be angry and suspicious every time you are not satisfied. Also, why don't you tell me? You keep it from me and suffer alone. Have you ever thought that your pain is actually unnecessary?"

Chen Donglin found that he was extremely insecure, even so serious that he seemed a little anxious. He never knew that Qin Xu had so many negative thoughts, always thinking the worst about things.He had never imagined such a fragile and painful Qin Xu.

I still remember the first time we met, Qin Xu's calmness, natural intelligence left a deep impression on him, his appearance looks better than most people, and he has excellent grades, a medical family, and a good family background, the only shortcoming may be that his parents are divorced .But Chen Donglin didn't expect his heart to be so fragile and sensitive.