Sinus tachycardia

There was no need for Chen Donglin to inquire, Qin Xu's news would always flow into his ears.We were always colleagues, and it was difficult to stand idly by. We organized a visit to the Institute of Respiratory Diseases. The director wanted to call Chen Donglin, but he refused.

Not many people went there, just a few colleagues and mentors who often worked together, and the news they brought back was always good, for example, he was awake, his illness was under control, and so on.After his life was safe, everyone began to gossip about what happened to Qin Xu, why there were signs of being beaten, why he went to the second hospital in the same district, and why he got such severe pneumonia. No one asked. Qin Xu, but those who attended his birthday party could not escape this disaster, just like Mr. Lu, who has dismissed those who came to gossip several times.Teacher Lu was also very innocent, he didn't know anything, everyone went back to their respective homes after dinner, he had no idea what happened afterwards.

Like all other gossip, it doesn't take long to turn the chapters, every day is a new beginning, there is always something new to cover up the old, everyone has given their love, and speculated about the possibility of everything, and then Forget these things in memory, no one knows what happened to Qin Xu in the end, and no one has extra time to care.

Chen Donglin thought, he must have recovered. Since he has improved, he should have been discharged from the hospital according to the course of the disease. But since he recovered, why didn't he come to work?He didn't ask the director, nor did he contact Qin Xu, he was afraid that the director would say, why don't you go and see for yourself?He was also afraid of knowing other bad news, because this would give him a reason to get close to Qin Xu. Once he got close, he might not be able to help but forgive him.

His rationality held on to the last line of defense. Qin Xu hurt him. This is a fact. No matter what kind of excuses this behavior is based on, it is not worthy of forgiveness.But despite this, his emotions are still admonishing him, he bullies you, you hurt him, why not get even?Besides, he has already received retribution, why are you so hard-hearted?

The New Year's Day performance is scheduled for the day before New Year's Day, and anyone who is not at work can go to see it, and credits can also be added.Chen Donglin already had enough credits, and he didn't care much about such things, but Huang Zhenzhen gave him a difficult task - to present flowers to her when the curtain ended.She played the role of the most beautiful nurse in the sketch. Since she was the most beautiful nurse, no one presented flowers in the end, which was really embarrassing.Chen Donglin, as the master of emergency appearance, was solemnly entrusted with this arduous task.

The emergency program appeared as the finale under the director's argument. The director believed that their works were novel in conception and touching, and demonstrated the great brilliance of contemporary medical staff.Chen Donglin complained silently in his heart, but it was just a story of a medical troublemaker who deliberately caused trouble and insulted the medical staff and then suffered a myocardial infarction, and the medical staff tried their best to rescue them regardless of the past.This kind of thing that can be summed up in just two sentences, I don't know where to mention "the idea is novel and touching."

When Chen Donglin sat down from the beginning to the end of the show, he came to a conclusion. Although the skits were not very good, the dances were pretty good. What surprised her was Ling Shuang's solo dance. She didn't participate in the previous years, but this year The appearance is amazing.When the sketch in the emergency room starts to rescue the troublemaker, he can prepare to go backstage and wait for the opportunity to present flowers on stage.

Beforehand, Chen Donglin thought that presenting flowers meant going on stage and handing flowers to Huang Zhenzhen, but Huang Zhenzhen felt that this was too ordinary, so she asked Chen Donglin to show the most sincere smile, revealing eight teeth, and the price of a full set of clothes on stage should not be low in one thousand.After hearing this, Chen Donglin threw the flowers away, and walked away without looking back. Huang Zhenzhen quickly grabbed him, pulled his clothes, and then raised her head suddenly, with tears flickering in her eyes.

Chen Donglin: "..."

In the end, Chen Donglin reluctantly agreed, and as soon as Huang Zhenzhen shed tears, she began to study what flowers to send, and finally settled on lilies, which symbolize beauty and purity.Chen Donglin was standing in the background with a lily in his arms, wearing an ordinary off-white sweater, trousers and short boots. He only selectively carried out Huang Zhenzhen's request.When the audience applauded, Chen Donglin appeared on the stage holding flowers. He didn't look at the auditorium, but only looked at Huang Zhenzhen, then walked quickly to her side and handed the flowers to her, smiling with eight teeth showing , and then hugged Huang Zhenzhen, the audience applauded thunderously, I don't know if it was because of the sketch, or because of Chen Donglin's flower presentation.

Huang Zhenzhen was elated after leaving the stage, and praised Chen Donglin for completing the task to a high degree. Although Chen Donglin didn't look at the auditorium, Huang Zhenzhen did. Many people looked at Chen Donglin's smile and eyes straightened. Huang Zhenzhen hugged Chen Donglin and felt very comfortable. This look Oh, the world is so disgusting!

The show was a complete success, the director waved his hand proudly, tonight he will be the host and have a dinner in the department of the Green Hotel, and the staff on duty will also have a share, all packed and sent over. Chen Donglin didn't eat anything for breakfast, and he was so hungry at noon, so he told the director Today he is on vacation, and then he will be on duty on New Year's Day. He wants to go out with his parents for two days after the holiday peak is over.

On the way home, he conveniently bought a takeaway, and as soon as he got out of the elevator, he saw a person standing at the door of his house. Chen Donglin recognized the scarf on that person's body, and even clearly remembered the smell that belonged to that person.

Qin Xu turned around when he heard the voice.Today he wore a dark cotton coat, a scarf and a mask. Except for work, he usually doesn't wear glasses, and he wore them today too.

He stood at the door without moving, his eyes were bent first, and he was about to speak, but he coughed violently.Chen Donglin approached, didn't speak, and couldn't see his emotions clearly, watching him coughing indifferently.

"Today's program is very good." Qin Xu said after recovering, but his voice was hoarse.

Chen Donglin moved his lips, but still didn't speak, he didn't know where to start.

"Can I invite you to my house for dinner?" Qin Xu said, he didn't seem to see the takeaway in Chen Donglin's hand, but just watched him wholeheartedly and tenderly, as if nothing had happened before.

"My home is very close to here, it won't be long."

Chen Donglin was unmoved.

"I'm going back to the capital tomorrow, so can you have dinner with me for the last time?" Qin Xu smiled bitterly and asked him cautiously.

Chen Donglin didn't speak, Qin Xu saw that he didn't refuse, and wanted to pull him away, but as soon as he stretched out his hand, he put it down as if being stabbed by something. He kept a distance from Chen Donglin, walked in front, and looked back at him after two steps , for fear that Chen Donglin might not keep up.

At the entrance of the community, Qin Xu hailed a taxi, then looked at Chen Donglin's suspicious eyes and explained: "I just want you to eat quickly."

Chen Donglin thought to himself, if this is the case, you should let me finish eating the takeaway.

The taxi arrived after turning two corners. The distance is indeed very close. I don’t know if it’s a coincidence. Qin Xu lived on the eighth floor. Chen Donglin followed him into the house and smelled the familiar sandalwood. The living room was a bit empty, except for the furniture. Nothing, like no one lives here.Qin Xu asked Chen Donglin to sit down by himself, and then brought out the warm dishes.

Qin Xu untied his scarf and took off his mask. He lost a lot of weight and his face was sickly pale, but his busy appearance was still the same as before.He took out a bottle of red wine and was about to open it.

"I don't want to drink." Chen Donglin stopped him in time, Qin Xu's situation is not suitable for drinking.

Qin Xu obeyed him, and then the two sat down at the dining table, three dishes and one soup, all Chen Donglin liked.

"When I was in the hospital, I was watching the dishes in my spare time..." He seemed to think of something, and immediately stopped talking.

"Try this red meat. I've made it many times and it's all bitter. I don't know if it will be better today." Qin Xu turned his head to one side, as if he was trying his best to endure his cough, and when he was better, he turned back Looking at him, it may be that he endured too much, and there was a little water in his eyes.

Chen Donglin picked up a chopstick, the taste was normal, not bitter, nor too idle, just the taste of ordinary red meat, he picked up another chopstick.Qin Xu watched him pick up two chopsticks, and felt much more at ease, and his nervous brows relaxed.He had a sudden itching in his throat, then stood up and covered his mouth and coughed, finally said sorry, and hurried to the room.

Chen Donglin put down his chopsticks, stood up and walked to the door of his room.Qin Xu was drinking cough syrup, and the hat Chen Donglin gave him was placed on the bedside table.Chen Donglin returned to the dining table silently. He was obviously very hungry before, but now his chest seemed to be blocked and he couldn't eat anything.

When Qin Xu came out, he didn't move much when he saw the food.

"Isn't it delicious? If it's not delicious, let's go out to eat. How about going to the hot pot restaurant you went to last time?"

"I don't want to eat." Chen Donglin put down his chopsticks.

Qin Xu didn't speak, just looked at him blankly, then turned his head to one side, and after a while, he said:

"Can you accompany me to Donghu Park? I've been here for so long, and I haven't visited it yet." Her voice was clearly choked with sobs.

Chen Donglin unexpectedly agreed to him.Donghu Park is very close to here, just walk straight to the south gate of the hospital. Chen Donglin used to like to feed the fish there, but later he became lazy and seldom went there.

Qin Xu went out with a backpack on his back. He talked a lot on the road, no matter whether Chen Donglin listened or not.He talked about the funny things when he was in college. He said that he hated the smell of formalin in anatomy class. He used frogs for nerve peeling for the first time and secretly released a few of them. He also talked about the scenery of the campus and the capital city. It was already covered with heavy snow, and the capital after the snow was very beautiful, but he was afraid of the cold, so he often hid at home and did not go out.But Chen Donglin was thinking, why did he have to stand outside and wait for him again and again, even though he was so afraid of the cold? Although it doesn't snow in Guangshan City, it is only a few degrees colder.Qin Xu said everything, but kept silent about what happened during this period.

The two walked to East Lake Park, and someone built a platform in the square, and there might be some activities today.They kept walking along the East Lake, and Qin Xu started to cough after talking too much, until Chen Donglin interrupted him, saying that he was not interested in hearing these things.

"Then can you take a photo with me?" Qin Xu took out the camera from his backpack.

"You smiled beautifully on stage today. I've never seen you smile like that before."

"Teacher, just put one together, one is fine."

"Didn't you say take a group photo, then hurry up." Chen Donglin was impatient.

Qin Xu bent his eyes, and then asked a female student to take a picture of them. The female student held up the camera and asked them to get closer.Qin Xu just wanted to say it's okay, just take a picture like this, but Chen Donglin stood next to him, so close that his shoulders were close together.

The two leaned on the guardrail of the East Lake, and the Ferris wheel on the other side of the lake was spinning behind them. One of them had crooked eyebrows, and the other had a serious expression.The weather was also gloomy, and the result of the shooting was not very good, but Qin Xu was already satisfied.After taking the photo, the two of them walked around the park in silence, and then Qin Xu said to send Chen Donglin back. Chen Donglin didn't refuse, but it was more than ten minutes away, so it didn't make much difference whether to send him or not.

When he arrived downstairs at Chen Donglin's unit, Qin Xu took out a few books from his backpack, all of which were about photography, introduction to photography, photography skills and so on.

"This was recommended by my cousin. He said it was easy to understand. I didn't know which one was the best, so I bought them all for you. At that time, you refunded all the rent to me. Anyway, I lived there for two months. , These books are also considered as my rent payment, I know it is far from enough, and you will not be willing to accept my money."

"Sometimes the router has no signal. Just unplug the network cable and plug it in again, but I changed it before, and there should be no more problems."

"Over there at the hospital... I have already resigned, so if there is no accident, I may not come here again."

"The park is beautiful, I am very happy today, thank you for being with me."

"The other thing is... I'm sorry, teacher, I'm really sorry."

"If I accept your book, we will have nothing to do with each other, right?" Chen Donglin said suddenly.

Qin Xu clenched his fist, then forced a smile and said, "Yes, I will never bother you again."

"That's good." Chen Donglin took the book and left without looking back.It's not that he didn't want to, but he didn't dare, because he suddenly understood why his subconscious was holding on to this matter, no matter how many reasons he could forgive him, but his subconscious had only one excuse, he hurt you.And if emotion overwhelms reason, forgiving him means accepting him.

He is over 30 years old, and he no longer has the determination to turn back like he did when he was young, nor does he have the courage to abandon everything to pursue his heart. He can only find an excuse to calm down in time and rein in the precipice.

It is undeniable that he does have special feelings for Qin Xu, and there is even a voice in his heart that has been bewitching him. If you take a step back, you will have room for maneuver.But he can't retreat, not to mention that he doesn't know whether this special feeling is out of love or something else, he can't get deeply involved in it.This road is not easy to walk. Qin Xu is still young, so he may have acted impulsively.And I don't even have the right to do whatever I want, and my parents are getting older, so I can't let them down anymore.

Qin Xu watched his back disappear, then sniffed, and his nose was blocked again. He stood at the door of the unit and didn't want to leave. No matter how cold it was, he thought it would be good to be closer to him.He remembered what happened that night. Fortunately, the ending was not the worst. He was ready to be beaten to death by Chen Donglin. He thought about it, if a same-sex did something like this to him, he would definitely not be able to And walking with the other party calmly, Chen Donglin was more soft-hearted than he imagined. He never knew that a person could be kind to that extent.Although Chen Donglin's face was not good-looking, he finally agreed to have dinner together, accompany him to the park, and take a photo with him. He still remembers the tears in Chen Donglin's eyes when he talked with Hu Jinxu's mother at the end.A person who can shed tears for the death of a stranger, a person who can give in to those who violate him, just because Chen Donglin is such a person, Qin Xu always has expectations, what if he softens his heart and forgives himself?If you also compromise, there may be no possibility for the two of you.

Leaving does not mean the end, but to let both of them calm down. For what you want, besides fighting for it, you must also learn to wait.