Teacher, don't hide from me

The days were so tepid, Ye Fan changed his sex into a talkative boy Song and Mingchu changed from unaccustomed to habitual, from not calm to calm.

This Sunday afternoon, I met with the teachers in the office to have dinner at Haidilao in the urban area. In addition to Song and Mingchu, there were a total of seven teachers, three men and four women. After drinking and eating, they met and went to a nearby ktv to sing.

Even though Song and Mingchu didn't like the noisy environment of ktv for the dinner party twice a year, it was not easy to leave early, so they had to go together.

During this period, she sat quietly in the corner and listened to the music. When a teacher came to persuade her to drink, she did not refuse. She took one glass after another. After a while, Song Mingchu looked slightly drunk, and pushed the door to go out to get some air. She was thoughtful in the corridor. She walked with her head down slightly, her long hair hanging loose, making it hard to see the expression on her face.

Ye Fan heard Song and Mingchu say that they had a dinner together today, and she was worried that Song and Mingchu would be persuaded to drink, so she followed her secretly. At this time, Ye Fan was wearing a black baseball cap and a black turtleneck sweater, sitting on the sofa in the ktv lobby, her eyes flicked all the time Looking in the direction of the private room where Song Mingchu was, I saw Song Mingchu came out of the private room and got on the elevator. The number on the elevator finally stopped at seven, and Ye Fan hurriedly took another elevator to catch up.

Ye Fan got off the elevator, went up five more steps, and walked up to the rooftop.

Seeing Song Mingchu sitting on a rocking chair not far away, looking up at the starry sky, Ye Fan walked forward lightly and sat beside Song Mingchu.

"Why are you here?" Song Mingchu hurriedly wiped away his tears and turned to look at Ye Fan suspiciously.

"Because I'm worried about you." Ye Fan also turned his head to look at Song Mingchu, "What are you crying for?" Ye Fan asked worriedly.

Song Mingchu pursed his lips, and said after a while: "That day, we signed the divorce agreement here."

Song Mingchu really hated Gu Xiaoran very much during the first divorce, but after a long time, living in the house where the two lived together, Song Mingchu often thought of Gu Xiaoran's kindness to her, and Gu Xiaoran was the only man Song Mingchu had dated with. It's not that easy to let go of this relationship completely.

Seeing that Song Mingchu was hurt by touching the scene, Ye Fan didn't know why, but he felt very uncomfortable, but he pretended to be relaxed and said: "Mingchu, do you mean the day you bumped into me?"

Due to the drunkenness, Song Mingchu's eyes became blurred, and now the alcohol was a little too strong, she leaned her head on Ye Fan's shoulder weakly, Ye Fan didn't say anything, and let Song Mingchu lean on quietly.

"Time flies so fast. It's halfway through the third year of high school, and you're about to graduate soon." Song Mingchu suddenly said with emotion.Thinking back to the day I first met Ye Fan, it was as close as yesterday.

"Mingchu, will you be reluctant to part with me?"

"of course,

For me, you are the most special student I have ever taught, and probably I will never get so close to a student again in the future. "Song Mingchu said lightly.

"But you know, I like you, not just for a teacher! What I want is not a teacher-student relationship!" Ye Fan looked at Song Mingchu firmly. During this period, he confessed many times that Song Mingchu didn't make it clear. She has responded before, but at this moment she is eager to get an answer.

"But you are always my student, and I can only be your teacher!" Song Mingchu lowered his long eyelashes, hiding the sadness in his eyes.

"teacher…?

Why……

Why even now, you just regard me as your student...

Why... why can't I become a higher existence..." Ye Fan's voice became choked.

There was a moment of silence, and the air suddenly became quiet. Song Mingchu sat up straight, and spoke after a while:

"Actually, I knew you liked me a long time ago, and I felt it from the very beginning."

Ye Fan was a little surprised, and looked at Song and Mingchu motionless. It turns out that I like you, and you have always known it.

"But I'm greedy for that kind of warmth, that kind of long-lost warmth. I insisted on convincing myself that you are just a teacher-student relationship with me, or a friendship, so I just let you continue to indulge in self-deception... until I saw the money in that wallet. pictures, I can no longer convince myself,

I know you really like me,

I also know that kind of relationship has nothing to do with teacher-student relationship or friendship.I can no longer accept your kindness to me against my conscience, so I pushed you away and ran away. "

Ye Fan listened quietly.

"Even if I can accept same-sex love, I still can't ignore our teacher-student relationship. I'm sorry, I really can't give you what you want...I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..." Song Mingchu frowned tightly , Endless sorrow and helplessness welled up in my heart.

Ye Fan suddenly raised his voice, with a touch of arrogance in his tone: "So what about teachers and students! And who stipulated that teachers and students cannot be together!"

"But this society is like this, China is like this, many things are not accepted by the world...you can go back to Canada and find a girlfriend...everyone will bless you there..." Song Mingchu's voice became weaker and weaker, she knew She said so, Ye Fan should be sad again...

"At the beginning of the Ming Dynasty, the main reason why you didn't accept me was not because of the same sex, or the teacher-student relationship, right?" Ye Fan ignored Song Mingchu's words and stared straight at Song Mingchu.

Song Mingchu pursed his lips and remained silent, thinking about the main reason why he did not accept Ye Fan in his mind.

"I remember when I went to your house for the first time, the wine on the wine shelf was covered with dust, so before the divorce, you were not a person who loves to drink, but now, you get drunk every now and then, and you always use alcohol to get drunk. Numb yourself, you always decisively reject those who pursue you, including me of course, the main reason why you reject us is because you no longer believe in love." Ye Fan said decisively.

Song Mingchu looked at Ye Fan's sharp eyes, as if he would be seen through by her in the next second.

"At the beginning of the Ming Dynasty, I don't know what you were like before I met you. Maybe you used to be a girl full of energy, maybe you used to have many girlfriends and friends, but the you I know are so indifferent to a terrible person , you keep pushing away those people who treat you well, there is no one close to you, even your friends and colleagues keep alienated, you live in your own world, you close yourself off, because of you Afraid to believe, you dare not trust anyone anymore." Ye Fan's eyes were mixed with distress.

Unexpectedly, the child who had just grown up in front of him could see through him so easily. Song Mingchu was silent for a while before slowly opening his mouth.

"Gu Xiaoran...he chased me for three years and fell in love for two years...but he changed after less than a year of marriage. This failed marriage really hit me hard...you are right, after the divorce I have indeed changed a lot, and my previous personality is completely two extremes...

I know very well that I have been completely disappointed in love, and I also know that I can't throw myself into a new relationship so quickly.

Because I really don't know what remains the same in this world, let alone believe in love. "

Song Mingchu shed two lines of tears while talking, and Ye Fan wiped them away for her distressedly.