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The Shen family is a big family that has stood in the capital at the foot of the emperor for many years. Although the patriarch of each generation is not an official with power over the government and the public, the descendants of the Shen family in each generation have steadily occupied an important mainstay in the officialdom. He has been in the position for hundreds of years, and he has separated his family to do business, and he has the right to have money.The Shen family of this generation didn't know what went wrong, they only had one son who could inherit the family, or the head of the family, Shen Yi, had a hard time getting a son in old age after marrying concubines that he couldn't count. One can imagine how precious the only young master is.The most important thing in the hands of those who protect the young master are the secret guards who have been hiding in the darkness all their lives.The secret guards who are always facing the danger of life and death have already written a suicide note in advance as a habit, and if they die one day, they can open it and let the special people arranged by the Shen family fulfill their last wishes for these loyal secret guards. A means of stabilizing the hearts of subordinates in a big family.

A secret guard who was in charge of protecting the young master of the Shen family was silently writing a suicide note at the moment, but the content inside was surprising.

"Although I have already promised to be the secret guard of the Shen family, I should do my duty, and the things I shouldn't say will always stay in my stomach. But some things have been accumulated in my heart for a long time, and I can't help but want to tell them. So Write it all down in your suicide note. Destroy it when you're done.

My name is Ye Luo. As long as I can remember, I have been an orphan without father and mother. I lived with a group of beggars on the streets. People were beaten to death, but it was only because Shen Shu, the young master of the Shen family, passed by that he was moved by compassion, and his life was saved.At that time, Master Shen Shu was not what he is now. He was just a lonely child because he was protected so well. his playmate.I've also heard about the Shen family. Because he is the only young master, he is carefully protected. He doesn't have the freedom to choose a playmate. Not everyone can be his playmate.Sure enough, within a few days, I was kicked out of the Shen family.When I left, I had no nostalgia for the short-lived luxury life these few days, the glory and wealth that would not belong to me, but I was a little worried that Shen Shu would lose friends again.Then I went on to go back to my old life, and later wandered around with those groups of beggars.

Later, I finally met my master who treated me with great kindness, Wang Nanshan, a hero who has been legendary in the world for a long time but has disappeared without a trace.I also have a stable senior brother and a gentle senior sister, and I have a home and family all of a sudden.The master said that my fundamental talent was the best he had ever seen in his life. He actually had some selfish intentions when he took me in. He hoped that I would help him fulfill an unfinished wish after I had learned something.I don't feel that I'm being used. I just practice martial arts hard and hope to help Master fulfill his wish as soon as possible.I don't know my exact birth date. I fulfilled Master's wish when I was about 19 years old. Not long after, Master drove west to Hexi, buried Master with my senior sisters and brothers, and agreed that I would start wandering around for a while after the reunion every four years. , it seems that unknowingly, because of some injustices in the road, he has become famous in the world, and he has been given strange names.

Afterwards, I came to the capital and met the only old friend in the capital——Shen Shu, the young master of the Shen family.Maybe it's because I still owe him a life-saving favor, maybe it's because he's changed too much from before, maybe because I have nothing to do, I followed him secretly, and there's a strange thing, the number of hidden guards around Shen Shu seems to be too large. less.The subsequent assassination proved that the number of hidden guards was indeed insufficient. I rescued them at a critical moment, and it happened to repay the kindness of saving lives in the past.I thought, "Flick off the clothes and hide the merits and fame", but it happened that someone used my favorite osmanthus cake and bamboo leaf green wine, as well as the martial arts cheats or magical weapons in the treasure house of the Shen family. retain.I wondered whether Shen Shu had investigated how he was able to match what he liked so much. After I reluctantly refused, Shen Shu proposed to ask me to do something as an exchange condition for these gifts.What he asked me to help was a major event related to his life, and it was also the reason why so few dark guards were in danger of life.

As the only heir of the Shen family, he was born rich and well-clothed, and has the wealth and status that ordinary people look up to for a lifetime, but there is almost no freedom at all in his life. "Mother" is determined within the family.The same is true in life now. The object of engagement, the trajectory of development, the position after entering the dynasty, and daily activities, large and small, are completely like family puppets. This is the meaning of being born as the heir of the Shen family.The hidden guards who followed him were also full of insiders arranged by the elders of the family.At that time, Shen Shu said with such a lonely expression on his face that always had a gentle smile, "It makes people wonder what the meaning of living like this is, it's too reconciled."I have been planning secretly all this time, waiting for the day when my wings are fully fledged and I can officially ascend to the position of Patriarch and be able to make a little decision on my own life.For this I need the help of people like you.And also, I can't like the young lady of the Su family who is engaged to me. The melon that is twisted is not sweet, because the family arrangement to marry her will only prevent me and her from being happy.But if I put aside my family influence, I am just a weak scholar, and I really have no way to make such a bad move to ask for the help of Brother Ye, who is a master of martial arts. . . . . . '

In order not to regret my conscience, I agreed.After many discussions with Shen Shu, in order to avoid the Shen family's eyes and ears, I sneaked into the secret guard of the young master of the Shen family under my name. . . . . . "

The only young master of the Shen family's exclusive dark guard has undergone major changes recently. I don't know where the young master recruited a young man who is good-looking at a young age and extremely skilled, and he is also trusted by the young master. Unlike ordinary people, who always feel that Jinlin is not a thing in the pool, Lao Ning, the former leader of the dark guards, voluntarily gave up his position as leader.In the eyes of Lao Ning, the former leader who is almost forty, the new kid is a very withdrawn person, and he is also an extremely serious person. His daily life is simple and monotonous, and he is only interested in things he really likes. Since he came Afterwards, the hidden guards were affected and became more diligent in practicing martial arts.Because of that unfriendly temperament, none of the other hidden guards knew the origin of his name and identity, so they could only respectfully call him the leader.Lao Ning, an old man who was trusted by Young Master Shen, had heard the Young Master call him "Luo".

Shen Shu handed over the backup of the Shen family's treasure house to Ye Luo a long time ago, and said: "I really don't know how to repay you, it's just a bit of vulgarity, take a look when you have time, take whatever you like, as long as you don't buy it If you act too big, let those troublesome people find out, and you can tell me what you want. I also prepared the wine and pastries you like today."

In Ye Luo's feelings, there is a world of difference between Shen Shu, who has a cute baby face, always with a perfect smile and smooth dealings among all kinds of people, and the self-willed and withdrawn child who made people feel distressed in the past memory. .Sometimes he also wonders if there is a mistake in the memory of the past.He couldn't help but pay more attention to Shen Shu. After a long time, Shen Shu seemed to be more dependent on him, and he would show a different childishness in front of him than usual.Ye Luo felt that Shen Shu, the noble son of the Shen family who had won all the admiration in the eyes of others, was not as likable as the less outstanding Shen Shu who was beside her.The well-known young master of the Shen family in the capital seemed to be wearing a mask to perform. I really don't know why people in the capital would like such a strange feeling, but the Shen Shu by my side was more like a pure Shen Shu.A bit like a cute younger brother, he always loves to follow him, remembers his preferences, keeps good things for himself, relies on himself, and has a feeling of wanting to be protected and pampered.Ye Luo, who only had senior brothers and sisters, suddenly thought that it would be nice to have a handsome younger brother like Shen Shu.And I don't know why I always feel that there is something strange about Shen Shu that will accidentally poke the soft place in Ye Luo's heart.

Most people may not be able to tell, but Lao Ning is an old man who has been growing up with the young master since he was a child, and he always feels that the young master's attitude towards Luo is unusual.I used to think that the young master has a bad temper, but he likes to pretend to be gentle and likable in front of others, but the young master seems to work harder to attract Luo's likes. It can be said that what kind of Luo likes, the young master tries hard to pretend to be how is it like.It seems that the young master really wants to win over this young man - Lao Ningru commented in his heart.

After following Shen Shu for a few months, Ye Luo became more and more used to taking care of Shen Shu unknowingly, and spared no effort to help Shen Shu. He hides his identity well, and spontaneously lives the same life as an ordinary guard in front of outsiders.I don't know when I will always feel happy when I come back after finishing the task specially assigned by Shen Shu, and I will be happy to see the warm smile of Shen Shu who has been waiting for me.The memory of opening an umbrella for Shen Shu on a rare snowy day is a bit deep. The red paper umbrella with a beautiful night and snow scene, I don’t know why I always feel full of heart and very warm.

Half a year has passed, and Ye Luo has been watching Shen Shu's efforts from the side, seeing how he has grown from a helpless young man who begged for his help to full-fledged step by step, and talents are constantly gathering around him. officially entered the officialdom.Entering the court and being an official mixed in the officialdom relied on his family background, the emperor's love and reuse, and his talent in governance. Shen Shu had all three, but none of them was too strong. Maybe it was too difficult to mix, but it was definitely not bad .In Shen Shu's heart, this is what Shen Shu wants. The water in the officialdom is too deep, and being a good official who is dedicated to the country and the people is too tiring, and the power is not high. Lots of other important things to do in shallow water.

After staying in the capital for so long, I have watched too many complicated and twisted relationships between people, too many things that I don’t know are right or wrong, good or bad, and Ye Luo has become better than that young knight-errant It is more open-minded and more thoughtful, calm and smooth.

Time passed like this for another half a year, because Shen Shu became more and more busy, Ye Luo felt that Shen Shu and herself seemed to be getting farther and farther away, and Shen Shu seemed to be less and less attached to him than before.In the past, the two of them would occasionally sneak out to play in the middle of the night. In the past, if he had to do a dangerous mission that required a long trip, Shen Shu would always act as if he was specially waiting for him to come back. Clean and pure, with a sweet smile.But even so, Ye Luo had nothing to complain about. Shen Shu was really busy, so there was nothing he could do about it.For various tasks, I still do my best to perform them.But just feel a little lonely.

Ye Luo suddenly felt that she might have regarded Shen Shu as an important person in her heart?Ask yourself maybe it is.I really like this young man who makes people feel warm like a younger brother.

In fact, Shen Shu has been silently observing Ye Luo's reaction. The indifference on the surface is actually a subtle and careful test of Ye Luo's position and bottom line in Ye Luo's heart. Trying to push back the bottom line of his tolerance for himself, Ye Luo almost tolerated Shen Shu to get along with him.This made Shen Shu experience unprecedented joy and satisfaction.

It's a pity that Ye Luo worked hard for so long but still failed to stop the political marriage between the Shen family and the Su family - the wedding of Master Shen Shu and Miss Su Qin.

The wedding day was chosen after the Spring Festival, and the weather was still a bit cold in the early spring. On the night before the wedding, Shen Shu seemed very open, and calmly comforted Ye Luo, who was a little depressed about it.Seeing that overly calm face, Ye Luo felt angry, and asked him, "Have you met Miss Su before? You really don't like her?"

Shen Shu: "Well, I have exchanged letters and met at some banquets. Su Qin is not annoying, but I can't like it."

Ye Luo frowned and then asked, "Don't you feel unwilling about the important matter of marriage?"

Shen Shu: "...Actually, this kind of thing happens a lot, I'm used to it long ago. And I've already calculated that this will happen, and we won't be able to make it in time with our strength."

Ye Luo remained silent, expressing how upset she was with the hand that clenched the sword.

Shen Shu continued to enlighten him: "Marriage with the Su family is also good for me. I have discussed it with the Su family in advance. If I get married today, I will get the support of the Su family tomorrow. The day after tomorrow, I will be able to become the patriarch, and I will be able to make a fortune." The ax has cleaned up the power."

Ye Luo thought for a long time that there was no response from the client, why was she so angry, and after thinking for a while, she suddenly asked, "Did you pretend to be pitiful when you first met me?"

Shen Shu said aggrievedly: "...Not exactly."

Ye Luo thought to herself that she must always pretend to be obedient and pitiful, no wonder it was so different from when she was a child, and she remained silent for a long time and asked unwillingly, "Is there really no way around this matter?"

"Yes, there is no way." With Shen Shu's answer in a low voice, Ye Luo turned and left the wing.

Ye Luo felt that she was in a very bad mood right now, and she just wanted to leave here to enjoy the strong wind on the top of a deserted restaurant in the west of the city, and drink while looking at the empty sky.When I really got to the top of the building, I looked at the sky but was a little confused.Some people want to find someone to talk about their feelings and calm their minds, but the empty sky can't pay attention to him, only the slightly cold wind can soothe their hearts.After thinking about it for a long time, it seems that I have thought a lot and it seems that I have not thought of anything.

I also recalled the time when I was wandering in the rivers and lakes in the past, "like leaves follow the wind, black shadows are erratic, and the grievances are finally settled." This is the evaluation given to him by the rivers and lakes. Recalling the aimless years, there is a feeling of distant nostalgia .

Even though Shen Shu gradually ceased to be gentle and lovely towards Ye Luo later on, the feeling of inadvertently poking the softness in his heart still strangely did not disappear. Still can't really hate him and hate him.Also because of this, his whole life was planted on him, and he really embarked on a terrifying road of no return.