The person I have a crush on always hates me

After Dabai and Meng Jiaojiao went out, Su Yang folded his hands on his chest, looked at Xi Yan and said, "Why should I deal with you? Li Dazhi, I find you acting strange recently."

Xi Yan laughed: "Why am I so weird?"

"Don't you feel that your personality has changed? We used to be at odds with life and death, but now? You can bear me? Say, what is your purpose?" Su Yang didn't know when Li Dazhi didn't look for him. He stabbed.

"For what purpose?" Xi Yan turned his head and stared at him with a gentle smile, "Because you are good-looking."

Su Yang froze, frowned, grabbed the pillow and threw it over: "Get lost!"

"Hehe..." Xi Yan laughed softly and stood up from the bed, "I'm going to take a shower."

Does this sound awkward?Su Yang thought of a question, sleeping with Li Dazhi under the covers, isn't it the same as sleeping with the opposite sex?He grew up so big that he only slept with Fanfan in the same bed, but he was a good brother, so he didn't feel it.

Li Dazhi...is a man...ahh!It's like he's not a man.

Sleep and sleep, who is afraid of whom!

Kind of exciting.

Xi Yan in the bathroom took two sharp breaths, trying to calm down, but in the end he was choked by the mist in the bathroom: "Ahem, cough... ah, it's so exciting."

He looked at himself in the mirror and smiled involuntarily.

Su Yang, it's been seven years, I've secretly liked you for seven years.

Yang, after suffering for so long, it was really hard for me to sleep in the same room and the same bed with you.Please, the person who will guard you to the end must be me.

Xi Yan lowered his head to look at a scar on his thigh. It was a long and very obvious scar. It was when Su Yang whipped him with a tree stick when he was in junior high school. At that time, he really hated this person.

He wanted to put on a bathrobe, but in the end he just put on a bath towel and went out. The moment he saw Su Yang, his heart began to lose control, and he jumped up thumping. Fortunately, his paralyzed face was his mask.

Su Yang was leaning on the bay window eating strawberries and exchanging information with Xu Fan.He looked up at Li Dazhi, the man was wiping his hair, his bare upper body muscles were more clearly visible under the light, his body was strong and tough.

Broad shoulders, narrow waist, strong abdomen, a very attractive male body with great power.

Su Yang suddenly felt that the strawberries in his mouth were no longer fragrant, and met Xi Yan's gaze. There was a trace of flame beating deep in those black pupils, which made Su Yang feel embarrassed.

He went to call Xu Fan back, took a bite of the strawberry, and his mind drifted away.Oh my god, this is a man's body, it's so different from his body, no wonder people in the same-sex circle are divided into males and females, who doesn't love a strong body.

He is already 24, and he doesn't even have any fleshy desires, why should he be so miserable.

Su Yang's heart was disturbed, he raised his head again, and hooked his fingers at Li Dazhi: "Li Dazhi, come here."

"What are you doing?" Xi Yan was somewhat afraid of Su Yang.

"Let you come here." Su Yang emphasized his tone, Xi Yan passed nervously, and stood upright in front of him.

Su Yang was sitting, his eyes were on Xi Yan's waist, he stretched out his hand to touch Li Dazhi's muscle, it was firm, but not hard, and it felt great.Li Dazhi's hands hanging on both sides slowly clenched into fists.

"What are you doing? You want to hit me?" Su Yang raised his eyes to look at his chin, "I'll just touch you."

"Why are you touching me?" Li Dazhi asked stupidly, his head already congested with blood.

"Touch if you want." Su Yang also felt that he was absurd, and stood up to leave, but Xi Yan surrounded him like a wall, "Get out of the way."

"Touch it if you say it, and don't touch it if you say you don't. No, you can touch it for me." Xi Yan grabbed Su Yang's hand and placed it on his chest, and the strong heartbeat spread to Su Yang's palm.

Su Yang was amused: "Li Dazhi, are you sick?"

"I'm not sick."

Su Yang tapped his skin twice with his fingers, and patted his arms a few more times: "It's well maintained."

Xi Yan's whole body gradually became hot, and Su Yang could feel the temperature. He was a little awkward for a while, as if he had gone too far.

"Go away, I'm going to the bathroom." Su Yang pushed Li Dazhi away and walked towards the bathroom, leaving Xi Yan alone there with a fever.

Damn it!Nothing to touch him for!

Su Yang entered the bathroom calmly, and the moment he closed the door, his legs went limp, and his heart was pounding.Do you want to be so exciting!I actually had the idea of ​​touching someone else, and I was still the flesh of my deadly enemy.

Oh My God!It seems that I have been holding back for too long to have such an evil idea.What will Li Dazhi think of me?You must have imagined me very lewdly.

ah!sky!I touched the man's chest.

Suddenly, he remembered that he had touched Li Dazhi's... Mao before.

Su Yang regretted wanting to hammer himself to death, and frantically scratched his hair in the bathroom: "Ahhh! I can't stand the excitement. Strange, I always hate touching other people, how could I still like Li Dazhi's flesh."

When he went out again, he had changed into his usual arrogance: "I don't plan to sleep with you tonight, I can't sleep with strangers."

Xi Yan was a little disappointed, but still smiled: "Am I a stranger?"

"You care!" Su Yang sat on the sofa, feeling uneasy and thinking of black Xiyan, so he logged on to the trumpet to black him in the comment area.Maybe he was too tired today, he was dark for a while, and his head began to droop.

Su Yang stared at him under the covers, about 10 minutes later, Su Yang threw himself on the sofa and fell asleep.He lifted the quilt and walked over, pulled Su Yang down, saw that he was not moving, and hugged him horizontally.

Su Yang woke up suddenly: "What are you doing?"

"Hold you to sleep." Xi Yan said with a paralyzed face.

"I don't need it." Su Yang struggled to get off the ground, but was thrown onto the soft big bed by Xi Yan, and wrapped the quilt around him.

"Do you know how cold it is here at night! How can you work for me if you catch a cold." Xi Yan reprimanded, "Always so capricious!"

Su Yang glanced at his mouth unhappily, wrapped up the quilt and went to sleep.Li Dazhi turned off the light, lifted the quilt and went in.The quilt was suddenly split in half, this strange feeling made Su Yang unable to sleep.

"Li Dazhi, I have a question for you."

"Say."

"In the year of the senior high school entrance examination, you were clearly admitted to a key high school, and it was still funded by public funds. Then why did you go to Pugao? I'm in the same grade as me." This is something Su Yang has always wondered about.

There was no answer for a long time, and after about a minute, he said, "I said it was because of you, do you believe it?"

Su Yang was startled: "Because of me?"

"Because I suddenly want to know you." Xi Yan turned over and his eyes fell on Su Yang's side face, "I actually regret it a bit. I regret that I beat you too hard before junior high school. Su Yang, I didn't know that at that time." It should be said that you have no heart, no emotion, and even the blood is cold, I feel that I am wrong, I saw you too superficially before junior high school."

The heavy snow outside the window lit up the night sky and Su Yang's face.Su Yang turned his head. In the darkness, he couldn't see Xi Yan's face clearly, but he could feel that he was looking at him.

"Su Yang, can we talk about getting along? Get along like friends, okay?"

His voice was extraordinarily gentle, and Su Yang's pupils trembled slightly: "Maybe you will not feel comfortable listening to this question, but I hope you will tell the truth. You want to make peace with me because you are sincere, and you still need my strength." backing?"

"I don't need any backing. I can earn as much as I can with my hard work. You are not wrong to think this way, after all we have fought for so many years. But Su Yang, is I really that dirty in your heart? You also Look down on me like Fang Yicheng? Am I really that unworthy of your high regard?" Xi Yan's words were slightly sad, and his voice trembled slightly.

Su Yang felt very uncomfortable, and frowned: "Li Dazhi, do you know what your biggest problem is? It's not that others look down on you, but you look down on yourself. It's you who put this hat on yourself. You are inferior."

"Fang Yicheng said to you, why did you show that expression that he was right? You didn't contradict him directly, but from the side. Because of your low self-esteem, you think what he said is right. But is he right? ? You succeeded, you are not the former Li Dazhi. You are Xi Yan."

He suddenly thought of some things in junior high school, and the more he talked, the more excited he became: "Also, I never meant to look down on you. From elementary school to junior high school, and then to high school, I didn't have a single bit of it. But why!... You always Looking at the surface of the matter, do you know me a little more? Why do you say that I have cold blood? You know that because of your words, I have repeatedly denied my character, and I even think what you said is true. It makes sense to think that I am really inhuman.”

Su Yang's eye circles gradually turned red, and his lips pursed lightly: "Later, I found out that you were the one who was wrong. I'm very arrogant, but I'm not cold-blooded, I have feelings."

He turned around and turned his back to Xi Yan: "You don't know me at all, I don't want to make peace with you. Remember that year in junior high school? You said that the relationship between us will never ease."

Xi Yan's heart instantly turned cold, so what else can I say?Su Yang has already said it so clearly, Su Yang is angry, he really did not expect those words back then to have such a big impact on Su Yang.

Compared with here, Xu Fan was much calmer. He thought about a series of romantic things, but Su Wenfeng opened two rooms and didn't even let him in. After dinner, they went back to their rooms.

He was very melancholy and uncomfortable, so he sent Su Yang a WeChat message: [Yang, why is it so difficult for you to like someone. ]

Su Yang clicked on WeChat in bed and replied: [What's wrong? ]

[It's okay, I just miss you. ]

[Fanfan, I'm in a bad mood right now, Li Dazhi wants to talk to me, but I don't know why I feel wronged, I want to cry, I fucking want to cry. ]

After returning, Su Yang went to the bathroom, sat on the toilet and shed tears involuntarily, and turned on the faucet, letting the water flow.

Why?If you say no to easing, you won’t ease, if you say to ease, you will ease, why should I listen to you?Stinky Li Dazhi, what are you?Why do you handle my heart so casually... Who are you?

[Yang, do you know why you feel wronged?Over the years, how many times have you helped Li Dazhi, are you trying to prove that you are not the kind of person he said?Not all, is it?You care what he thinks you know? ]

[I don't. ] Su Yang turned his neck sideways and returned decisively.

[How many years have we been, who do you think you cared about so much?There's something you never told me, but I've heard it from others.Li Dazhi couldn't pay the tuition fees in the first year of college, and Grandma Wu borrowed money everywhere. At that time, the school gave a bonus, which was said to be poverty funds, and thereafter every year. Don't tell me you didn't secretly sponsor it. ]

Su Yang, who has always been strong and domineering, shed tears faster and wiped them away with his hands.

The mobile phone came to WeChat again: [Yang, why?You feel aggrieved because you feel that after you have done so much, Li Dazhi finally responded, he was willing to talk about it, and his tenderness touched the softest part of your heart.He must have said that he shouldn't have called you cold-blooded when he was in junior high school. ]

Xu Fan posted again: "Otherwise you wouldn't be like this, and those words make you feel uncomfortable every time you mention them."Are you crying?I can't stand it anymore. ]

[Yang, when you care too much about someone, that kind of concern will change. You need to understand why you care so much about Li Dazhi?You really don't like him?Say I am confused, you are more confused than me. ]

[Aren't you always very decisive?The other party, Yicheng, including any man, would always be in a hurry when he got to Li Dazhi.Um?Don't cry, I can stand anyone crying, but you and I can't stand it.How many times?Cry for the fifth time at such a big age, it's not worth it. ]

No one knew Su Yang better than Xu Fan. Without sending the video, he could tell that Su Yang was crying, and that he must be secretly hiding in the bathroom with the faucet turned on.

In front of others, he is always so strong, domineering, foolish, as if he has no feelings, but he is the one who is the softest and softest.

[I'm fine, I'll be home in a while, I won't wait for the plane. ]

[be safe. ] Xu Fan has also cried.

Xi Yan lingered at the door of the bathroom for a long time but didn't dare to go in. Hearing that there was no sound of water flowing inside, he ran back to the bed and pretended to be asleep.Su Yang came out and took a look at him, put on a big padded jacket and went out.

Xi Yan was worried about him, so he hurriedly followed him. After leaving the hotel, he caught up with the taxi until he arrived at the train station, where he saw him get on the train back to Beicheng.What he didn't know was that when Su Yang was checking the ticket, he saw the shadow behind him on the glass, but he didn't look back.

He suddenly remembered what Li Dazhi once said to him - please, disappear from my eyes and never appear again.

The author has something to say: Su Yang pulled out a tree stick and said, "Li Dazhi, you lied to my tears, cry for me."

"Yang, can I laugh and cry?"

"roll!"