nostalgia

Zhong Jinxi patted his head with the urge to die. Fortunately, he got up early today. Looking at Lin Xu sleeping on the sofa, he fled the hotel as if fleeing.

Memories came back in pieces, and Zhong Jinxi couldn't help but roll his eyes.Didn't you remember everything when you were drunk before? Why was yesterday so special?

······It seems that he has memories from the first kiss to Lin Xu, and it seems that he was really frightened.

Then the series of anomalies that followed were caused by being unconscious and acting out of control, or by drinking and going crazy?I can't seem to figure it out myself.

It's really... Zhong Jinxi wanted to punch herself a few times, but she provoked someone like Lin Xu—let's say they are of the same kind, it's really embarrassing, I don't know if it will hinder getting along in the future ·····

After thinking about it, he raised his head and saw Li Suran, fortunately, he was alone.

Zhong Jinxi stopped there not knowing what to do, but Li Suran happily ran over and handed a book to Zhong Jinxi: "Here, is it this one?"

"Huh? Oh, that's right, it's this one."

"What's the matter, are you in a bad mood today?"

"Awesome, I... want to verify something with you." Zhong Jinxi hesitated.

"You said."

Zhong Jinxi nodded thoughtfully, thinking about how to ask him, "That is, do you recently... think us..." His eyes also hinted by the way.

"Huh?" It's a pity that Li Suran didn't seem to understand.

"That's right, between us..." Still didn't know how to speak, suddenly felt a little annoyed, shook his hands and said, "It's okay, I'm leaving first."

"Hey——" grabbed Zhong Jinxi's hand and walked around in front of him, looking at him fixedly: "You have something on your mind."

The tone is firm.

"No."

"You have." Then he raised his arms to hug Zhong Jinxi, and whispered in his ear: "Did something happen?"

Zhong Jinxi hugged Li Suran back, absorbing the unique smell of laundry detergent on his body, this feeling is really good, I don't want too much pressure, I just want you to stay by my side all the time.This time, it's okay if we're all doing something wrong.

"No. Seriously, I just want to say that we must be honest with each other in the future, and we must speak out when we are unhappy. Even if we are not together in the future, at least we will be happy when we think about it in the future."

Li Suran patted Zhong Jinxi on the back of the head, pretending to be vicious and said: "What do you mean we will not be together in the future? What do you want to do?" Then he hugged him tightly, leaned into his ear and said softly: "I am I came out because of you, and you have to be responsible."

So easily, he raised the corners of his mouth and smiled silly.God, look, I'm not that greedy, as long as there are more than 70 billion people in the world, I only need him to love me.

"me too!"

"I'm responsible, otherwise how would you want me to be responsible?" Li Suran looked at Zhong Jinxi ruffiantly.

"It's not serious." He said so, but he couldn't help but hug Li Suran even tighter.

Then let's forgive each other, maybe you have your considerations, maybe there is some misunderstanding in it.I don't want to ask, and you don't want to answer, let's continue like this, there will be no next time, okay?

Days are finally back to normal.Zhong Jinxi and Li Suran get bored together when they have nothing to do, Lin Xu rolls his eyes extremely frequently at this time, and then turns his head to complain to himself that they abandoned themselves as a lonely family, but it is such a coincidence that 60% of them will be in this situation I met Shen Yao on a certain road in the school, so at first the corner of my mouth twitched and I reluctantly greeted Shen Yao, but later I was so lonely that whenever I saw Shen Yao, I would invite him to drink afternoon tea.

Shen Yao felt that meeting Lin Xu this time was an opportunity given to him by heaven—of course it was not a chance to reunite, he had never thought of this before—but an opportunity to understand the essence.

Some people, you like him and want him to stay by your side, so you desperately bind each other with a couple relationship, and then you gradually find that it is not suitable, you don't like it, and then the love comes to an end.

Shen Yao and Lin Xu were like this.This encounter made them get along in a strange and embarrassing way, and slowly gave up the shackles of being a couple before, and began to approach as friends.However, it was such an opportunity that made them discover that being friends with each other is actually the best relationship.

On the other hand, Zhong Jinxi and Li Suran got tired of it, but when Li Suran mentioned Yi Yan occasionally, Zhong Jinxi still felt uncomfortable. He didn't want to be suspicious and disbelieve him, so the only way is to make those conditions possible Impossible, or at least unlikely.

So during a certain campus walk, Zhong Jinxi was chatting with Li Suran about innocuous words, while thinking about how to speak about Yi Yan.

"Hey, awe-inspiring." Suddenly, Zhong Jinxi stopped and stood face to face with Li Suran, which stunned Li Suran, "Awe-inspiring, I have something to say."

"You said."

"I want to say, um..."

Li Suran smiled, and stretched out his hand to stroke Zhong Jinxi's soft hair, "What are you still hesitating about? I remember you said before that you should also say what you are unhappy with. Tell me, do you have any dissatisfaction with me?"

"No, no, no," Zhong Jinxi waved his hands repeatedly, "Actually... Li Suran, I'm a little uneasy."

Ever since they got together, Zhong Jinxi seldom called him by his first and last name like this. Such a change made Li Suran unavoidably serious, "What's wrong?"

"I have always felt that I am a selfish person. I don't like others to touch my own things. To put it bluntly, it is to defend autonomy. To put it bluntly, it is selfish."

Li Suran stepped forward and hugged Zhong Jinxi, and said as if to enlighten him: "What's wrong today? Why do you say that about yourself?"

"I hope that my things belong to me completely. I am selfish and domineering. I just don't want others to occupy my space. Do you understand?" Zhong Jinxi rested his head on Li Suran's shoulder. He likes such a height ratio, and every time such a hug makes him feel that even if the sky falls, there is someone who can bear it together.Li Suran nodded thoughtfully, but Zhong Jinxi still felt that he didn't understand. In terms of love, Li Suran is not smart, not good at expressing and not being romantic, and needs to be seduced.

"I'm actually jealous."

"Jealous? You?" Li Suran actually wanted to laugh, but when he caught a glimpse of Zhong Jinxi's slightly aggrieved face, he stopped smiling and showed a serious face.

"Well, I envy Yi Yan. During this period of time, you often go back to your home outside of school. I envy that you can get along at home and clean together, cook and wash dishes together...I'm jealous."

"Fool, I spend too much time with you than him, why are you jealous of him?"

"So I'm a selfish ghost..." Zhong Jinxi lowered his head.

Li Suran hugged Zhong Jinxi even tighter, "Okay, don't talk about yourself like that anymore. I just like selfish ghosts."

"I'm not joking." Zhong Jinxi gently let go of Li Suran, looked directly at him, then sighed and said, "I'm afraid. I'm afraid that he will get too close to you."

"You mean, do you want him to move out?"

Finally he was enlightened, but Zhong Jinxi was startled by Li Suran's reaction for a moment, because in Li Suran's eyes, he saw a trace of... resistance.

At this time, Zhong Jinxi is helpless, and he also very much disagrees with himself that he is not free and easy, which is not like himself at all, but what to do, since he fell in love with this person named Li Suran, everything has become helpless You control yourself, you don't even know yourself like this.As a man, he also knew that he didn't like the feeling of interference, but from the perspective of a lover, he became sensitive.

He needs support and an encouraging look from the other party, so that he feels that he has done nothing wrong, but there is nothing.

Zhong Jinxi's silence is equivalent to acquiescing.The atmosphere remained frozen like this, as if he had been thinking for a long time before opening his mouth. Li Suran said, "I remember what I told you, Yi Yan's family members are not in City A, and his brother has also gone abroad. He is the only one in this city." A person, he may be the only one he can trust, do you want me to drive him out?"

"That's not what I mean. I know there is a rented house that is very cheap and is very close to the school. We can..."

Li Suran interrupted him: "But what will Yi Yan think? He will think that I let him move out because I can't tolerate him."

"We can talk to him well, I..."

"Zhong Jinxi. You make me feel that you are making trouble for no reason." Li Suran frowned and looked aside.

"I'm making trouble for no reason? I'm just telling the unhappiness in my heart. Who promised to tell me everything before? I'm your lover, don't I even have the right to make small demands?" Zhong Jinxi didn't want to quarrel, but When I was in a hurry, my voice rose several degrees.

"I just don't think people can be so selfish. Yi Yan really doesn't have any friends. I don't want to say that to him. He will be very sad."

"Then have you considered whether I will be sad. Li Suran, sometimes I really think you are cruel, why do you always put my feelings on the last one, your classmate and yours Friends, your teachers can be ranked in front of me, are you sure that I will always stand there and never leave, so you ignore me. You are very good to the friends around you, yes, I admit that there is nothing wrong with it Yes, but that’s exactly how it is. People who really treat you well don’t feel that you are unique to them. Do you know that they will be sad. Yes, I’m selfish. I’ve said it before, so I don’t need you to remind me again Already." Zhong Jinxi smiled wryly, the sour words made Li Suran in a dilemma.

They were silent, and finally Zhong Jinxi said: "Forget it, let's stop talking."