Tides: Years of Dawn

Three days later, on the weekend, Crewe visited the home of the sea monster.

This was the first time he came back to the sea monster's house since the time he cried bitterly by Gawain's side.

Gawain hadn't returned from the church at that time, and the family servants and Lemarlock asked him to wait.

Lemarlock spoke more and more fluently, and he also knew how to tidy up the scales on his body, so that others felt that he was just a little boy with a strange appearance, and could not see the appearance of the sea people.

His hair was cut short, and he sat obediently beside Crewe.

Crewe touched his head with tentacles, he shook his head from time to time, looked up at Crewe, and then lowered his head and pulled his fingers.

It seemed that Lemarlock also felt that Crewe was preoccupied and couldn't hold back, and asked Crewe questions from time to time.

He said, "Crewe, can you take me to eat kelp?"

Crewe looked down at him and laughed, I can make you kelp here.

He nodded thoughtfully, thought for a while, and said, "Crewe, have you cleaned up your house?"

Crewe pondered for a moment, then sighed softly. He said that he had done a general cleaning and that he would be able to invite Lemarlock as a guest in a while.

Lemarlock scratched Mao Mao's little head, shook his head, and asked again, "Then...Crewe, will you be with my brother?"

Crewe was stumped by the question, but he didn't know it either.He came here to solve this problem, and he had to talk directly to Gao Wen.

Gao Wen returned home after the setting sun swept across the sea, and he was with Hua De.Ward said that if there was no rush, dinner would be served first.No matter what you have to eat and drink, you have the strength to solve the problem.

Crewe didn't dare to look directly into Hua De's eyes, he always felt that Hua De had seen through his intentions.He didn't refuse, and sat beside Gao Wen quietly eating the small dried shrimps and clams on the plate.

After dinner, Ward served wine again and asked them to drink a few more glasses.Hua De said, "Drinking sea urchin wine will give you courage, so Pei Di always has courage, and has courage to face everyone."

When Pei Di was mentioned, Crewe and Gao Wen were stunned at the same time.They all thought of Rael at the same time, but with completely opposite feelings.

But when he said this, Crewe confirmed his thoughts even more.Hua De didn't hide his gaze, staring at Crewe.It wasn't until Crewe's tentacles trembled a little that Hua De raised his glass and drank the wine in the glass.

But Gawain still didn't know anything.

Kruby drank more than usual, and after nine o'clock in the evening, Hua De returned to his bedroom.The servant asked him why he rested so early tonight, but he just waved his hand and said—"I won't interfere if the children want to talk about things."

Yes, Crewe and Gawain will use the study.Just at the beginning, Crewe just followed Gawain to his personal small hall.

Gao Wen was very surprised by Crewe's visit, and he had a thousand words in his heart that he wanted to say to Crewe.

It's a pity that since the last terrible encounter, Kroove has been more determined to cut off contact with him than before.They neither replied to his letters, nor refused him to visit Haicheng school or Octopus's house.

Gawain thought more than once that perhaps Crewe no longer wanted to be his assistant, but he just didn't know how to speak up, and what time to choose to make it clear.

But Gawain was reluctant.Even though those things happened to Crewe and left him covered with unclean marks, he still wanted Crewe.

Crewe's gradually emitting light made it impossible for him to ignore him, and now Crewe was standing in front of him.Calm and beautiful, even a brown robe couldn't cover his taller and taller figure.

It's just that Crewe's eyes are very strange and cold, and his attitude towards Gao Wen is as if he is facing a passerby who has only met him once.

Crewe closed and locked the door on his own, and then closed all the windows and curtains.Then he lowered his head, stood in front of Gao Wen, and asked straight to the point—"Are you still going to appoint me as an assistant?"

Gao Wen was taken aback for a moment, then nodded with a smile.However, he suddenly realized that Crewe couldn't see his nod, so he took a few steps closer, trying to cup Crewe's chin with his fingers.

But Crewe didn't allow Gawain to do this. He immediately wrapped Gawain's wrist with his tentacles and pulled it away, and reiterated his question again—"Can you answer me first, you—are you still going to appoint me as an assistant?"

"Yes." Gawain looked at the wrapped wrist, and said firmly.This is an oath he made several years ago, and it is also an idea he has never wavered from.

Although he vaguely guessed what happened to Crewe, but Crewe was a victim and a forced member, and he could ignore all of this.As long as he and Crewe never mention it in front of outsiders, there will be no family rules.

But Crewe thinks otherwise.

He stepped back a bit, paused, and said—"According to the family rules of the sea monster family, anyone who has been polluted before the first night must be whipped twenty times to redeem his uncleanness. I remember correctly, right?"

Gao Wen's chest choked.

Of course Gao Wen was clear about his family's rules, but he didn't understand what Crewe meant.

Gao Wen gritted his teeth, and said frankly, "You remember correctly, but you were forced. It's not your fault. The family rules naturally have their place to be improved. I think in this respect—"

"But that's how it is now, isn't it?" Now that Crewe raised his head, he looked into Gawain's eyes, and his tone was still firm, "Then tell me, is it because you sympathize with me that you continue to appoint me as an assistant?" , Is it because of a sense of responsibility, a desire to protect, and the justice you want to do?"

As soon as these words came out, Gao Wen was dumbfounded.

He didn't expect that Crewe would ask him that, nor did he expect that the most embarrassing point between each other would be exposed without warning.

He admitted that at the beginning, especially in the first year or two, when he and Crewe were not very familiar, he really thought so.He has never been in love, but because this method can save the innocent Crewe from fire and water, he is willing to pay and sacrifice.

But the next two years were different.

He couldn't tell when it started, and he couldn't figure out whether the feeling changed because of Crewe's appearance, personality or ability.All he knew was that he felt more and more that Crewe should belong to him, and instead he was starting to fear—what if Crewe backed out.

Although he has never tasted the taste of love, he understands that worrying about gains and losses must be the result of being emotional.

It would be too frivolous and casual for him to say that he loves Crewe now.But if it is said that they are still together based on a pure sense of justice, Gao Wen can be sure - "No, it is not."

"What's that?" Crewe pressed on.

Gao Wen opened his mouth, but couldn't speak.

It made him, as he put it, like forcing an innocent boy to describe his most secret, primal desires.

Gao Wen has desires, he is a 22-year-old youth.Whether it is physical function or psychological growth, he will inevitably have some throbbing about sex.That desire is mixed in every bit of contact between him and Crewe, it is difficult to capture accurately, but it has nowhere to hide.

Gawain would not say that when he first tested Crewe's feelings and told him the content of his mother's reply, the moment Crewe's cheeks turned red was very beautiful.Nor would it be said that when he accidentally touched Crewe's tentacle, Crewe's little twitch would tug at his heartstrings.

Not to mention the momentary urge to kiss, hug tighter, and become one with the other when he saw Crewe naked and crying tremblingly in his arms .

He won't say these things, it's too difficult to say.Because when Crewe met him, he was always vulnerable, wounded, and in need of protection, and he would consider himself guilty if he admitted that he had ever ignited the bestiality in him at those times.

But he still longed.Just as he longed to lift Crewe's chin earlier, he longed to have Crewe close to him naturally, just as Rael pressed against him for a moment in the dark.

He and Leil kissed in the dark, feeling more surprised and puzzled.But as long as he thought of the beautiful little octopus snuggling up to him, he felt some strange heat surge in his body.

Those hot currents are most vivid and intense before he falls asleep and when he wakes up, he will fantasize and look forward to the day when Crewe will finally become his own.How strange and sharp this impulse was, it became stronger day by day in his mind.

So he will also touch his own desires, and indulge the pictures in his head in some confused moments.Press down on the other party in the dream, and then one step ahead of reality, release the desire alone.

Not to mention Geraint, who didn't care about it before, but now just thinks about it like a stick in his throat.

He knew that the foundation between himself and Crewe was far inferior to that of the other party and Geraint. Once Geraint came back and even approached Crewe again, he didn't know what would happen.

Gawain hardly ever had the experience of being compared to others, and he didn't wish and dared not imagine how Crewe would feel in response if he chose between him and Geraint.

Because of this, he hoped that Geraint would not come back.He knew it was wrong and selfish, but he couldn't control his thoughts.

He withdrew his hand from Krewe's tentacles and looked away.

"...I can't say those words," Gawain sighed dejectedly, shaking his head helplessly—"but you should know me...I have thoughts about you."

Crewe got it.He could understand Gao Wen's implication, but he still wanted to confirm further.

He did not move forward, but kept a safe distance from Gao Wen.

The two stalemate for a while, and Crewe spoke again—"You sympathize with me as part of it, and you want to befriend me as another part. The combination of these two parts has strengthened your belief in making me your assistant. For this reason You don't even care that I ever-"

"I said no!" Gao Wen was a little annoyed, he didn't like Crewe talking about the topic so nakedly.

Crewe grew up, and he didn't know if it was because he had experienced bad things, but he was calmer and more mature than Gao Wen.

After Gao Wen roared, he immediately took a deep breath to calm himself down.

Crewe did not continue, but waited for Gao Wen to adjust himself.

Gawain put his hands on the desk, trying to clear his mind.He couldn't understand Crewe, he had already shown that he didn't care about that, why did Crewe have to distinguish sympathy and desire so clearly, why did he have to get to the bottom of the reason why he wanted him to be his assistant.

Those reasons are like intricate balls of thread, how can it be possible to clarify one by one.

Gao Wen pinched his eyebrows in distress, and when he raised his head again, he put on his usual serious attitude—"If you came here to tell me that you don't want to be my assistant anymore, it's no problem, I can bear it, as long as you sure."

TBC