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Ling Yao couldn't understand what Zhang Fan meant. He loved him for a long time?They knew each other before?

He searched for memories in his mind. If such a dazzling existence as Zhang Fan had appeared in his life, he would have no reason to forget it.

However, Zhang Fan refused to say anything more.He only looked at him with a pair of melancholy eyes, such a look made Ling Yao's heart twist into a ball, and this question was also buried in his heart.

Zhang Fan had treated him very well at first, but after the relationship between the two became clear, he wished to hold the whole world in front of Ling Yao and keep him in his pocket all the time.

Every time Ling Yao turned his head, he could meet Zhang Fan's focused gaze. At first he felt his cheeks were hot, but later he even wondered if Zhang Fan was staring at him every second.It binds him a bit, but he admits it's a sweet burden.

Ling Yao often feels that getting Zhang Fan's love is the luckiest thing.

Because Zhang Fan's love is without hesitation, he is wise and rational, but he will not distinguish between right and wrong in love, and has no principles.

When Ling Yao knew that his old friend who had alienated him in the company was fired by Zhang Fan, he felt very uneasy.

He knew that Zhang Fan wanted to give him all the care he could, but he didn't know that he would go too far. Even if they rejected him, these behaviors were insignificant to him. As a boss, he recklessly lost his job.

Ling Yao thought that Zhang Fan was gentle and polite to others, but it turned out that he was the only one who treated him like this.

Although it was too unfair... But as a lover, he was also delighted by this special and abnormality.

Their relationship heated up rapidly, and Zhang Fan's mood swings became more and more severe, as if he had released the previously suppressed feelings at once. Such a heavy love often made Ling Yao breathless, but he was willing to do so.

With such a comfortable life and mood, Ling Yao's feeling of being harassed by strange things disappeared. He thought he was getting better, but it was just the opposite.

When he was at work, he felt that his colleagues were treating him with great malice. The bad words he heard in the tea room, as well as the cold eyes and sarcasm towards him during the relationship, were like sharp thorns, making him back a little bit, for fear of being caught. Tied to.

Even though he became Zhang Fan's assistant, the scope of his work was greatly reduced, and he could almost avoid communication with other people, but he still felt that such malice did not only happen in the company.

The waiters I met when I went out to eat, the cleaners I saw when I came home from work, the salespersons in the mall... Their attitudes and eyes made him stiff. He suspected that they knew he was gay, and they would come up to him in the next second. insult him, hurt him.

In short, all communication will make him feel a deep sense of crisis.

He felt that he might be suffering from persecution paranoia, but he felt that his mind was still clear. Could it be a disease?

In desperation, he could only stop his activities outside and concentrate on recuperating at home. Zhang Fan was also very worried about his situation.

"Honey, are you in a bad mood?" Zhang Fan stretched out his palm worriedly, and gently stroked Ling Yao's cheek, his eyes were full of pity, but his emotions seemed to suppress excitement.

Ling Yao nestled in his arms, only hearing his concerned words, his heart warmed up, he smiled, rubbed the bruises under his eyes, and nodded.

After recuperating at home, the situation was not too good. At night, when he went to sleep, he was cold all over, his chest was heavy, and he often woke up sweating profusely when he dreamed back in the middle of the night. In order not to disturb Zhang Fan, he had to force himself to sleep again. Because he doesn't want to use any more drugs.

Even so, he began to remember things in a trance.

Even when Zhang Fan is not at home during the day, he always thinks that Zhang Fan is talking to him on the dining table or on the sofa. He babbled a lot, only to realize what he had done, and when he returned to normal Then I broke out in a cold sweat.

This is different from his previous situation. Before, he confirmed that he was not sick, but now, he is in a trance.

Ling Yao took the initiative to ask Zhang Fan to take him to see a doctor.

The doctor said that he did have mental disorders and diseases.

Zhang Fan seemed very angry at this time, or even if Ling Yao was sick, he didn't care.

Ling Yao finally accepted the fact that he was sick, and he did not give up on himself amidst the loss.

He just thought that even for Zhang Fan, he would get better soon.

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