Molu

In the book, the three years and five years are described in one stroke, and every minute and every second in reality is not endured abruptly.

Su Mo happened to meet Wang Qi more than once. Obviously, Wang Qi had already transferred to the study abroad department after Wang Qi taught Su Mo. In the past two years, Su Mo followed Xin Xin frequently and never met her as a vicious teacher. Only a few times Su Mo made a special trip to meet her.But why did Xin Xin start to attend classes here after the new campus was built, and Wang Qi, who shouldn't be here, started to come here.

Su Mo was caught when he carefully avoided Wang Qi again.

Wang Qi: Xiao Mo, why are you running?

Su Mo: No, you read it wrong, I didn't run away, I just didn't see you.

Wang Qi: Don't fool me, tell me, which classroom is Xin Xin in?

Su Mo: She is sleeping in the small classroom. She will have class later, so she will take a break when she is too tired.

Wang Qi: Xiaomo, how many times have I seen you come to accompany Xin Xin to class?

Su Mo: No way, it’s just a coincidence recently that you saw me when I came.

Wang Qi: Give up, you can't bend Xin Xin, she can't be straight anymore.

Su Mo: ... I know, I have known it for a long time.How did you see it?

Wang Qi: There is no student who is so kind to the teacher, accompany you to class, run before and after, buy water and food, I have bumped into you several times and still can't tell.

Su Mo: Teacher Zhou Peng, the English teacher who taught me in class with you has seen me many times, but he didn't notice.

Wang Qi: So the straight man can't see it, and he doesn't even think about it.she does not know?

Su Mo: You mean Xin Xin?She, you know.You can see it, why can't she see it.

Wang Qi: Then she just let you go?

Su Mo: What can I do then?I didn't show it on the surface, I didn't express my love, I didn't say any hints, she didn't believe that I would last long, and I didn't believe that it would last, how could she push me away?

Wang Qi: Su Xiaomo, you are quite scheming.If you don't say anything, she can't refuse. If you treat her well, she still can't bear it.

Su Mo: I also feel that I am scheming and relying on her side in this way.But she is going to get married anyway, I just want to keep more memories, so just treat me as selfish.

Wang Qi: You can give up or give up.I'm going to class, go back and find Xin Xin, she's going to class too.Bye-Bye.

Su Mo: Goodbye.

Su Mo quietly went back to Xin Xin's room, woke her up to let her go to class, put the water in her bag into Xin Xin's bag, put the tissues and wet wipes in a fixed place in Xin Xin's bag, After sending Xin Xin to the door of the classroom, she took her own things and took the car back to school.Neither of them spoke, and there was nothing strange about their natural behavior.

Back in the dormitory, Su Mo sent a message telling Xin Xin that she had arrived at school, and it didn't take long for the person to tell her that she knew.

It took Su Mo three years to let Xin Xin get used to her existence, and the two of them knew each other well and didn't break anything.Xin Xin relied on Su Mo's tenderness, and Su Mo was greedy for Xin Xin's warmth, as if everything in harmony should continue like this.

In the fifth year of their acquaintance, Su Mo was about to graduate, a bachelor's degree.Xin Xin is still alone, Su Mo is still single, and there are people chasing her, but Xin Xin has tried, and Su Mo still guards Xin Xin, never backing down even if Xin Xin persuades her.

Su Mo took the postgraduate entrance examination in this school. For two years, Su Mo still repeated his time in college, accompanying someone to and from class, and doing repetitive and boring experiments by himself. The two-year master's degree was too busy for Su Mo to cope with. Parents who started to care about her emotional life, Su's father and Su's mother could not accept a different sexual orientation from the public. No one would understand her parents better than Su Mo.

Su Zixi, who went to college, knew about Su Mo's sexual orientation in his senior year.Su Zixi, who started to go to college, did not have her old sister who deliberately concealed it, which enriched her understanding of the world, including homosexuality, something that had never appeared in her family.

In Su Zixi's perception, her elder sister has always been a "sister" rather than a "brother".After all, the older brother would not pull his younger brother by the hem of his clothes to act like a baby and ask him to pull her up the stairs, the older brother would not chase stars like a nympho, and the older brother would not tell him that a boy can cry if he wants to.The only thing that makes him suspicious is that the old sister has become more and more like a boy in junior high school after cutting her hair short, and she always jokes that she will bring him a sister-in-law back.

It's just that the old lady's short hair is indeed better than her long hair, and she looks like a child. It's better than long hair being recognized as an elder like his aunt, even if it was when he was a child.And it's even more unreliable to talk about bringing a sister-in-law. Every time my elder sister said it, the tone was full of jokes, even a child like him could hear it.

Su Zixi didn't remember something from a long time ago until her elder sister who was being hunted down was forced to say that she was asexual and would not like to marry.

At that time, he was still a primary school student, and his elder sister had reached puberty. Obviously other girls were drooling at handsome boys and became nympho, but this one of mine didn’t respond at all. I don’t even have a favorite male star, but I like more and more young ladies, from Super Girls and Fast Girls to Teenagers, from Tian Fuzhen to Guo Biting, from vernacular consonance to Chinese women’s volleyball team, if it weren’t for the past two years, I have already “gone old” "I don't have the energy to pursue stars, and I don't know how many young ladies' names my ears will be tortured by.

Now that I think about it, I searched again to understand, bullying him didn’t know anything at the time, and bullying my parents didn’t know anything, so it’s easier to say that I’m asexual than gay Parents accept, these two years have done a lot for parents' psychological construction, and parents have accepted the fact that you are not married because of your insistence.Didn't you ever think that your brother would see it?Are you so sure that your brother won't expose you?

When Su Mo found Su Zixi for a showdown, Su Zixi uttered all his questions in one go.Su Zixi looked at Su Mo who was sitting across from him, who was smiling wryly, and listening to her tell her story, she understood.

The one who knows his parents best is not their husband and wife, but his sister, and the one who knows him best is not their parents, but this old sister who watched him grow up.My parents can't accept that my daughter is gay, my elder sister can't be with the person she likes, and can't accept marrying and having children with a man who has no feelings. Parents accept it, singleism is easier to be accepted by this society than homosexuality.And he himself, even if he saw something, he would not say it to break the status quo maintained by his old sister.The fact that he has no feeling for his other half since college is just a foreshadowing for this result.

Su Mo, who was talking to his brother, didn't hide anything anymore. What happened between her and Xin Xin in the past five years, and the things he didn't understand, he explained clearly one by one.Su Zixi thought about Xin Xin, whom she had met a few years ago, and her older sister's vision was quite good, but it probably didn't work out.

But when his elder sister revealed to his parents that he had a girlfriend, Su Zixi only felt that his elder sister's ability to divert attention became more and more powerful, and his elder sister was really merciless when he cheated on him.

After finally taking his girlfriend to satisfy the curiosity of his parents, his graduate student turned around and went to Xin Xin after graduation. Su Zixi hated that iron could not be made into steel, but she could only follow her old sister who was not reassuring Go, there is no way, the younger brother who was raised under protection is used to deal with the aftermath.