seven days without love

Early the next morning, when Yuan Baopei woke up, Xu Haohao was facing the scenery outside his old window.

"Wake up so early, why don't you sleep a little longer?"

Yuan Baopei walked to Xu Haohao's side, put his arms around Xu Haohao's waist, and rubbed his head affectionately.

Xu Haohao pulled Yuan Baopei's arm away, turned around and said, "I should go. The reason why I waited until you woke up was because I felt that there was something that needed to be explained."

"Oh."

Yuan Baopei's right thumb trembled unnaturally a few times, and the smile on his face also gradually subsided.

"Forget everything that happened before, it's just drunk." Xu Haohao continued, "I remember, we have already broken up, and if we continue to entangle, it will not be good for anyone. We are all men, so we should break up when we break up."

"Then you go." Yuan Baopei's voice changed from the soft and comfortable tone just now to indifferent.

This time Xu Haohao was silent, and after a few seconds, Xu Haohao lowered his head and spit out the word "good".

After that, it was like stepping on an ice blade, every step fell heavily on the heart, Yuan Baopei didn't move, Xu Haohao felt that he became very strange.I said no more, no less, if I hurt people or not, but in front of me, it was like a scene in a movie, without any sense of reality.

In other words, there is no feeling of breaking up at all!

Close this door and maybe never see you again.Xu Haohao smiled, deliberately slowing down the moment when he was holding the doorknob.What is it like at this moment?

It's probably five or six cents short, right?

With a bang, the door was closed.

Xu Haohao was fixed between the door and his body by Yuan Baopei, staring into his eyes, as if he was about to breathe fire at this moment.

"It must be like this? What did I do wrong? You say I can change it. Why do you have to choose to break up? Don't you love me very much? You love me so much that you can pretend to be your brother. Why can't you continue to love me after you get it?"

Xu Haohao suddenly started laughing wildly, laughing so hard that he couldn't straighten his waist, laughing so hard that he couldn't stop his tears even after wiping away his tears.

"So, are you stupid or do you think I'm stupid? I'm not someone's stand-in! Yuan Baopei, who do you love, have you thought about it? You can't even tell who you love, see, Xu Xiaoxiao In the house not far away, the person who has lived in your heart for seven years is there, with the same face."

"It's you."

"Really? How dare you say it!"

Yuan Baopei took a step closer, grabbed Xu Haohao's arm, and shouted: "Do you have to talk like this? Is there only cynicism left between us?"

Xu Haohao shook off the grasped arm and shouted louder: "What do you want me to say, say I love you, I can't live without you! You know what it feels like when I see you and Xu Xiaoxiao together Is it? That's right, it's disgusting! Not only disgusting you, but also disgusting myself. Because it will remind me that you are just a means for me to take revenge on Xu Xiaoxiao!"

"What did you say?"

"Didn't hear clearly? Then I'll say it again, listen carefully." Xu Haohao tilted his body and leaned against the wall, looking a little indifferent, "I hate Xu Xiaoxiao, I have hated it since I was a child. Because of the same face, why should he Can I be loved by everyone? Because the birth of me was not smooth, and my mother almost died, so I don’t like me very much. Because I am introverted and weak, compared with Xu Xiaoxiao, I am even more dull. Others think Xu Xiaoxiao is not only excellent but also very innocent, but I think he is just stupid. Later, he went abroad, because he looked the same, and I took a break from school due to illness, so I directly impersonated Xu Xiaoxiao. Not only in school, but also in life. With Xu Xiaoxiao's stupid and hopeless expression. Because only in this way, other people's eyes will fall on me. When I am with you, I think of Xu Xiaoxiao at first when I see you, because you have both With a sense of superiority, the more I was like this, the more I wanted to pull you down. Later, Xu Xiaoxiao called me and told me that he was coming back soon. I mentioned that you can easily guess his thoughts from his reaction, So, in such a short period of time, the relationship was established... I knew how many times I went back and brushed my teeth after we kissed for the first time, before I could barely suppress the disgusting feeling..."

Silence, endless silence.

"I regret it...Xu Haohao" Yuan Baopei raised his head, covered his face with his right hand, and forced out a low voice as if his throat was crushed by something. "Why is it so easy to be moved, why is it so easy to soften your heart, so easy to let you in, and let you take root in my heart."

From between his fingers, Xu Haohao saw Yuan Baopei's covered eyes, and the cold pupils were filled with sadness.

Xu Haohao avoided Yuan Baopei's gaze, his heart hurt like it was torn apart.The strange thing is that the more you laugh, the harder you laugh.

"Enough talking, let's get out of the way. If you still don't let it go, I will stand here today and let you scold me until you let it go. There is only one chance."

Speaking of this, Yuan Baopei staggered his body, and in the short few seconds since Xu Haohao opened the door and then closed it, his eyes dimmed as if he had drowned.

"Xu Xiaoxiao's words, I can explain, but it's unnecessary now..."

It was quiet outside the door, Xu Haohao leaned his back against the wall and raised his head.

"As expected, I am a very human existence! I don't even feel like crying at all..."

Even he didn't realize it, or more accurately, he couldn't see his every move, so he didn't know how sad Xu Haohao looked like.It's just that the raised jaw is like a noble and elegant white swan's neck, but this high and high white swan is indeed a lonely shadow now.

Xu Haohao lowered his head, as if he breathed a sigh of relief, and said, "Does it hurt? It's okay, it won't hurt after a while. Do you hate me? If you hate me, keep hating."

Leaving these words behind, all that remained was a growing and elongated figure, and finally returned to calm.

At this time, most people are still in a state of sound sleep or about to wake up.

When Xu Haohao returned to school in a cold air, he seemed to have entered the courtroom of three trials.Xu's father, Xu's mother, and Xu Xiaoxiao's unhappiness on their faces was exposed... oh no, they didn't hide it at all.

Xiao Bai, Zhou Nizhou, and Zheng Yuxuan stood aside, not knowing what to do.

"Haohao, this..."

"It's okay, I'll take care of it. Don't you three still have classes? Go quickly."

Xiao Bai and the three hesitated to speak, but after all, it was someone else's family business, so it was not easy to intervene.

Xu Haohao didn't seem to see the dark cloud on Xu's mother's face, rubbed his hands together, and said with a smile: "It's getting colder and colder, it's going to kill me."

"So you still know that you are part of this family. I almost thought I gave birth to Xu Xiaoxiao's child."

"Is it a child?" Xu Haohao lowered his eyes and repeated in an inaudible voice, "It is really a child, and I hope it is one. I have been begging God for several years, and it seems to have some results recently."

"What are you muttering all by yourself? Where did you go yesterday? Without saying a word, the whole family is going crazy, especially your brother. What's wrong with you? You don't answer the phone, and you can't find the dormitory..." Xu The father's tone was quite normal, but still with a bit of blame.

Xu Haohao explained: "I went to a friend's house and stayed for one night. I don't know where I lost my phone."

Since the smile couldn't hold on anymore, Xu Haohao simply stopped pretending.

"Xu Haohao, what's your attitude? I'm your mother, and I can't say a word about you?"

"Didn't you say that there is only one child? Here, where is your son?" Xu Haohao pointed to Xu Xiaoxiao who had stood aside without saying a word since Xu Haohao entered the door, and grinned at Xu's mother, feeling very unworthy of a beating.

"Xu Haohao!" The anger in Xu's mother's eyes soared.

"Okay." Dad Xu said, "Don't talk too much."

After Xu's father taught Xu's mother a lesson, he turned to Xu Haohao again, "Your mother is just an angry word, you are a big man, you have to be tolerant, and you care about your mother who gave birth to you and raised you for 20 years. What can I get out of it?"

Xu Haohao shrugged, "I've said these words for so many years, don't you get tired of them?"

"Okay, since you said you are a classmate, male or female? Next time, remember to hide the hickey on your neck."

Xu Haohao looked at Xu Ma's eyes without any concealed disgust, like looking at the flies crawling in the garbage dump, yes, they were flies.

Xu's mother's aggressiveness, Xu's father's silence and connivance, and Xu Xiaoxiao's hesitation to speak.

All of a sudden it seems to be a stranger, who is this?Can not remember.

"What's wrong with you?" Xu Xiaoxiao was silent for a long time, seeing his pale face, asked.

"What can he do? He's a taekwondo practitioner, and he's in good physical condition. Xiaoxiao, you're too thin. Mom plans to make you fatter."

Xu Haohao glanced at Xu's mother, rubbed his temples and said, "It's okay, I'm in good health. I'll remember to hide it in the future. If there's anything else I need to say, can I finish it all at once? I'm very sleepy."

Xu Haohao issued the eviction order, but the objects of the eviction order were indeed the three people who were supposed to be dearest.Parents and brothers, close relatives by blood.It is said that tiger poison does not eat its eggs, and blood is thicker than water. To Xu Haohao, this is really an indescribable irony.

"Xu Haohao!" Xu Xiaoxiao grabbed Xu Haohao's collar and punched Xu Haohao's face, causing Xu Haohao's face to be deflected.

Xu's father and Xu's mother were stunned when they saw this scene. This was the first time that Xu Xiaoxiao was so angry that she even moved her hand.

"Is this what you should say to your parents? Xu Haohao, you're a fool, can't you tell who is good to you? You disappeared for a day, everyone was in fear, and almost went to the police to call the police. And what are you doing, romantic It's too much fun to think about leaving!"

Xu Haohao shook off Xu Xiaoxiao, touched the place where he was beaten, and said with a sneer: "You said it so politely, don't you still want to ask if it was him who had the relationship with me, right? I can tell you the truth, yes, I just robbed your beloved. Not only did I use his obsession with you to occupy your position. Now, even his body is mine..."

"You..." Xu Xiaoxiao was extremely angry, her bloodshot eyeballs were much scarier than usual.

Xu Haohao smiled, he has done so much drama of brotherhood, what is he worried about?he?or him?

"How about me? I still want to beat, come on, aim here, temple. Guaranteed to die in one blow. After death, everyone will be out of sight and out of mind. Mom, don't you just want a child? I don't give it to you Isn't it nice to be ashamed?"

Language is a sharp weapon, which can hurt people invisible if you don't pay attention.What's more, the person who owns this weapon is a relative whose blood is thicker than water.

When she was a child, Xu Xiaoxiao was a mischievous person. When eating, she always had to be chased and forced to eat half a bowl of rice.

What you can't get is the best. Every time Xu Xiaoxiao runs in front of him, she always pesters him and says "give me a bite" over and over again.

"Give me a sip?"

It's not impossible to give a bite of rice.It's just if you can be tactful, if your attitude is not so tough.Because he looks good, because he doesn't make noise, or maybe because he doesn't say "I'm hungry."

So he was often the one who touched his still empty belly and watched his mother walk away holding his elder brother's hand, and the elder brother still held his small rice bowl in the other hand.

"Mom is right. Xu Xiaoxiao has been envied since she was a child. Without me, he might be... great... I'm afraid I won't be able to pay him back in this life. I owe him a lot. But, I never I don’t regret doing this. That’s my instinct as Xu Haohao, not a puppet playing Xu Xiaoxiao! But I’m a human...but none of you remember that I’m a human..."

Freezing three feet does not happen in a day, and the reason is clear.But there are always people who are constantly adding salt to the wound, making the wound worse.What can Xu Haohao do?How can we smile at this world? In the tolerance that no one has taught, fester and pus will start to fester in the bottom of my heart.

"Unreasonable! I think you are crazy, when will you calm down and when will you get out!"

"Yes... I'm crazy, what are you doing with me, a lunatic?" Xu Haohao mocked with a smile.

"Xu Haohao, who gave you the courage to talk to your mother like this, she lost half her life when she gave birth to you, and your conscience was eaten by a dog?" Xu's father was also angry at this bastard Xu Haohao Roll up your sleeves and want to smoke someone.

"Dad." Xu Haohao took a deep breath, "I like husband and mother Xu, but I don't like father and mother Xu. I can't stay in this family..."

"If you can't stay, get out. I've raised you for 20 years, and in exchange for saying that you can't stay any longer. If you can't stay, get out. I don't have the right to be your son!"

……

A farce, just so unhappy.

Xu Haohao took off his clothes and shoes, lay on the bed and fell asleep until Xiao Bai and the others came back from class.