how should love continue

Rubbing his sore and swollen temples with his feet, he let out a long breath.Taking care of Atobe is really not an easy task.I don't know how Tezuka survived those two years. I have exhausted my physical and mental strength after only two days.Compared with Tezuka, he is really not suitable to be a doctor.Doctors, you must always maintain a normal mind, never mix too much personal feelings, and look at life and death calmly, and you have never been able to do this.At that time, choosing medicine was nothing more than Tezuka's decision plus his father's expectation. In fact, what Ninzuzu had always wanted to study was business. The reason was very simple. He just wanted to help Atobe manage the family business, but in the end...

Rather than saying it was his father's insistence, it was better to say that he clearly saw the ending of Tezuka and Atobe, and he didn't want to repeat the same mistakes, so he chose to avoid it.Perhaps, the choice between Tezuka and Atobe was already made at that time, wasn't it?It's just that I, who was still immersed in the light of Atobe, didn't realize this at the time.I don't want to delve into anything further, I just want to go home quickly and sleep with my lover Meimei, and then tomorrow will be another beautiful day.Thinking about it, there was a warm smile on the corner of his mouth, and his brisk steps in the corridor of the hospital late at night seemed particularly abrupt.

"Doctor Renzu?" The voice of the little nurse on duty expressed a touch of love shyly.

"Ah?" Shinobu, who wanted to go home, didn't pay attention to the other person's expression, but he, who has always been a gentleman, strives for perfection even when he loses his composure, so he put on an elegant smile instantly.

"The dean asked me to tell you that the chairman of Atobe will entrust you."

"Huh? What does that mean?Could it be that the reaction speed of staying in the intensive care unit for two days has slowed down?Renzu didn't understand what the little nurse meant for a while.

"Dr. Tezuka resigned, and the dean said that you will be the attending doctor of Chairman Atobe in the future."

"What? Resign? Why didn't anyone tell me?" The question was almost hysterical, and the empty office echoed disproportionately.What kind of image, what kind of gentleman, go to hell, Shinozu Yushi felt an ominous premonition in his heart.This is definitely not a joke, definitely not Tezuka's impulsiveness, then it's just... I dare not think about it, afraid of thinking about the thought that scares me.

"Dr. Tezuka came this afternoon. You were in the intensive care unit at that time. He stood outside the window for a while and then left. At four o'clock, the dean called you to the office. I informed you that at that time..." At that time I was worried about the situation because of Atobe's shortness of breath, so I didn't go.Could it be... the hands that were put in the pockets of Renzu were already turning white.It was the first time for the little nurse to see such a gloomy Doctor Ninja, and she also became timid when speaking.

"I see."

Renzu didn't know how he got home, he just felt as if his body had been emptied.The hand holding the key has long been soaked with sweat, and I have been reluctant to open the door for a long time.I used to look forward to the feeling of going home. Every time I entered the door, no matter how late it was, I was greeted with the phrase "You are back" and a table of delicious meals.At this moment, I don't know if I can bear this bone-biting loss if I push the door open and there is no shadow of the past.But what should be faced will eventually be faced.Pushing open the door, the room was really quiet.There is no lover's shoes on the shoe cabinet, it would be a lie to say that he is not disappointed, but he reassures himself that Tezuka may have gone out and will be back later.So I changed my shoes and went into the bedroom.The bed is still the same, the sea blue sheets are so pure, just like Tezuka's feeling for himself.The photo frame on the bedside table fell over, this guy, there will be such a careless time?Shaking his head helplessly, he walked to the edge of the bed and sat down, then wiped the frame of the photo carefully, straightened it, and nodded, this is the original appearance.

Finally went home, fell on the bed, closed eyes.Shinobu seemed to smell Tezuka's unique green tea smell.I really don't know how the guy who deals with disinfectant water all day maintains this light and long-lasting fragrance.Thinking of every silent night, Tezuka lying under his body, the moonlight shining on his porcelain-white skin, the air filled with the fragrance of his fresh bath, tossing and turning again and again, time and time again charming, comforting He caressed his tired body and soothed his dry soul.Although on the surface he has been taking care of Tezuka all the time, but in fact Shinozu clearly knows that it is Tezuka

I am accommodating myself.It’s not that I don’t know how many times I called out Atobe’s name in □□, it’s not that I didn’t know how many times I got drunk and forced Tezuka, it’s just that the wrong beginning is doomed to the wrong ending, so I can’t love , let alone love.

Tezuka, where have you been?Not only my body, but also my heart misses you every minute!Renzu realized that just thinking about it like this made him unable to restrain himself.So the appointed person got up and was about to take a shower, but found that the corner...was gone?My mood was aroused, all desires disappeared immediately, and I rushed to the closet, and sure enough, it was half empty!Hehe, Shinobu feels like being in Siberia, even the bones are freezing, let alone the body.

After leaving, the thing I was most worried about finally happened.It turns out that you finally decided to leave!Maybe you never wanted to stay, or why was that suitcase never put away?Are you always ready to leave?No matter what I do, you still have to go?Tezuka, I remember you told me that your heart is dead, from the day when we parted ways, I said that your heart is not dead, but asleep, and one day it will wake up, and now Come on, you... your heart is really dead, because you have no love, so you have no regrets and discarded your shoes, so you can walk so freely, and even spare me a few words.

Sure enough, you are no longer the little boy who curled up on the sofa and cried on a rainy night. You really have the courage to face the future alone, but what should I do?If the relationship with Atobe back then could still be strangled in the cradle because of my own foresight, then the feelings for you have long been integrated into a part of my life, how can you treat me like this?Hehe, I don't seem to have the position to blame you, because I have never told you love, nor made promises to you!If there is, it is only in love, right?How can you blame me if you are a completely s*** product, and then when you realize what you said, you put Atobe’s name at the end of the sentence?In fact, we are all cowards in the emotional world, you chose to give up, I chose to escape!

The mobile phone rang untimely, and Mozart's "Requiem" was the exclusive ringtone for hospital calls.Although Ren Zuzu's current mood can be described as terrible, the doctor's sense of responsibility still forbids him to indulge himself, which is similar to Tezuka's accident. "Hello?" The voice lost its usual luster. "Doctor Ninzuzu, Chairman Atobe is awake. He is clamoring to see you!" The boulder entrenched in Ninzuzu's heart seemed to be removed at once, "Since I am awake, there is no problem, right? I am off work now, and I have something to do tomorrow Let's talk!" Just as I was about to hang up the phone, I heard a loud voice, and I couldn't help frowning. "However, Chairman Atobe is throwing a temper tantrum and refusing treatment, and we can't help it." How could Renzu not understand the difficulties of the little nurse, since childhood, the young master did not know that there was still Keigo Atobe on the earth Impossible. "I'll be there right away!" Then he hung up the phone.

Tezuka, Atobe woke up.Don't worry too!Ren Zu tidied up hastily, and drove back to the hospital.