the world in which he exists

About ten minutes ago?Or how many 10 minutes ago?

Gu Chaoming couldn't determine the time, but he was sure that the person in front of him must be the strange person he saw in the teaching building not long ago.

It was still the same white baseball cap. Before, it was only a few floors away, but now the distance has been shortened to less than one or two meters. Gu Chaoming can clearly see the logo and English letters embroidered with black thread on his hat.

The baseball cap was very clean, without a speck of dust, as clean as the man's eyes, hiding behind the frame, looking at Gu Chaoming with a little frightened but still clear and bright eyes.

His eyes are beautiful, and the flickering eyelashes can make the eyes watery. This is what Gu Zhaoming discovered after seeing him for the first time from such a distance.

It's not how prominent his eyes are among the facial features, but that Gu Chaoming can only see his eyes on his tightly covered face.

The light blue disposable mask is still on, and the bridge of the nose props up the mask to cover the lower half of the face.The brim of the baseball cap protects the entire face from the afterglow of summer, and the black-rimmed glasses block the clear eyes.Everything builds a city wall to defend his face, cover his face, and resist the attack of other people's sight.

It was also the reason why he covered his face too tightly so that only his eyes could be seen. Gu Chaoming stared at his eyes carefully, only to find that the black-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose had no lenses.

Not nearsighted?A doubt flashed in Gu Chaoming's mind.

In fact, when the man turned around and looked at him, Gu Chaoming had already run through countless questions in his mind.

Who is this person?

Wearing a mask at school?

From our school?

Gu Chaoming didn't ask a single question, but stopped and looked at him with some doubts.

The white-capped weirdo held Gu Chaoming's small yellow flower on the barbed wire in his hand, and looked at him in the same way.

Two teenagers who didn't know each other looked at each other across the rows of dark greens on the side of the boulevard, silent to each other, and the summer wind passed through the middle.

Not far away, there were people training on the playground, people staying in the cafeteria were eating, there were still fans not turned off in the classroom, and a leaf fell from a tree by the side of the road.

After staring at each other for a few seconds, Gu Chaoming's gaze slid from the face of the white-capped weirdo along his white T-shirt to the yellow flower between his fingers.

Pure white meets bright yellow.

Sensing the shift of Gu Chao's gaze, the white hat weirdo looked down at the little yellow flower in his hand, and followed Gu Chaoming to turn his gaze back to the other's face.

It's like a game of eye-chasing.

Looking at each other without words, Gu Chaoming felt that he didn't like to talk to strangers, but Su Bing always said that he had a particularly big deviation in his perception of himself.Su Bing seems to be right, if there is, let it be, the person opposite has not spoken, so let him end this embarrassment.

Not knowing the person opposite him, not even knowing what he looks like, and having no entry point, Gu Chaoming made a draft in his heart, and in the end he only said an embarrassing and polite "Hello".

The white-hat weirdo on the opposite side responded with a nod concisely, and then there was no response.

Gu Chaoming: "......???"

This conversation can't go on at all!

Faced with such a person who couldn't continue chatting, Gu Chaoming chose to show a polite smile, pointed to the little yellow flower in his hand and said, "Do you like this kind of flower? There is such a flower in the flower garden of the parking shed."

The other party was still speechless when he heard his words, and just nodded.

Gu Chaoming's polite smile and accosts were given to Xia Feng who passed through them.

Gu Chaoming felt that his embarrassment could not be blown away even by Xia Feng.

Although the eccentric white hat only nodded in response to Gu Chaoming's question, it didn't make Gu Chaoming feel that he didn't want to talk to you or deal with you casually.

I don't want to pay attention to you, nodding like nodding casually, and there is impatience and disgust in the eyes, but this boy doesn't have it.The teenager stared at him and listened carefully to what he said, but only responded with a nod.

Gu Chaoming didn't understand him a bit, but he didn't seem to have any malicious intentions. The only eyes he showed were not perfunctory or impatient, but another kind of thing that Gu Zhaoming couldn't understand.

I don't understand, and Gu Chaoming didn't care.

Gu Chaoming thought that he didn't like talking to others, but he didn't expect that after the other party nodded in response twice today, his mood has not been destroyed.

There is still a difference between myself and the man who would be furious if he didn't answer three sentences, and I am not like him at all.

Therefore, Gu Chaoming actually got a little peace of mind.

Perhaps it was because the boy opposite had no hostility or disdain, and the sudden sense of peace of mind gave Gu Chaoming the mood to continue asking him: "Are you from our school?"

The boy shook his head first, then nodded.

Um?What does it mean?Yes or no?

Gu Chaoming's doubts were written on his face: "What does it mean to nod and shake your head? You can't speak?"

The boy rolled his eyes, hesitated, and pointed to his throat.

Gu Chaoming asked suspiciously: "Can't speak?"

The young man nodded.

Gu Chaoming let out an "oh".

It turned out that it was wrong to blame others.

Gu Chaoming felt that the young man on the opposite side was in a state of nervousness and fear since he turned around and saw him. The young man paid special attention to every movement he made. Zhang Yuan.

Looking at his attire and his reluctance to interact with others, Gu Chaoming thought of a word "social phobia".

"Do you have social phobia?" Gu Chaoming asked.

He saw the boy's mask move slightly, he should have opened his mouth and made no sound because he couldn't speak.

The boy's eyes were always rolling and thinking, so that Gu Chaoming wondered if he was too embarrassing.

Afterglow and evening wind are both urging time to move.

"Aren't you going home?" Gu Chaoming took out his phone to check the time and then looked at the person, pointing in the direction of the school gate, "It's getting late, so I'm leaving first?"

Sentences with doubts have positive meanings.

The boy nodded again, Gu Chaoming grinned at him, turned around holding the phone.

After walking a few steps, Gu Chaoming felt something strange behind him. It was strange that someone was staring at him from behind. He couldn't help but look back and found that the other party was still standing there looking at him.

Gu Chaoming smiled at him, stepped back and raised the hand holding the phone to wave goodbye to him, then turned and continued walking towards the main gate of the school.

Saying goodbye to the strange boy, walking to the teaching building and seeing the small yellow flowers blooming in the flower garden, Gu Chaoming couldn't help smiling when he thought of the boy, he was quite interesting.

The good mood from chatting with the strange boy didn't last long.Sitting on the bus home, Gu Chaoming looked at the constantly changing familiar street scene outside the window, feeling like a color card with gradual changes. The closer he was to home, the darker the color was, and it was already a color card when he got off the bus and walked into the community the darkest color.

Gu Chaoming was like a loyal prayer in the car, making a wish in his heart to a god who didn't know whether it existed or not.

Wish that man not to go home, don't go home, it's best if there is no one at home.

So day after day.

When he was in junior high school, he had hoped that the bus would drive slower, and then slower, so that he could get home later and see the devil later, but the bus would still stop after all, and he still couldn't escape.

When he walked downstairs to the unit he lived in, Gu Chaoming didn't go upstairs but turned around and turned to a canteen not far away.

The unique simplicity and clutter of the canteen, the small room is divided into two.The big one has mahjong tables, and the remaining one sells things, which is a bit of a reversal of priorities.

The mahjong players left very early today, usually until the early hours of the morning and sometimes even all night. When Gu Chaoming walked in today, he didn't hear the usual sound of the group of people in the mahjong room playing cards with rough voices.

There are various snacks hanging on the wall of the canteen. Aunt Cheng tore off a pack and gave it to her children to satisfy their cravings.

"Go find your dad."

After sending the child away, Aunt Cheng turned around and saw Gu Chaoming entering the store, with a slightly more smile on her face than the people in the same corridor seeing him.

"School is over? It's a bit late today." Aunt Cheng said kindly.

Gu Chaoming didn't answer her question, and asked directly: "Did my dad have any credit today?"

Aunt Cheng treats him well, his father has always been on credit, last time he was drunk and smashed the window glass of the canteen with a chair, Aunt Cheng didn't give him any face, but it was also because he lost money every time.

As the saying goes, if the old does not go, the new does not come.The canteen house is old and full of old things. There are four mahjong table chairs with different materials on each table.The only window in the commissary was so dirty that it was hard to see the outside scene clearly, and it had already turned a dim yellow, while the newly replaced one could still show people's shadows.Aunt Cheng even watched Gu Chaoming's father go crazy and break the old glass one day. Gu Chaoming came to lose money and just exchanged for a pair, which was worth it.

"Your father is very impressive today." Aunt Cheng said.

Gu Chaoming heard the meaning of Aunt Cheng's words, and Aunt Cheng continued: "I drank and walked crookedly today, but this time I saved you some money and didn't break anything."

Aunt Cheng seemed a little regretful when she said it: "I just lost money playing cards, choked up a few words with other people in the corridor, and almost got into a fight, but was stopped."

"Your dad bought a pack of cigarettes on credit today." Aunt Cheng pointed to one of the various cigarettes lined up under the glass counter.

Gu Chaoming looked down at the counter and took out the whole money in his pocket.

Looking for the change, Aunt Cheng sighed, not knowing whether it was true or not: "This man is really miserable. How can such a sensible child like you have such an unreasonable father?"

All kinds of scandals about Gu Chaoming's father have been spread in this extremely old neighborhood, almost everyone knows about it.

Facing Aunt Cheng's words, Gu Chaoming stood there quietly without responding, with a baseball cap covering half of his face, his whole figure was like a silent black gas.

After Aunt Cheng finished looking for the money, Gu Chaoming stepped out of the store, pocketed the few remaining coins and walked into the corridor.

The old and dilapidated corridor looks like it has been around for a long time. It is an old man in the building or an old man suffering from a disease.The walls are mottled with mold spots, which are age spots on the skin of the elderly.There are small advertisements printed in some places, lockpicking, infertility, gas, hemorrhoids... you can think of everything you want.The handrails were also corroded to the point where you could see the hollow rust inside, and the corners of the corridor were either garbage or unused waste items.

As soon as the wind blows, the smell of dilapidation fills the nostrils.

The dilapidated and dark corridors and the upcoming home made Gu Chaoming gradually slow down, as if he wanted to hide in the corridors and disappear into this world.

Stopping in front of a door, the TV inside the door was noisy. Gu Chaoming took a deep breath and took out the key to open the door.

The sound of an old-fashioned door lock being turned is followed by the sound of a comedy sketch on the living room TV.It should be funny, I don't know if it was post-production or real laughter from the audience came from the TV.

The TV was turned on loudly, deafeningly, filling the entire living room, hitting the eardrums relentlessly.The house's sound insulation system is purely based on these few walls, which is almost non-existent, and the sound of the TV is a bit disturbing.

The loud and disturbing TV sound did not disturb the man who leaned on the sofa and snored with his head up. The snoring and the loud TV sound also complemented each other, and the sound of drums and gongs together made people feel uneasy.

The man's snoring was so loud that it was doubtful that even if the train passed by his ears, he could continue to sleep as if nothing had happened, and the strange thing was that he could wake up precisely when Gu Chaoming entered the door. Which magical land did you practice this skill.

Maybe it was the smell of being able to pay him, so he woke up naturally.

People like Gu Tao are only so sensitive to money.

Gu Tao just woke up and opened his eyes when he saw Gu Chaoming pushing the door and coming in without making a sound. When Gu Chaoming entered the room and put down his schoolbag, and cleared up the beer bottles on the table skillfully with a blank face, he turned horizontally as if he had just seen him enter the door. Smiling at the thick flesh on his face, he spoke kindly and asked him like an old father who had missed his son for a long time: "Are you back?"

Gu Chaoming erected the fallen wine bottle on the table, as if he had never heard of his father's "kind" greeting, without saying a word, he took out a few paper towels from the paper box and swept the fruit shells on the table into the trash can with the paper towels .

The sound of the TV rang in his ears, Gu Tao watched Gu Chaoming tidy up the mess left by him, he didn't even want to take a seat, sitting on the sofa, he suddenly reached out and took off the black baseball cap on Gu Chaoming's head.

"What hat do you wear at home?"

The baseball cap that had been worn all day was taken off, and the unhealed scar covered by the cap was exposed to the alcohol-smelling air, ferocious like a thorn, and lying on Gu Chaoming's forehead like a young snake.

Gu Chaoming stopped cleaning up suddenly, and a trace of disgust appeared on his expressionless face.

He snatched the baseball cap from Gu Tao's hand and put it back on his head.

"What happened to the scar on your forehead? A fight?"

Gu Chaoming put on his hat. His scars are too ugly and terrible. He doesn't want others to see them, so as not to be talked about by others. He can accept it no matter how hot the weather is or how itchy the wound is.

This is the reason why he insisted on wearing a hat every day in the summer, and was told by the class teacher that he would not take it off.

He told Old Chen, "It's coming soon."

When the scar is healed, it will be removed naturally.

This injury was caused by Gu Tao when he was drunk, and hit the furniture, but Gu Tao himself forgot, so he was ashamed to ask.

Gu Chaoming was not in the mood to bring up old matters with him. After cleaning up the living room, he picked up the remote control and turned down the volume of the TV on the floor that was going to be bombed.

Open the kitchen window, wash the dishes and put them on the chopping board. All the dishes my mother likes are prepared.

While cutting cucumbers, there was a movement in the living room.Even with the windows open, the kitchen is still stuffy and hot. You don’t need to look back to know what’s going on in the living room. The speed of cutting cucumbers can’t help but increase. Fortunately, Gu Chaoming’s knife skills are good. The sliced ​​cucumbers are still thick and even.

The voice lingered in my ears like a curse, and finally stopped, leaving only a few retches.

In the end, Cucumber could not escape the fate of becoming two pieces.

Gu Chaoming couldn't stand it anymore.

Gu Chaoming has been trying to restrain his rising irritability and anger amidst Gu Tao's vomiting. The suppressed emotions finally condensed on the blade of the kitchen knife, burst out on the chopping board, and poured out endlessly.

The kitchen knife was vented and slashed on the chopping board, and the chopping board shook loudly.

Gu Chaoming strode out of the kitchen, the kitchen knife behind him stood on the chopping board like a guillotine, waiting to bite someone's head.

The small living room was filled with the smell of vomiting. Gu Tao's undigested vomit was on the coffee table, the floor, and even the sofa that had just been cleared.

Gu Chaoming stood in the disgusting air, looking at the scene in front of him, just panting for breath made him feel sick.

The air was suddenly compressed and pulled away, and the blood was terribly cold.The nauseating smell, like a poisonous virus, made him want to escape, but where could he escape?

In the ten years since his birth to the present, Gu Chaoming has faced such a scene countless times, and his experience of more than ten years is enough for him to know how to quickly deal with the continuous vomit from his father's mouth.

Gu Chaoming brought a broom and rag, put on a mask and gloves, and was fully armed like a hotel cleaner, but he felt that wearing this outfit on himself was more like a criminal dealing with a crime scene after a crime.

And the person he was going to kill got up from the sofa without any injuries. After vomiting like a common meal, he took off his dirty coat and threw it on the sofa, and walked half-shaky back to the bedroom to prepare for sleep.

The living room was not lit, and it was gloomy, and the setting sun could not enter the room because the doors and windows were closed.Gu Chaoming stood in the living room like a log. Taking advantage of the brightness from the kitchen, he looked back at the man's hunchbacked figure. He bent his fingers hard, and the wet rag was caught into a ball, and the water droplets fell on the floor.

tick, tick...

Like the sound of blood dripping.

Gu Chaoming's eyes were sharp, and a trembling chill oozes out in the darkness, like a snow leopard staring at its prey in a strong wind in the middle of the night. air instead of the smell of vomit in the living room.

Everything is illusory, until Gu Tao walked into the room and closed the door, Gu Chaoming stared at the closed door in the dark for a long time before putting away the cold hostility in his eyes, and slowly turning his head to face reality in front of you.

The filthy vomit on the coffee table still exudes a disgusting smell, which cannot be blocked even through a mask.

Outside the window, the setting sun and night were changing, and the living room was gray and quiet, like a mime that had just begun.Gu Chaoming wanted to take a deep breath and get some fresh air to let himself breathe, but all he breathed was the disgusting smell that filled the living room.

Even normal breathing has become so difficult.