the world in which he exists

As usual, Gu Tao still didn't come back the next day after he went out.

At night, after Gu Chaoming cleaned up the room, he took a shower to wash off the dirt on his body, changed into clean clothes, lay on the bed and squinted his eyes.Tired, fell asleep soon.In the morning, I dragged my unrested body to get up.The phone alarm clock rang, and Gu Chaoming sat on the bed in a daze. Yesterday, Gu Tao wiped his tears like a dream.Feeling some pain in the head, Gu Chaoming still turned off the alarm clock and got up, and did not continue to sleep for a while.

Today is Saturday and Gu Chaoming has to go to the supermarket to work part-time.

After a simple wash, Gu Chaoming stretched his neck towards the mirror, and checked the injuries on his face on the most complete mirror in the mirror that was broken into spider webs, to see if there was any disfigurement.

There are signs of swelling around the eye sockets. I couldn't keep my eyes open yesterday, but I feel better today. I hope the swelling will subside by Monday. Gu Chaoming doesn't want to be chased and questioned by Lao Chen.

After hastily finishing breakfast, changing clothes and going out, the rickety bus Gu Chaoming almost fell asleep in the car, but the swelling feeling in his head prevented him from falling asleep.

Have a cold?Or was Gu Tao injured in the head?Looking at the ever-changing scenery outside the car window, Gu Chaoming thought, Gu Tao didn't hit his head yesterday, he should just have a cold.

Walk into the supermarket and start a day of guard duty.Standing behind the cash register, Gu Chaoming put the items on the cash register into bags one by one.

There are more people in the supermarket today than usual, and there is even a small queue.After working for a while, I finally saw off the last guest.

The swelling pain in his head still exists, and the music played in the store is not too boring, which can rest Gu Chaoming's painful nerves.

The sensor door of the supermarket opened again. Gu Chaoming was not feeling well. He sighed tiredly, raised his head but said to the store door with a smile on his face: "Welcome."

Looking up and seeing the person coming, Gu Chaoming said in surprise: "Why is it you?"

"How did you come here?"

"I have something to do here." Lin Jianfan said.

"Oh." Gu Chaoming replied, he didn't want to know what happened to Lin Jianfan coming here, it was someone else's private matter.

"Aren't you in a hurry?" Gu Chaoming asked.

Lin Jianfan shook his head: "No rush, I'm done."

"Oh, that's it." Gu Chaoming said.

Someone wanted to pay, Lin Jian Fan retreated to open the seat.Gu Chaoming is at work, so staying here by himself seems to be in the way.He hesitated whether to tell Gu Chaoming that he should go first, but seeing Gu Chaoming's eyes were swollen and bloodshot unnaturally, Lin Jianfan looked at Gu Chaoming's swollen eyes with concern and did not say that he would go first.

After paying the customer's bill, Gu Chaoming glanced at Lin Jianfan next to him, and found that Lin Jianfan was staring at his swollen eyes, Gu Chaoming turned his face away warily.

Gu Chaoming wished he could cover his swollen eyes with his hands. When he saw Lin Jianfan's eyes looking at his wound, meeting his dark eyes, the phone rang again last night.

His mind was full of bloody thoughts, and Lin Jianfan was warned by the ringing of the bell.

Looking into Shanglin Jianfan's eyes again today, Gu Chaoming recalled the bloody, own crimes that he didn't want to recall anymore.

The ringtone is in my ear, and the person who dialed that ringtone is in front of my eyes.

Can Lin Jianfan see through his flesh and blood the filth and sin in his heart?Gu Chaoming knows that everyone can't do it, but every time he is always shocked, he can always think that they can do it on the basis of self-awareness, and then deny himself.

Seeing that Gu Chaoming turned his head to look at him without saying a word, Lin Jianfan boldly stepped forward and asked with concern, "Are your eyes okay?"

Lin Jianfan didn't know which pot he was carrying, which pot to lift, and where to step on landmines.

Gu Chaoming begged Lin Jianfan to leave him alone, but Lin Jianfan still spoke.

"Nothing." Gu Chaoming replied coldly.

Gu Chaoming didn't want to say "don't worry about it" to Lin Jianfan directly. His words were a little hurtful. Gu Chaoming hoped that Lin Jianfan could notice it from his calm tone.

Maybe it was too difficult for Lin Jianfan to notice, Lin Jianfan still cared: "How did you do it?"

"I fell it myself." Gu Chaoming said.

Lying without drafting, Gu Chaoming said it casually, how could it be possible to fall like this.

Gu Chaoming didn't know whether Lin Jianfan really believed him or if he heard that his lies were not exposed.

Lin saw Fan's concerns one after another: "Did you go to the hospital?"

"It looks painful."

"Let's apply the medicine."

"........."

Lin Jianfan looked like he genuinely cared. Gu Chaoming couldn't tell whether he was flattering or caring, but the feeling that someone cared was really... quite good.

Like last time in the hospital.

It was Lin Jianfan who was waiting outside the hospital last time, and it was Lin Jianfan who cared about him now.

The mother doesn't want to be by herself, and the father who doesn't want to stay with him wants to stay by his side.

Now he was truly abandoned.

Regardless of whether Lin Jianfan genuinely cared about him or pretended to please him, Gu Chaoming was willing to believe it once.

Regardless of whether he was deceived by Lin Jianfan, it's just this time.

Just once.

Same as last time, when Gu Chaoming heard Lin Jianfan asking incessantly in his ear, and Gu Chaoming heard "the joke the hospital doctor told him", Gu Chaoming laughed and couldn't help it.

He was still working, and the smile in his heart turned into a polite smile to the customers.

Lin saw that Fan was still staring at his swollen eyes.Lin Jianfan's gaze was naturally gentle without any impurities.

After paying the bill for a customer, Gu Chaoming accidentally turned his head to meet Shanglin Jianfan's gentle eyes staring at him.

Gu Chaoming was never a person who would shrink back after making eye contact with others, he would only go one step further, but Lin Jianfan was not.

Seeing Fan's eyes on Gu Chaoming, Lin's first reaction was to move away, but he was worried about Gu Chaoming's injury.

While hesitating, Lin Jianfan heard Gu Chaoming ask: "Do you like me?"

Gu Chaoming couldn't tell whether Lin Jianfan genuinely cared about him or pretended to please him, and Lin Jianfan couldn't tell how much of Gu Chaoming's words were jokes or seriousness.

Seeing that Fan automatically regarded this sentence as 100% serious, with a shocked and surprised expression on his face, he slowly replied: "...No...No..."

"Then why do you care about me so much?" Gu Chaoming asked with a smile.

The latter sentence is a joke enough to prove that the previous sentence is also 100% a joke.

Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan, and Lin Jianfan sighed for some reason.

Maybe he was frightened by his words, Gu Chaoming thought, who would suddenly ask if he likes it or not.

"Hahahaha..." Gu Chaoming smiled, and patted Lin Jianfan's arm with his hands, "Don't take it seriously, just kidding. Do you think that if we play with Cen Xili, we must be like Cen Xili?"

Seeing Fan shaking his head, Lin Jian said seriously and solemnly: "No, it doesn't matter even if you are the same as Cen Xili."

Hearing Lin Jianfan's words, Gu Chaoming gave him a meaningful look: "Don't you hate it?"

It had been a while since Lin saw Fan's transfer. He had heard the gossip in the class, and Wu Shan also told him about these things after he helped him pick up books and became friends.Lin Jianfan didn't want to hear Wu Shan say these things, he didn't believe Wu Shan, he didn't refute or agree with Wu Shan's words.

Lin Jianfan shook his head again: "Actually, I...um..."

"You?" Gu Chaoming asked back, a hypothesis flashed through his mind.

Gu Chaoming was straightforward, and his mouth often ran in front of his head, and he said casually: "You won't be the same as Xili, right? You changed schools for this reason?"

God knows how much Gu Chaoming regretted saying these thoughtless words, if you want to ask, don't ask so casually, it's too embarrassing.

Lin saw that the frozen doubts on Fan's face clearly explained that Gu Chaoming's thinking was wrong. Gu Chaoming immediately smiled and apologized for his words: "Sorry, I just had a twitch."

"It's okay," Lin Jianfan said lightly, after a moment of silence, he said lightly again: "That's not the reason why I transferred schools."

Seeing that Lin Jianfan's tone had softened, Gu Chaoming thought that Lin Jianfan had some ulterior secret when he turned around.Gu Chaoming cautiously asked in order not to poke Lin Jianfan's pain: "Then why did you transfer to our school? Can you tell me?"

Lin Jianfan looked at the cautious Gu Chaoming and smiled calmly, as if Gu Chaoming's exaggerated caution caused him to smile.

Lin Jianfan said with a smile, "There's nothing I can't say, the reason for my transfer is so common that it couldn't be more common."

"Why is that?" It doesn't matter if you see it, Gu Chaoming continued to ask.

"It's just because of my dad's job transfer." Lin Jianfan said.

"That's it."

The supermarket sensed that the door opened, and a large number of customers walked in. Gu Chaoming interrupted the conversation with Lin Jianfan, and said welcome to the customers who came in.

Seeing so many people coming in, Lin Jianfan didn't want to disturb Gu Chaoming any more, and told Gu Chaoming that he had left beforehand.

The sun was soft today. Lin Jianfan was wearing a hooded jacket, with the soft ends of her hair exposed. Gu Chaoming looked at the back of Lin Jianfan's thick hair.

Seeing Fan turning his head back, Lin rolled up his watery eyes and laughed, "Then I'll go first."

"Okay." Gu Chaoming nodded.

The supermarket's automatic sensor door sensed Lin Jianfan's presence and opened. Lin Jianfan turned his head. Gu Chaoming raised his arm and waved to Lin Jianfan. Standing behind the checkout counter, he looked at Lin Jianfan's back.

Lin saw Fan's back melting into the autumn light.

Gu Chaoming didn't want to bring the swollen eyes to school. He heard from Su Bing that ice packs would help, but it seemed to have little effect.

In the afternoon after Lin Jianfan left, Gu Chaoming continued to work in the supermarket, and Su Bing came to see him in the store.

Gu Chaoming felt that both Su Bing and Lin Jianfan were very good at picking their time.He was beaten by Gu Tao yesterday, and the two came to care for his injury in the morning and afternoon in batches the next day.

Su Bing didn't know what happened last night, he came to the store just to chat with Gu Chaoming.Seeing the injury on Gu Chaoming's face, Su Bing was surprised and said, "Damn it, Gu Shuai..."

Su Bing looked at Gu Chaoming's face and asked with concern: "Your father hit you again?"

"Isn't this a common thing?" Gu Chaoming didn't seem to care much.

He doesn't want to convey his negativity to others.

"Tsk tsk, it hurts me just looking at you," Su Bing couldn't bear to look directly at the swelling on Gu Chaoming's eyes, "Have you taken any medicine? Do you want to go to the hospital?"

Gu Chaoming said casually: "It's nothing serious, just a little injury."

"By the way, aren't your parents divorced? Why don't you go with your mother?" Su Bing asked.

Su Bing, like Lin Jianfan, came to the supermarket to look after Gu Chaoming on the same day, and he also picked which pot was not opened at one point.

Gu Chaoming lied: "My mother is not stable yet, I don't want to follow her."

Su Bing was puzzled: "Your mother is not stable, that's better than following your father."

Gu Chaoming didn't speak, Su Bing thought of a good idea, and went to Gu Chaoming's side: "Your father is terrible, why don't you stay with me for a few days?"

Su Bing looked at Gu Chaoming expectantly with trembling eyebrows.

Gu Chaoming glanced at him, and said on his face: "Do you think it's possible?"

Su Bing said: "Of course it's not my house. I can find you a house. We two brothers live together. It would be great if we could call Shangxili again."

"Xili's family will definitely not agree." Gu Chaoming said firmly.

Su Bing sighed: "Xili's family is the same, I want to scold You Xin again."

"Curse it, scold it." Gu Chaoming said.

"I want to say that it would be nice for the three of us to live in the same house for a few days, or go on a trip." Su Bing still didn't give up the idea of ​​traveling that was rejected at the beginning.

Gu Chaoming snorted and said, "You have a good idea, your father will arrest you in a few days."

Su Bing lay on the shelf and watched Gu Chaoming put the goods: "It's good to think about it."

As Gu Chaoming expected, the swelling on the eyes did not disappear until Monday, but it was not as swollen as the previous two days, but it still looked obvious.The pain in the head basically disappeared after waking up after sleeping, but the swelling in the eyes did not go away.

After brushing his teeth, Gu Chaoming stood in front of the washing mirror, scratching his eyelids, no matter how he looked at it, it was obvious that he couldn't hide from Lao Chen's fiery eyes.

Old Chen in the morning reading class really noticed his swollen eyes at a glance, frowning, walked to his desk and knocked on his desk.Gu Chaoming understood what Lao Chen meant, put down his book and followed Lao Chen out of the classroom.

The injury was on the face, Gu Chaoming couldn't cover it no matter what, he received a lot of attention in the morning, and was called out of the classroom by the head teacher, and the classmates who read early in the class also sent him off with attention gifts.

"What happened to his eyes?" The classmates whispered to each other.

In the classroom corridor of the morning reading class, Lao Chen also asked the same question as that classmate: "What happened to your eyes?"

Gu Chaoming did not answer directly, nor did he explain the reason, but just said casually like he did to Su Bing that day: "It's nothing."

In Lao Chen's eyes, Gu Chaoming's way of saying nothing was very similar to asking him when he would take off his hat at the beginning of school, and he said it would be too late.

It is true that her grades are improved, but her temper and speaking attitude are really the same as before.

"Nothing can make this happen?" Lao Chen asked with his hands behind his back.

Gu Chaoming didn't speak, Lao Chen approached and carefully checked his swollen eyes: "Does your family know?"

Gu Chaoming: "..."

Gu Chaoming still didn't speak, and Lao Chen knew at a glance that his family definitely didn't know about it, so he put his hands behind his back and said sternly, "I want to notify your parents."

As soon as he heard that the parents were to be notified, Gu Chaoming said in a hurry: "Brother Chen, don't, I'm going to fight, don't tell my parents."

Gu Chaoming didn't want to trouble Qu Yingyi to go to school, and if Qu Yingyi knew that he was injured, unnecessary things would definitely happen again.Gu Chaoming thought for two days, since Qu Yingyi couldn't take him there, let her live her own life there and stop having anything to do with Gu Tao.

As for myself, I can always get it done if I take one step at a time.

Gu Chaoming didn't want Qu Yingyi to come to school, and neither could Gu Tao.Leaving aside whether Gu Tao can find someone, if he really comes to the school, he doesn't know what will happen.

Both of them, Gu Chaoming, didn't want them to come, and Gu Chaoming, the parent meeting after the midterm exam, also tried to escape.

Lao Chen looked at Gu Chaoming who didn't want to tell his parents. Gu Chaoming didn't explain the real reason. According to his personality and eye injury, most people would think that his injury was caused by a fight, and Lao Chen inevitably thought so.

Old Chen persuaded earnestly: "Look at your face, you don't want your little life. How long have you been studying hard? You ran to fight again..."

After being lectured by Lao Chen, Gu Chaoming felt relaxed. When he walked into the classroom, he found a plastic bag from a large pharmacy on his desk.A plastic bag with the name of a large pharmacy is filled with various anti-swelling drugs, and there is a bag of snacks beside the plastic bag.

Medicines and snacks, Gu Chaoming suddenly remembered the band-aids Lin Jianfan made last time.

It was this "local tyrant" routine again, Gu Chaoming didn't want to accept it, and wanted to return it to Lin Jianfan.

Cen Xili, who was beside him, saw Gu Chaoming staring at the snacks and medicine on the table, and explained, "My mom gave it to me."

Seeing the surprised expression on Gu Chaoming's face again, Cen Xili asked, "What's wrong with you?"