the world in which he exists

Gu Chaoming had never faced an exam so seriously, as if he was facing a formidable enemy. Even for the senior high school entrance exam, he would forget it after the exam in a daze.The first mid-term exam since studying hard, Gu Chaoming doubled his review the day before the exam, Lin Jianfan also sent a message asking him what he didn't understand, and gave him tutoring at night.

The night before the mid-term exam, Gu Chaoming had video one-on-one tutoring with Lin Jianfan for the first time.Lin Jianfan explained to him, and Gu Chaoming listened carefully.Gu Chaoming felt very lucky to get the first-in-grade full-time tutoring for free, and was also lucky to be in the same group as Lin Jianfan at that time.

Came to the school with a feeling of apprehension, and met Lin Jianfan who had tutored him last night in the corridor, and Lin Jianfan cheered him on.

During the exam, Gu Chaoming didn't have much confidence in his mind. He walked into the classroom with the prepared test equipment, but he didn't have any confidence in his mind, but he had the momentum to do something big.

I have never felt that the exam time is so tight before, I always look up at the clock on the blackboard in the classroom, and write one stroke at the last moment. An exam usually ends with Gu Chaoming lazy.

I met Lin Jianfan outside the examination room many times who was not taking the exam on the same floor. Seeing him passing by the window, Gu Chaoming stopped him to chat.Asked how he came here, Lin Jianfan explained that a friend he knew had an exam in this building, so he often came down, and asked Gu Chaoming how he did in the exam, and whether he had confidence in the [-] points.

Gu Chaoming shook his head: "I don't know if there is."

"I think there must be." Lin Jianfan said with a smile standing in front of the corridor railing.

Gu Chaoming leaned against the railing, put his hands on the railing, tilted his head to look at Lin Jianfan who was smiling, and said, "I would like to borrow your good words."

Let me borrow your blessings.

Maybe Lin Jianfan is really the most favored son of Goddess of Luck, so that just Lin Jianfan said to Gu Chaoming, "I think there must be", has such a great power of luck.Gu Chaoming only said "I'd like to borrow your good words", and he really borrowed his luck from Lin Jianfan.

Once again, he waited for his results with anxiety. The teacher in charge of the last test corrected the papers quickly and the test papers were small. Gu Chaoming only suffered from waiting for the results for one day.This midterm exam is a big exam, and the waiting time is naturally longer than a normal exam.

Su Bing advised him to relax and not be so nervous.As the waiting time elongated, Gu Chaoming's unbearable nervousness was eroded by time into a daily unease.

Finally, the day when the grades were announced, Gu Chaoming came to the school early, and as soon as the grades were released, Su Bing immediately came over to inform him, and took him to the bulletin board to read the grades.

Gu Chaoming was reluctant to be dragged by Su Bing at first, fearing that if his grades were not satisfactory, he would be hit and devastated, so he really had to laugh at himself.

Gu Chaoming once thought that if his grades were good enough, he would call Qu Yingyi, but if his grades were not good, then forget it.Gu Chaoming regards the mid-term results as a bet, and also as a reward or punishment.

As soon as the results were released, there was already a circle of people around the bulletin board.Gu Chaoming stood in front of the bulletin board and searched for his name. Naturally, he would not overpower his ability to search from No.1. He decided to search from the end.Most of the people gathered around the top [-] to discuss, while Gu Chaoming, Su Bing, and Cen Xili stood at the end of the bulletin board, but it was quiet.

Gu Chaoming passed by the top [-] people around, glanced lightly, and Lin Jianfan's name once again topped the list.

Gu Chaoming was not surprised at all, and walked past after a glance.

When Lin Jianfan came down to see the results, Gu Chaoming hadn't found his name yet.Seeing that Fan walked up to Gu Chaoming, Gu Chaoming saw that it was him, pointed to the top 1 crowd in front of him and said, "Why are you here, you are No.1, you can see it from the outside of the crowd No. [-]."

Seeing that Fan didn't reply, Lin only blinked his eyes.

Gu Chaoming was looking for his name in front of the bulletin board. He didn't hear Lin Jianfan's reply, so he looked back at Lin Jianfan: "That's right, you guys who often come first are used to it, so you don't need to look at the results."

"No..." Lin Jianfan said.

There is a big tree behind the bulletin board, with thick roots and luxuriant branches and leaves. Sometimes it will stretch out the branches and leaves to caress the bulletin board accompanying it.Under the dense tree branches, many students gathered under the tree after each exam to look for their results.

A piece of branch was missing, and Gu Chaoming happened to be standing under the vacant branch.Gu Chaoming pulled Lin Jianfan over to look at the grades: "Come on, if you have nothing to do, help me find my name."

Under the light of the desk, the phone screen displays the contact page.The word "Mom" will always exist on the darkened and brightened phone screen.

Gu Chaoming has been holding the mobile phone with both hands for a long time, since he walked into the room to study after eating.

In the living room just one door away, Gu Tao was turning on the TV, drinking his small wine, and eating the dinner prepared by Gu Chaoming.

Gu Tao was at home today, and Gu Chaoming opened the door with a key, and the fruit shell confetti on the coffee table secretly reported to him that Gu Tao was back.

Gu Chaoming lay on the desk with his arm pillowed on his side, the desk lamp was a bit dazzling, and Gu Chaoming lit up the darkened phone screen again.

The word mother appeared on the screen again.

Gu Chaoming stared at those two words for a long time, but still didn't have the courage to press them.

He did well, unexpectedly.Su Bing helped him find his name among the dense scores on the bulletin board, as excited as if a scientist had made a major discovery that changed mankind.

Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan, and Cen Xili ran over together, Su Bing grabbed Gu Chaoming's neck and said, "Okay, Gu Shuai, 318, I got a Goddess' Day exam, next time I'll get a 618!"

"My Goddess' Day is 38, okay?"

318 exceeded his goal by 18 points, which was enough to satisfy and excite Gu Chaoming.Several people stood in front of the bulletin board to congratulate Gu Chaoming, and people passing by frequently cast curious glances.

The extra 18 points were enough to satisfy Gu Chaoming, but not enough to support Gu Chaoming's courage to call Qu Yingyi.

Gu Chaoming lay on the desk and lit the dimmed screen again. He suddenly sat up and turned his head to look at the closed door.The loud sound of the TV outside the door squeezed in desperately through the crack of the door.

Gu Chaoming had a faint anticipation in his heart, a faint anticipation to raise the impulse under the lamp.Turn on the dimmed screen and look directly at the glare of the lamp tube.The glare of the light scorched the eyeballs, burning Gu Chaoming's desire and impulse to escape.

Gu Chaoming removed the stool, took out the suitcase under the bed, opened the zipper and started packing.

In the dark, he suddenly had the confidence that his mother would call him soon and take him to his new home.Perhaps it was the confidence given by the extra 18 points that made him so convinced.

Gu Chaoming, who dared not call Qu Yingyi, began to pack his luggage, his old life, and run towards his new future.

Before the luggage was confiscated, the dazzling desk lamp on the table and the light from the overhead headlight disappeared in an instant, and the loud TV sound outside the door also left together.

The world fell into silence and darkness.

Halfway through the packing, the power went out, which seemed to be a sign of something, and Gu Chaoming felt a bad feeling in his heart, and the burning impulse was extinguished by the overwhelming darkness.

Filling the darkness of the room, the sound of the door lock turning, which is necessary in horror movies, appeared in Gu Chaoming's room.

Gu Chaoming stood behind the unclosed suitcase and stared at the sounding door lock, his heartbeat gradually accelerated as the door lock turned.

The door was opened, and the silver-white light of the flashlight jumped from the open door onto Gu Chaoming's body in the darkness.

Gu Tao is the controller of the light source.Gu Tao leaned against the door frame, and the flashlight swept across Gu Chaoming's body, across Gu Chaoming's messy room due to packing his luggage, and finally landed on the unclosed suitcase in front of Gu Chaoming.

Gu Tao leaned against the door frame and looked at Gu Chaoming's unclosed suitcase and smiled: "Your mother will take you away with that thing? Wait for the next life, she can't even handle it by herself."

Gu Chaoming didn't know when Gu Tao found out that he was packing his suitcase, and when Gu Tao knew that Qu Yingyi was going to take him away under his cover-up.

Gu Chaoming didn't believe Gu Tao's words, Gu Chaoming didn't refute in the dark night, he believed that Qu Yingyi would take him away, and Qu Yingyi promised him.

Gu Chaoming was full of determination and trust, and he said to Gu Tao who was holding the flashlight: "She will definitely take me away, get out of here."

Gu Chaoming looked at Gu Tao with firm eyes, and Gu Tao laughed: "Hmph, how capable do you think your mother is, it's okay to be a mistress, but it might be difficult to drag such a big oil bottle."

Perhaps the genes of violence and irritability are really inherited. Gu Chaoming persuaded himself not to talk to Gu Tao, not to get angry, but his impulses controlled his brain.

Gu Chaoming stood behind the suitcase and roared: "My mother is not a mistress!"

"What's your attitude?" The only beam of silver-white light in the room disappeared, and the shards of the flashlight shattered beside Gu Chaoming.The flashlight let out a last wail, and the silvery-white light disappeared, leaving only the faint moonlight outside the window and the two people standing inside the window.

Gu Tao's eyes widened suddenly, the eyeballs were yellow and bloodshot, it was the appearance of a demon in Gu Chaoming's sleep dream when he was a child.

When Gu Chaoming was a child, he often dreamed of Gu Tao, a demon with angry eyes.The devil laughs and scalds the arms of disobedient children with cigarette butts, the devil laughs, the devil gets angry, and the devil looks like Gu Tao.

In the dark, Gu Chaoming thought of his childhood dream, his primitive fear.When he was a child, he was afraid that demons would take him away. Gu Chaoming, who grew up to 17 years old, feared that he would turn into another demon like Gu Tao and take Gu Tao away.

The fear of leaving with great difficulty came to my heart again, the fear of my father since I was a child, and the fear of my own humanity.

Gu Chaoming was afraid, but the fireworks still did not go away. He insisted, "My mother will definitely take me away."

Get out of here, get away from you demon.

Gu Chaoming didn't know where he touched Gu Tao's nipples, Gu Tao came over and overturned his suitcase.The clothes, books, gifts from Gu Chaoming's cherished Qu Yingyi, and the photos he kept in the suitcase were scattered all over the place in the darkness by Gu Tao's action of overturning the suitcase.

After overturning all of Gu Chaoming's things on the ground, Gu Tao stepped on the photo frame that Gu Chaoming had dropped on the ground: "You fucking go with that bitch, I'll see if you can go, if you dare Go, believe it or not, I broke your tendons and made you crawl to school, believe it or not?"

Gu Chaoming pounced on like a young wolf, trying to push Gu Tao away and stop his trampling behavior, but Gu Tao kicked him on the ground.

Gu Chaoming lay on the ground clutching his stomach, watching the frightening Gu Tao trampling on his luggage at will under the moonlight, as if he was destroying his future life and his hope.

Gu Chaoming was afraid because he knew that Gu Tao dared to do this.

Gu Tao had done this before, he pressed his mother to the ground and beat her face covered in blood, after being reported by him, Gu Tao burned the back of his hand with a cigarette butt and warned him that if he dared to call the police again, he would kill him.The burning cigarette burns the skin, and the scar on the back of the hand hurts again after many years in the flooding night. Gu Chaoming will never forget the pain of that day.

The sound of glass shattering, the sound of Gu Tao's shoes stepping on broken glass, Gu Chaoming knew that the photo frame he put in his suitcase was crushed by Gu Tao.

The sound of glass shattering raged in Gu Chaoming's ears, ravaging and killing his last consciousness and moral bottom line.

Gu Chaoming got up slowly amidst the sound of Gu Tao's trampling, and leaned his back against the bed, his eyes were like a wolf in the snowstorm, searching the room for something that could be used to fight back.

Hitting with a stick or stabbing with a sharp object, Gu Chaoming looked at the crazy Gu Tao, thinking where he would die, so that he would not be able to resist anymore, so that he would not destroy his life and future. .

Bloody thoughts filled Gu Chaoming's brain, and the cell phone beside the table rang like an alarm, frightening Gu Chaoming's mind to violent thoughts.Under Gu Tao's rage, Gu Chaoming slowly moved to the table and took the ringing mobile phone on the table.

Gu Tao was in a rage, and Gu Chaoming was afraid that it was Qu Yingyi who called, and he was afraid that Gu Tao would receive the call.

Gu Chaoming took the phone, not Qu Yingyi, but Lin Jianfan who accompanied him today to search for his name on the bulletin board.

Seeing this name, Gu Chaoming was startled suddenly, even more shocked than seeing Qu Yingyi's phone call, as if Lin Jianfan was by his side, looking at him.

There is a sense of your own ugliness being exposed in broad daylight.

Gu Chaoming was terrified, as if his dirty thoughts of trying to get rid of Gu Tao were discovered.

Gu Chaoming panicked, his chest heaved, he ignored Lin Jianfan's phone, hoping it would stop ringing, but it still rang.

Second sound.

Before Gu Chaoming could hang up, Gu Tao threw his suitcase on the ground.The room was in a mess, the photo of him, Su Bing and Cen Xili at the sports meeting was torn into pieces, the clothes were torn by the mad Gu Tao, and the glass of the photo frame reflected a faint off-white light under the moonlight.

After receiving the photos from Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming insisted on giving him the money to launder the photos. After returning home, he carefully selected a favorite group photo, framed it in a photo frame, and placed it on the desk.I packed my luggage and wanted to take the photos to my new home.

Gu Chaoming stared at the shattered glass on the ground, the ringtone was still in his ears, Gu Tao went crazy, and started beating him again, Lin Jianfan's ringtone matched the sound of Gu Tao's fist hitting his body.

Gu Chaoming used his arms to protect himself, but Gu Tao's fist still hit his nose bone, and he experienced the feeling of You Xin being punched by Su Bing to make his nose bleed.

One side of the eye is swollen, and even tinnitus occurs.

Buzzing, sharp, the combination of red and black in front of my eyes.Gu Chaoming couldn't open his eyes, but he could see Gu Tao's fists constantly waving at him.

He remembered that night, his mother was beaten by Gu Tao in the same way, and he begged bitterly that night.

Gu Chaoming was lying on the ground, feeling the pain from the raindrops hitting his body, and he saw himself kneeling on the ground in a corner of the room.

He is crying, he is begging.

Amidst the painful rain and the sharp beeping in his ears, for some reason Gu Chaoming could still notice that the ringing of the phone had stopped. He didn't know why he could still notice this when his body was in such pain.

Just let him stop.

Being slapped by Gu Tao again, Gu Chaoming felt his whole stomach churning, he was kicked by Gu Tao just now, maybe some important part was kicked, but he felt sick but couldn't vomit out, he could only cough.

In the dark night, Gu Chaoming couldn't see the blood that he was coughing up. Lying on the ground, Gu Zhaoming saw the photo of him with Cen Xili and Su Bing thrown aside, and the photo with a bright and beautiful smile was full of broken glass.

Gu Chaoming took advantage of the slowing speed of Gu Tao's fist and immediately got up, and he vomited out of such a big movement.

Gu Tao took the opportunity to grab him, Gu Chaoming shook off Gu Tao, with a bitter taste in his mouth, vomit residue on his body, and a very uncomfortable stomach.

Gu Tao still wanted to hit him, but Gu Chaoming was in pain, he pushed Gu Tao away with all his strength, his stomach churned and pushed Gu Tao out of the door.

Gu Tao lost his footing and fell to the ground, with the coffee table not far behind him.Gu Chaoming looked at Gu Tao who was lying on the ground rubbing his head and thought: "It would be great if I used more force, then Gu Tao's head hit the coffee table, he might die, and I can get rid of him completely."

But that way he would also bear a life, the life of his own father.

Gu Tao didn't get what he wanted, so he got up anyway.Standing at the door of the room, Gu Chaoming saw Gu Tao standing up and immediately closed the door subconsciously to prevent Gu Tao from entering, locked the door, and blocked the door with his body.

Gu Chaoming's chest heaved violently behind the door, he was as afraid of Gu Tao coming in as he was in the kitchen when he was a child.

He blocked the door, and for some reason in the dark suddenly cried out in fear.

There was still a dim light in the kitchen that day, but today it is only accompanied by the silvery moonlight and the devil kicking the door outside.

The door panel was shaking, and Gu Chaoming could feel Gu Tao's strength through the door panel.

He was afraid in his heart, afraid that the door would open, the most primitive fear in his heart since he was a child.

The door of the room was not kicked open, Gu Chaoming heard the sound of Gu Tao walking away through the door panel, and heard the sound of him going to the kitchen to get a knife.

Gu Chaoming is like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered.

Gu Chaoming shivered behind the door like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered. He was scared, extremely scared, and his hands shook violently.

The door panel vibrated and debris fell.The door panels were forced to leave huge scars one after another, exposing the sawdust inside.

The door panel was in pain, and he groaned. The kitchen knife in Gu Tao's hand didn't care about the wound on the door panel and the groan. The sound of the kitchen knife hitting the door panel would only make him more excited.

The kitchen knife collided with the metal door lock, and the kitchen knife in Gu Tao's hand let go of the scarred door panel in the dark and pointed at the metal door lock on the door.

"When I open the lock, you will be next."

All kinds of swear words gathered, and Gu Tao started kicking the door again.

The sound of the kitchen knife slamming on the door, and the sound of the kitchen knife slamming on the lock, is the death song of the night, Gu Tao's life-threatening soul.

Gu Chaoming had no choice but to take the mobile phone on the ground and dial his mother's number, hoping that she would come to save him.

Cai Knife cooperated with the crazy demon outside the door, and Gu Chaoming prayed for his mother to answer the phone quickly inside the door.Tears fell on his arms, Gu Chaoming didn't know why, tears fell down, and he greeted the cold female voice after countless "beeps" on the phone.

"Sorry, the number you dialed is temporarily..."

The voice of the mechanical female voice was cold, and Gu Chaoming laughed after hanging up the phone behind the door panel of the room that kept making violent noises.

In the dark, he smiled.

He used to study hard to impress his new father, and it turned into a joke, which was ridiculous.

I am like a big joke.

Gu Chaoming, who was beaten, felt abandoned by his mother.

He was afraid, trembling, and his body ached, and the memories of the past came like a wave.His flesh was scalded, the humming in his head, the cold female voice beside his ears, and the sound of Gu Tao slamming the door made him shout: "I was wrong, I was wrong."

Gu Chaoming didn't know where he was wrong, he just repeated this sentence, hoping that Gu Tao would let him go.

"I was wrong."

Tears flowed into his mouth, Gu Chaoming didn't know what it was like, he just kept repeating that I was wrong.

Face full of tears, trembling pleading.

Gu Tao finally didn't cut down on the door again, he stopped and cursed: "Son of a son of a bitch, if you don't hit you, you don't know who I am."

Gu Chaoming was still saying, "I was wrong."

In the cold and ruthless darkness, Gu Tao broke open the door lock and dropped the kitchen knife in his hand. Gu Chaoming heard the sound of the kitchen knife falling to the ground.

Gu Tao opened the door, walked into the room, and saw Gu Chaoming in the room, whose face was full of tears under the moonlight, and hugged him with both hands.

Gu Chaoming was very scared, afraid that Gu Tao would hit him again, but he still knew that he had to get the kitchen knife off the ground first.

Before Gu Chaoming had time, Gu Tao had already knelt down, sighed, and roughly wiped away the tears on Gu Chaoming's face with his hands.

The sudden warmth after the terrible violence made Gu Chaoming almost tremble and back away, Gu Tao roughly wiped his tears and said: "You are still crying like this, you are still a boy, shame on you!"

Gu Chaoming wanted to refute that he was only seventeen, not eighteen, but he didn't open his mouth, he was still in the shock and disbelief of Gu Tao's sudden warmth.

Gu Tao patted Gu Chaoming's face and said, "Silly boy, do you trust your mother so much? What's so good about your mother? Trust her in everything."

Gu Tao smiled and stood up, ready to leave, walked to the door frame, turned his head and said to Gu Chaoming: "You don't even think about why your mother didn't take you there for so long, but just talked about it. She had already I gave up your custody rights. Anyway, our family doesn’t have much money, and she doesn’t want anything. I only want your custody rights. After all, you are the only son. She agreed to divorce me immediately, and lied that she wanted to take you there. Maintain the image of her as a good mother in your heart. Think carefully about who treats you well."

After speaking, Gu Tao smiled again, went to the living room, opened the door and went out.

The door closed, and Gu Chaoming in the room sat on the ground for a long time without moving.

Undoubtedly, Gu Tao's words before leaving hit him not ordinary, but a thunderbolt, without leaving any room, directly burned his world and his expectations to nothing.

Together with him, burn to death.

Qu Yingyi was really procrastinating, there was no news for a long time, Gu Chaoming also doubted it, but he chose to believe, for 17 years, he believed that Qu Yingyi was the best person to him, and also the person he should protect at all costs.

Is what Gu Tao said true?Can you believe it?Are the words uttered from Gu Tao's mouth believable?Gu Chaoming actually knew that his heart had begun to waver, but he still chose to deceive himself, saying to himself: "Gu Tao is a liar, my mother would not do this, she will take me away, she said. "

Gu Chaoming heard the sound of Gu Tao going out, and leaned against the door panel to calm down.

He was in pain and uncomfortable, and the mess all over the floor reflected the moonlight.He waited for the pain to subside before standing up and tidying up the things messed up by Gu Tao on the ground.

Mother said she would take him to a new home, he would get out of here, he would just have to wait.

Gu Chaoming picked up the group photo in silence, his fingers were cut by broken glass, and blood stained the photo, Gu Zhaoming wiped it off with his hands, but found more and more rubbing.

He took a tissue and wiped the photos first, then wiped his hands, wrapped his hands with a tissue, and put the wiped photos into the suitcase.

The chest felt very stuffy, and suddenly vomited out again, unprepared, and vomited in the room, and the chest didn't feel stuffy after vomiting.

There was a strange smell in the room, the smell of vomiting, which was often smelled from Gu Tao.

Gu Chaoming opened the window to breathe, and continued to pack his things. The tissue in his hand was stained red with blood, but he didn't care. He picked up the clothes on the ground and put them in the suitcase.

He didn't know if Gu Tao would come back, but he believed that his mother would take him away, as his mother had said.

Qu Yingyi would not lie to him.

His mother would take him away from this demon, he always believed that this was the reason to support him.

Gu Chaoming tidied up and heard the bell ring again, thinking it was Lin Jianfan again.

Gu Chaoming felt annoyed, picked up the phone and looked - it was Qu Yingyi.

In the dark, Gu Chaoming walked to the window holding his mobile phone. The air outside the window was much fresher than the vomit inside.

The moonlight is very bright tonight, and there are many stars. Gu Chaoming looked up at the starlight in the sky, and Qu Yingyi's voice came from the phone into the night outside Gu Chaoming's window: "There is something wrong here, Zhaoming, you... I I may not be able to bring you here, and my mother also..."

Looking up at the starry sky, tears gathered in his eyes, Gu Chaoming didn't allow them to slip down, and pretended to be okay and said to Qu Yingyi: "It's okay, I didn't really plan to go anyway, my luggage was taken away."

That moment, that moment, in the night he seemed to fall into hell, he seemed to be abandoned again, it was ridiculous.

The moonlight was so cold that he saw darkness descend and stars fall.

The feeling of being powerless is like being sentenced to death by the god of death, and seeing hell in the next moment

"Welcome back," said Hell.

After hanging up the phone, Gu Chaoming stood by the window for a long time until Lin Jianfan called again.

Gu Chaoming didn't answer the first time, but Lin Jianfan's stubborn temper made him play the second one.

Seeing Lin Jianfan's call, Gu Chaoming was very irritable and didn't want to answer his call.

The tone of answering the phone was also very aggressive: "What are you doing? There is something wrong..."

After being yelled at by Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan was quiet and didn't speak.

After Gu Chaoming cursed a few words, he found that he was as furious as Gu Tao.He shouldn't be like this to others, shouldn't be so out of control.

Gu Chaoming suddenly realized, softened up and said to Lin Jianfan: "I'm sorry, just now... I mean... um... something happened to me... I didn't get angry with you... um..."

Lin Jianfan replied softly, "It's all right."

Gu Chaoming asked, "What do you want from me?"

"It's all right." Lin Jianfan said.

"Oh, it's okay, I'll hang up first."

Gu Chaoming doesn't want himself to get angry with irrelevant people anymore, and doesn't want himself to be like Gu Tao again.

He hung up the phone directly, and hung up the possibility of getting angry with Lin Jianfan.

He closes the window, shuts off the night outside the window, shuts off the starlight falling all over the ground.